I Am that I Am, Adamus of St.
Welcome, dear friends. Life is
good. Life is good. Ah, let’s take a deep breath with that.
Life is good and easy. It really
is. Really is. We’re going to talk about today why sometimes it appears to be
difficult, why sometimes you make it difficult, but it’s actually quite easy.
I’m going to ask you to feel that
for just a moment, if you would. Life is easy.
Oh, you can give me a thousand
reasons why it’s not. You can tell me about your past. You can share with me
your concerns about the future, but it’s easy. It really is.
The question that I have for you,
can you handle that? Eh, before you answer, I want you to really feel into
that. Can you handle life being easy and abundant and free and different? Can
you handle that? (someone whispers “Yes”)
You say yes, but evidence would
prove otherwise. (laughter) I’m just saying. (Adamus chuckles)
Did we miss people here in the
front row? (there are some empty chairs) Were they told … Linda did you scare
them off? Nobody in the front … (someone comes to sit in the front row) Thank
you. I don’t bite. I spit. (laughter) I breathe fire, but I don’t bite. Anybody
else? Front row. Front row. Thank you. Yes. Eh, not there with your ears. (someone
is wearing reindeer antlers which might impede the camera view)
LINDA: One seat over.
ADAMUS: One over. (Adamus
LINDA: Thank you. Thank you.
ADAMUS: Yes. We do have technical [considerations].
(laughter) Life is easy, but you have to be aware. Yes. (he sits in one of the
chairs) This is for me. Yes. (some laughter) Oh!
LINDA: No, no. (someone else has
come to sit there)
ADAMUS: So sorry. I believe it’s
yours. Thank you. Well, because of your horny topping there, we can’t have you
Life is easy and it’s good, and
that’s where we’re going. That’s where we’re going.
And it sounds beautiful. You say,
“Oh yeah! That’s what I want.” But in order to get there we have to let go of
some things. We have to have a vision – a vision! – of life being easy, which
We have to not fall into the very
dense gravity of mass consciousness. That’s actually easy, but at first it’s
Welcome everybody who’s listening
in online. Don’t you love the holidays? Don’t you love the beauty of the
holidays? So if you could get a nice pan of the stage area (to camera crew). Oh
Linda, you can stay seated there. You’re part of the natural beauty. Yes.
LINDA: Oh, you win my heart today.
Ohhh. (some applause)
ADAMUS: Oh, I love the holidays.
Always have. I tend to come around more, not just to the Shouds, but to you. I
tend to hang around more at the holidays, because you’re, ah, a little lighter,
a little easier. The holidays, a time – about the only time left now – when
humans believe in some magic. They believe in something special happening. They
watch kind of sad, tearful – some would call them cheesy – holiday movies.
But I love sitting with you when you watch “It’s A Wonderful Life.” Yeah. Yeah.
You, me, the popcorn, your Kleenex, my scarf and a lot of tears. (some
I love the holidays because so
often too it reminds you of the past when things were actually a lot more
magical on the planet. A lot of that’s gone now. It’s a mental era.
You can … please, be comfortable
(inviting Linda back to her chair). And … Sandra, do I have to really remind
you every time. (Adamus chuckles) The coffee with cream please, no goat’s milk.
(a few chuckles)
So magical, this end of the year
is. Maybe it’s because you’ve worked so hard during the year, stressed and
doubted and spent grueling hours at work that you may not even enjoy, dealing
with relatives – well, you have to do that in the holidays too – but
such a magical time of the year where you just let down the guard a little bit.
Little children and even some adults believe in Santa Claus. You believe in
magical things happening. You believe in miracles. Miracles.
Ah, earlier today I came through
a, what would you call, a homeless person standing on the street corner down
here with her little cardboard sign, yeah, and the cardboard said, “I just need
a miracle.” It didn’t say, “I just need money.” That’s a first. It said, “I
need a miracle.” And you know what? Miracles do happen. Miracles aren’t like
from an angelic source or Spirit or anything like that. Miracles are simply
things that you don’t otherwise understand. You don’t understand how it
happened, and it doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter that you have to know the
details of how something or someone came into your life.
A miracle occurs when you’re
willing to get out of old limitations, when you’re willing to go out of your
mind, when you’re willing to go out of character, that character that you
identify with so much. Suddenly, the miracles happen because you’re more
available to the energies that were just waiting for you. Just waiting for you.
It’s all there.
That’s why I say it’s easy. I use
this term “Kasama,” which some would translate to the word “Kismet,” which
means destiny, but not the regular linear destiny. Kasama is the destiny of the
We talked about this recently in
Keahak. The destiny of … (Sandra brings his coffee) Really? A paper cup for
your commander?! A paper – plastic cup. Please! Please.
EDITH: Oh brother! Get over it!
ADAMUS: No. I’ll tell you a story,
Edith. I’ll tell you a story. Please (to Sandra), ceramic at least. Crystal
preferred. Yeah. (Adamus chuckles) I’ll you a story, dear Edith. You’ve heard
it partly from Cauldre (during the intro), but it’s very true.
The boat on the Nile at the dock
did not suit my resonance. Now, we could have all sat there all 70 of us
sitting on the boat and endured the noise and endured the discomfort, but why?
Why? It was as simple as saying, “Move the boat.” It’s that simple – “Move
“Coffee in a ceramic cup.” “I Am
that I Am.” “Abundant Life.” Why not?
Why, Edith, who has spoken out and
now gets the brunt of my energies. Why, Edith, have you put up with anything
less than the best for Edith? Why? We’re going to need the microphone. Let’s
not dilly-dally here. I need my coffee, microphone. Get ready on the writing
board. A microphone. Yes. Please, please don’t all rush up here to help me.
LINDA: God forbid!
ADAMUS: So Edith, why have you put
up with anything … get up here, Edith, if you would. Take the chair.
LINDA: Ohhh, ohhh!
EDITH: Edith, the rock star the
world over. There’s something now known as the “Edith Factor” amongst Shaumbra!
ADAMUS: Please have a seat. You
don’t need to stand. Have a seat.
ADAMUS: See?! To my point.
EDITH: All right! All right! All
right! (she takes a seat in his chair)
ADAMUS: Offered …
EDITH: I don’t know if I can get up
ADAMUS: The seat of a king, and
she says, “Really?”
Now Edith …
LINDA: Geoff, that’s a torture!
ADAMUS: Edith, why would you
settle for anything less than the best in your life? Why have you settled for less than the best?
EDITH: That’s an excellent
ADAMUS: I know. I asked it.
EDITH: I wish I knew the answer.
ADAMUS: Ohh. Oww!
LINDA: Ohhhhh! (groans and
comments from the audience)
ADAMUS: Ohhh! I know, but it was
ADAMUS: It’s bordering on …
Edith, you do know, and that’s the
problem. You do know, but you refuse to see it. You don’t have vision. Well, if
you have vision, it’s Edith vision.
ADAMUS: Move the boat. (Adamus
chuckles) I don’t care. I don’t care and neither should you. Why are you here
at these meetings every month?
EDITH: Because I love them. I
enjoy them. I believe in them.
EDITH: I believe in enlightenment,
EDITH: Full body consciousness.
ADAMUS: Yeah, all the rest of
ADAMUS: But it’s all out there. I
want it in Edith the next time we talk like this. I want it embodied in Edith.
EDITH: I thought it was.
ADAMUS: Not that Edith who I was
talking to before! Not that Edith who accepts anything less than the very best
for herself and her life. And for every one of you, you’ve got a little Edith
in you. (Adamus chuckles) You all have that ‘allowing something less than the
best.’ Why? Why? Well, we’re going to talk about that today. It’s such a
Allowing less than the best –
money, health, relationships, children – should we go on or do you get the
point? Anything less than the best.
EDITH: I get the point, but I wish
I had a solution.
EDITH: Well, you don’t want me to
lie, do you?
ADAMUS: Well …
LINDA: I would!
ADAMUS: … in a way … (lots of laughter)
EDITH: You’re right, Linda.
ADAMUS: Now, that begs the
question … so well played right into my hands. That begs the question, what is
the lie? What is the lie, Edith? You say you don’t want you to lie to me. I
think you are lying to me, and more
than that lying to yourself.
When you say you don’t know …
sorry Crash. When you say you don’t know, you lie when you say that you don’t
want yourself to lie to me, because you are
lying. You’re lying by not allowing you to be who you really are. And it’s so
easy. It’s so easy, but something’s keeping you from it. And you’ve given me
permission to be brutal with you, if necessary, and loving when needed. You’ve
given me permission to point out where you’ve blinded yourself, you’ve closed
yourself down. When you tell yourself and audience all around the world – if
you look into that little red light on that camera, the world is watching – you’ve
given yourself permission for me to expose the lie, and the lie is “I don’t
know.” You do know. And that’s going to be the most difficult thing for you to
get over, and the most beautiful thing, and it’s very easy.
So please, my dear, please. It
comes down to, you could say, an issue of worthiness, but it’s truly an issue
of vision, vision for Edith. And the vision is having coffee in a china cup.
It’s a small thing, Edith, but so worthwhile. (Adamus sips his coffee) Ahhh!
(some chuckles) That’s sensual coffee that simply cannot be experienced with a
paper cup and only with china.
It’s the “Move the boat” and not
caring. Commanding it, not worrying. Cauldre, Linda, the other’s, Lucia, they
worried when I said “Move the boat.” I don’t care about the details. They
affect me not. And I’m not going to go into some long dismal doubt about the
poor crew and the ship that has to do this work and what will the captain say
and is it within the rules. I don’t care, and neither should you. Neither
This year – this coming year,
Edith – it’s a time of realization. It’s a time of bringing it together. And
the question I have, that Metatron asked a long time ago, is are you ready?
EDITH: I’m ready…
ADAMUS: Leave it right there. Ahh,
that “but” was about to show. The “but” …
ADAMUS: In your words. In your
words, the “but.”
Edith, question. Santa Claus is
real, you know. No, Santa Claus is real. Any time there is a mass consciousness
belief in something – the devil. Devil is very real because enough people
believe in it. They create it. It’s kind of caused by mass consciousness. It’s
the same way the Ascended Masters can create a collective soul, very easy. So
if enough people believe in Santa Claus, Santa Claus is real.
ADAMUS: And it can manifest. I’m
not talking about just real as in, you know, enough people believe, but I’m
talking about Santa Claus actually manifesting. And the miracles and the magic
of Santa Claus and the elves happens. It really happens.
So, Edith, with that being known,
you have three wishes of Santa Claus. What are you going to ask for? Three
EDITH: An ahmyo life.
ADAMUS: An ahmyo life. Okay.
EDITH: Grand and glorious
abundance and wealth.
EDITH: Grand and glorious good
EDITH: And grand …
ADAMUS: Eh, three. Three. (Adamus
ADAMUS: Don’t push your luck with
EDITH: Oh, wisdom. I’d like more
ADAMUS: Santa Claus is not an
idiot! He can count to three. (laughter).
Okay, ahmyo life. He can’t give
that to you. You have to give that to yourself. It’s easier, actually, than
having Santa Claus give it to you.
Wild abundance – Santa Claus can
help with that actually, because once you’ve allowed it, it just keeps coming
in. It doesn’t matter if it’s Jesus or Santa Claus or me or anybody else, we’ll
keep bringing those gifts. We’ll keep bringing the energy. We’ll help bring the
energy in for wild abundance. Yes.
And health. Health. Ahh, yes. It’s
mostly up to you. Santa Claus doesn’t have a whole lot of influence on that.
But it’s mostly up to you.
EDITH: I thought everything was up
to us, that we were the master creators.
ADAMUS: You are. You are. But then
the energies are often brought in from the others. The body is kind of yours.
You’re bringing in those energies. A lot of the other stuff comes from the
outside. The body is a very personal thing. And I’ll give you this hint: Don’t
work on healing your body. Really.
EDITH: I don’t.
ADAMUS: I know.
EDITH: It’s healed.
ADAMUS: It’s healed. Well, it’s
actually … we’re going to go beyond the physical body that you know now. We’re
going to go into this light body. So we’re kind of going beyond it. With the
light body, it pays no regard to the old physical body. We’re not going to
patch up the old – not ‘old body’ as in ‘you’ – but the body you’ve become
accustomed to. So, good. Thank you. And thank you for tolerating me.
EDITH: I love you and I tolerate
ADAMUS: Thank you. Thank you.
Now, dear Linda … (audience
applause) Thank you.
Let’s continue with this, if you
would, to the audience please. Santa Claus. You’ve got three wishes. What are
you going to ask for? Three wishes. If you would, stand up. Yes.
RICKI: My three wishes that ...
I’m trying not to repeat what Edith said.
ADAMUS: Yes. Isn’t it hard, everybody
just wants to repeat what Edith says. (Adamus chuckles)
RICKI: Of course.
ADAMUS: Quoting Edith. Yes.
RICKI: Well …
ADAMUS: Three wishes.
RICKI: I want this next year to be
a magical year …
RICKI: … where amazing and
wonderful things happen.
ADAMUS: Like what?
RICKI: For me to know within
myself that I am an Ascended Master and I’m exactly where I need to be and
doing what I want to do.
RICKI: I want to resolve my family
issues. I love my family and yet I feel like I’m either too dependent on them
or they’re too dependent on me and I need to be my own self more. And I want to
be – just a personal human kind of thing – living in the perfect place for me.
ADAMUS: What does that mean?
RICKI: It means we’re trying to
figure out whether we’re going to stay where we’re actually living right now or
move to a different place or what we’re going to do.
ADAMUS: Good. Okay. Santa Claus
can help with some of those things, a little bit. Particularly, the move and
the actual physical part of it, because as you know, moving – once you make up
your mind or it comes to you, that’s the easy part – but the physical
part [can be hard] and Santa Claus has a lot of helpers that can help with
RICKI: That would be good.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah. Enlightenment,
mastery – totally up to you. Santa Claus can’t help with that. Actually, I hate
to break the news, Santa Claus is very magical but is not an Ascended Master. (a
few giggles, someone says “Aww”) He doesn’t care.
RICKI: Since we created him that
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah. Yeah. And not
just “we” but mass consciousness, humans, and all the rest of that. They don’t
believe in Ascended Masters. Boy, are we going to shock them next year. (Adamus
chuckles, but no one else does) That was funny.
LINDA: Ha, ha, ha, ha!
ADAMUS: They don’t believe in it,
but it’s about to happen. Good. Thank you so much.
ADAMUS. Oh yes. It’s my lead-up.
Three wishes from Santa Claus.
STEPHAN: Well, I could have three
wishes. So one wish is have another three wishes when I want them. (laughter)
ADAMUS: Actually, Santa Claus has
a little clause. He has a clause. Yeah, that’s why they call him Claus. No, you
get three. The first wish isn’t for 20 more. He’s no fool. You realize he’d be
so tied up. No, you get three. Count them.
STEPHAN: Okay, opportunity of my
ADAMUS: Yeah. See because the
reason why is very simple. You’d ask for infinite number of other wishes, and
then you’d never act on it. You go, “I got a whole bag full of wishes, and now
I don’t have to do anything.” You’re on the spot right now. You got three and
you got about 42 seconds left to answer the question or you lose your wishes.
It’s that simple!
STEPHAN: One wish is I’m waiting
for a decision on my green card. I want to know if it’s … it should happen any
day, so it would be kind of …
ADAMUS: Oh, it happened. Okay.
STEPHAN: Okay. Good.
ADAMUS: We’re done with that.
ADAMUS: It’s done. Isn’t that
STEPHAN: I love it!
ADAMUS: Just like that. I didn’t
STEPHAN: Yeah, before coming here.
ADAMUS: I influenced it or I
brought it up into your vision. So, good.
STEPHAN: Another one would be
practical like selling one of my companies …
ADAMUS: Good. Good.
STEPHAN: … for a lot of money.
ADAMUS: Good. I’m glad you
qualified that. Good. So making a profit.
ADAMUS: Good. Okay, done. Done.
STEPHAN: What else?
ADAMUS: Time’s running out.
STEPHAN: Time is running out.
ADAMUS: Anything. Just make up
something. Really quick!
STEPHAN: Umm …
ADAMUS: Ehrrrr! (buzzing like a
STEPHAN: A big house next year. A
ADAMUS: Okay. Big house. Big
STEPHAN: Five bedrooms.
ADAMUS: Five bedrooms. Do you own
STEPHAN: Yeah, why not?
ADAMUS: Is there anybody in the
house with you?
ADAMUS: Anybody else living there?
ADAMUS: A bunch of people. You
have a commune.
STEPHAN: Bunch of people. Commune.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah! And you sit
around singing Kumbaya! Ehh … (a few chuckles) But it’s your house.
ADAMUS: Yes. Good. So you could throw
them out any time you want.
STEPHAN: Yeah. I control …
ADAMUS: Let’s start that way.
Let’s start it’s your house. Throw everybody else out right now.
STEPHAN: Okay, it’s my house and then
I can invite people in and …
ADAMUS: Mostly not. (Adamus
STEPHAN: Maybe not.
ADAMUS: I’m just trying to help
ADAMUS: Eh, yeah, because there’s
a tendency to kind of … you need our own space.
STEPHAN: That’s true.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah. I know it’s
true. I wouldn’t lie. But anyway …
STEPHAN: That’s the good thing if
it’s my house, I can do what I want. So I can …
ADAMUS: Yes, you can, with
ADAMUS: Okay. You can have a
dinner party now and then, but none of this moving in …
STEPHAN: You’re invited.
ADAMUS: Yeah, thank you. Good.
What’s for dinner? What are you serving?
STEPHAN: What are you serving? Um,
filet mignon, some red wine.
STEPHAN: And … yeah, and then …
ADAMUS: That sounds like a boring
dinner so far. (Adamus chuckles)
STEPHAN: We’ll give you the
ADAMUS: Okay, great. Good wishes.
They’re there. They have so happened.
Now, I’m going to ask you this.
Take a good deep breath and really embody them. It’s done, just like that. It took
a little urging, nudging on my part to bring it out, to get you to verbalize it
and wondering if you can really ask for these things. Absolutely. You can ask
for anything you choose.
EDITH: No paper plates.
ADAMUS: No paper plates. (laughter)
ADAMUS: I will leave if it’s
served on a paper plate.
Now, it’s already done, because
you had the vision for it. It took some nudging, but it’s already done. And
that’s so easy. These physical type things – a house, selling your
job, green card – so easy. These are really Santa Claus wishes. I mean,
he’s good, you’re good at that, and
I’m good at helping to get it out, but it just happens.
So from here on, you don’t worry
about the details. You don’t worry about how it comes to be. You don’t stress
over it. You don’t plan any of it. But you’re in the moment. When the process
starts rolling, when it starts happening, you are there like the graceful
Master just keeping those energies moving. No blocking them. No wondering how
it happened. No wondering about any of it, even if it appears to be some
hiccups along the way.
ADAMUS: Ah! If suddenly your
lawyer calls and says, “We have a problem here.” It’s like, you take a deep
breath and you think or even say, “No, you’ve got a problem. I don’t. It’s
already done, now make it happen.”
STEPHAN: The whole year was like
that. It was interesting. It’s like like “Wow! What a fucked up year!” but then
you look different, it’s like “Wow! It’s magical how it’s all working out perfectly.”
ADAMUS: How about “and!” It’s the
ADAMUS: It was a “messed up” year –
I’m not allowed to swear anymore online. (Adamus chuckles)
STEPHAN: Santa Claus grants his
wish. You can!
ADAMUS: But it was a challenging
year and oh, what an amazing year.
ADAMUS: Yes. Yes. And the lawyer
calls and says, “We have a little problem with the green card” and you take a
deep breath and you go, “And?”
STEPHAN: Solve it!
ADAMUS: “Not my problem!” Yeah.
Yeah, beautiful. Good. Thank you.
STEPHAN: Thank you.
ADAMUS: Good. Two more, dear
LINDA: Two more?
ADAMUS: I’m making a point here.
LINDA: Okay. I’m feeling …
ADAMUS: Yeah, three wishes from
Santa Claus, who is very real. Very real. Three wishes.
LINDA: (running to someone) I’m
getting called. I’m getting called.
ADAMUS: Yes, yes. Three wishes.
LARRY: Mo’ money! Mo’ money! Mo’
ADAMUS: Good, good. Good. Okay.
LARRY: That’s it.
ADAMUS: And, my dear friend, it’s
going to happen. Now …
ADAMUS: Now, and what are you going to do with it?
LARRY: Buy a lot of shit.
ADAMUS: Before you answer that
question, you remember the story I told – it was going to be in my smash hit,
upcoming best-selling book Memoirs of a Master – of the student who was given a
loan by the Master and came back a year later twice as broke. Are you going to
be that or are you going to do something different to … (a cell phone rings,
Adamus pauses and frowns)
LARRY: Who cares?
ADAMUS: … energize … (it rings
again) I’ll take that. I’ll take that. (Adamus chuckles)
LARRY: Somebody had a phone on.
LINDA: Don’t give it to him! Are
you crazy?! (laughter) Do not give it to him!
ADAMUS: I have to call Santa
LINDA: (laughing) Turn it off and
sit on it!
ADAMUS: Santa Claus, Sheema’s been
a bad girl. She let her cell go off in the middle of my presentation. So Santa,
take her off the list.
So, lotta money, lotta money,
lotta money. And what are you going to do with it?
LARRY: Spend it.
LARRY: Spend it!
LARRY: Spend some more!
ADAMUS: Okay, until what? Until
you’re flat broke?
LARRY: I’ll get some more.
ADAMUS: Good. Thank you.
LARRY: You’re welcome.
ADAMUS: Thank you. Yes. Yes, from
my lips to yours. Eh, well, not quite that way, but … (laughter)
LDINA: Ohh! Ohh! Eww!
ADAMUS: Good. Good. And hopefully,
I’ve made you, in the past, and many of you angry enough, upset enough with me
that you just go home and, “Oh! That Adamus! Erghhh!” just enough to get the
energies moving again.
One more please.
ADAMUS: Santa Claus, three wishes.
What are you going to ask for? What are you going to ask for?
LINDA: Oh, wait, wait! We’ve got
to mix it up. Male, female; male, female. (she giggles)
ADAMUS: Why? Does it matter
LINDA: No. It’s just a game.
SHEEMA: I’m the bad girl.
ADAMUS: How about enlightened,
unenlightened? Enlightened, un …
ADAMUS: Ohhhh! (audience is saying
Go on, please. Three.
SHEEMA: Well, the first thing is I
want to become enlightened.
SHEEMA: But I don’t think Santa
Claus can help me with that.
ADAMUS: No, no, no.
SHEEMA: I want a house.
ADAMUS: You want a house?
SHEEMA: I want a real nice house.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah.
SHEEMA: Like three, four bedrooms.
ADAMUS: Okay. Yeah. Maybe you
could move in with Stephan.
SHEEMA: Nooo! (they chuckle) I
want my own house.
ADAMUS: Thank you. Oh! Yes. And
SHEEMA: Um …
ADAMUS: That one’s done. Okay.
SHEEMA: Well, this one is also
personal. I want my creative side to really explode and come out.
ADAMUS: Why hasn’t it?
SHEEMA: Why hasn’t it?
ADAMUS: Yeah – well, hello?
(Adamus chuckles) Echo, echo, echo. (some laughter) Why hasn’t it?
SHEEMA: Because …
ADAMUS: That deer in the headlight
SHEEMA: … I’ve been kind of busy
pondering my enlightenment.
ADAMUS: Aren’t they the same? (she
chuckles) Aren’t they the same? I mean, you’re pondering both of them is what I
mean. (she chuckles again) Not realizing either one. But aren’t they the same?
Your creative explosion, as well as …
SHEEMA: It’s beginning to come
ADAMUS: Beginning to.
ADAMUS: Slowly but surely?
SHEEMA: I was scared of it.
ADAMUS: Why? You should be scared
of not having it.
SHEEMA: Well, you know, like when
I heard my voice for the first time, like seven years ago, it was so incredible
it scared me.
SHEEMA: And I stopped singing for
ADAMUS: Oh. You know what’s going
to happen now, don’t you?
SHEEMA: Well, I’m starting to sing
ADAMUS: Yeah, right now.
SHEEMA: Oh no!!! (laughter) Nooo‼
(some applause) Well, I’m just …
ADAMUS: White Christmas, one of my
SHEEMA: Nooo, no, no, no, no.
ADAMUS: (singing) I’m dreaming …
SHEEMA: I’m learning my …
ADAMUS: (continues singing) … of a white Christmas. (audience joins in)
Just like the ones I used to have. Go ahead. We all sang, now your turn.
SHEEMA: I hate that song.
LINDA: Feliz Navidad!
ADAMUS: Jingle Bells. Anything.
SHEEMA: Okay, this is the thing.
All my life I’ve sung with my throat …
SHEEMA: No, it’s true!
ADAMUS: Distraction. I’m not going
to get easily … please.
ADAMUS: You have 30 seconds.
SHEEMA: I’m barely finding out how
to vocalize my real voice.
SHEEMA: But I promise you, soon I’ll
come sing you a song.
ADAMUS: I’m not buying it. Soon is
now. Yes. You want enlightenment?
(she pauses, as audience is also
saying “Do it”)
Do it! (Adamus chuckles) Go ahead.
A brutal audience. “Do it! Do it! Do it! Do it! Do it! Do it!”
ADAMUS: I just sang. Not well, but
I sang. (she chuckles)
EDITH: She is enlightened and
she’s very creative. (some chuckles)
LINDA: You could be next, Edith.
ADAMUS: See Edith – Edith, you’re
trying to rescue here.
You have this beautiful
opportunity in our Santa Claus moment where others are, just like that – snap! – realizing houses, money,
businesses being sold for a great profit – snap!
– just like that. It’s that easy.
Now, what’s the hesitation? You
just said you realized your voice. I’m saying let it out. You said you want an
outburst of creativity. I don’t think so. I think you want to ponder it. I
think you want to play with it. I don’t think you want it. I’ll take the
microphone. It’s sing or nothing. (audience is saying “Sing!”)
SHEEMA: Feliz Navidad? (audience
says “Yes!”) All right. I’ll try …
ADAMUS: And then we’ll join in at
SHEEMA: Okay. But this … my
throat’s going to come out. Okay? So let’s …
ADAMUS: Shh! Shh! Shh! Shh! Shh!
Shh! Shh! Shh! Shh! Now, do you see?! Do you see what I’m talking about?! Oh‼ I
said it was going to be so easy and I said that life is good and …
(she cuts Adamus off and begins
singing a song in Spanish; Adamus listens with a smile)
Ahhhh! (audience applause and
someone shouts “Bravo”; they embrace) Thank you. Ah!
I love how we actually act out.
We’re actually demonstrative, instead of just talking about it, and I realize
sometimes I might push Linda’s comfort zones, your comfort zones, but it was
that simple. You had just made a statement that one of your wishes was this creative
expression, this outburst and your enlightenment. But yet, when given the
opportunity, “Well, let’s ponder it. Let’s think about it. Let’s talk.”
This Is It
My dear friends, to my point: Commitment.
Every one of you has made a commitment in this lifetime that this is it.
Nothing else. Nothing else. You made a commitment before this lifetime. You
made a commitment in a previous lifetime, in between lifetimes. When you were a
little baby, you had that commitment – “This is it, all or nothing.” That fire
that rages in your heart and in your very being is what brought you here, that
commitment that this is the lifetime – the lifetime; commitment that you’re not
going to squander it, that you’re not going to let yourself get distracted; the
commitment that this is it – all or nothing – so deep in your veins.
So much a part of everything you’ve done in this lifetime. It’s the only thing.
And, my dear friends, Santa Claus
or not, Adamus or not, it’s here. It’s done. There is nothing that you have to
work at anymore. There is nothing that you have to study. It’s the time of the
realization, what already is.
I used this term “Kasama” with
Keahak recently. We’re going to be experiencing that, all of us, in a variety
of different ways. It’s what has already been done, already there. Whether it’s
enlightenment, whether it’s a few extra dollars in your pocket, whether it’s
your health or your light body or any of that, it’s done. It came through a
vision, through a desire. It’s there. Not out there. That song didn’t need to
stay out in the future somewhere. That wild expression of creativity or
abundance or knowingness or simplicity doesn’t need to be out there, out in the
distance. Nothing to strive for. It’s here. Kasama is the destiny of the soul.
Now, I’ve said many times there is
no destiny. There is no fate. Not in linear terms. There is nothing out there.
There’s not the higher hand guiding your life and making things happen. There’s
no angelic council or alien beings or beings under the ground or even government
beings that are manipulating your life. There is no outside destiny, but there
is the soul destiny. There is what is already within you, Edith. Already done.
The money – and money is just the
tip of iceberg – but the realization. The realization.
We’ve done … I’ve done – eh, we’ve
all done – an effective job in these past five years of weeding out,
letting go, pushing away those who weren’t committed. There’s no room in
Crimson Circle for those who are not absolutely committed to their
enlightenment. This isn’t a side show. This is not entertainment. Well, it’s
entertainment, but … (some chuckles) It’s more than entertainment. This isn’t
just another distraction. This is it. This is it.
As I’ve told Cauldre and some of
the other Shaumbra, it’s the year, it’s the time, it’s the right now when the
popcorn starts popping. It’s been heating up. You know how it is when you put
that popcorn in the kettle and it starts heating and you wonder when will those
kernels ever start popping. Particularly, if you’re really hungry and it’s late
at night and you’ve got the movie playing and you just want those kernels to
start exploding with creative orgasm. And …
SART: Yeah! (laughter and some
others also shout “Yeah!!”)
ADAMUS: But I say that and I start
out our session today by saying it’s really quite easy. And you’re all, “Yeah,
yeah. Oh, it’s easy.” But then when it comes to you, when it’s right there
ready to be realized, you start with the excuses and the “buts” and “let’s
wait” or “I don’t knows” or whatever.
My dear friends, Santa Claus is
real, very real. You could say Santa Claus is within you. You helped to create
it with your wonderful childlike, childhood beliefs in Santa Claus.
It’s right here, and where we are
going is realizing it. I don’t want to hear any more excuses, any more buts.
All the tools are here, and it’s just now letting yourself explode into who you
are. Yeah. A beautiful explosion into Self.
We’ll come back to it in just a
moment for a little bit more discussion. But right now I want to tell the last
of my stories for Book One of Memoirs of the Master.
LINDA: Ahh. Book One.
ADAMUS: Book One. Yes, yes.
ADAMUS: Memoirs of the Master. And
please do realize that I call it my book, but it’s our book. It’s short stories
to illustrate, to demonstrate very simple points.
Will people get it? A few. Maybe
even more than a few. Will it change the world? I don’t care. It doesn’t
matter. It’s fun doing the stories. It’s fun really recapping. As I tell the
story, so often you wonder if I’m really telling the story about you. Heh!
Yeah. Sometimes it’s your name, sometimes you wonder if I’ve just changed the
name. They’re our stories.
So before we go any further, I
would like to tell the final story in Book One of Memoirs of a Master.
And, by the way, Cauldre worries
sometimes, maybe Linda a lot, they say, “Adamus, that’s a big statement saying
this is going to be a smash hit best seller book.” No, because I’m not wishing
for it. I’m not trying to project positive – spit! – thoughts on it, because that doesn’t work. We realize it.
Sorry. That doesn’t work so well. (some chuckles) I’m not trying to sprinkle it
with fairy dust. It’s very simple for me to say that, because I see it. I know
it. It’s already there. It’s already published. It’s already spread like
wildfire around the world. It’s already translated into a lot of languages,
publishers lined up at the door begging Linda for a contract, and she’ll resist
until she gets absolutely what she wants out of it.
It’s not wishful thinking, and that’s
the difference. That’s the difference with what a lot of you have been doing in
your life – “I just hope it’s there. I wish or I’ll think positive thoughts”
and it doesn’t work. It’s not very effective. You just know it’s there. I see
it, then it becomes so.
It’s a beautiful way of shaping
your reality. I already see it; therefore, it’s there. Therefore, whatever
direction things were going, it doesn’t matter. Maybe things in your life were
going in not such a good direction. Doesn’t matter. You just have the vision,
and then everything changes.
It’s, in a sense, playing with
time and no time. Oh, we had such lovely discussions about time in Egypt. Such
lovely experiences with being timeless by getting out of a consciousness of the
restrictions of time and realizing that it’s already done. Not in the future.
Not off 20 years from now, right now, and it changes everything. It changes the
past. Everything. Everything.
Oh, my greatest moment is going to
be when some of you poppers, some who have really opened up … and I use the
analogy of popcorn because a lot of you, you want to be like the slow roast
method. You put it in the oven and you let it cook about six hours until it’s
slow roasted. Popcorn, you really heat it up, and then boom! It blows up. But
it blows up into this amazing, kind of tasty, crispy delicious thing, which you
are. (someone says “Ooh”)
So, yes, ooh. (Adamus chuckles)
So, my dear friends, in Egypt, oh, we had wonderful experiences beyond time.
And my greatest moment is when one of you comes to me and not with the makyo
words, but a real knowingness and says, “I finally get it what you were talking
about about the past. I finally get not just in an intellectual way, but I get
when you say the past is not at all what
I thought it was, what I remembered.” When one of you says, “You know, I
thought I had a really bad childhood and bad parents and I did bad things and I
made bad decisions and I took bad turns in life.” And then you suddenly realize
it wasn’t at all what you thought it was. You suddenly realize it’s still
happening, it’s not bad and it actually, you could say, in a wonderful way, it
never really happened anyway.
When one of you comes to me and
says, “I just realized what you meant about the past. I finally get it.” Oh!
One of my defining moments. But in the meantime, let’s go into our story.
Let’s take a deep breath, as we
shift into the final story of Memoirs of a Master.
Harold loved the holiday season.
Loved it so much that he decided to do the final decorations on top of the huge
Christmas tree in the grand hall of the spiritual school. He got in before any
of the others had even woken up that morning so he could put the finishing
touches on a tree that was almost seven meters tall. Huge it was.
He pulled out the huge ladder. He
pulled out all the decorations and ornaments, assembled them around him so that
he could have easy access, and began the climb up the ladder, holding, of
course, the tree topper, that beautiful angel, the crystal angel that would be
put high atop the tree. And as he was putting these finishing touches on the
tree from up high, he heard the door open on the grand hall, and he turned
around to look and he saw that it was the Master. The Master.
And in that moment in finishing
off the tree, in that moment in the early morning hours of looking over to see
the Master, of course, you can guess what happened to poor Harold. He lost his
balance. He went tumbling down the ladder, landed on the crates of ornaments on
the floor, and in doing so, broke his arm, broke two ribs and cut his face on
one of the glass ornaments and passed out.
ADAMUS: The Master stood at the
back of the room, not feeling one bit bad about what had just happened to
Harold, but understanding it was perfect for Harold.
The Master walked over to where
Harold’s body laid limp, still holding the crystal or glass angel that was
meant as a tree topper, but was now partially broken and bits of it in his
face, looked at him, watching the blood streaming down his face, took a deep
breath, pulled out his Apple iPhone 6 – we’re doing product
placements in our stories now (laughter) – pulled out his Apple iPhone 6 and
dialed 911. (the U.S. emergency call number) Lovely story so far. (Adamus
Next finds the Master at the hospital,
at the bed of poor Harold whose arm was now in a cast, who was in great pain
from the broken ribs and who had a large bandage covering the many stitches
that were on his head. And suddenly the student, Harold, started to wake up
right as the Master came in the room, started to wake up and the Master said,
“So dear Harold, what were you thinking? What was going through your mind at
that moment when you fell off the ladder? What was going through your mind?
What were you thinking?”
Harold thought for a moment,
thought back to the incident and he said, “Well, Master, there was two main
things. The first was, was I going to live? This was a long way down that
ladder. There was a lot of boxes on the ground. Was I going to live? I’m not a
youngster anymore. That’s a long fall. Was I going to live?” And the Master
said, “Yes. What else?” Harold said, “You know, I was in that room alone
finishing off the tree. What I was thinking to myself was, I have a good life.
I have two wonderful children. I have a nice wife; been married for a while,
have a nice house. But I was wondering what have I really done? I’ve been
involved in this spiritual community of yours, Master, for the last five years.
But what have I really done? Am I distracting myself? Have I really learned
anything? Am I just spinning my wheels? Is it just a distraction from a life
that I might otherwise just be bored with? That’s what I was thinking.”
The Master said, “Perfect.
Absolutely perfect.” And he said to Harold, he said, “You know, when things
happen, when you have a fall, when you have an accident, when any of these
things happen, always go back to what was going through your mind at the time,
because it’s setting up the situation.
“Here you were, decorating the
tree for the holidays, thinking about your progress, thinking about if you’ve
really done a good job in your own spiritual quest. Harold, you were thinking
about your own commitment and if you were being true to yourself, if you were
being earnest. And suddenly everything went out of balance. It wasn’t because I
walked in that you fell out of balance. I walked in because you were out of
balance. I was the perfect distraction, the perfect reason for you to turn
around on the ladder, lose your balance and fall off. And in doing so, it did a
number of things. It caused you to wonder are you really alive? Are you really
alive? Here you are now in the hospital, probably thankful that it wasn’t
worse. It’s not permanent. You’ll heal very quickly. But you had to consider
“Humans are interesting, in a way.
Very interesting, because more than anything they want to feel alive, but they
don’t always know how to. Humans do strange things to feel alive, Harold, like
falling off a ladder. You may think it was some sign from above, but it wasn’t.
It was a way for you to feel alive. Certainly, by beckoning death, it made you
feel alive. By being in pain, as you are right now, it actually reminds you
that you’re alive. Pain is funny like that. While pain is very difficult and
painful, it reminds you that you’re alive, in a strange way.
“Why is it that humans do things,
sometimes insidious and painful things, just to make themselves feel alive? Why
is it that humans will drive down the freeway at incredible speeds, frightening
speeds, just for the thrill of feeling alive? Why is it that humans turn up the
music so loud, beyond what the range of their ears can really even tolerate.
Why is it? Because it makes them feel alive. That noise, that vibration, that
external power and energy coming in through their ears distorting their brains
– it makes them feel alive.
“Why is it that humans argue with
other people, ones they claim they love? Because it makes them feel alive.
Yeah, Harold, even an argument makes you feel alive. It gets something going in
what might be an otherwise kind of boring life, a life where one wonders if
they’re really alive, if they’re really worthwhile, if they’re really doing
anything of value.
“Why is it that humans play
extreme games? Why it is that humans cut themselves intentionally? Why is it
that humans take drugs or drink to excess, Harold? Because it makes them feel
“There are indeed better ways to
feel alive, but very few humans really realize that. So they resort to these
external challenges to themselves. They do strange extreme things just to feel
alive, because there is nothing worse, nothing worse than feeling dead, feeling
numb, feeling worthless, even though you still have a physical body.
“So they do very, very strange
things. Your fall from the ladder, Harold, was, in a way, answering a question
to yourself that you had up on that ladder: Are you doing anything significant
in your life? Are you really alive?
“And the real question, Harold, is
are you letting yourself feel? Are you letting yourself feel life? Or are you
closing it off? Are you compromising? Are you always having to satisfy other
people? Give to others first? You can’t feel alive that way. No. Matter of
fact, when you do that, when it’s always putting others first, each day you’ll
feel a little bit more dead, because they’re taking energy and you’re allowing
“When you fell off that ladder and
you went into excruciating pain and then passed out because of the pain, it
made you feel so alive to have that pain. Isn’t that strange?
“Harold, I’ve known you for five
years. You’ve been a good student. But Harold, you question. You question
yourself. You hold yourself back. You still feel it’s so important to do
everything for everyone else, that everyone has to be happy. You still limit
yourself. You still feel ashamed of having more in your life.
“So Harold, in a way, in a way,
you’re killing yourself slowly, day by day. And you tell yourself, well, you’re
a good father. You have a good job. You don’t have bills, but you know as well
as I do, that you’re really not feeling alive.”
With that, Harold broke down
crying because he knew exactly what the Master was talking about, and the
crying felt so good. And the Master did not try to counsel Harold, did not try
to pat him on the shoulder or the head and say everything is going to be all
right, because he knew this moment of crying was feeling alive once again. He
knew that as these tears and these emotions and this release came about, it was
opening himself up to his soul.
At that very moment, the door
opened and in came a group of holiday volunteer carolers starting to sing a
beautiful Christmas song, and the Master said, “Hark, oh Harold, the angels
sing.” (groans and laughter at Adamus’ pun) And Harold moaned and groaned, not
from the pain of his injuries but from the pain of the Master’s bad sense of
And so ends Memoirs of a Master.
(Adamus chuckles and audience applause)
And to the point, dear Shaumbra,
Survive or Alive
We’ve come a long way together,
and you could say it will get more intense, and that’s good because you’re
going to feel more alive. We’ve come a long way together and there is no room
anymore in your life just to survive, just to get by. No room.
It is truly a matter of to survive
or to be alive. That is the question – to survive or to be alive?
There’s no more middle ground here. There is no more holding back here. I’m
going to be emphatic about that in this coming year. It has nothing to do with
the year, but it’s a good time. I love the holidays. We celebrate, kick back a
little bit and get ready for the next round. But the next round isn’t going to
be about surviving.
Surviving isn’t very fun is it?
No. No. You didn’t come here to survive, and that’s part of the conflict.
That’s what does make you different than other people. That’s why sometimes you
think you’re strange and different and everything else. It is, because you will
not tolerate surviving. You will fall off of a very tall metaphorical ladder if
you’re just surviving past this.
You won’t let yourself. Harold
fell off that ladder. The Master didn’t make him. The Master just happened to
walk in the room at the perfect time, as happens synchronistically. But it
wasn’t the Master that made him fall off. It was Harold knowing that he was just
getting by, feeling that knowingness gnawing at him that there was more, but
also feeling that he was suppressing it. He wanted to be a good father, good
husband, good student, good everything, and it wasn’t working anymore. He was
just surviving. He wasn’t really alive.
You say you want an outburst, an
explosion of your creativity. You want the enlightenment, which is really just
realization. You want it to happen, and I started this conversation saying it’s
easy, really easy, if you don’t get in your own way and if you don’t give
excuses. And if the microphone comes to you, you sing from your heart, and I
mean that as a metaphor. If life comes to you, you embrace it. You command it.
You dance with it. You feel alive with it.
Greatest thing for a souled being
is to know the I Am, and that is also to feel alive. They, you, come to this
planet to embody in biology. It’s kind of foreign, but now you’ve gotten used
to it. You come here to feel alive. There is no better way to feel alive than
to have five human senses, a physical body that can experience pain. To be in a
linear reality with all of its narrowness actually, in a way, helps you to feel
alive. But at a certain point you get caught in the routines and the ruts, in
the mass consciousness, in your own dogma, in your own filth – energetic filth
– and you stop. You compromise. You hold back. You tell me that you’re going to
sing some time in the future. You tell me that you really are ready for it,
whatever ‘it’ happens to be, but you’re just waiting. For what? You’re just
And in the meantime … and I don’t
really care because it’s happened already anyway. I can see it when I look at
you, Pete, or any of you. It’s done. The realization, the mastery, the
enlightenment, whatever – it’s done. So I’m not worried about it. The
only thing that I find painful is when you’re just surviving, when you’re not
truly alive. The only thing that I find difficult is looking at you knowing
that it’s already there, knowing that you’re afraid to realize it, maybe.
You’re putting it off. You’re waiting for that other kernel of corn next to you
to pop first to make sure it just doesn’t pop and go invisible when it does.
My friends, we can’t wait anymore.
We can’t wait. I don’t think you want to, but yet it’s happening. Yet, there is
this hesitation. We can’t wait anymore.
I’ve said before that
enlightenment, realization is a type of thing you want more than life itself.
If I was to hold your head underwater, as I seal a lid on top of that popcorn
kettle, if you want it more than life itself, but yet there is that hesitation,
So it comes to the point where
you’re just surviving. There’s part of you that knows it, and it’s going to
push you off the ladder. Not me. Not some conspiracy, but your self pushing yourself
right off that ladder so you can feel alive. That’s a wonderful thing about
near-death experiences. Oh! They’re amazing. Frightening. And they’re not
always near-death. Sometimes they are death experiences. (Adamus chuckles) That’s
the amazing thing, because it could go the other way. But it suddenly makes you
We don’t need to go that route. I
actually don’t recommend it whatsoever. We don’t need to go through that big
car accident route that’s in some of your energies or the cancer scare route.
That’s a creepy one. Yeah. We shouldn’t even talk about that, right? No, let’s
talk about it, because it scares the hell out of you, and it should.
The doctor gives you the news, “You’ve
got cancer.” Mm. Oh boy. Suddenly, you start appreciating life, eh? Suddenly,
it’s no longer just surviving. It’s like now you say, “I’ve got to live. I’ve
got to do everything that I wish I had done.”
And then you come to me. That’s
the funny part. Then you come to me and say, “Geez, Adamus, you know, I just
got the news. Not so good. Can you do anything?” I’m like, “Nope. Check with
Santa Claus. He might be able to help you.” (chuckling) Not so good. Not so
But it’s great. And the … (he
looks at Linda)
LINDA: I’m listening.
ADAMUS: The good part is you get
the news, you panic and you wonder if there is some miracle cure out there.
Nah. But you start to contemplate life. Ah! And then you come to me and we have
some great talks – and you know who you are – and first you try
negotiating. That doesn’t work. But then you say, “You know, I just wish I had
…” and fill in the blanks. “I just wish I had allowed. I wish I hadn’t
procrastinated my own enlightenment, my own realization. I wish I’d been a
little bolder. I wish I hadn’t compromised so much. I wish I’d had the clear
vision back then that I have right now. Oh, do I have the vision. With death
beckoning me and all the pain and everything else that’s going to be involved
in this whole ordeal, oh, do I wish.”
My dear friends, let’s just get the
vision now. Much easier.
I said at the beginning of this
it’s actually really easy, unless you get in your own way. Let’s have that
And the vision – I don’t mean a
vision with your eyes. Vision is the awareness. That’s what vision means. It’s
Cauldre will allow me to tell an
interesting story. He had an experience the other night, sitting after dinner
watching some inane television show and relaxing, he says. He was relaxing. And
suddenly he could see in a way he had never seen before. Not just with his
eyes. He could see all around 360 degrees. Even if his eyes were closed, he
could see into everything, into the stone on the fireplace, into the wood on
the cabinets, into everything. He could see in and through things. He could
sense everything with no effort. With no effort, not even trying. Suddenly the
awareness was there. That’s what it’s like. Suddenly, just all the awareness.
And the awareness is not a mental
thing at all. It’s just there. You don’t have to work at it. Suddenly, you
realize the setup. You realize how the energies work, how they come to serve
you. You realize how you’re your best friend and you’re your own worst enemy.
You realize how you get in your way. You realize how you compromise. I was
going to say ‘wimp out,’ but you compromise so much.
Remembering the Vision
You know why you’re here in this
lifetime. You know that commitment, that burning deep commitment, but then you
compromise. Let’s go beyond that. Let’s have some vision.
With that, I’m going to ask for
the house lights to come down a bit, for some nice holiday merabh music. Ah, yes.
Vision, ah, it doesn’t mean the
eyes. It’s the knowingness that we’ve talked about.
(gentle Christmas music begins)
It doesn’t mean you have to know
all the details of what’s going to happen. It’s the vision, the vision of your
enlightenment in this lifetime. It’s right here.
It’s not a mental vision. It’s not
one you have to conjure up in your mind. It’s a vision, a knowingness, that you
came into this lifetime saying it’s your last lifetime. You came into this
lifetime so deeply committed that nothing will get in your way. Not even
I always liked that part, when you
said, “Nothing is going to get in my way, not even myself.”
If it means having to fall off a
ladder, get in a car accident, whatever, you weren’t going to let anything get
in your way. You had such a vision, such a vision for why you’re here.
It’s still there.
The beauty of this is you don’t
have to do anything. You don’t have to work the vision. You don’t have to
figure out how to get it done. It’s already done.
You just need to come back to that
vision. The enlightened embodied Master. Not ten years from now, not later.
That vision alone, that
reconnection is enough. It will move mountains and boats. That vision, that
knowingness, without doubt, that bold vision is all that is needed. Everything
else just starts falling into place.
That’s when you, the Master, can
just have this big old smile on your face. That’s when you can allow energies
to serve you. That’s when you don’t scoff or hold back at wealth and riches, at
health. You don’t put the foot on the brake.
That vision … it’s what you
brought into this lifetime.
You know, that vision, that’s one
of the two things that you held, you regarded as being so precious, so very
precious that you hid it away. You didn’t want anything to distort or pollute
or corrupt that vision. So you hid it away so that it wouldn’t be exposed to
the harsh things of this world. You hid it away because you knew that you would
be very vulnerable to darkness in this lifetime, more than other lifetimes.
I’ll repeat that. You knew that
you were going to be vulnerable to darkness in this lifetime more than any
other. So you hid away that vision so it would not be corrupted.
You were going to be more vulnerable
to darkness, because you were going to be more sensitive, you were going to be
more of an explorer, and you knew that the time would come when you couldn’t
run from the darkness anymore – yours or any others. You couldn’t run from it
anymore. You couldn’t hide in the light anymore.
True integration is integrating
everything – darkness and light, high and low, good and bad, masculine,
feminine – so you hid away that vision of your enlightenment, so well that you
could almost say that you forgot where you put it.
But you know, I didn’t. I saw
where you hid it. I knew we were going to be sitting here like this right
before the holidays, right after crossing over the historic marker of 2012. I
knew there would come a point where you weren’t going to tolerate just
surviving anymore. You weren’t going to put up with just monthly talks about
how wonderful enlightenment could be. I knew there was going to come a point
where, if we didn’t get on with it, we’d have mutiny right here at Crimson
So I had the vision, you had the
vision that we would be sitting here, gentle, seasonal music playing in the
background, a nice Hanukkah tree on the stage, and I knew we would talk about
vision once again. The vision you had, the vision, the knowingness that the
enlightenment was already here. Not off someplace else, but right here.
The vision, the awareness; and
then, in this form of Kasama, meaning it’s already happened, then I said, “You
know, it takes a really bold courageous being to have a vision and to allow
it.” Very bold, courageous.
It’s one thing to have the vision,
the knowingness of enlightenment and hold it off at a distance, much as you
would hold a carrot in front of a horse. It’s another thing, quite another
thing to allow it.
In a way, you could say it’s
almost fun, up to a point, to have the vision and to keep working towards it,
keeping it unrealized. Kind of fun, up to a point. But then, well, then the
life starts going out of you. You don’t feel so alive. You feel like you’re
just surviving. It happens a lot actually in those who pursue the spiritual
I would say that everyone who gets
involved in spirituality and, to a degree, into religion, everyone has a true
heartfelt desire to know something greater. But then so often the spiritual
work, groups, books, products are just a means to survival. They’re just a
distraction. They’re just another statement to the Self that the Self isn’t
Sooner or later … sooner or later
you get tired of all that and we come to a moment of truth. It’s already
happened and it’s happening.
The funny thing is this moment of
truth right now is not just happening here. It’s actually also happening in
everything about your past. What you’re feeling right now is being felt by you,
a young child at Christmas time, a young adult from a Christmas twenty, twenty-five
years ago. It’s all being felt.
It’s remembering that vision, that
beautiful vision, that commitment, “This is it.”
Now that we felt back into this
vision and the commitment of enlightenment in this lifetime, the next step is
to be so courageous, outrageous, bold, and let it come into you. No more
waiting or holding off. No more settling for anything other than the full
realization. No more thinking. No more doubting. No more games. This is it.
This is it.
It’s do or die. So let’s do.
I understand why you hid the
vision, why you pretended it wasn’t there. I can understand why you didn’t want
it ever corrupted. You would rather not realize it or not own it, rather than
having it get distorted by you and by others.
But let’s pull it out again. Let’s
take it from where it’s been hidden, open it, just like you would open a
Christmas present. Yeah, right now. Don’t wait. Don’t wait for next Christmas.
Open it up just like it’s been
sitting under that tree just waiting for you.
Please, please do open it up. It’s
your enlightenment. It’s your awareness. It’s your fulfillment.
See, it was really easy. It wasn’t
all that hard.
Now, just bring it right into you.
Just bring it right in.
Your body, bring it into your body
and your mind. It’s alive. See, it’s alive.
It wasn’t the book of secrets. It
wasn’t a magic wand. It was you. Your vision, it’s alive.
You don’t have to do things like
fall off a ladder or get into car accidents or get that bad news from the
doctor. It’s false ways of feeling alive.
This vision is alive. Bring it
into yourself, into your body, into your eyes, your nose, your mouth. Let it
flow into your ears, into your belly, into your feet, into your days and
Take a deep breath. Take a good
deep breath, my dear friends.
I love this time of the year. It’s
so magical, so magical. Magic is very real, if you let it be.
So, as I said as we opened, it’s
easy. It’s pretty easy. You get in your own way sometimes. Yeah. You get in
your own way with the doubts and the holding back. But where we’re going now,
where the Shaumbra who are still remaining, where we’re going now is into the
realization, the experience, into the living it. Not just surviving life and
talking about it, but living it. That’s where we’re going.
It’s actually going to be a lot
easier, a lot easier in many respects. But it’s going to require you being kind
of outrageous, kind of bold – well, really bold – and being yourself.
So with that, my dear Shaumbra,
such a delight to be here with you. Now I have to go prepare myself for your
party. Yes, I will be around. And, please, whatever, do not serve me or
yourselves anything other than the best. Not just at the party tonight, but in
life in general.
With that, let’s take a deep
breath and remember that …
AUDIENCE AND ADAMUS: All is well,
in all of creation.
ADAMUS: With that, happy holidays,
dear Shaumbra. Thank you. Thank you. (audience applause)