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Dear Self,
In this season of turning inward, reassessment and rejuvenation, it’s time to clarify a few things. So let’s take a deep breath, settle in, and share a moment.

First, to my dear precious Body: yes, I know things have been difficult for you these last several years. Heck, this whole lifetime has been rough. I remember (and so do you) the struggles and pains you’ve had in other lifetimes, but for sheer ongoing pressure this one pretty much beats all. And yet here you are, still chugging along and doing your best day after day. How I love you for that.

The funny thing is, my Mind always thought you needed help and guidance. It didn’t trust that you could manage, I guess, for it was always coming up with new ideas and trying to impose someone else’s latest cure-all notion on you. And, for whatever reason, I let it. In fact, in my eagerness to move forward, sometimes I kind of forgot about you, dear Body. I expected you to keep up with me, regardless of what else was going on, and amazingly you have! You’ve always done your best to manage all the crazy stuff I ask of you. What I sometimes forgot was that instead of sporadic and often conflicting instructions, what you really needed was my trust and love. Well, here it is, one hundred percent. Better late than never, right?

Another funny thing is that, while I really want to do this enlightenment/transfiguration thing with you, until very recently the fact that you’ve never actually done it before kind of escaped me. Even with all the wisdom and ingenuity you’ve collected from all our lifetimes, you weren’t quite sure about this whole process. So you’ve been a bit frightened. Of course it didn’t help that I kept listening other people’s advice for you, because that gave you the message that I didn’t think you could manage. I’m sorry for that, because I know you CAN do it – as long as we do it together. You are going to survive this, I promise, and from now on you have my absolute trust.

This means that I’ll always check to see what you want – or don’t want. In fact, I’ll give you anything you ask for, because I know you know exactly what you need. I will operate you gently and with joy, whether we’re out for a walk, having a meal, working on a task or anything else. I will let you rest when you need to, and I will welcome any stuck energies you’re still holding for me. More than anything, I will stay home for a change. Instead of running off to lala land or putting my Mind in charge, I will literally inhabit you, because I’ve noticed that’s when you really thrive.

Dear Body, it’s okay that you’ve been worried about what’s going on. Even though this is what we’ve been wanting and preparing for since forever, it’s still a pretty drastic change. Of course you’d be nervous! But I am here and we’re safe, so you don’t have to worry anymore. We’ve already been through so much, and with your ingenuity and my divine presence, we’re going to be just fine!

So here’s how it’s going to work now:

I breathe; you receive. Just let go of all the clutter and junk you’ve been holding, and receive the life I’m breathing into you. This is going to be amazing!

I choose movement; you renew. I love how a simple walk gets everything limbered up and the energies moving. Don’t worry, I won’t make you hurt; we’re going to enjoy this!

I choose safe; you relax. You are not on your own anymore. I will never abandon you again. Ever.

I open; you allow it in. We are finally absolutely safe. So whatever stuff comes your way, don’t worry and don’t close down; it’s all here to serve us.

I listen; you speak. Neither I nor the Mind will be bossing you around anymore. You’ve got this. And if you ever need additional support of any kind, just let me know and it’s yours.

I trust; you thrive. Whatever you look like, feel like, want or don’t want – I trust you. You’re my most amazing creation, and without all the old baggage you’re going to soar!

I choose life; you live. No matter what you feel, dear body, experience it – feel it – fully. As I open up to senses beyond, I relish yours even more.

Dear Mind, oh how I love you and your marvelous abilities. We’ve been through a lot together, and over time you got yourself sharp as a tack! You’ve served me so well, but now you feel things changing. You worry that you’re not smart anymore, that there might even be something wrong with you, but actually you’re evolving. And yes I know it’s not what you expected.

You’ve worked so hard to get us to this point, trying to get it exactly right every single time. You kept asking questions, wanting to learn, to avoid the pitfalls we’ve landed in before. With a zillion ideas, you’re always looking for a better, smarter way. And now, dear Mind, I’m happy to say that your mission is accomplished! You helped me get this far, and now I’m ready to take over. Don’t worry; you won’t be out of a job. I still need you around, but you’re going to be reassigned.

The fact is you’ve outdone yourself! While I was away you stepped in and did what had to be done, taking on some of the biggest, baddest challenges we’ve ever faced. But it was much more than you were ever meant to do and now you’re exhausted. You’ve earned a well-deserved vacation. There will still be things you can tinker with (I know how you hate boredom), but it’s time to relax and let go. I’ve got it from here.

Oh yes, I know you’ll still have lots of questions, but don’t be offended if I don’t answer them right away. All those ‘what ifs’ were actually quite helpful before, but now, well, I just know. So if coming up with questions keeps you happy, feel free to carry on, but I won’t pay much attention, just like I ignore those crazy rabbit holes you love to explore. You go have fun chasing ghosts on your time off, dear Mind, but I’ll be doing other things.

Keep in mind (no pun intended) that I will still need your amazing skills for the practical stuff. Oh, and don’t worry about your current forgetfulness; like every part of my Self, you’re evolving. It’s a pretty dang chaotic process, but you’re going to be just fine. You’ll find your new balance, with fewer burdens and more fun.

Dear Human, I just want to say how very much I love you. Through so many lifetimes you just kept going and going and going. I love your persistence and determination, but I especially love your heart, the compassion you’ve learned for yourself and the wisdom you’re allowing in. It’s a strange thing, this “ascension.” You’ve always known it was possible, and that ancient promise propelled you forward. Now your biggest challenge is allowing the fulfillment, because, for one who always kept going, now you have to learn how to stop. For one who always sought fairness, it’s time to let everyone have their own journey. For one who got so good at doing, it’s time to allow.

Dear Human, just like my Body and my Mind, you’re doing just fine. Sure, you’ve got your patterns and habits and preferences, but you don’t have to fix them any more. And, I’m happy to say, you finally listen when I tell you that you’re wonderful exactly as you are. You’re finally letting go all the self-improvement nonsense so that “enjoying life” is enough. I’ll always be right here, absolutely enjoying it with you. And, because we’re finally in this together, everything you need will simply appear; everything you want is just a breath away; everything you’ve dreamt of is coming true. I love you more than I can ever say, and as long as you let that be true, nothing else will ever be a problem.

Happy New Year, dear Self!

*Inspired in part by "The Master's Life, Part 1: Transfiguration"

1 comments on "A Love Letter"

  • Anna Lewicka on June 24, 2020 5:51 AM said:
    So Beautiful! Thank you!

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