I Am that I Am, Adamus of
Sovereign and Free Domain.
Welcome to the energies of this
Shoud. Beautiful energy in the room. Hm. Sweet music today.1
Kind of a celebration, a celebration of the end of an era. Time to move on. As
the song said, time to ramble on.2
You probably never heard the song before. (Adamus chuckles)
There’s kind of a metaphor in here
having to do with all of your lives. Ahh, you work at things, you experience
things, you spend years, lifetimes doing things, and then it’s time to leave,
time to go to the next level.
You know it’s right to go to that
next level. You know the time has come. As a matter of fact, in so many ways,
you’ve gotten bored with the way things were. So you’ve created a new
experience and an opportunity.
Then when the old era comes to the
end, you take a few moments to reflect on the memories like you did today.
Sweet, sweet memories. Ah, how you wish that you could have actually
experienced it as beautifully as you hold the memory of it. (laughter)
And the funny thing about memories
is they are real. You’re not
massaging it or manipulating it. Those feelings were there even back then, those
feelings of beauty and warmth. And here, with your gatherings and assembly, the
camaraderie, the blessings of Tobias started right here. Such sweet memories.
And it is exactly those memories,
my dear, those sweet, beautiful, poignant memories that bring you back for
another lifetime. (Adamus chuckles) “Ohh! That was so sweet! Ohhh! Ohh! I loved
that so much, I have to go back for some more memories!” (audience is saying
“Nooo!” and Adamus chuckles)
Breathing in the Energies
So, my dear friends, the energy in
here is quite beautiful. But I was intrigued a bit when dear Aandrah (Norma
Delaney) was up here with the breathing with all of you. Did you forget how to
breathe since our last session? Because there was a lot more thinking going on
than there was breathing. You know it and I know it. Not much breathing.
Breathing – do not give her (Linda)
any water today – breathing like, like this. (Adamus takes small short breaths)
Breathing (Adamus takes a very deep breath) should be like that. Let’s do it
together. Let’s make Aandrah proud, breathing like a Master. (Adamus takes
another good deep breath and exhales loudly; audience not so much) A little
constipated. (a few chuckles) Let’s try that again. If you’re really going to
breathe life and energy in, it’s almost like you can’t sit still. Let’s try it
… (Adamus takes another good deep breath; audience again not as deep; Adamus
lets out a sigh)
Aandrah, come here. We have to do
some work here. (some chuckles) Now, obviously, obviously they’ve had a tough
month (laughter), and they’re not really breathing. They’re thinking about
breathing, and they’re hoping later they may have a memory of breathing.
(laughter) But they’re not really breathing. So give them hell for a moment
here. Give them the Ohamah School of Breathing.
AANDRAH: Woo! Ah!
AANDRAH: Are you ready for that?
ADAMUS: We’ll need a microphone.
Well, we don’t need it, but …
AANDRAH: There you go. Watch out.
That’s funny, because we are having that school start on Monday. Get ready.
Are you willing to receive that
much love? It comes in breath. Feel that! Are you willing to receive? Are you
willing to allow this to happen to you?! (motioning to Adamus; much laughter)
ADAMUS: We should probably stop
right here. (more laughter) Breathing is a very personal experience! (more
AANDRAH: All right.
ADAMUS: I’ll stand over here. (a
few more chuckles as Adamus moves to the side)
AANDRAH: This room is so filled
with amazing love. Are you willing to breathe it in? Breathing in through your
nose all the way down. Feel it filling your belly, the core of you. Are you
willing to live as though the core of you is this grand river of love? Breathe
it in, all the way down. All the way down.
Feel this, as it fills you, and
then, through the love affair, you release. Release all that was. Ready to
receive another breath of so much love.
So breathing in, breathing out …
deeper and deeper into the core of you.
Feel yourself melting deeper and
deeper into your body. The sweet, sweet body created for the home of soul, for
the miracle of you, this love affair.
Breath at a time. Breath at a
time. Deeper and deeper. Yes.
Such a grand love affair. Soul and
human. Soul and human. The true light body miracle of you. All you have to do
is breathe. Breathe.
Breathe and receive this much
love, this much joy. Breath at a time. Breath at a time. Yes.
ADAMUS: Thank you. And now a
really good outrageous breath. Outrageous. Eyes open, fully present and aware.
An outrageous breath that pulls in energy. There’s a little bit of energy
depletion going on here, we’ll talk about that in a moment, but a good
outrageous breath. (Adamus takes a deep breath and makes a funny face) Yeah,
your eyes should bulge out of your head! (some giggles) Arms almost can’t help
but going out. Outrageous breath, my friends. Deep. Bring in that energy.
You’ve been wondering lately, “Where is the energy? Where is the energy?” So
you breathe it in.
It’s the act of literally
accepting energy in your body. It’s the act of bringing that life force energy
into this physical being. It’s the act of getting out of your mind for a little
while. (Adamus takes another deep breath) Yes. Beautiful.
That’s what breathing does. That’s
what breathing is.
So when you came in here today, we
sat down and a little shallow breathing. Still a lot of thinking going on, and
it’s no wonder. It’s no wonder, there’s so much
going on in the world right now.
We recently had the cardinal grand
cross, this astrological event. It’s not astrology that controls your life, but
it certainly has an influence, especially at a time like this. The energies
between April 22nd and, let’s call it, May 10th are excruciating,
if you haven’t felt it. If you haven’t felt it, you’re probably not alive.
(some chuckles) They are pulverizing, excruciating, painful – painful
in the body, painful in the mind. It’s like mortar and pestle, and they’re just
grinding away at everything, until you don’t think you can tolerate it anymore.
But somehow you do. Somehow you manage. Somehow you get by day to day.
When I said breathe it in, bring
those energies in, there’s a natural reluctance to do it. Why? So you can
breathe in more of this excruciating energy? (some chuckles) No, absolutely.
What you do, the way you cope with it is you stop breathing. You bring in less
energy. You kind of shut down, because there is this tremendous incredible
It’s not just you. Not just you.
It’s everywhere on this planet now. It’s in every tree, every blade of grass,
every mosquito. It’s in the bowels of Gaia, so to speak. It’s everywhere, and
you’re feeling it. So the natural reaction is shut down, wait till this thing
You can feel at some intuitive
level within you that it’s going to pass. It’s got to pass. Something’s got to
happen. Some of you, it’s amazing, you look at the news reports each day
waiting for some drama, some big cataclysmic event to be taking place. It will,
but right now it’s just the pressure phase. It’s the pressure. It’s getting
everything ready for it.
So what do you do? You shut down.
You stop breathing. You stop inviting in more energy, because it hurts. It’s
Even we can feel it on the other
side. Yeah, we can feel the energies of what’s happening on Earth, and it’s at
an all-time pressure right now. It’s amazing.
So now let’s try that again. Take
a deep breath, because the other part of you is also saying, “Where’s the
energy? Why is my body so tired? What’s happening up here in my brain? I just
have no life force energy. I thought I was a Master, where is the vitality?”
Yeah? It’s there. It’s there, but along with it you’re going to feel this
tremendous excruciating pressure. You going to feel it in your body, and you’re
going to feel it in your emotions. It’s there.
So you really have an interesting
choice here. Thank you for the coffee (to Linda). You have an interesting
choice: Shut down, wait for the storm to pass, but you’re still going to be
feeling things and you’re still going to be shut down; or – ah! – drink it in.
(Adamus takes a sip of his coffee)
Take a good deep breath. Did you
spike my coffee? (some chuckles) Take a good deep breath right now. Just take
that plunge into it. Feel those energies, and remember that energy is here to
There’s tremendous energy right
now. Part of you is feeling the excruciating, pulverizing force, and that’s
probably okay, because it’s really grinding out a lot of things that just aren’t
appropriate. It’s not going to kill most of you. (laughter) I said it’s not
– not! – going to kill most of
you. But there’s always some exceptions.
Death is one of those … you need
to laugh at death please, because that’s one of the things we’re going to talk
about today – death, darkness and all the rest of that. Death is … when
Shaumbra die, and a few of them have, they cross over and one of the first
things they want to do is just slap me and say, “Why didn’t you tell me that
death was so easy? I feared it all my life, and it was so easy. Such a release” –
kind of joyful in a kind of a weird macabre way – “It was so easy,” and
yes it is. Please don’t fear it at all.
(silence in audience)
Oh, that went over well! (Adamus
chuckles) But in the meantime we’re living. We’re living and enjoying. But
sometimes it’s hard to live when there’s such a fear of death.
So the choice is right now drink
it in, breathe it in, this energy. It’s here for you. Energy … (some audience
members are being silly) No more for them. (laughter)
Remember the basics of energy. It
has no agenda whatsoever. It has no mind. It has no direction. It doesn’t care.
It’s just energy. It doesn’t have feelings. It’s not like a little puppy dog
that has feelings and desires. It’s just energy, and it’s there to serve you.
So many of you have gotten to the
point where you’re kind of afraid of energy, and I’ll explain that in just a
little bit why there’s that fear. It’s
just energy, and it’s there for you. So when you’re feeling this massive
ball of energy that’s come to this planet right now, take a deep breath. It
might affect other people in a very challenging way, but for you it’s just
energy for your life, for whatever you’re choosing.
Okay, now let’s do a really good
deep breath … bringing this in. No fear. Allowing it to flow in you. Letting it
serve you. Letting it serve what you are choosing in your life. Not hiding from
And a funny thing happens. When
you are drinking it in, when you are just bringing it in without any controls
or restrictions, suddenly it doesn’t hurt. Suddenly you realize it’s not
painful. It doesn’t make your thoughts even more complex. It doesn’t hurt your
When you’re shielding yourself
from the energies that are here right now, ducking from them, then it’s going
to hurt, because you have your layers of defense systems up. You’re holding
back. You’re controlling.
When you are just bringing it in
open, free, uncontrolled, it doesn’t hurt. It doesn’t hurt.
Let’s take another really good
deep, bold, outrageous breath. It’s air. It’s energy. It’s also a symbol that
you’re opening up, you’re allowing. Good.
Now, we’re going to do some
writing on the board, and Linda with the microphone please and Vili at the
board. Thank you.
The question is, as Linda walks
around with the microphone, and I’m going to ask two things. First of all, as
we get into the day, let’s keep the energy simple, okay? Let’s keep it very
simple. There’s no need to be complex. Remember, going back to one of the
earlier lessons, it’s only the mind that likes complexity, because then it has
something to do. It’s kind of working away. Life itself, you as a souled being,
you’re very simple. Deep, but simple. So let’s keep the energies very simple
Secondly, as we go around with the
microphone, please feel free to be very candid, open. In other words, I’m going
to ask the question for a good reason, and it’s not just so we can all suck on
ADAMUS: There’s a good reason for
it. (Adamus chuckles)
The question is – Linda’s ready on
the run with that microphone, and right in mid-run I’ll ask the question, she
doesn’t even know …
LINDA: Running, running now. Running,
ADAMUS: Yeah, running, running,
LINDA: Keep water out of my hand!
ADAMUS: Running, running, running.
LINDA: Keep the water out of my
ADAMUS: The question is what is
your mood? What is your mood? What’s your mood?
Let’s say – if you say, “What
timeframe?” – last couple of weeks, you know, last couple of days even.
What’s your mood right now?
SHAUMBRA 1 (man): Right now?
ADAMUS: I mean within the last
seven to fourteen days, your overall mood.
SHAUMBRA 1: Overwhelm.
ADAMUS: Overwhelm. Good.
Excellent. That’s a good one for the board, overwhelm. And how has it been
overwhelming for you?
SHAUMBRA 1: A lot of things
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah.
SHAUMBRA 1: Trying to move. Trying
to get a different job. So it’s just …
ADAMUS: Ehh, there’s something
else that you kind of hiding.
SHAUMBRA 1: … everything. (he
ADAMUS: What else? There’s something
SHAUMBRA 1: There’s something
ADAMUS: Yeah, there’s something
else going on. Job, move, what else? What’s really been bugging you?
SHAUMBRA 1: My thoughts?
ADAMUS: Oh that too! (chuckling)
SHAUMBRA 1: Because I think about
it too much? (laughter) Like I think about everything? (they laugh)
ADAMUS: Something else that’s just
nagging away at you, an issue.
SHAUMBRA 1: Um … I guess a family
ADAMUS: That’s a pretty good
guess. (they both chuckle)
SHAUMBRA 1: Well, I know that been
part of it.
ADAMUS: One out of every four
problems is your family. (more chuckles) It’s a true statement. It’s a very
true statement. Good.
SHAUMBRA 1: (chuckling) Yes.
ADAMUS: Good. Thank you. Thank
you. And thank you for not saying, “I don’t know.” Yeah. We were getting close.
Yes. The “I don’t knows” today will have to go sit in the latrine for five
Okay, next. What’s your mood? And
I have a very good reason for asking this. What’s your mood? Please.
KAREN: I just finished my book
that I’ve worked on …
ADAMUS: Good. Congratulations
KAREN: … for the last year. It’s a
cartoon book, like my paintings. And I …
ADAMUS: And am I in the book?
ADAMUS: Oh! See. (Adamus chuckles)
KAREN: Yes. The Crimson Circle is
ADAMUS: Good. Good. Just as a
heads up, for any book that I’m in or Crimson Circle, but any book I’m in,
there’s extra energy. (audience says “Oooh!”) Good. So how’s your mood?
KAREN: Well, I was feeling great,
jubilant, celebratory for finishing it, and then something else came in that …
ADAMUS: Do you notice, by the way,
you notice the “and then.”
KAREN: And then.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah. Hooo! Peowwww! Yeah. Meteorite! Errerrrh‼! Incoming! Go ahead. And then?
KAREN: It seemed like I couldn’t
move forward on this plane, because other stuff was coming in from what I
consider higher planes.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah. By the way,
just – it’s semantics, but there are no higher planes.
ADAMUS: I mean this is the higher
plane, unfortunately. (some chuckles and Adamus chuckles)
There are – and I’m being a
stickler on this, because as Masters I do want a little mastery of the
vocabulary – there are no higher planes, but there are planes of
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah. Put that in
ADAMUS: No, truly, just as there
is no higher self or grand angel. Let’s kill the grand angel. Let’s, let’s …
LINDA: Ohhh! No water for Linda!
ADAMUS: The concept of the higher
self – let’s just annihilate it right now. Kill it. No, no. Killing is good,
because it means it’ll let the ener- – I’ll get back to you, I’m on a roll here
– it will release that energy from the suspended state it’s in, and like if,
see, you have the water in the bottle … sorry, but I get to do water today.
Come here a second. (to Linda, who splashed water on him the month before; laughter)
LINDA: ¡No es posible!
ADAMUS: Oh, Lindaaa!
LINDA: ¡No es posible! (more
ADAMUS: If you look at it this way
ADAMUS: … things are in suspended
state. You know, if this (water bottle) was, for instance, your emotions or
your problems or your physical body, everything’s kind of trapped in here. And
there’s no higher water, but there’s free water! (Adamus squeezes the bottle,
shooting water out; some laughter) There’s free water. And it’s released from
the structure that it was held in, whether it’s a belief or a biology or
So, and Karen not to digress from
what you were saying, but this whole concept of the higher self and the grand
angel and, ohh, all the rest of that, let’s be done with that. Let’s leave that
here in Coal Creek Hall. When you move on, let’s move on with the concept.
There is the Free Self, the true Self.
Always been that way and still is within you right now – everywhere around
you, the Free Self – but the expression and the consciousness right now are in
a suspended state, let’s say. So now that I’ve completely thrown you off.
So, something came in and the
higher planes and now what?
KAREN: Well …
ADAMUS: How’s your mood?
KAREN: So now I don’t know if I’m
starting over on something else or if I’m moving forward to finish up the past
year with my book.
ADAMUS: Ah, okay. And, but how is
ADAMUS: Celebratory. Good. Good.
KAREN: That’s celebratory, that
one in the middle. (referring to one of her paintings)
ADAMUS: That is celebratory. That
KAREN: That’s the one I painted
ADAMUS: That would make a
beautiful tee-shirt. (someone says “Yeah!”) Ah, good. I get ten percent.
(laughter) Thank you. Thank you.
Next. What’s your mood right now?
What’s your mood? You all know what a mood is. (someone says “Uh huh”) Yeah, uh
EDITH: Tell us.
ADAMUS: Oh, I’m going there.
LESLIE: Okay. Cranky.
LESLIE: Very cranky. Everything,
until about yesterday, everything and everybody bothered me.
LESLIE: Even my dog.
ADAMUS: Yeah, your dog. Yeah,
LESLIE: I mean, everybody was …
ADAMUS: You know, that’s bad.
That’s really bad when your own dog bothers you. (laughter)
LESLIE: I mean, the dog …
ADAMUS: I mean, that’s cranky.
LESLIE: Really, really.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah.
LESLIE: Yeah, really cranky.
LESLIE: Like …
ADAMUS: With everything.
LESLIE: And just – I just like
don’t even say boo to me because I just – ughh!
ADAMUS: Yeah. Well, you look
LESLIE: Thank you.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Charming.
LESLIE: I feel wonderful. Thank
LESLIE: Thank you.
LESLIE: Thank you.
ADAMUS: Yeah. How’s your mood now?
LESLIE: My mood – no, my moods
changed starting about yesterday …
LESLIE: … and into today was a lot
… but for the last week or two really cranky.
ADAMUS: What have you been doing
with this irritability? How have you been expressing it? Coping with it? And
please, John, no comments. (referring to her husband, John Kuderka; laughter)
LESLIE: Beer! (Adamus chuckles)
Ehh … (she sighs) Trying to – well, I don’t want to say trying to – yeah,
trying to ignore it.
LESLIE: I mean, just, it is.
LESLIE: And not going out in
public a lot, because you go out in public and then there’s check-out people
and there’s in the bank, and you want to strang- …
ADAMUS: There’s just people.
LESLIE: There’s people.
ADAMUS: There’s just people.
LESLIE: And they’re in your way.
(she chuckles) And there’s stupid people!
ADAMUS: (chuckling) Yes, stupid
LESLIE: And I don’t want to feel
that way about them, but I’m like, ohhh!
ADAMUS: Isn’t it a dilemma? You
want to be so loving and compassionate …
ADAMUS: … and, you know. But yet
it’s like … (Adamus makes a rude gesture) Ohhh! (some chuckles)
LESLIE: Just go away.
ADAMUS: Just go away. Yeah, yeah.
LESLIE: Give me what I want, and
do it – and they don’t do it well. That’s the problem.
LESLIE: They’re not doing it the
way I want them to …
ADAMUS: No, they’re not.
LESLIE: … in any way, shape …
ADAMUS: Yeah. “This is my planet. You’re
just a guest. Goodbye.” Yeah. (more chuckles)
LESLIE: Well, and you’re not
serving me well.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yes. No, they’re
LESLIE: They’re not.
ADAMUS: They’re not. Irritability.
LESLIE: In any way.
ADAMUS: Are you irritable during
your sleep state, during your dream stages?
LESLIE: I’m really busy during my
sl- … my …
ADAMUS: Yes, yes.
LESLIE: So I’m waking up in the
middle of like really active, I mean, I’m really busy. So I’m not …
ADAMUS: Yes. Happy dreams?
LESLIE: Ehhh. It’s like I’m
LESLIE: It’s like I’m working when
I’m awake. I’m working when I’m asleep. I’m working …
ADAMUS: How do you possibly get
through the day and the night?
LESLIE: Mmm, not well. (they both
ADAMUS: Yeah. I’m …
LESLIE: Not well.
ADAMUS: … just picking up a time
for road trip perhaps, by yourself.
LESLIE: Oh! I want to drive to
Maine by myself, without even the dog in the car.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah.
LESLIE: I thought I’d take the
dog, then I thought no, I’ll strangle it if I do.
ADAMUS: That’s how bad it is.
ADAMUS: Not even the dog.
LESLIE: Yeah, not even the dog.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Yeah.
LESLIE: No, no.
ADAMUS: But if you take the dog,
think of the memory you’ll have later. (she chuckles) “Oh, that was so fun with
the dog. I almost killed him, but oh it was so fun.”
LESLIE: I want to be in the car by
myself in, like, hotel rooms with nobody around. Do you know?
LESLIE: And nobody – like nothing
in the car but me.
ADAMUS: Yes, absolutely.
LESLIE: Yeah, yeah, yeah.
LESLIE: That’s pretty much it.
(someone asks “Not even John?”) I don’t want him near – are you kidding?! (they
ADAMUS: Let’s get a shot of John
in the back. (laughter) He’s smiling.
LESLIE: He’s been cranky too!
ADAMUS: He understands. No, he
perfectly well understands, and part of the challenge that many of you are experiencing
is, so you’re in a relationship and particularly if you’re both in this
self-appointment mastery, it’s like eghhh!! It’s like, it’s difficult at times.
I’m not looking at anybody here, but … (laughter) It’s really difficult! It’s …
Lindaaa. (more chuckles)
And you know what, once in a while
you just have to laugh. You just have to laugh that you’re being a complete
bitch master. (more laughter) And it’s okay.
LINDA: Did you say ‘dick’ Master?!
(lots of laughter and some applause; Adamus picks up the water) Ohhh!
ADAMUS: Oh Lindaaa!! (more
One of the old stereotypes was the
Master that is just so loving, so peaceful, so dead, because it never happened. It didn’t! When the Masters in the
past got to this point, they left! They could not handle it. Not only did they
not want their dog with them, they gave away their dogs. They did other things
I won’t even mention. (more chuckles) But there comes a point you’ve just had
it! Had it! And I’ll explain in a moment after a few more comments.
What’s your mood right now? What’s
your mood? I want to hear Bonnie’s. I saw – Bonnie just – I heard her say,
“Please.” Hello, Bonnie.
BONNIE: You know how angry I am.
ADAMUS: I know!
BONNIE: Especially at you.
ADAMUS: Yes! Yes! (some chuckles)
But what have I done?
BONNIE: Should I tell you? (they
ADAMUS: I know. Pushed a few
buttons. Ohh, wasn’t exactly like a soothing balm on your constant irritation.
Not exactly. Not exactly coming to your aid when you said, “Oh Adamus, Adamus!
Come and help me.” And actually, what have I done lately? Well, I kind of took
a … well, I was like your dog. I ran in the corner and hid letting you be
So how’s your mood?
BONNIE: Well, I’m still cranky.
ADAMUS: Yeah, why? (she sighs)
You’re working too hard.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Why?
BONNIE: It’s your fault!
ADAMUS: Well, let’s define this for
a moment. Are you talking to the loving, the beloved Adamus? Or are you talking
BONNIE: No, I’m talking to you. It
was your idea.
ADAMUS: Oh, to the beloved Adamus.
Yes. And what have I done?
ADAMUS: Pardon? (laughter and a few
claps) Now I’m leaving.
Now Bonnie, Bonnie, Bonnie. It’s
podium time for Bonnie. Bonnie! (more chuckles) Think of the billions or
thousands of Shaumbra around the world who are wearing their pins right now.
BONNIE: Very happily, I know.
ADAMUS: Think of the memories.
(some chuckles) We’ll ask Jean to do a slide program, a video, because she is so
good at it, of everybody wearing their pin. They’re walking down the street
wearing their pin, kind of pointing to it. They go to the store and the clerk –
“Haah! What is that pin?” They dream at night and they go to the angelic realms
and everybody says, “You got a Master pin!” (laughter) And the beautiful music
plays and everybody dances and sings. And then at the end they all sing, “Thank
you, Bonnie! Thank you, Bonnie! Bonnie, Bonnie, Bonnie. My Bonnie lies over the
ocean! My Bonnie sends me my pin!”(lots of laughter)
BONNIE: Oh dear! You are terrible!
ADAMUS: How’s your mood, Bonnie?
How’s your mood?
BONNIE: Well, right now I’m
ADAMUS: Yeah, good. Good. And
actually, it’s a very good point, because, yes, you have been working more than
what should be humanly possible. You should really talk to those people. But
you’re blaming it on the work.
Now, I’m going to prove to you in
a moment, and you’re going to gasp in realization; I’m going to prove to you
that it has nothing to do with pins
or the level of work that you’re at. As a matter of fact, that’s the greatest
blessing in your life right now, and you can thank me. (laughter)
BONNIE: Uh huh.
ADAMUS: Thank you, Bonnie. (she
waves) Yes. Wave goodbye. Bye Bonnie. (Adamus waves and chuckles)
One more. How’s your mood right
now? Oh, are we writing these down? (to Vili) Cranky and – just put, number
four, put just ‘Pins.’ ‘Damn pins.’ Damn pins. Damn pins.
Yes, how’s your mood?
SHAUMBRA 2 (woman): Frustrated.
ADAMUS: Frustrated with what?
SHAUMBRA 2: If it can go wrong, it
ADAMUS: Ahh! Isn’t that the truth.
Yes. Isn’t that a Peter Principle or something like that.
SHAUMBRA 2: Yep.
ADAMUS: The Peter Principle for
SHAUMBRA 2: Yes.
ADAMUS: If it’s going to go wrong,
it’ll go wrong right now.
SHAUMBRA 2: Mm Hmm.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Actually, in a way
that’s good. Get it over with. You could string it out for years, but let’s
just get over it. Let’s, let’s … (he sighs) Cauldre’s filtering right now. Let’s
annihilate, you know, all those old impressions of what you were supposed to be
like, because it’ll never happen. It’ll even be more depressing than what will
SHAUMBRA 2: Eghh!
ADAMUS: The old concepts of what
you thought spirituality was and the old concepts of God – ohh, god! – is so
gone. (some chuckles) And the old concepts – all the old concepts – and that’s a lot of what’s
happening to everyone right now. It’s just getting crushed out, crushed down.
SHAUMBRA 2: Mm hmm.
ADAMUS: It’s going to turn into
fine powder and then the wind’s going to blow it away.
SHAUMBRA 2: Ah, lots of wind.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Yeah.
SHAUMBRA 2: Bad wind.
ADAMUS: Lots of wind.
So right now is a wonderful time
to just go through the whole process. It’s all going to go wrong. Anything …
no, anything out of balance, anything that you haven’t already gone through –
hello Wendy – anything that you haven’t already been gone through, let’s
just get this over with.
And you know what? Assume, please
assume that everything that’s happening right now is just part of mastery.
Everything. Not a lesson. There are no lessons. There’s nothing to learn. Right
now it’s just you letting you go through a transformation process, an alchemy
process. And, please, all of you hear me. It’s just the alchemy process, and
it’s changing very old stuck energies into very free energies. That’s all
that’s happening. But yet in the midst of it, there’s a lot of panicking –
“What’s happening to me? What am I doing wrong?” Nothing! Nothing.
SHAUMBRA 2: Good.
ADAMUS: And you say, “Well, why
does it hurt?” Eh, because you’re human. You know, why … (Linda puts a bowl of popcorn
on his podium; a few giggles) Why … thank – can I trust you?
Why is it, why are you so serious?
There’s this whole thing of “What am I not getting?” Nothing. Isn’t that
amazing? There’s nothing you’re not getting. There’s nothing to get. It’s just
going through this alchemy.
And when you create your own
little imaginary video – “Great Times of My Wonderful Life” – and you have all
these memories and say, ”God, that was so good.” And then I’m going to have to
sit down and talk to you, because you’re going to say, “You know, let’s do it
SHAUMBRA 2: Oh no.
ADAMUS: Oh no. (they both
chuckles) Oh no!
SHAUMBRA 2: Let’s do something
different. Something else!
ADAMUS: There is something else.
SHAUMBRA 2: Okay.
ADAMUS: And it is so simple, so
close that it’s hard to see.
SHAUMBRA 2: Mm.
ADAMUS: And the tendency is to try
to figure it out. You’re not going to. It’s just going to happen. And in the
process of all this going on, this tremendous alchemy, there’s also the
tendency to not trust what’s going on.
So what do good Masters like you
do? Well, you still tend to load up with the elements of untrust. When you take
a lot of junk, vitamins, and you have to eat certain foods – you’ve
heard me talk about this over and over and over – but I would say probably
there is more use and abuse, and I’m not talking about the mind drugs. I’m
talking about just thinking that you’ve got to have a new healer, a new
facilitator, a new regimen to go on, a new anything.
My friends, all you’re doing is
going out of trust with yourself. If you would just be … forget all the vitamins
and all waters and all the … what are we now into, kelp? Is that the new thing
of the day?
SHAUMBRA 2: Not me. (she chuckles)
ADAMUS: Not you. No. But, and
after kelp it’s going to be something else.
Stop for a moment. Stop, stop,
stop. It doesn’t matter what you eat. Doesn’t matter. And all the vitamins in
the world are not going to help you. (she sighs) And all the therapies and all
the remedies are nothing but great distractions. Period.
Now, I know – not you – but I know
some of you are going to say, “Yeah, but Adamus, you don’t understand.” Okay.
Catch you next lifetime. I do understand.
I do understand, and I do have to at
times be a little extreme, be a little … push some buttons. I do understand. Just assume everything
that you’re going through is you –
not some supreme order of anything – but you
allowing it into your life.
The moment you said, “I choose my
embodied ascension,” it all started. And not always pretty, not always
comfortable, but very effective, if you let it be. Good.
SHAUMBRA 2: Okay. Thank you.
ADAMUS: Thank you. Thank you.
Thank you. One more.
How’s your mood now? Ohh! How’s
the energy in the room? Maybe we should play a nice video and have, ohh, some
memories for a while, or cut to the chase.
Yes, how’s your mem- … how’s your
memory. How’s your mood?
SHAUMBRA 3 (woman): It’s been up
ADAMUS: Up and down.
SHAUMBRA 3: Yes.
SHAUMBRA 3: It has been very low,
and then I’ve had desire to do things I haven’t wanted to do for a long time.
SHAUMBRA 3: So I have the desire
to do it. I haven’t found the energy to do it. So I …
SHAUMBRA 3: … I push myself
SHAUMBRA 3: And so it’s been up
and down, but I think it’s been fascinating, the weather.
SHAUMBRA 3: The wind. I don’t
ADAMUS: Let’s not talk about the
weather. Let’s talk about you.
SHAUMBRA 3: Yeah. (Adamus
chuckles) Well, it affected me …
ADAMUS: Mm hmm.
SHAUMBRA 3: … in some way with the
winds, over and over and over.
ADAMUS: Oh sure, the winds. Winds
are just – they’re literally clearing Old Energy.
SHAUMBRA 3: Yes.
ADAMUS: But some people don’t like
SHAUMBRA 3: No. It was kind of
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah.
SHAUMBRA 3: Yeah. So, anyway, it’s
been both ways – up and down. But I think I’ve been happier this month than I
have been in the last few months.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Well, and one more
thing I’d to do is let’s move beyond the concept of happy and sad, because it’s
really kind of disturbing. It’s a very strange human need to be happy, and the
fact is you’re not going to be happy. It’s an unattainable goal.
SHAUMBRA 3: Well, I’ve been …
SHAUMBRA 3: My mood has been more pleasant.
How is that?
ADAMUS: ADAMUS: Your mood is up …
SHAUMBRA 3: Yes.
ADAMUS: … and apparently no
particular rhythm, rhyme or reason for it. It’s just up and down, kind of
SHAUMBRA 3: Yes.
ADAMUS: Yes, yes. But just drink
SHAUMBRA 3: I have.
ADAMUS: Yes, good.
SHAUMBRA 3: No, especially with
the wind would come in, and I would be breathing deeply. When you went into
breathing, I’m thinking, “I’ve been doing this through the wind, and it’s been exhilarating.”
ADAMUS: Yeah. Excellent. Thank
you. Thank you. Good. And I believe Edith is just dying to ask a question or
make a comment.
EDITH: No, I’m just living to ask
you a question.
EDITH: We’ve been taught and believe
with all our ascended hearts that we have the freedom to choose!
ADAMUS: You do.
EDITH: So who would want to be
ADAMUS: Ah! That is a good segue
into … microphone please. (he takes it from her) Thank you. (Adamus chuckles
and some audience laughter) That is a good segue …
No it’s a good segue and I don’t
want to discuss it anymore; I want to let you experience it. I contend … I
contend there’s a lot of moods going on right now.
What’s a mood? A mood is an
emotion. A mood is a measurement of where you’re at. But more than anything, a
mood is a thought, is a judgmental thought and saying, “I’m happy. I’m sad. I
don’t know what I’m doing. I know what I’m doing. I’m up, I’m down,” and it’s a
mood. And humans live by mood. Humans live by mood. They really do. And there
are those with a scientific – I don’t want to knock these over here, pass these
around. (he gives the popcorn to someone) Ah, yes. Let me breathe on them first.
(Adamus breathes over the popcorn) Okay. (audience responds “Ohh!”) Share a breath!
You share a lot of other things. A little breath isn’t going to hurt. (some
Humans live by moods. They wake up
in the morning – and I’m not exaggerating – they wake in the morning
and they ask themselves in their own way, “Am I in a good mood or a bad mood?”
They reflect on what happened the day before, where they left off with the long,
sometimes dreary story. And they say, “Oh, I’m in a good mood because ___” fill
in the blank. Or, “I’m in a bad mood,” and they will continue on that track.
The moods constantly change based on some variables that we’ll talk about.
But moods are generally generated
from the thoughts and they become the thought’s way of having a type of
feeling. And, again – going back to this whole concept – the mind, the brain, the
thoughts have no true sensual awareness whatsoever. But the brain has been
developed in a way that it believes it does. So it creates a mood. A mood.
A mood, you could say, has been
manufactured or created out of farts – thoughts – as we talked about in
our last gathering. So it’s a bunch of interesting limited … (a few chuckles)
limited – (Linda hands him his cup) thank you – limited thoughts
that create a mood. The mood creates then the energy that comes in for the day,
for the experience.
Most people believe they have no
control over their moods or no choice over their moods. So they live by their
Also, just as a little factoid,
that 100 percent of decisions a person makes are based on emotions. Even
decisions that have to do with, let’s say, science or math or something very
black and white; even job, things that you’re doing at your work every day, a decision,
you know, about something at the company – should you have more manufacturing
in a certain division or location than another? One would say, “Well, that’s
not emotional.” Absolutely is. Everything comes out of emotions, which come out
of thoughts, which are really not, oh, you would say, true. They’re limited.
So imagine what that does in life,
Edith. It’s creating – it’s generating all these illusions. Thought turns to
mood, which is also the emotion, which is also the way you attract energy into
your life, which is also the way you breathe, which is also the way you
receive. And suddenly, the energies get pretty stuck.
There is something within you, and
it’s coming to the surface more and more, and it’s rather annoying. And this
something was what we used to call the veil. The something is this illusion.
The veil, of course, is separation. Period. The veil is separation, the belief
But you’re coming closer and
closer to this truth, this knowingness that all these thoughts and all these
moods and all these emotions are not really you. Maybe, you could say, you
could argue they are, to an extent; they’re a very limited part of you. But
they’re not the real you. They’re not the inner you.
So there’s this exasperating
irritation that’s coming in right now, because you know there’s something
better. You can’t define it. It’s difficult to even rely on somebody else’s
story of their journey, because you could – I’ll say this very candidly –
there’s nobody really ahead of you. Not even those guys that sit in monasteries
or temples that do their chanting. They’re wonderful people, but they’re not
ahead of you.
So there’s nobody that can really
tell you about it. But yet there’s this knowingness. Now you combine that with
the tremendous energies that are here right now, and this birthing, coming
forth feeling that, “God dang it! There’s something else. I know there’s something else.” But then
you get into the thought pattern and you start thinking, “But what is it? And
where am I going to find it? And what should I be doing? And am I in my correct
alignment? Am I wearing the right colors?” And then suddenly you’re off track.
You’re out of balance.
Then you get a bad mood, because
you’ve had a lot of thoughts building the mood stage. And then you shut down,
because it’s not what you had hoped for.
In a way, there are tremendous
blessings with all this irritation, with all this frustration and this, kind of,
it’s a pent up energy that’s going to release. And when it releases, it going
to release a lot of old things that were really, really stuck within you, so
you can finally start experiencing the freedom. That’s what the soul is – it’s
freedom. It’s the Free Self, not the higher self. It’s the free consciousness,
not the limited consciousness, not the low human consciousness. It’s just
You actually don’t have to work at
it or for it. Matter of fact, it actually works against you. I contend, as part
of our little exercise – what is your mood – I contend that you are bored.
After fourteen hundred lifetimes,
after going through just about everything a human can experience, just about
everything that can be had. You’ve had relationships, good and bad. You’ve had
health, good and bad. You’ve had money and no money. Through your incarnations,
your lifetimes, you’ve seen most of the world. You don’t need to hop on an
airplane, because you probably have been there, with a few exceptions. There’s
not much more. So you’re bored.
So what do you do in the boredom?
Well, you set up … well, first of all, it’s frustrating because, Leslie, you’re
just bored. That’s it.
Now, you’ll think that “I can’t
stand other people or my dog” or this or that. It’s boredom, which leads to
intolerance and combined with this feeling, this intuition coming up, “There’s
got to be more to this” and there is. And it’s the sheer boredom. You look at other
people and say, “Oh my god, they have at least 75 more lifetimes. (laughter) I
don’t want to be with them. I am so done with going through that. I’m tired of
stupid questions.” And then the other part of you, another limited part of you
– if I could have the marker – another limited part… (he begins drawing a
So you have the unlimited I Am.
Totally free. Not dependent on anything, not even God. God said, “Here. Have
your I Am and – whissh! – get out of
here.” And then you’ve got these little boxes of limitation, some that are kind
of attached to the, let’s call it, the Free Self, but they’ve kind of
barricaded themselves off.
So you’ve got all these little
limited boxes, and one of the limited boxes that you’ve created is this thing
that says, “Well, I’m supposed to be a Master. Adamus told me I was a Master.
He must be lying, because I can’t stand people right now. I don’t want to be
near my dog.” You poor dog. Somebody want to adopt a dog here? (some chuckles) We
have one dog up for adoption. (more laughter)
So you’ve created the other
limited self, that’s the “I’m supposed to be a Master.” Well, what the hell’s a
Master anyway? I’ve told you, I’ve told other groups. First of all, a Master
doesn’t tolerate any crap. Now, it doesn’t sound like the old concept of a
Master, you know, sitting on the mountaintop chanting. That’s not a Master.
That’s somebody who’s going through something you went through eight, twelve,
fifteen lifetimes ago. You’ve been there. You’ve been on the mountain. You’ve
done the routine, and could you imagine going back? Boring. Boring. Boring.
I contend that an irritation, a frustration
that all of you have is just sheer boredom. And, as a matter of fact, you’re
caught between that proverbial rock and a hard space, because you’re bored, but
you don’t want to die. That’s why I say stop worrying about death. It’s easy.
But you don’t want to leave,
because you’re not really sure – I mean, you’re not really, really sure; maybe,
what, 80 percent sure, 90 percent sure, but you’re not really, really sure – what goes on… (he gestures; a few
chuckles) I can’t even say the words, after you’re leave. So there is still a holding
on, there’s still limitation, but damned if you can tolerate another day on
this planet with its ways, you know.
Your big excitement these days is
a new piece of technology – “Whoopee, because I never had a super deluxe iPad,
X-modem model V before in any other lifetime. Now I got it.” Okay. After 30
minutes, you’re back to boredom.
So there’s this whole phenomenon
going on of boredom, and what do you do? So you create stuff, just to keep you
busy. You know what many of you do is engage in extreme activity, what I call
the “Hatter” activity, like the Mad Hatter. Just activity, just something to
keep going, just something, because if you just keep yourself engaged to
anything, maybe you’ll stay on the planet. If you keep yourself engaged, maybe
it will bring in some energy or something, and it doesn’t.
Actually, engaging yourself in
frantic activity is neurotic, and it’s feeding the thought-into-mood cycle. It
doesn’t give you the opportunity to stop and just say, “I Am. I Exist.” It
doesn’t give you an opportunity to just slow down and allow a very natural
process to take place, because part of you doesn’t want to face that natural
process. It hurts a little bit. Eh, it hurts a lot.
It hurts the body for a little
while, because it’s going to release … it’s going to re- … let me put it this
way. If I told you that you’re going to do a complete release of your ancestral
biology and your old human template and you’re going to integrate the light
body, don’t you think that would hurt a little bit? Don’t you think they’d be
at least like, “Oh, god!” or a little jolt or jarring of energy? Well,
certainly. You’ve been clunking this thing around for millions of years, this
template of a physical body. It’s going to hurt a little bit as it releases. It
… like … (Adamus again squeezes water into the air) Linda taught me to do that.
But it was actually a good example,
because you’ve got all this old ancestral biology stuck in there, and you’re
trying to think your way out of it – “I am no longer my ancestors, I’m no longer
my ancestors” – and that doesn’t do much good.
You stop for a moment and then – another water splat – it just releases.
And you say, “Well, how does it release? I mean, tell me exactly so I know whether
I want it to happen.” It doesn’t matter. It’s going to release. It’s going to
So we have this tremendous sense
of boredom that’s come in, and really, I want you to feel into that. You are a
grand creator, a grand creator. But, in answer to your question, some of your
choices are not grand creator choices. Some of them are. Some of them are. But
some of them are little boredom choices, little limited self choices. Not the
And I’m going to tell you a
secret, Edith, just between us. We’ve talked about choices before in our
gatherings for years now, because you forgot that you actually can make a choice.
You, anybody, gets into the matrix, gets into the hypnotic rhythm, and they
forget that they can make a choice. Or they think they are, because they can
choose whether they’re going to have chocolate ice cream or vanilla ice cream
for dessert, and then they say, “Well I can’t have any, because it’s bad for
me. I heard it on TV. It has gluten in it or god knows whatever. And I can only
eat kelp ice cream,” so … (laughter) You laugh, but these are true life examples!
And so then there is no choice.
So we – Tobias, Kuthumi and I –
have worked for years to say you can make a choice. But then you say, “Well,
but I’m afraid to make a choice. What if I make the wrong choice?” You can’t
make the wrong choice. You cannot. You cannot. Just make a choice. (someone
sneezes) Thank you. Just make a choice.
Now, the Master understands at a
certain point, Edith – breathe this one in – it’s all a bunch of crap. You get
to a certain point after you have a consciousness of making a choice, after you
get to that point of saying, “Ah, I can a make choice. I can make big choices,
huge choices,” and then you make them. You don’t just say you can make them,
but you make a choice.
You get to that point of mastery
and you never have to think about a choice again, ever again. It’s already
there. It’s already there. There are no choices to be made, because you’re in
your mastery. You’re no longer limited. You’re no longer walking around saying,
“Well, I don’t know. And, you know, when’s the next star alignment going to
come? And when are the aliens going to come?” You’re out of all that. You’re
out of the limitations. As a free sovereign being you never make a choice
Why? Everything is going to be
there appropriately without thinking about it, without having to do “Should I
do this or that?” Never again will you have to make a choice. It will – snap! – be there. It will be there.
There’s no black. There’s no white. There’s no separation. There’s no “Should I
do this or should I do that?” It’s just there.
Perhaps – perhaps you don’t feel
you’re quite at that point yet, you’re quite at that point of trusting that
it’s just going to be there, but you are. Perhaps that’s pretty fearful,
thinking, “Oh my gosh. You mean I can just let go of control?” Hmm.
How would that feel, by the way?
How would that feel, Linda Hansen, to let go of control? Microphone is on its
way. A conversation we’ve been having, how would it feel …
LINDA H.: I was just sleeping.
ADAMUS: I know.
LINDA H.: You woke up me up! (Adamus
ADAMUS: Yes. That’s the best
thing, because then you don’t know all the lead-up to it.
LINDA H.: That’s true.
ADAMUS: How would it feel to let
go of all control, dear Linda?
LINDA H.: Pretty damn scary.
ADAMUS: Pretty damn scary. Thank
you for your honesty.
LINDA H.: Yeah.
ADAMUS: Very scary. Very scary.
Think – all of you think for a
moment – letting go of control. Ah, it sounds so good. “I’m a Master. I’ve
let go of control.” Well, when you take a look at everything you control during
the day and in your life, from time – control of time … what would it be
like just to let go of control of time! Oh, just think of all the people that’d
be upset with you. See, you can’t let go of time.
What if you let go of control of
your biology? Huh? Yeah, you know what that’s like! Whoops! Oh boy! (a few
Letting [go] control of your
thoughts for a day. It’s almost unfathomable. Letting go of the control. The control,
by the way, is the very thing that makes the little boxes, the limited self,
little limited I Am.
By the way, these boxes, you
notice I didn’t draw them touching each other, because that’s kind of the way
it is. The limited aspects or selves are not really connected. Maybe in some
strange way, but they actually really don’t connect or talk to each other.
So there’s a lot of control – the
control in the way you dress, you know, and so often the control comes from
what you think others are going to say, because it’s part of this huge matrix –
what you should and shouldn’t do. And …
Feel my frustration for you – for you, not at you, but for you. It is
boring, just deadly boring. You get to the point on this journey on this planet
and it’s really boring.
Could you imagine for a minute
just living your life out, well, just finishing your job, retiring, and then
realizing you don’t have enough money, so you’ve got to go be a greeter down at
Wal-Mart (some chuckles), and driving back and forth to work every day and
having to watch the time. Then your health starts to fail a little bit and
you’re hoping that it won’t be a lot, but it’s a little bit. And you try to
pretend it’s not, but it kind of is.
And then you just what, live out
some remaining days, you get kind of sick, and over a period of about five
years, you just kind of collapse into a state of disgust, and then you die.
And I’m saying this because, my
friends, you would rather do anything than do that. Other people are kind of
okay, content with doing that, because they don’t know any better, because they
don’t have the awareness.
Awareness does bring frustration
and annoyance and anger, and that’s why a good Master is a pissed off Master!
(laughter and applause) It’s very true. It is very, very true. So this whole
notion … by the way, think about who created and basically embedded this notion
that you’re supposed to be nice – saints are nice and Buddhas are nice –
and it’s not true.
There is – especially right about
now where you’re at – there is extreme annoyance, impatience, intolerance,
anger. And then you take a lot of energy to suppress it, and it doesn’t really
work. And then you get all f… (he mouths a swear word) in the mind, jambled up
in the mind, and trying to figure out – you exhaust yourself. You
bore yourself too, but you exhaust yourself, and you have no energy left. And
you fall into bed hoping, hoping for a reprieve in the late night hours, and it
doesn’t happen. It doesn’t happen. Welcome to mastery. (some chuckles and
grumbles from the audience)
First of all, let yourself really,
truly feel into all of this – your anger, your frustration, your confusion, be
angry at me, if you want – because it’s real. It’s happening and there’s a
reason for it; because you’re bored, you want something more, but because of
still having the boxes and some limitations and the fear of letting go of
control, you stay in the pattern. 5
Back to your question, the choice.
The choice can be to get out of the rut. But, my friends, when you get out of
that old template, when you get into your light body, your divine intelligence,
your I Am, it changes everything. And there are so many that want a little
change. Mastery is all or nothing. Mastery isn’t just a little better matrix
than you had last week. It is all or nothing. There’s either freedom or there’s
limitation. There’s not kind of free limitation. There’s not. And there’s
really not even limited freedom. There’s really not even limited freedom.
I want to do an experience before
we go to the next level here. How are we doing on time? It doesn’t matter!
I’d like to do an experience, and
if we could have the lights down, and let’s have some nice music in the
EDITH: How’s the cream today? Is
ADAMUS: The cream is not as good
as last month.
So let’s take a good deep breath,
as the lights come down. Oh, so much going on.
Such a beauty in what’s going on.
Oh! Just imagine the memories you’re going to have of this wonderful time of
your last life on this planet. “Oh god! I want to do it again!” (audience laughs
and says “Noo!”; Adamus chuckles) “That whole mastery thing, oh what a blast!
Oh! So confusing, so painful, but so good for me. Can’t I just do mastery all
over again?” No. No, you can’t un-know what you know. You can’t unlearn what
So take a good deep breath, as we
go into this experience.
This experience, remember to keep
It’s been said that you have a
planning session before you come back, come to a new lifetime. Some actually
do. Most don’t though. No, most of the time when somebody comes back for
another incarnation, they have no idea what’s going on. They’re drawn by the
compelling and magnetic forces of emotions and memories and karma and other
people; sucked right back to the planet without the benefit of even knowing
where they’re going to end up. But we kind of know where they’re going to end
up. They’re going to end up right back with the family that they’ve been
connected to for a long time.
So most people really never have
this type of planning session. They go from one lifetime to another to another,
tumbling through time and space; tumbling through challenges and difficulties;
tumbling through their own demons and darkness; once in a great while surfacing
for a bit of air, but not so often.
But you, my friends, you’re far
wiser than that, and indeed, you did have a time of contemplation before you
came in for this lifetime. You weren’t necessarily surrounded by a lot of other
angels. You had talks with some of the beings, some of the entities. But then
you kind of went off by yourself in your own beautiful dimension, knowing that
you were going to return to Earth.
You were conscious and aware of
it. You went off by yourself, away from all the other entities. Oh, you’d been
to Earth so many times. You knew the program. You knew the ins and outs. You
knew trees and rivers and skies and storms and snow and deserts and heat.
You knew the beauty, but also the
danger of nature.
You knew food and sex. You knew
people and their ways. You knew all of that. Nothing – nothing truly was going
to be new for you.
You went off by yourself,
preparing for your lifetime, this lifetime.
It was almost like it was yesterday.
And you had a very deep and
passionate reason for coming back. Now that deep and passionate reason sometimes
has been lost on you while you’ve actually been here.
Sometimes you’ve even fooled
yourself into believing that you came back to better humanity. That wasn’t the
It wasn’t even to find a lost soul
mate, because you knew, you already knew that a lot of your journey was going
to be alone, by yourself. You already knew.
You had a deep passion for coming
back. Somewhat of a knowingness that this was probably going to be the last
You knew there were certain things
that you wanted to complete.
In this contemplative time with
yourself, you were going through an interesting metamorphosis. Dissolving
through your past lifetime and that identity, dissolving into fragments of your
soul Self, dissolving at the same time into this new identity that you were
going to become in this lifetime. It was like all of these images, identities
blurring together, dissolving through each other.
Transforming out of your old
Dissolving or kind of going into
parts of the I Am…
Feeling the potentials of this
What was that passion? What was
that passion … for coming back?
I can tell you right now, it
wasn’t to make amends. It was not to justify anything or resolve anything
outside of yourself. That might have been a peripheral reason, but it wasn’t
the deep passion.
This deep passion wasn’t anything
that the entities told you you had to do. This wasn’t anything you were doing
on behalf of your spiritual family or the Order of the Arc. Your service to the
Order of the Arc had expired.
There was a deep passion that
transcended anything having to do with resolve the past or save humanity. It
was something within you, a burning desire, a heart’s desire.
It’s always been there, although
often it eludes you. Often you get caught up in the commotion of what you think
you’re supposed to be doing here in this lifetime, kind of like the Hatter, the
Mad Hatter running frantically here and there. But it’s still there. I can see
it. I can feel it in each and every one of you.
And it’s not a justification. In
other words, you don’t have to justify being here. It’s simply a passion.
I ask you to feel into that right
It goes beyond the memory of past
lives. It goes beyond the draw from other people, that attraction, the other
people that might have brought you here. This was yours. Yours.
Now, I’ll tell you, let’s go
beyond the thoughts right now and trying to define it in words, because it’s a
feeling. Thoughts would only limit it.
So I invite you to go into the feeling,
without words, without pictures.
I invite you to go into the
feeling of that passion, because that’s it, almost undefinable.
So now, take that outrageous
breath and go into the feeling.
Take a good deep breath. Actually,
Feeling into your energies, quite
Take a good deep breath.
Amazing that you allowed yourself
to go beyond the thought or the word or the definition. That, my friends, is
I asked you to experience
something that was very personal, very close and very, very real. Get the
lights up please.
But what I felt most of you doing,
actually, in this experience, was letting yourself go outside of the thought.
You struggled a little bit at first, but because we’re in a safe space, and for
even you watching in, you suddenly allowed yourself to go beyond having to
define it. There was some makyo at first – makyo being kind of the spiritual
b.s. – but you allowed yourself to go beyond that and go beyond the thought.
See, there’s a tendency for the
human mind to think about why you came here, but it’s not really why you came
here. The thought, any thought, about why you came here, the passion, is a
limitation. It’s limited into itself, because it’s a thought.
Any thought is limited. Period. No
exceptions. Thoughts are nice. They’re fine. They’re going to come and go. They
serve you in some ways, but it’s always limited.
So in this experience, then you
allowed yourself to go beyond some of the thoughts, because there is that thing, that feeling, that
passion that’s right there that’s causing your aggravation and your anger and
your frustration and your unease; your unease, and by the way, unease is far
better that disease. And that’s where it ends up, if you ignore it. If you’re
not aware of it, it ends up as disease.
So you allowed yourself to get
into a little bit of feeling, and it may have brought up some emotions, tears –
emotions connected to thought – but it also brought up for many of you a real
sensual experience. Not sexual, but sensual.
And for a moment in this safe
space, with some nice music playing, you felt once again. You felt. You had a
sensual feeling. Not just a thought, not just an emotion – you had those
as well – but a sensual feeling.
Most of you were able to go beyond
the definition, meaning the word, having to put it – “Why did I come here to
Earth? Because I want to be a Master.” (spit!) Those are just words. And even
the picture – the picture of yourself as kind of a glowing, floaty being, which
is nice – but you even allowed yourself to go beyond that into, if it was even
just for a fleeting moment, a sensual feeling. Sensory.
That’s what angels are by nature and
humans are not. That perhaps, perhaps, without even trying to put words on it,
is maybe one of the reasons, one of the attractions to come to this planet in
this lifetime – sensory, sensual awareness.
which is awareness, with its sensual, sensual feeling.
As humans, you’ve been bored.
Bored silly. Absolutely. So you’ve been trying to find ways to deal with it.
You tried to be nice. You’ve been having these dueling thoughts. You know, the
thought you’re bored; the thought you have to be nice. The thought that you’re
supposed to say life is so great; the thought is life sucks.
So you’re going through all this massive
activities, and Bonnie back to you. Bonnie, you would be in a mental
institution if it wasn’t for Crimson Circle. (some chuckles) And my pin
program, because – and maybe not literally, but figuratively – because, Bonnie,
all this activity has kept you occupied, has kept you busy. Activity, activity,
activity. And one could say, “But look at the grand importance to the world for
all this activity, the pins going out.” Nah, it’s just been activity, and it
has done some good, of course. But you would have torn yourself to shreds,
because you’re quite the thinker and the … you’re … Bonnie, you control. How
much more clear can I be?
BONNIE: Ohhh yes, very controlling.
ADAMUS: Am I psychic or what? (a
few chuckles) But the activity has actually, in a beautiful way, allowed you to
go through this process, as you’re going through, your freedom of yourself. But
you have activities to occupy your mind and occupy you, because otherwise it
would be so devastating to suddenly be conscious all at once of the fact that
control is being ripped out of your life. Control is just being torn away from
you, and it’s one of the very things that you identified with. It’s one of the
very things that you put out front.
Control is going away, Bonnie, and
if it had happened all of sudden, all at once, boom! Bye, bye, Bonnie. My
Bonnie lies over the ocean to the other side. (some chuckles) Went wayyy over
to the other side.
So, in a way – in a way, you’re
brilliant. Keep busy, keep active. But you don’t have to now. You realize what
it was all there for. And so many of you in all these activities and in all
this kind of a daze and confusion and feeling lost and… but, my friends, what’s
happening in this whole thing is you’re getting back to your freedom.
Freedom doesn’t always come easy
when you’ve been locked up for a long time. I mean, literally. For any prisoner
that’s been in a prison, in jail for 20 years, it’s very difficult. They
develop habits. They develop patterns and comforts, and most of the time, they
do not cope well on the outside, meaning in their freedom, so they do things to
get them back.
What’s the rate of return for
prisoners who have been in prison for more than, let’s say, 10 years? Up to
what, 60, 70, 80 percent. It’s not because they’re bad people; it’s because
they have habits. They have systems. They have controls. And once in prison,
it’s difficult to exist in the free space. And more than any being in all of
creation, I should know. Have I ever told you the story … (some chuckles and a
You knew that was coming. You knew it was coming.
So when I say that you can have
freedom or you can stay in limitation, but you can’t have limited freedom. It
just doesn’t work. And you’re trying. You’re trying. I’ll tell you right now,
keep trying, because it doesn’t work. You’re either free or you’re not. You’re
Comes back to the proposition, the
question you asked, Edith, do you have a choice? Absolutely. You already made
the choice a long time ago, every one of you. You wouldn’t be sitting here.
You’d be at some group down in Boulder. (laughter) You already made a choice,
and that’s why you’re here, and it’s not always easy.
I ask if you can just take a
moment, a precious moment, and just give a little thanks to yourself. We’re not
going to do a merabh or anything, but could you just give thanks to yourself.
It’s not easy. It’s not easy, but you’re doing it. You stated it. You made your
choice, Edith, a while back.
And, in a way, there are counter
choices that you’re trying to do – you and others have tried to do – say,
“Okay, but I don’t want this; I don’t want that.” It’s like, sorry, the train
is moving to Freedomville and you’re on it, and there’s no getting off at this
point. Because you made a choice, in a way – and I’m oversimplifying it –
but your choice back then was “I choose my mastery, which is my conscious
freedom. I choose that and I will not let any future, stupid, limited choice
override that choice.” It’s kind of a weird thing, dynamic that you put in. You
said, “I make this choice and no matter what I do or say in the future, even if
I want to turn back, I can’t.” You locked in it.
And then, to make it even crazier,
you called on me, (some laughter) to make sure you weren’t going to go back. So
you’re not. You’re not.
So let’s talk for a moment about
this whole thing having to do with thoughts. Last month, thoughts.
Thoughts are limited. Every
thought is limited. Period. If it was not limited, it wouldn’t be a thought. It
would be a sensory awareness, a feeling. And there’s no intelligence,
analytics, judgments or limitations put on a true sensory awareness. None
whatsoever. Other than that, every thought is limited.
You’re manufacturing a lot of
thoughts all the time. They’re based on beliefs, and the thoughts then create
new beliefs and thoughts. You have new thoughts coming in trying to suppress
your other thoughts, and it’s a thought pollution going on. Talk about
environmental problems, your thought thing is creating a tremendous internal environmental
So you got all these thoughts
going on, and then thoughts create moods. You can walk around and say, “I’m in
a bad mood.” Why? “Well, because we just had a cardinal grand something or
other. That’s why.” No. No. That’s not why. It has a little bit of an
influence, a slight influence, but you’re in a bad mood because of your
What Creates Moods?
Now, let’s talk about other things
that create moods, and then I’ll go one step further, and if we could get you
writing on the board. What else creates moods, besides your thoughts? But what
other things influence moods? This is so obvious, it hurts. Linda’s going to
run with the microphone. Yes.
ADAMUS: Alcohol. (some chuckles)
That’s true. Yeah. Yeah. Let’s call it chemical input.
ADAMUS: Drugs, alcohol. How is
that pot smoking coming along now that it’s legal?
KERRI: Thanks a lot, busting me
ADAMUS: Now that it’s legal, you
KERRI: I went. I did.
ADAMUS: … you can come out of the
KERRI: I went and got some.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah.
KERRI: Yeah. I was not really in
ADAMUS: For medicinal purposes.
KERRI: Only to proper people like
Linda I lied, I was a good girl. But really the whole time I was having fun.
ADAMUS: Sure. Yeah.
KERRI: Maybe you didn’t know that.
I don’t know.
ADAMUS: Look at the limitation of
that. You know, that you had to cover up that you were a drug addict … I
ADAMUS: … that you smoke
marijuana? (Adamus chuckles)
KERRI: You suck!
ADAMUS: But, but …
KERRI: I was not!
ADAMUS: … look at, look at that – “I
have to cover up …”
KERRI: You know, this is hard down
here. Okay. You go work 40 hours a week …
ADAMUS: Linda …
KERRI: … and not have a beer.
ADAMUS: I would never work 40 hours.
Please! Really?! Can you see me
walking into an office?! Trying to find a parking spot? Worrying if I was five
KERRI: If you sat in a cubicle you
would smoke a little too.
ADAMUS: I would not do it. Why are
you, my dear?
KERRI: I don’t know, man.
ADAMUS: Oh! Go in the bathroom.
KERRI: Oh fuck! Oh shit!!
(audience is saying, “Ohh!”)
ADAMUS: On the toilet! No, on the
toilet! Not just standing there, on the toilet. Pull down the pants and sit on
that toilet. (laughter) And then we’ll talk about your … see, it’s your
cubicle. You’re just going to your cubicle, the same place you go every day. You
drive your car. You worry about being late. You worry about the money, and you
go sit on the toilet every day in your cubicle. That’s life. We’re going to
break you of that. Go to the toilet! (laughter, as she goes outside)
So where were we? Oh, alcohol. So,
what next? What else affects your moods? (someone says “Weather”) Let’s wait
for the microphone, but you’re correct.
SHAUMBRA 4 (man): The environment
around us, including people.
ADAMUS: Peop- … oh, so peo- … let’s
put relationships, people. Yes. What else? We could do this quickly. What else
affects your mood?
SHAUMBRA 5 (woman): Sleep.
ADAMUS: Sleep. Absolutely. Sleep,
lack of sleep, will really affect your mood, because you’re going to be tired,
and you’re going to be really cranky. Actually – you’re going to boo me – to
an extent, being tired is really good for you right now, not getting a good
night’s sleep. Because you know what? It’s breaking down some of your defenses
and your controls and your limitations, because you get so damn tired that you
don’t have the energy to put up all of these psychic barriers and walls. So
you’re just breaking them down. So don’t blame me for waking you up at 2:22 in
the morning. I have no idea what you’re talking about whatsoever. So, yes,
What else affects your moods?
(someone says “Thoughts”) Wait for the microphone. Yes.
SHAUMBRA 6 (man): Lack of time.
ADAMUS: Time. Lack of time. Good.
Yeah. But I go back to frantic activity – neurotic frantic activity – and
Bonnie, if you weren’t employed with such a fine company and doing such a good
job with Shaumbra around the world, you’d be involved in some other frantic
activity. You really would be, all of you. I mean there’s almost a neurotic
tendency to do something, especially when you know the end is coming. (Adamus pauses,
then chuckles) The end of your old era, the end of your old way of doing
things. So it’s like you have to keep busy in order to justify the air you
breathe and the space you take and you don’t have to. No. Actually, ehh, no.
Okay, what else? What else? Very quickly,
what else affects a mood?
Don’t say those words. Just
anything. What affects your mood?
ADAMUS: Music. Absolutely. Oh, it
can be delightful. Yes. Good. Thank you.
What I want you to do is start
realizing your mood. Your mood and things that can affect it. What else? Quickly,
quickly, quickly, quickly!
LINDA: I’m running! I’m running!
ADAMUS: It’s one or two words.
SHAUMBRA 7 (woman): Weather.
ADAMUS: Weather. Absolutely. Weather
affects your mood. Barometric pressure drops, it affect your body. Your body is
constantly … are you to ready to come back and join us? (to Kerri) Thank you. Why
didn’t you just tell me to go to hell?
ADAMUS: You didn’t have to go sit
on the toilet.
KERRI: I thought of it. I …
ADAMUS: Yeah. Geez!
KERRI: I couldn’t say it.
ADAMUS: Here, next time I do that
say, “Adamus, I am a Master. Bite me.”
KERRI: (shouts) I’m a Master! Bite
ADAMUS: Thank you. Sorry that I
had to give you the words.
Okay. One more. Weather affects
you. What else? What affects your mood?
SHAUMBRA 8 (woman): Well,
relationships are up there.
ADAMUS: Relationships, absolutely.
SHAUMBRA 8: Family.
ADAMUS: Let’s come up with
something new though.
SHAUMBRA 8: Nature. Yes.
ADAMUS: Nature. Sure. Nature can
affect your mood.
So, to my point, there’s a lot of
things that affect your moods. Star alignments, cosmic alignments absolutely
can affect your mood. You’ve got it going on right now. It doesn’t make your
day. It doesn’t put you in prison or set you free, but it will affect your
mood. It will alter the way you’re interacting with yourself and the artificial
reality around you. Very much so.
The reason I bring up moods is
because often you become a slave of your mood. “I’m in a bad mood because … the
weather. I’m in a bad mood because the world is falling apart. I’m in a bad
mood, because …” Usually, actually ‘people’ would be number one on the list.
The one that wasn’t mentioned here
was your health, your physical wellbeing. A lot of times you wake up in the
morning and you say, “Does it hurt or not today?” Yes, the body pain has a
tremendous effect on your mood. If you have arthritis, if you have diabetes, if
you have headaches, if you have any type of physical pain, it absolutely will
affect your mood.
But what happens is that you
become a slave of the mood. In other words, “I’m in a bad mood today, so I’m
just going to … (someone says “Wallow”) wallow in it. This is my destiny,” or,
you know, “it’s being inflicted on me” or “somebody hates me” or whatever, or “I
have no management of my mood.” I didn’t say “control,” I said “management of
my mood.” So you put up with it, and what do you do? And again, this is like
the weather. You’re in a mood and what do you do? You hope it’ll change.
You hope it’ll change, but the
fact is that the moods are very … most moods last about two days, maybe three
at the most, the short term little human moods. You’ve got bigger moods up
here, but that’s for another Shoud.
So you’ve got these mood and you
live from mood to mood. Moods are created by thoughts. Thoughts are not real.
They’re limited, and you live from mood to mood. And when I say “you,” I’m
talking about humans in general. You
are moving beyond all of that.
But what happens here is you start
to become conscious. You become very conscious of, “Hey, these are the dynamics
that have been going on in my life. Hah! Here’s what’s been happening. I
thought I was nuts.” You’re not. You just haven’t become quite conscious of it
yet. You’re not nuts.
There is nothing crazy about you.
You would only be crazy if you accepted your limitations, and you don’t. You
don’t at all and that’s why you’re here. You’d only be crazy if you said,
“That’s the way it is and I’m really happy with it.” (some chuckles) I would
question. I would really question you. I would say you’re either on something
or you have found an incredible way of being so delusional that you can smile.
And it’s rarely done. Delusional people can fake a smile, but they generally
are really tormented inside. But they’re so delusional, they can say, “I’m
happy. How about you?” Yeah. “Isn’t this a wonderful planet to live on?” (some laughter
at his fake smile) “I can’t wait for my next lifetime.” (Adamus chuckles) “Bye.
I’m going to go play with the dolphins.”
So, my dear friends, moods,
they’re all around. And what I’m trying to do is get you to be conscious of
these things that affect your understanding of yourself, affect your position.
There’s no magic in any of this.
There’s no waving of magic wands. There is simply becoming aware of how you got
Now, through my own personal
experience – Cauldre’s asking me to wrap it up, but we’re just getting started.
(a few chuckles) Through my own personal experience, I learned one very
important thing in my – ahem – long incarceration in my own prison. Whatever
you get yourself into, you can also get yourself out of. In other words, no
other person’s going to do it for you. If you stepped into it, you can also
clean it off. If you got yourself into a consciousness of limitation, you can
also step right out of it.
But the question I have asked,
particularly the awakening humans, not so much the Masters, but the question I
always ask is are you really ready to? And we’ve gone through that in our
discussions before. Are you really ready to step out of that prison, out of
your limitations? And generally what I get is “Well, but…” Those are generally
the first words – “Well, but…” Or sometimes, you know, “Yes, but…” or sometimes
just “I don’t know.” (Adamus chuckles)
You can step right out, and
basically you have, and now you’re going through the process of the
You don’t have to work at it. You
already stepped out of that prison. It was decided a long time ago, Edith, and
said, “I’m out of here,” because, you know, “It was fun being in that
limitation for a while and playing the different roles, and doing the things I
did, but I’m done. I’m out.”
So now you have made that
decision, it’s done and now you’re just going through the transformation.
Alchemy happens after the decision, not before. So you’re just going through
If I can get you to just take a
deep breath and relax into your enlightenment and stop worrying about if it’s
going to come. Well, yeah. The question is how it’s going to come, and that’s
up to you.
You take a deep breath into
simplicity and awareness, into the I Am, and just let it come.
Now, I want to mention one other
thing here very quickly and then do a little – do a true merabh.
There’s two things that are really
challenging for many of you when it comes to moods and thoughts and this whole
thing, and those two things are, number one, dark – your dark side; your
negative side. You just don’t want to face it, so you run from it. You don’t want
to embody it. And I’m sorry, but you cannot just
embody the light. You cannot just embody the light.
There’s a term that we use on the
other side, it’s called, oddly enough, it’s called anost. It’s like gnost, but
kind of “a” like a-gnost, and it means that there’s a bias towards the light. You’re
trying to be the light. It’s not going to work. And you’re trying to be happy
and pleasant and the light and the … it’s a spiritual pacifier, and it’s just
not going to work. And every Master has realized that along the way. It’s like,
“Oh crap. I am the dark also.”
As a matter of fact, there’s kind
of an interesting social phenomena that’s just starting, and you should know exactly
where it came from. It’s called endarkment. Endarkment. You know, we have
enlightenment; there’s a new social psychiatric movement going on called
endarkment. Interesting. I wonder where that came from! (a few chuckles)
Because so much of the mood factor is moving away from the dark. In other
words, “I’m in a mood. It’s dark. There’s something I don’t like. I’m going to
move away from it.”
So there’s this tendency to move
away from everything dark about yourself, including all the memories you’ve had
of the past and your past in this lifetime and either blotting them out,
pushing them away, trying to fix them, trying to process them. No, my friends,
drink them in – the dark, the light, all of it – because if you’re imbalanced
to this light, you’re going to learn some interesting things the hard way, the
You don’t get to enlightenment
through the light. It is also about drinking in the dark.
Now, right away, – gasp! – “If I drink in, breathe in my
darkness, aren’t I accepting the bad things about myself?” Well, yeah, kind of
in a way, but they really weren’t bad.
Next big hurdle is like, “Oh my
gosh, if I go into endarkment, accepting the dark, what if I become evil?”
Evil. And look at it – if I could have the pen here – look at it. (he writes
on the board) The word evil is live and it’s the veil also. So, see, this is
Satan. In English, for those of you who are not English speakers. But in
English, an interesting play on the words here.
So you say, “What if I go to
endarkment, allowing my darkness? Allowing…” Now, what’s the darkness? Tobias
told you years ago. It’s the things you didn’t love about yourself. It’s your
divinity. The things you didn’t allow about yourself. But there is this
tremendous fear. “What if I go evil?” And what is evil?
Well, people will say it’s
darkness, it’s … you know, this is philosophical more than anything, but evil
is simply a mass consciousness expression of suppressed darkness of the
individuals. So many individuals will suppress their personal darkness. Well,
this kind of goes into mass consciousness, kind of into the big matrix, and it
ferments there, and it gets really stinky, and it’s gaseous and it explodes.
A person will pick that up – an
individual – and become evil. But in a way they’re just an expression of a
darkness within all people. It’s not necessarily serving all people to have
this one person act out evil, but that’s exactly what’s happening. Somebody
just gets kind of like, they get into darkness on steroids, and they go evil.
So the question is what if you
endarken as well as enlighten? Will you go evil? What is that? That’s a
thought. So I ask you to feel into that, rather than think about it.
What if you also allow what you
would have called the dark, whether it’s your memories, whether it’s your
feelings? You know, even this irritation that’s so prevalent right now, this
frustration, is a little bit of darkness, kind of a gray, you know. We can laugh
about it, but if it goes too much further, erghhh, it could be pretty dark.
So what if you endarken, in other
words, allow it? To be able to say safely, “I don’t even want my dog with me.”
I mean, if you put that in the newspaper in the headline, you’d be right up
there with Don Sterling. (laughter) I mean, people would think, “What is wrong
with this lady?! She doesn’t even want her dog. Is this what the Crimson Circle
teaches? They can’t stand other people? They find other people repulsive?”
Yeah, actually, and particularly journalists who write stupid stories like
that. (a few chuckles)
Now, this leads to one more thing,
and this is going to be a difficult one. What we’re talking about here is being
conscious of what have been the limitations so that you can really kind of
glide into freedom.
The other thing is depression.
Depression. It’s an interesting thing. We didn’t used to have depression. In Atlantis
there was no such thing as depression. No. Why? Well, because you were always
with other people. You always had a project. You always had something to work
on together, and it was one big great big – that’s where the original Kumbaya
was, in Atlantis. No, literally. There was a place called Kumbaya, and it’s
been picked up and brought into an expression and they even made a song about
it! (some laughter) I was there, many of you were there in Kumbaya, and now
it’s a joke. But… (he chuckles)
There wasn’t depression back then.
Depression is a relatively new phenomenon. Depression occurs when the thoughts
suppress the life force energy and the thoughts suppress the passion of the I
Am to the point it creates such a veil that it seems like there is nothing
left. Depression lacks in what I would call a flow of energy. The energy just
There’s a lot of energy in
depression. If we could find a way to drill into depression, we would extract a
lot of energy, but it’s sitting in a muck, in a tar. It’s just not moving. It’s
So depression is the mind having
generated so many thoughts and ideas and beliefs and little tricks and little
methods that none of them work. And the mind essentially is saying, “I don’t
know what to do anymore, so I’m just going to go into a state of depression.”
Depression is more of a state of
animated suspension. Not so animated, actually, it’s just a state of
suspension. Some would call it nothingness, but it’s actually quite full. It’s
actually very full. And those who have depression would probably argue that,
saying there’s nothing here. No, you’d be better off with nothing than you are
with depression. Depression is a tremendous amount of uninspired energy. It’s
not going anywhere.
(Linda motions about the time) Time?
Oh, you like my outfit today, is that what you’re saying? Ah, got plenty of
So depression is this state of
suspended energy without inspiration, motivation, freedom, and it’s given up.
It’s stopped. So what does humanity do to try to get people out of depression?
They give them drugs, which you know I am not a fan of. And when I say I am not
a fan I want to qualify that and say when I speak about that, I’m speaking to you. I’m not speaking to the rest of the
world. I’m not trying to be a doctor or a psychiatrist for the rest of the
world. I am saying it to Shaumbra. And there are very different reasons why you
shouldn’t – or I would not recommend that you do – versus the general
public. But that being said…
So depression, darkness and
depression, are two very challenging factors. And in just a moment I’m going to
ask you to actually drink them in or breathe them in or allow them in.
You’ve allowed in light and
happiness and feel good and all the rest of that, but the fact is there’s much
more to it. There is energy even in the darkness. There is awareness in your
irritation. There is goodness, there is benefit in some of the difficult things
you’re going through. And the worst thing you’re doing, really the only thing
you’re doing that’s kind of mucking it up, is wondering what you’re doing
wrong. And that will lead to depression, by the way, because it’s a thought.
It’s a limitation. “What am I doing wrong?” Well, there’s an assumption you’re
doing something wrong. And I say to you assume that it’s all being done right.
And you say, but your mind says, “Well, I’m not sure I can assume everything.
I’ll assume a little bit,” and then you don’t sleep at night.
So the only real problem here, and
you know exactly what I’m talking about, is you keep saying “What am I doing
wrong?” And I’m saying “Nothing,” and then you get mad at me. We have these
long arguments at night, and you say, “But I know I’m doing something wrong,
otherwise …” I’m like, no. You made a choice a long time ago, Edith, to do
this, to transform, and you’re trying to do it in a single lifetime. And it’s
working. And it’s working, if you could just breathe that in.
So I’ll go back to the beginning
of this whole day when I stepped forth and said, “Let’s take a deep breath,” and
I got this shallow little weak anemic uninspired breathing. And Aandrah came up
here and tried to get you to breathe and some of you fell to sleep. (a few
chuckles) And then we’ve had to talk for the last two hours – two hours – about something very
simple, and it’s about allowing. It’s about you. It’s about drinking it in.
It’s about stop saying “What am I doing wrong?” Nothing.
Could you just … you’re going to
get through this when you finally say, “Oh yeah, okay. I’m just going to just
stop worrying about it.” You’re going to say, “God, what great memories!” Not
doing that quite yet though.
Merabh to Drink Deeply of Life
So let’s take a deep breath. We’ll
do a relatively short merabh here. If we could have the lights down, please.
Okay, let’s take a good deep
breath, a little music. Music’s always nice. Yes, music does affect the mood in
Let’s take a good deep breath.
And in this very sacred and
precious moment, I’m going to ask you to once again let yourself go beyond the
A Master drinks it in. A Master
drinks deeply. A Master drinks very deeply of everything – of their darkness,
of their depression, of their joys and their light. A Master drinks very deeply
And here you’ve been, after many,
many lifetimes, you’ve finally gotten to this point. Been there, done that.
Been a bored Master for a little while here, because you’ve been limiting the
flow of energy.
You don’t want more of the same
old, and I commend you for that. You don’t want more of yesterday. You don’t
want more of the same routines and patterns. You should commend yourself for
You don’t want to keep going
through the patterns over and over. You don’t want to just make a living. You
don’t want to just have a relationship. Oh, you’d rather have no relationship
than just another relationship.
You don’t want just to be skimming
by with your health, just hoping you’re not going to contract some fatal
disease or illness. Oh, my friends, you’re so done. So done, and at the same
point so ready for something new.
You know it’s there. You know that
whatever this is, this thing that’s beyond the words, you know it’s there.
Kind of an interesting paradox
though, at this point; because you don’t want just more of the same, you limit,
you hold back. You don’t breathe in like a monster, a crazy monster. You hold
So today this whole day is about
the Master drinks deeply, breathes deeply, lives deeply, sleeps very deeply.
The Master understands that the
only type of control should be very conscious control. In other words, you’re
conscious that you’re deliberately controlling. What is not appropriate is all
the unconscious controlling. It happens every day, thousands of times a day –
unconscious controls and limitations.
It’s all right to control and manage, but consciously.
A Master drinks deeply, even into
their darkness. Not trying to control it. Not trying to avoid it. Especially
drinks deeply of their own darkness, their own sadness.
A Master drinks deeply into life.
And while there may be a concern
that if you drink deeply into life right now you might get stuck in it, you
might have to come back, you might get lost again. But you won’t. You won’t,
because you’ve made that commitment and decision to yourself. You won’t, because
I won’t let you.
You can drink deeply into life and
not get stuck in it.
What was it, what was that
passion, that deep, deep passion we talked about in our last musical
experience? I don’t really want to put words to it, but I’ll give you a hint. It
was to live. It was to live.
And not just to exist. Not just to
go through life, but after all these lifetimes and incarnations, the passion
was to live. That was it.
You’re not going to get stuck.
You’re not going to get lost. You’re going to live.
You might live irritated at times
with people. There might be times when some of the very limited energies and
consciousness of the planet drive you crazy, but you can still live. That’s the
passion. That’s the sensual engagement.
A lot of other things happen. When
you live you become a Standard for others. When you live, you have vitality and
health and abundance. When you live, you inspire others. But the joy, the
passion is just to live – wide out, no brakes on, wide open.
So I invite you to take this
moment to drink deeply, to eat deeply, to love deeply, to breathe, to
experience all of these things deeply.
The Master drinks deeply.
The unawakened, they drink very
shallow. But the Master drinks deeply, fearlessly, without limitations.
Now, take another breath, if you
would, an unforced breath, but yet a deep breath. What does that mean? You’re
not forcing the breathing in or out, but yet it’s deep. How do you do that? You
When you breathe deeply without
having muscles and force, suddenly that air and that energy just flows, streams,
comes into your body, comes into your thoughts. You can breathe deeply without
See how that works? You can drink
deeply of life without forcing anything.
I love the fact that you’re
letting yourself go beyond thought right now. I mean, in general these days
you’re going beyond thought into just true sensory awareness, the sensuality of
life. That’s the real release. That’s the real going beyond the prison.
There’s a little bit of it going
on here today – just the feeling.
Let’s take a good deep breath of
You’re moving on to a new stage, a
new phase. Literally leaving this space now. It’s served you well. You’re
moving to your new space literally, figuratively. Not always easy. Eh, it’s
taken a lot of work, they say, to build this new place, taken a lot of money,
but it’s all there in service.
Same thing is happening to you
personally. You’re leaving behind your ancestral biology. You’re leaving behind
thoughts. You’re leaving behind mass consciousness, going to your own space
now. Not always easy. A lot of good memories too, but my dear friends, it’s
what you chose, therefore, it is.
And if you ever have any doubts or
fears or concerns, take a deep breath and remember …
ADAMUS AND AUDIENCE: All is well
in all of creation.
ADAMUS: Thank you, dear Shaumbra.
Thank you. (audience applause)
Music played before the Shoud was
“Heart’s On Fire” by Passenger
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