Hell of a Mission

That’s what Tobias mentioned in the March Shoud, that some of us feel like having a big mission... how true!

I feel like a parcel courier, used to speeding on a bicycle through the big city of life, trying to find the easiest and safest way to deliver my parcel... and all of a sudden parcel and bicycle have disappeared... now I am sitting here on the sidewalk repeating the words "it doesn’t matter."

One part of me feels so free that finally it is the time now to let go of these disturbing, limiting games I have played! And a part of me is angry about getting fired from my big mission! So I am very curious about what comes up!

My new mission will be: enjoy life fully, totally without any limitations! (just have to convince my human self first that "it doesn’t matter" is something good…)

Dragonfly
(Switzerland)

True Family

Dear, Dear Friends,

I've been with the Message Board only for a short time and the love and support I've witnessed here is absolutely amazing. This, to me, is what a family is really supposed to be like. There is no judgment, total unconditional love, and a comfort I find nowhere else. (except maybe with my pets!)

I can be myself and feel I can talk about whatever concerns me knowing I will be supported and loved at all times. Maybe it's because we have all been together as family in other lives.

I know I've grown tremendously in the time I've been associated with all of my Message Board family/friends. What I've learned from the posts and have applied to my life would never have been possible on my own.

I can't even begin to thank all of you for helping me and each other through these crazy, yet phenomenal times. We are definitely not alone...THANK GOD! Don't know what the hell I'd do without you all. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you.

Carol
(USA)

Getting Over Being A Victim

I have many conflicts about victim energies. I used to be the best victim around, I played the role so well. Then I went from feeling like a victim of others, to feeling a victim of myself for not creating what I wanted, and creating what I didn't want. Now I think I'm to the place that feels like ‘ya know what? It's all ok.’ As long as it serves you in your process, it's all good. If it doesn't, and you feel the pull toward change, you will automatically find yourself moving in that direction without struggle and pushing.

When I pushed and fought with myself and berated myself, that's when it became difficult and painful. The whole time I was in victim mode, and got down on myself for it, it was already being healed and or shifted. The process was unfolding without me interfering, so the struggle was totally unnecessary. I chose and decided I wanted to integrate and be whole, and the second I did it began. My fighting, pushing and trying to make it happen was only the game my ego had me join in on. It most likely would have taken less time as well, had I just let go and got out of the way.

I think doing certain things to honor ones experience is definitely important, like recognizing wounds and paying attention to what comes up. But trusting that we are (for lack of a better word) powerful enough to make the shift without the struggle is paramount.

Bobbi
(USA)

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