THE CRIMSON CIRCLE MATERIALS
The Freedom Series
SHOUD 10: “Expectations of Enlightenment” – Featuring ADAMUS, channeled by Geoffrey Hoppe
Presented to the Crimson Circle
August 3, 2013
I Am that I Am, Adamus of Free and Sovereign Domain.
Ahh! Take a good deep breath. Get all of these energies
grounded. It takes a moment for us to make that final transition into your
realms to be here directly with you.
Take a good deep breath. Did you feel how the energy changed
so beautifully and quickly as we entered into this Shoud? Mm, finally, some
halfway decent music. (laughter) (music played before the channel was “She’s
Real” by Nick Urata)
A warning before we get going with today’s discussion and
further transformation of energy, for those who are watching in live, new for
the first time, curiosity seekers: You may want to turn off the Internet
now. Why? Why? Because this is a very special gathering. This is not typical
new age. This is not spiritual toe dabbling. This is a group of humans here in
Colorado, all around the world, who are dedicated to their enlightenment in
this lifetime while staying in the body.
What we go through is life changing, and not always easy.
What we go through with this group called Shaumbra is true. It will bring you
to your truth. Isn’t that true Pete? It will bring you to your knees if it has
to. It will bring you to the depths of hell and the heights of heaven, but it
It’s not for everyone, not at all. No, not at all.
So if you’re just curious, if you’re looking to steal some
energy, if you’re here just to go out in the zone, if you’re here to suck off
of the channel energy, tune out now, because it could hurt later. (Adamus
Welcome Shaumbra. Welcome to this last Shoud in the Freedom
Series. Ah, last Shoud in the Freedom Series.
Freedom. What do they say? Freedom is just another word for
nothing left to lose? Are you there? (some chuckles as he looks into the camera)
Anything you have left to lose that we need to clear out today? (laughter)
Here we are in the Freedom Series, and ultimately this word “enlightenment”
is really just freedom. Freedom to be yourself, to be your full expression,
free of the things that would hold you back, keep you in your own crystal
prison. Free to be the I Am, beholden to no one – no one, not even some
Amazing isn’t it? You always think, “Well, I can let go of
the parent thing or the teacher thing or the angelic thing or all of these
other levels, but isn’t there always that God I’m beholden to?” Not in the
purity of God. No, because Spirit, the Eternal One gave you Itself with no
rules, no regulations, no checking in, no curfew or anything else. Said, “Go
and be as you want to be. Be the I Am.”
That’s a lot of responsibility. It’s something actually, as
we discussed, starting several years ago, there are a lot of humans that really
don’t want their freedom. They want an easier life, but not necessarily true
freedom. But you, I believe, have chosen that. You have taken that
responsibility, and it’s not always easy, this thing called enlightenment. And
probably a lot more difficult than what you ever thought it was going to be
like, a lot more difficult.
So many expectations, and that’s what we’re going to talk
about today in this last of the Freedom Series – the expectations, those few
really difficult and challenging things that are still remaining, a few
difficulties, road blocks. We’re going to do some discussion, we’ll take some deep
breaths and hopefully move beyond those.
This thing called enlightenment – not so easy at all. I
think there was a perception on the human level what it was going to be like,
and it wasn’t that way at all, and that’s a good thing, because the last thing
that you or your I Am would ever want was the human aspect designing your
enlightenment. (laughter) The thoughts are quickly going through the mind of
what an awkward creation that would have been! Filled with mistruths, filled
with imbalances, filled with, well, some things that we’re going to talk about
But, yes, if the human was left to design and to allow this
thing called enlightenment, I don’t think ultimately it would really be about
enlightenment, because there would be limitations. If you sat down and said,
“This is how I’m going to get enlightenment and this is what enlightenment is,”
there would have been so many limitations and so many biases and imbalances.
And the human would have continued its energy feeding. The human would have continued
to try to glorify its human identity other than its I Am identity. The human
would have become very vulnerable to all of the other elements around – mass
consciousness, its own past, its mind, its analytic versus creative way of
thinking. So it’s a good thing that it wasn’t the human design.
The human aspect, part of which is sitting here today, the
human aspect that you are, fortunately has been allowing this thing called enlightenment – far different, far,
far different than designing it or thinking it – just allowing it.
That allowing, that assuming that we talked about in our last Shoud, it takes
tremendous trust, and very, very few people will ever get to that level of
I know it’s difficult at times. I’m nearby, so often at
night, when you’re going through some of the worst, when you’re going through
that inner torment that you go through. But I’m so proud of each and every one
of you that you can, in the midst of those storms, you can take a deep breath,
and from the purest part of yourself, take a deep breath and say, “I Am that I
No longer trying to fight these inner battles or inner
demons. No longer trying to figure out what you’re supposed to be doing. No
longer trying to craft or design your own enlightenment, but taking a deep
breath – taking a good deep breath – and saying, “I Am that I Am.”
Very Little Guidance
One of the difficulties about being where you are at with
the realization of your enlightenment – and I say the realization, because
the enlightenment is already there, and you know that. It’s the realization or
the awareness of your enlightenment. It’s the allowing of what is already
One of the difficult parts about being at, you could say,
this stage or in this experience of the realization is that there is very, very
little guidance at this point. Very little guidance, and that’s a good thing.
You’ve got a little bit of guidance – but perhaps more
provocation – from me and from some of the other angelic beings, but please
realize that there are not that many human or angelic beings who have ever
realized and accepted their true sovereignty – you call it being an
Ascended Master – very, very few, a little over 9,000, more on the
way. Yes, through you of course, more on the way, but very, very few. So how
could some of the beings who are in service to humanity – and some who say
they’re in service to humanity but are more in service to themselves – how
could they possibly be working as your guides right now? Because they don’t
I’ll tell you, there are many … (pause) A little inner
dialogue here. We’re just going to go forward. (a few giggles) There are many
channeled entities – wonderful beautiful entities – that are being channeled
through humans these days, but they have not gotten to where you are in their own
freedom, in their own sovereignty. They’re still searching just like you. Just
because they’re from a different dimension or some mother ship or they had an
illustrious famous past life, doesn’t mean that they understand any more than you
You’re at the point in your experience of realization, as
tough as it may be at times, you’re at that point where there is very little
guidance, because there are very few who can actually guide you at this point,
who actually understand what you’re going through and why you’re going through
it. Very, very few beings angelic or otherwise who really understand. Furthermore,
the ones who do understand, they know it’s time to take a few steps back to let
you go through the discovery yourself.
Now, seems like a little bit of a bad deal going through
enlightenment, as torturous as it is and beautiful as it is at times, to
suddenly hear you have very, very little guidance. We meet once a month. I come
and talk to you every few days, depending on your level of distress and drama
and how much you use all caps in your communications with me. (laughter as he
refers to an earlier comment from Geoff about not writing in all caps) Which,
of course, I don’t mind, but I wasn’t a Virgo. As a matter of fact, I’m going
to keep today’s session a little shorter than usual – yeah, so he says –
because today is my birthday.
LINDA: Oh! Really?! (a few “happy birthdays” and applause)
ADAMUS: In my lifetime of St. Germain, this was the date of
my birth. So I keep this …
LINDA: A Leo.
ADAMUS: … as my celebrat- … a Leo, of course. (Linda
giggles) I keep this as my celebrated birthday. So we have a little
entertainment, a little party at the Ascended Master’s Club this evening. Not
to cut you short but it is my birthday. (various comments, someone asks “Can we
come?”) No I don’t want you to say it! (Adamus chuckles)
LINDA: (singing) How old are you? How old are you? How …
ADAMUS: That’s not a nice question. (laughter) How old are
you? I’ll show you mine if you show me yours.
LINDA: Fifty-eight. La, la, la.
ADAMUS: Well, I am about 308.
LINDA: Ooooh. (someone says “You look good!”; laughter)
ADAMUS: Actually, I look better. This is Cauldre! (audience
says “Owww” and more laughter)
LINDA: Owww! Oooooh!
ADAMUS: So where were we? We’re talking about very – oh, I
was on a serious note there – very little guidance at this point, and
that’s a good thing.
As difficult as it is at times and as often as you call out
to beings to come and help you, you notice that not many really come around.
It’s like calling out in the darkness. Not that you aren’t being heard, but
they understand that you have to go it on your own. Difficult, isn’t it?
Years ago with Tobias you gave up your regular guides.
You’ve given up so many of the beings who you connected with, and the beauty of
that is that you get to make your own choices, in darkness sometimes. You get
to make your own choices. And when it’s really your choice – not influenced by
angelic beings, not influenced by some sort of a grand master, not influenced
by anything else, even by other people – when you get to make your
own choices, you get to feel the depth and the truth of those choices.
It brings you to greater depths. It brings you beyond your
typical drama analysis, which is oftentimes used when you’re facing a situation,
trying to make a choice and you feel, from a drama standpoint, you feel into
the projected outcomes of the certain potentials or scenarios. It’s an
intellectual emotion that you put into making those choices, and you feel, then,
When you are without the guidance, like you are now, you
have to go deeper. You have to go beyond just the drama or the fear.
Oftentimes, choices are made simply in fear, simply which is the least fearful
of all the scenarios in front of you.
An interesting thing happens also at this point in your
experience. The fear of death used to be the thing that you ran from the most.
You avoided it. When making these drama or these emotional decisions, you’d take
a look and say, “Will this one potentially lead to death, especially a painful
death?” And if so, you avoided that potential.
It’s interesting to note that for many of you now, death
isn’t really even a factor. Not even a factor. It’s, in a way, because you’ve
gone through the darkest dark night of the soul. And some of you even not sure
you want to be here anymore. Some of you even thinking that death is going to
provide resolution, which is does not.
Does not. Doesn’t suddenly make you terribly insightful and all your problems
go away. It just means you’re dead. (some laughter) Dead. Everything else is
still there. So you might as well figure it out or allow it right here.
But you would make choices based on these emotional factors
– fear factors. You’d go for the least of the fearful, but you’re going beyond
that now. You’re taking a deeper dive into your own truth.
You’re doing it from the perspective of this thing you call
enlightenment or freedom. What’s going to free you? What’s going to allow the greatest
level of awareness? What’s going to allow the integration of the I Am into your
If you had a lot of guidance, and some of you still call on
it now and then, but if you had a lot of guidance for the issues in your life,
you would still be deferring to others, and there are very, very few – you can
hide, but you can’t run (to Linda) – there are very, very few who
So this is a good thing, and I know at times it feels lonely.
At times you feel that nobody is listening. First of all, I am, but I don’t
necessarily respond, other than perhaps once in a while a little provocation;
once in a while, a whisper – “I Am. Remember that, I Am” – just that
Have you noticed how resilient you are? How resilient. You
go through some of the worst. That’s the amazing thing about anyone who has
ever been in human form, something that the other beings really don’t
understand – the resiliency of a human. One could also call it just
stubbornness. (Adamus chuckles a little)
LINDA: (clapping) Yay us!
ADAMUS: Or determination.
LINDA: Yay us!
ADAMUS: Yay us. But the resilience, the ability to go
through difficult situations – life … perhaps life-taking situations,
situations with other people that have what you feel are huge implications,
life-threatening things – and you’re able to allow your way through them.
Allow with the I Am countenance within yourself and bounce back, and smile on
top of that.
Yes, it’s been difficult. Yes, I know. I understand that
there are times where you just want to give up. But somehow, even in those
darkest moments, you’re able to remember to take a deep breath. You’re able to
remember “I Am. I exist! Yes! I exist, so therefore, all things are possible.”
As you, as we go forward, you’ll find there’s even less
outside guidance. You’ll come to truly appreciate that. You’ll come to truly
Of course, we’ll continue meeting like this, but some of the
other beings that you’ve relied on, and some of them being real, some of them
being your own creations, if you know what I mean – ahem, you know what I mean (speaking to Norma; Adamus chuckles) –
aspects that you create as outside beings who really aren’t outside beings;
they’re really inside beings. That’s fine. But there’s going to be less of that
and more discovery of your truth. That’s a good, good, good thing.
Enlightenment. Freedom. There are a lot of expectations
about this thing called enlightenment. You got onto this boat of enlightenment
a couple of thousand years ago … I thought it was funny. (only a couple of
chuckles) And we haven’t stopped paddling. (Adamus chuckles)
You’ve been on this path of enlightenment for a while, for a
variety of reasons. If you feel back into it, going back two thousand [years],
some of you much longer than that. Why? Why? You’ve had a lot of human
incarnations. You went through some of the grand eras of humanity. You’ve had
lifetimes that you were, let’s call it, famous or rich; other lifetimes where
you swept manure out of a stable; lifetimes when you died when you were very, very,
very young; lifetimes when you were killed or you killed others – all
But why? What started this whole thing? It’s not from up
there. There’s no control panel up in heaven that’s saying, “Okay, it’s your
time for enlightenment.” It was you. It was the I Am through its aspects, its
incarnations, that at some point said, “It’s time.”
Feel back into that for a moment, not the details, but the
essence of that – this thing that started you on a path of thousands
of years and many, many lifetimes.
Boredom with the regular human lifetime, because after a
while, I’d say after a couple of hundred lifetimes, they’re all pretty much the
same. They truly are.
Was it boredom? Was it that it was so difficult, so damn
difficult going through the human experience? Fearful? Painful? You just
couldn’t bear it anymore? That’s not a bad reason. What was it that brought you
to this? That brought you to ultimately some lifetimes in the churches or
religious orders? Lifetimes not so long ago when you threw it all out, said, “No
more groups, no more organizations, no more rhetoric, no more books, sacred
texts or any of that.” You walked away from all of it. And then this lifetime when
you come back into this very loosely organized but delightful group called
What was it that got you going on this?
You know it’s something that you take for granted, but most
other humans haven’t even gotten to that point. Most other humans never
contemplate why; have no clue what ‘I Am’ really means. Most humans digest a
little bit of the rhetoric from the church – “There’s a God in heaven; you
live, you die, you hope you make the grade” – but few really dive deeply
into themselves, as you have done.
Some would call you selfish. Some would say, “Look at all
this attention you’re giving yourself. Look at all of your indulgence.” I would
say that every human is going to do that sooner or later, the inner awareness.
You can’t help it. It’s natural. Sooner or later that inner Self, that I Am will call forth, will say, “Let’s do it. Let’s do it.”
What was it, going back a couple of thousand years, that did
it for you?
Just feel into that for a moment, and I’m not asking you to
be psychic or even to recount the details. But there’s something very important
in your personal Akashic Records. There’s no global universal Akashic, it’s all
personal. There’s something in there. What was it?
And if you’re not able to feel into it right now, do this later
when you lay down tonight or sometime next week when you’re out taking a walk.
What was it?
Now, it was actually a series of things that led up to a
very definitive point, a very definitive choice. And the question is, as we end
this Freedom Series, that thing that motivated your soul, you, to begin this
beautiful journey into the discovery of the I Am, the question is, has it been
fulfilled? I’m not saying necessarily the realization of the I Am, but the
reason. Was it because you were bored? Was it because there was fear? Was it
because perhaps you saw or met a being like Yeshua that so inspired you, that
so affected you? Of course, remembering that Yeshua is, was, you. It was almost
like seeing a part of your future self.
The question is, now, here we are in this new era, has that
been answered? Has that initial question, motivation – has that thing that got
you into this path – has that been fulfilled?
It’d be interesting, and I ask those of you who are
Keahakers in particular who are journaling and anyone else who is journaling,
write this down in this next month. Yes, that is a homework assignment, if you
choose. Write it down. You’re going to be amazed, perhaps even overwhelmed at
the answer. And the answer is not going to come from me or Aandrah or any other
being, so don’t look out to them for the answer. It’ll come from right here.
It’ll be an amazing revelation. It will be a discovery.
Next. Enlightenment. A lot of expectations about … (he
brings out the podium) we get serious when this comes up. You say “Ohhhh!”
Everyone says “Uh-oh!” Expectations of enlightenment.
This path started, whether it was a couple of thousand years
ago or a couple of hundred. You come into this lifetime; there was a somewhat
of an inner choice, a high potential that you were going to realize
enlightenment in this lifetime. The human self kind of follows along with it.
It’s kind of like in your spiritual DNA. “Okay – enlightenment, realization in
Really, everything since that moment you were born … I should
say, from the moment you infused your energy into this physical body, because
there’s a huge difference between the moment of birth, the physical birth, and
the moment of – it’s really integration – and it could be months after the
physical body. I am amazed at all of these discussions about the pro life and
pro choice, and it’s – spit! – it
doesn’t matter. It doesn’t matter. But it’s good drama and it’s great guilt.
Oh, it’s some of the best guilt. It’s one of the biggest buttons that some
people use to push other people’s buttons. But I digress. What was my point?
Here we are in enlightenment. Ever since you were infused,
ever since you integrated your essence into this physical body in this
lifetime, it has been about enlightenment. Everything. You could look back, you
could write down the history of this lifetime – it’s all been about
And the funny thing is – it’s funny to me, but not to you – the
funny thing is is that there were no mistakes. Yeah. The funny thing is you
couldn’t make a mistake if you tried. The funny thing is you pretend that you
can make mistakes, and that you still can. You pretend that there are these
choices out there and door number one is a real bastard; door number two is
kind of not so good, but it’s relatively safe; door number three could be
amazing insights, but it could also drop you into the pits of hell forever,
like an eternity, forever. (a few giggles) So you pretend, you’ve accepted some
mass consciousness programming that you can make a mistake. Guess what? You
can’t. You really can’t. You can’t.
You can actually – I’ve said this before – you can
actually set your rudder for a direction you know is not right, you know is not
compatible with your being, intentionally, and guess what? It’s just going to
get redirected over to your true path.
Your true path, by the way, is not your nice girl or nice
boy path. And you got that kind of screwed into there that you have to make the
choice that’s the nice thing – be the nice boy or the nice girl. It’s not.
Sometimes in enlightenment, it just is not pretty. It’s not nice. It’s … it’s …
others won’t like you at times, but it is the right choice for yourself.
Why is that? Why is that? Well, I’ll tell you: Because mass
consciousness wants certain conformities, wants you to do things a certain way.
A lot of your parents wanted you to just be a nice kid and then take care of
them when they got old. Your teachers wanted you to be nice. Why? Well, it’s
easier for them. So a lot of choices were made on this basis of being nice,
doing the right thing – the nice thing.
Back to the point – a lot of expectations of
The question I ask today is … let’s take the perspective.
Let’s take the perspective that we’re on New Earth, one of the new Earths; you
are teaching the angelic beings who are about to enter into Earth in a physical
body for the first time ever, which you actually really, really do. You’re
talking to them now about enlightenment. You’re in the advanced class. You’re
an advanced teacher, professor. You’re talking about enlightenment and you’re
talking about, from your perspective having gone through it, the expectations
that you, the human, had of enlightenment versus the reality.
So here you are teaching. Let’s say you have a class of, oh,
let’s say 144. You’re teaching the class. You have a nice custom designed
podium – (he’s picking at it) a scratch here – you’re teaching
the class of these new ones. They’re going to be coming to Earth, entering into
the physical body in the next six months. So time is of the essence. And you’re
now going to talk to them. Your class is titled “The Human Expectations of Enlightenment.”
What are you going to tell them that your human expectations were? Linda’s
going to grab the microphone and ask you.
What were your human expectations of enlightenment?
GARRET: That everybody would like me.
ADAMUS: Everybody would like you. And?
GARRET: They don’t. Some really
ADAMUS: I’ve got to kiss you for that one! (Adamus kisses
Garret) That’s brilliant! That’s brilliant. You don’t have to raise your hand,
but you can if you want. How many of you thought, as you got into enlightenment
and you got to be this glowy spiritual being, everybody would like you? Ohhh.
Yeah. I see some very honest ones in the back. Some, you know … yeah.
Yeah. That’s a good one. Oh, and how are we going to do this?
Linda, would you prefer to write or run? Microphone or writing board?
LINDA: I like running.
ADAMUS: Running. Okay, so Vili, would you mind writing? All
caps today, please, just to annoy Cauldre. (laughter)
LINDA: Why all caps?
ADAMUS: To annoy Mr. Virgo.
So let’s see, the first one is “Everyone…” – “Expectations
of enlightenment” is the headline, all caps – “Everyone would like
you.” And the fact is you’re going to go through a period – you have, some of
you, some of you are still in the midst of it – that they don’t like you at
all. What did we talk about last month? Being a bitch, being irritable, having
no tolerance or no patience for what you know is obvious crap and drama
anymore. And they’re not going to like you. “What’s wrong with you? When did
you get on this high throne?” (some chuckles) High thrones are really nice.
Good. What else? That’s a great one to start with.
LINDA: Here we go.
ADAMUS: Yes, what else?
LINDA: Please stand up.
DIANE (woman): That everything would be easy.
ADAMUS: Easy! Really. Why would you think everything would
be easy? Who told you that? What book did you read that in? (she giggles)
Everything would be easy.
DIANE: Why not? I’m enlightened. It should just come to me
with no trouble.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Good. And is it?
DIANE: Not so far! (laughter)
ADAMUS: Not so … (Adamus chuckles) I’m going to wait to tell
you later, all of you, why not. Yes. But good. Thought it would be easy. What
part of you? The human part of you thought it would be easy. Actually, the
funny thing is – you’ll laugh when I say this – but actually it is.
LINDA: Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha. (Adamus chuckles)
ADAMUS: Actually …
LINDA: That’s so funny I forgot to laugh.
ADAMUS: … there’ll come a day very soon when you say to me,
“That was so damn easy. I just wish I’d known at the time.” (a couple of
chuckles) Two got it. Yeah.
ADAMUS: Now, it is easy for the Spirit. It’s really easy.
It’s not easy for you the human. Why?
DIANE: Well, I guess I’m not enlightened yet.
ADAMUS: Would you mind standing up? (she giggles; Edith makes a comment) Edith, you’re next.
LINDA: You read my mind!
DIANE: Okay, it’s because of doubt and …
ADAMUS: Because of doubt, sure, sure.
DIANE: Yeah, and the buts.
ADAMUS: Yeah, and the buts. And the human wanting to protect
the human, because really, in a funny way, there’s a parallel with what you
call the Spirit or the I Am and the human. They start out on this enlightenment
path kind of together in step with each other, but suddenly it starts going in
different directions, because the human wants popularity, and we’re going to
discover in a moment a lot of money. It wants to build a shrine to itself. It
doesn’t want to die. It will go on forever and ever. It wants to be the most
glorified human of all beings.
So the human reaches a plateau in the realization of
enlightenment. In other words, when you first get into this, when you read that
book or went to a class or first got into it, it was like, the exuberance of
the human – “Ohh! Finally salvation and I found something! And boy this is
going to make things easy! And boy am I going to use my magic powers to make
sure nobody screws with me anymore.” But the human reaches its level, its limit
in enlightenment. Spirit keeps going. That inner I Am keeps going. And then it develops
this struggle and war between the two. Well, actually it’s not between the two.
It’s just the human warring. Spirit doesn’t care.
The Soul Self really doesn’t care, but the human will try to
drag the I Am, the truth and the essence back down to its level, and it’s not
going to happen. Human finds itself in terrible misery, drama, disarray, broke,
bad health until it finally says, “You know what? I’m not real good at this enlightenment
thing, and I guess my agenda was off from the very beginning. I guess when I
started – I, as the human – really started getting into this, I was actually
kind of using all this spiritual stuff just for the glorification of self, just
to make myself a little smarter, a little younger, a little richer.” And then
finally the human says, “You know, I’m just going to allow. That’s the grandest
thing of all.”
Heh, here I am teaching my class … (he backs into the podium
which tips and spills his drink)
LINDA: Ohh! Boom, ba-boom‼
ADAMUS: Oh, I get so excited about it!
LINDA: Edith, you’re next.
ADAMUS: Yes! Yes!
LINDA: And I will go get the quick clean.
ADAMUS: Yes. Oh …
EDITH: I just got a coffee bath.
ADAMUS: I don’t think that was coffee, but you got a bath.
You got a baptism. Yes. (Adamus chuckles)
EDITH: An enlightenment baptism. (someone says “Praise the lord!”)
Praise the lord!
ADAMUS: So – good.
EDITH: Pass the ammunition! (some chuckles)
ADAMUS: Next. What were your expectations of enlightenment?
EDITH: I don’t know if I really had any. I just wanted to
discover who I really was and who I am and …
ADAMUS: Good. Let’s stop right there.
EDITH: … why they hell I’m not rich and …
ADAMUS: No, no! Let’s stop at the first … I like that one!
We’ll write that down – “Discovering of who I am” – absolutely. Absolutely,
because this question, by the way, Edith, you’ve been asking yourself for many
lifetimes in a beautiful way, “Who am I?” Not that who am I, but “Who am I? What can I be?” So it’s such a
beautiful question. And, yes, now, do you have the answer to that?
(she pauses; someone can be heard whispering “I Am that I
EDITH: I Am that I Am.
ADAMUS: Who whispered that to her?
EDITH: I know who I am! I’m a being, and because I Am that I
Am, I receive.
ADAMUS: Yes. Boy it sounds like something straight out of my
EDITH: Yes, you’re right. It is.
ADAMUS: I didn’t feel any heart in there, my dear.
EDITH: I Am that I Am.
ADAMUS: Getting there. I Am that I Am.
EDITH: And I even love you most of the time. (laughter)
ADAMUS: And what about those other times?
EDITH: I get pissed at you.
ADAMUS: Then I’m doing my job. Thank you.
EDITH: Yes you are. (they both chuckle)
ADAMUS: Good. So the discovery of who I Am. And Edith, in
spite of the challenges and difficulty, has it been a beautiful experience?
EDITH: Yes. Yes.
ADAMUS: Yes. Yes. Would you go back?
ADAMUS: No. And how are you going to go forward?
EDITH: Well, you know, my birthday – I’m a Leo also – and my
birthday’s in a few days, and I’m getting to be a lovely age, and you know, I
may just walk over and come visit you.
ADAMUS: Yeah and then go back to you.
EDITH: Mm hmm.
ADAMUS: Yeah, or we could meet in the middle.
EDITH: Or I’ll see you on the New Earth or on the moon, you
know, wherever we’re teaching.
ADAMUS: Yeah, good. You have obviously another 30, 40, 60
years to go.
EDITH: Oh god! (laughter and Adamus chuckles)
ADAMUS: Here you are, teaching on the New Earth, teaching
these new ones, and you learn that you … (Linda is spraying cleaner on the floor
right in front of him; some chuckles) Do we have to do this now?
EDITH: She doesn’t want to wreck the rug.
ADAMUS: No. No.
LINDA: It’s just part of enlightenment. (laughter)
ADAMUS: But you got Cauldre’s feet!
LINDA: Oh you think that was an accident?! (more laughter)
ADAMUS: And while you’re back there …
LINDA: What would you like?
ADAMUS: With cream – coffee.
ADAMUS: With cream. Or chai. (someone says “Chai?”)
LINDA: Yeah, right! (she giggles)
ADAMUS: I thought this was a new age group. (laughter)
Coffee would be good! Organic chai. Yes.
LINDA: Yeah right!
ADAMUS: So where were we? Oh, yes. So wouldn’t you like the
gift of another 60 years on this planet?
EDITH: Well, if I could …
ADAMUS: Be careful what you choose.
EDITH: Maybe I need to finish rejuvenating myself and bring
in all my abundance and my new car.
ADAMUS: Your issue is abundance, huh?
EDITH: Yeah, I got a hang up on abundance …
ADAMUS: Tsk, tsk, tsk, tsk, tsk, tsk, tsk.
ADAMUS: That’s unfortunate, because …
ADAMUS: … that’s so small compared to the real issues.
ADAMUS: The real issues, yeah. Yes. So we’ll talk about
those in just a bit.
Next. Thank you. Thank you, dear.
EDITH: You’re welcome. My pleasure.
ADAMUS: Always a delight being with you.
LINDA: Edith, you can pass that to Joann.
ADAMUS: Are you coming to my birthday party tonight?
ADAMUS: Good. Good. Do you know where it is?
EDITH: We’ll be also celebrating?
EDITH: It’s with the Crimson Council, uh … not exactly.
(Linda giggles and some chuckles)
ADAMUS: Did you get an invitation?
EDITH: I don’t think so. It was probably in all caps.
(laughter and some applause)
ADAMUS: We’ll move this out of the way so we don’t spill
anymore. (he moves the podium) Good. Thank you, Edith. Thank you.
You all have got invitations, of course, yes, and it’s at the
Ascended Master’s Club, #1 Sovereign Way, Heaven. Yes. Starting at midnight.
EDITH: At midnight!
ADAMUS: At midnight. Well, of course. Of course. Yes.
Good. Next. Expectations of enlightenment. Yes? Oh,
JOANN: Hi. I just thought I would be a bigger human, you
ADAMUS: Stand taller then.
JOANN: More professional and you know.
ADAMUS: Oh really?!
JOANN: You know, just, you know, just a bigger human.
ADAMUS: Really? Like heading a major corporation and …
JOANN: Well, I do … my job’s pretty good.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah. Yeah.
JOANN: It’s perfect.
ADAMUS: But …
JOANN: I love it.
ADAMUS: What’s your title?
JOANN: Wellness Coordinator, Manager, assistant to the
doctor. So I’ve got several titles.
ADAMUS: You have a title that says assistant?
JOANN: Yeah, well, I assist her. When she’s not there, I
ADAMUS: You assist?
JOANN: Kind of. Yeah.
ADAMUS: Aren’t you really doing it?
JOANN: Yeah! Okay I am! (she giggles)
ADAMUS: Exactly. So for all of you who have titles, business
cards that say “assistant,” “coordinator” or “midlevel manager” – no, not
acceptable. (Linda hands him the coffee) Thank you.
LINDA: We don’t need any more employees quitting. Will you
ADAMUS: Give them all a better title!
LINDA: Okay! (some chuckles)
JOANN: I only use that title when they ask.
ADAMUS: All vice presidents – executive vice presidents. Absolutely.
LINDA: You can only have one.
ADAMUS: So you thought it would be bigger.
ADAMUS: You thought you would be grander.
JOANN: Grander, yes. And I’m still me …
ADAMUS: Living on the Riviera.
JOANN: … but I’m having a blast. Yes! Stuff like that.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Your own yacht.
ADAMUS: Really? Why didn’t you manifest those things?
JOANN: I don’t know, because I’m kind of digging what I’m
ADAMUS: Ehh, go to the bathroom. (she laughs)
ADAMUS: Give me the microphone.
ADAMUS: I heard the dirty word, so you go to the dirty
place. Go back there.
LINDA: Ohhhh! Just say no!
ADAMUS: She said, “I don’t know.”
ADAMUS: That’s toilet talk. (laugher)
ADAMUS: Metaphysical crap.
JOANN: I just sent my Spirit back there, so …
ADAMUS: Oh, that was good. I like that. Good. Clever. Clever.
(they both chuckle) So why didn’t you manifest that?
JOANN: Because I think I changed my mind.
ADAMUS: Pfff. That’s
a good answer, but a copout.
ADAMUS: A distraction. A distraction.
JOANN: It could be a distraction.
ADAMUS: Now, it doesn’t have to be, but for many it will be.
Takes a lot of work to run a big empire, so you wanted the time to focus on
mostly you. And there were a few distractions in there, which I’ll talk about
in a moment.
ADAMUS: But you’ve done that in the past. You’ve done that.
You’ve had armies, crap. I mean you’ve had empires, truly. And I mean for you.
JOANN: Oh I … yes.
ADAMUS: Yeah. So do you really want to do that again?
JOANN: Not anymore.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Larry, who’s back there noshing, you know,
same way. Dear Larry has had lifetimes as a grand army commander, military
commander, lifetimes running huge amounts of land, all the rest of this. So he
comes back into this lifetime having – (Larry’s strutting) yeah, being a big
shot, as you can see – and he said, “No, I have the skill and the talent to do
it, but I don’t want to do it again. Let somebody else play the game.”
Every one of you has allowed yourself that space – a safe
and sound space – to be with yourself. Yeah. Now, once in a while you still try
to get out there and still do too much and sometimes you do a little too
little, but you’re allowing yourself that space. Yes. Good. Thank you.
ADAMUS: A few more before we get on to the big point.
EDITH: The bathroom’s off limits. (some giggles)
ADAMUS: Why? Bathroom’s a nice place to go and reflect.
ANDY: What was the question?
LINDA: What’s the question?
ADAMUS: Expectations of enlightenment. You’re teaching on
the New Earth. You’re teaching all these angelic beings who are getting their
gear on, getting ready to go down to Earth, and you’re kind of snickering to
yourself, because you know what it’s really
like. And of course they’re all excited and you’re in some of the final
preparations teaching them about the expectations of enlightenment. They’re in
an advanced course. You’ve told them all about the ways of humans – the odd and
interesting ways of humans – but now you’re saying, “When it’s your time, after
a few lifetimes, and you go through these different incarnations, then you’re
going to start to, what they call, waken up and become enlightened.” And now
you’re telling them some of your experiences – your human experiences – with
your expectations of what enlightenment was going to be like.
So you tell them …
ANDY: That I was fairly clueless. (laughter)
ADAMUS: That’s very good!
ANDY: I honestly did not know what to expect, but I knew
that being human felt kind of strange.
ANDY: That feeling as a child when, “Why can’t I fly? I know
I can, but I can’t now. What’s wrong with me?”
ANDY: And I guess enlightenment kind of told me that I could
be normal again, which would be abnormal human. Does that make sense?
Absolutely. Back to a natural state.
ADAMUS: This is unnatural. This is very unnatural.
ANDY: I agree.
ADAMUS: Because it’s limited.
ADAMUS: So it’s going back to the natural state. So did you
know that to begin with when you started this awakening thing?
ANDY: I … umm … it was more of a feeling than a knowing.
ANDY: Because it felt right to not be so human.
ADAMUS: Right. Good. Yeah. Good. So how would we define this,
“Return to the natural state?”
ANDY: That’s very good. Yeah, I like that.
ADAMUS: Sure. I made it up.
ANDY: Yeah. (laughter) Yeah.
ADAMUS: It’s my birthday. Lie to me. (more laughter and
Adamus chuckles) So then the question is, have you returned to that natural
ANDY: There does seem to be some programming in the way that
… it appears to take time to deal with it.
ANDY: Why – society, commitments.
ANDY: Material stuff.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah.
ANDY: Seems to get in the way at times.
ADAMUS: And could I interject something else too?
ANDY: Oh, please.
ADAMUS: Is maybe you’re just having kind of too much fun at
ANDY: Well, there is that.
ADAMUS: There is that.
ANDY: There is that.
ADAMUS: You know, because …
ANDY: It’s a lot of fun just being here, you know, here and
ADAMUS: Because when you’re enlightened, obviously, being
goes away. (laughter)
ANDY: I’m not sure I agree with that.
ADAMUS: Good. Good. I’m not sure I meant it as truth either.
ANDY: Okay. Yeah, yeah, because it really is kind of fun
stumbling and falling on your face and being human.
ADAMUS: It kind of is. It kind of is.
ANDY: But it does get old after a while too.
ADAMUS: Kind of does.
ADAMUS: So just out of curiosity, there’s been very few Embodied
Masters. Most, they – snap! – leave
right away. So let’s say you’re going to be enlightened and all.
ANDY: I’m going to be.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Oh yeah. And are you not going to stumble
ANDY: Ehh, you know …
ADAMUS: You don’t think Jesus ever tripped over a rock at
night and smashed his face?
ANDY: Well, I could be the first.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah.
ANDY: I, you know, I’ve always had that tendency to be kind
ADAMUS: You don’t think Jesus ever got some breadcrumbs in
his beard and walked around all day and maybe a few boogs in there, and …
ANDY: Ohh yeah …
ADAMUS: … just like drippy nose and … (laughter) Yeah.
ANDY: Yeah, I … you know you’re probably right. He probably
ADAMUS: You know, I would think that the Embodied Master
just doesn’t really care. He’s got a few crumbs in the beard – doesn’t
matter. Matter of fact, I’d almost bet you that so many of you are actually
going to do things deliberately, like have a little smudge, you know, right
there, and then people will, you know, all day long it’ll be kind of like … (motioning
as if they are pointing out the smudge) and then you’re like … (he makes a
silly grin; laughter) you know. And like, you know, wear two different color
socks. Big deal! Or do things that you wouldn’t otherwise normally maybe be a
little embarrassed about.
Actually I think you’re going to go out of your way to do
some kind of crude and disgusting things just because you finally can, and you
don’t really have to care anymore, because if you’re an Embodied Master, so
what! So what. You’ve got that spinach in your teeth? Instead of trying to get
it out, you put some in the other tooth. (laughter) And you walk around all day
smiling at people, and then you laugh to yourself, where they’re kind of like …
(he’s gesturing; more laughter) And then a few will try to, you know, motion to
you and … (more gesturing and laughter)
Truly, we laugh about it, but there’ll get to a point where
you’re going to try to … because you’ve been so long in suppression and
following the rules and not having spinach in your teeth that you finally can
do it and you don’t care. You really don’t. You just let it be. Yeah. Good. As
a matter of fact, you use it kind of as a little bit of a lesson with others to
stop getting in such a rut. So what that you forgot to put your shirt on in the
Next. Expectations of enlightenment. Yes. A few more and
we’ll get to the point.
LINDA: Does that mean I can wear butt pads if I feel like
it? (some chuckles) (earlier in the day she had worn something as a joke to
make her posterior appear much larger)
ADAMUS : Did you take it off?
LINDA: Yeah! No, I kept them! (more chuckles)
ADAMUS: Yes, Kathleen. Expectations. What – you had a lot of
expectations of enlightenment. We’ve talked about a lot of them. What were
they? Yes, please.
KATHLEEN: Well, this is more about having a soul mate.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah.
KATHLEEN: That was an expectation that I can let go of.
ADAMUS: Why did you have the expectation of a soul mate?
KATHLEEN: (sighing) I don’t know. (audience says “Ohhh”)
ADAMUS: Egh, egh, ohhhhh! Oh, oh, ohhhhh!
KATHLEEN: That was not me. (lots of laughter and applause)
ADAMUS: Oh, that’s – I like that! See Shaumbra, you’re
getting better! You’re getting quick, quick, very quick. Okay. Oh! I’m so proud
of you. Yes. Good. You did that nosedive almost crashing and burning …
KATHLEEN: My soul mate is me.
ADAMUS: Yes, but … yes, absolutely.
KATHLEEN: It’s me.
ADAMUS: But at first you didn’t realize that, and there was
desperately seeking Steve, looking for that soul mate and then a lot of
disappointment, my dear, a lot of heartbreak and a lot of agony.
KATHLEEN: I thought I found it.
KATHLEEN: It was an expectation that it was perfect. It was
not perfect, because I was always looking for me.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Big heartbreak – and we’re actually going
to lead into that in just a moment – but something as deep as searching for
your soul mate. And you think – you, the human – think you are so right, so
filled with truth, this is all that matters, this is all – if Spirit would
just grant you this – and then you actually go, you project that out, go out
searching for it. You even find someone who is actually kind of dog meat
(laughter), and in your imagination try to create him to be this soul mate. You
try to find excuses. You even start sharing stories of past lives that you had
together, that you really didn’t have together, and trying to manufacture this
thing. It’s one of the deepest, truly one of the deepest, and then the
disappointment. The disappointment that he isn’t – or she isn’t – what
you thought. And he or she were just trying to steal a little energy or a
little intimacy or a little – a little, um, eh …
ADAMUS: … sex?
ADAMUS: Yeah. No, you’re right, a little sex. I was going to
say “a little midnight at the oasis.” I’m trying to be a little bit more …
(laughter). But sex. Sex. Whatever it
was. Or it had some truth in the moment. Maybe you were together in the past. Maybe you had been together since a
long, long, long time ago before Earth, but the interlude was just a part of
the enlightenment, assuming that it was a part of the coming to yourself. But it
leads to some deep and dark disappointments in yourself – “Why did I ever have
these thoughts? What was I thinking? I’m all wrong.” You see, you start judging
that, and you weren’t. You weren’t.
So absolutely, yeah, having a soul mate, and ultimately
discovering (a) you don’t need one; (b) you are
the soul mate.=
Now, I will tell you this. What does happen is once you come
to that love of yourself, then you
truly find somebody. They’re not a soul mate anymore, but it’s a being that you
can enjoy life with in a free and open way without all the obligation, but then
it’s just pure fun. Yes. It will come. It will.
LINDA: One more?
ADAMUS: Sure. Expectations of enlightenment. Joshua, what
JOSHUA: I expected to be a bit wiser and more perceptive.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Define wise. What do you mean by that?
JOSHUA: Knowing why, the whys and the hows of what’s
happening in my life, or not in my life.
ADAMUS: Yeah, so being wise and perceptive. Interesting.
Interesting. You’re one who has studied much, much, much more than most anyone
here or watching and online. You have incredible intelligence, a very attuned
brain. You were on this path of studying the physics, the cosmos, religions,
metaphysics, everything else. What happened?
JOSHUA: Well, I understood certain specific things but not
much more than that, and for the most part it just got less and less
ADAMUS: Yeah. And other things that happened that, you know,
got you to say “It’s not about just studying it.” You’ll never – you’ll never – figure out God or yourself
in your mind. It cannot be done. Simply cannot. You can study. You can learn
from the Masters. You can learn from yourself, from your past lives, up to a
point. But then it’s about what you would call the heart. It’s about allowing.
It’s about going to an entirely different level that’s without limitations or
explanations. It comes to a certain point in all of this that it cannot be and
should not be explained. It is felt and experienced.
So boom – you had this incredible mind, powerful mind, actually
tried to use your mind for energetic manipulation – you come to a point,
you hit that barrier and it basically doesn’t work anymore. It’s devastating to
the mind – not to the spirit – devastating to the mind to
discover it doesn’t know jack shit. (some chuckles) It doesn’t.
SART: Crap. (laughter)
ADAMUS: You go into despair. It leads to depression – mental
depression – because the mind thought it was God, thought it was the highest
order of things, and then it discovers it’s not. It’s not at all. It’s highly
The true wisdom, my friend, the true wisdom and perception
is simplicity, distilling everything down to its essence. It cannot be put into
mathematics. Actually, cannot even be put into words or formulas or anything.
Distill it down into simplicity.
The simplicity, if you don’t get heady about it, is simply “I
exist. I Am that I Am.” Then it’s anything you want.
You start thinking about it, you start trying to dissect it
– “What is I Am that I Am? How many syllables does it have?” You know, “What
time is the best time on a full moon to say the words?” – you’re gone. You
can just be in the experience. “I Am that I Am.”
So you gave yourself the beautiful experience of going out
of your mind. Devastating, at first; beautiful now. Remember, simplicity. Ah.
Good. Thank you.
Okay. One more. You’re on New Earth, you’re teaching. I’m
having fun. Good. Yes?
SHAUMBRA 1: I thought that I would be more like all of those
Ascended Masters I read about.
ADAMUS: Ah, yeah. (Adamus makes a coughing, gagging sound of
disgust; some chuckles)
SHAUMBRA 1: And … and … and … where were all the women?
ADAMUS: Best question I’ve heard today. The women! Now, two
parts here. You say that you thought you would be like the Masters of the past,
the expectation of Masters of the past.
SHAUMBRA 1: Yes.
ADAMUS: Yes. Not true. Not true!
SHAUMBRA 1: Mm-mm.
ADAMUS: They’re old and crusty. (laughter) There are so much
b.s. written about them.
SHAUMBRA 1: I found that out.
ADAMUS: It’s not true at all.
SHAUMBRA 1: Mm hmm.
ADAMUS: And you’re led to feel guilty if you say Jesus had
sex or … he wasn’t even an Ascended Master. He was just a collective. He wasn’t
as good as an Ascended Master, just a collective. He was just your potential.
He wasn’t a real being.
It would be considered sacrilegious to say that – and by the
way, I’m going to make a statement; he’s not an Ascended Master, some think
that he is – but Muhammad, that he scratched his armpits and his
groin. (Linda gasps) And it’s like, hah, you know. And he had really bad hair
days. I don’t care. And some of my best friends are Muslim. (some chuckles)
That’s funny. They’re coming to my party tonight. They’re not drinking, of
course, or having sex, but they’re coming to my party. (more laughter) I like
having them at parties because you don’t have to give them a lot of wine. It’s
okay to laugh! Damn it!
LINDA: Ha, ha, ha!
ADAMUS: It is okay to laugh. (Adamus chuckles)
So the old Masters, ohh, they did it so difficult. And one
of my true desires is to have you get this junk out of your mind about Buddha
or any of the others. You have the altars. Oh! Altars! Altars. I wish somebody
would alter the altar. Burn them down! You’re glorifying something (a) that’s not
true and (b) is really, really old.
SHAUMBRA 1: Yes.
ADAMUS: Just burn them all. If you’re going to have an
altar, put your own picture up there.
SHAUMBRA 1: A mirror.
ADAMUS: May seem a little odd, at first, other people
walking into your house and – “Didn’t that used to be a statute of Mary up
there? (laughter) And now you have your picture?” But that’s good. See, you
don’t care, and you don’t care that you have spinach in your teeth either. “Yep!
I’m an Ascended Master. That’s me!” (more chuckles as he kisses an imaginary
And no women. What is that about?
SHAUMBRA 1: What is that about?
ADAMUS: Can women not ascend? (someone shouts “Yes!”) Well
how come there’s no … women, you’ve been following stories of Masters who are
men. What is wrong with that? (someone says “History”) His story. Yeah, his
story. Quan Yin, was she ascended? (someone says “Yes”) Was she a woman?
(someone else says “Yes”) Did she care? No. (Adamus chuckles)
There are more, first of all, more women in the old Mystery
Schools that we had than men, oddly enough. There are more Ascended Masters
that came from their last lifetime in the feminine body. Why is that?
They could do it quietly, because all the men were running
around having wars or thumping their chests about Jesus. (some giggles) And the
women could just stay at home and, you know, take care of the house, but really
take care of themselves.
There are more, you would say, women – but they’re not women
– in the Ascended Masters Club.
SHAUMBRA 1: Right, right.
ADAMUS: Although I’d kind of like that. I was a man, so …
But there are more that came from feminine incarnations, because they could.
They didn’t have the demands and the pressure on them.
SHAUMBRA 1: Mmm.
SHAUMBRA 1: Okay.
ADAMUS: And also it’s actually a little easier for women.
It’s easier for the feminine energy. Yeah, a little bit more intuitive and less
rigid. Yes. But have a bitchier time going through enlightenment. (there’s a
slight pause) That was funny. (laughter) Is that true or not? Yes. Thank you.
Okay, now we’re done with the expectations.
Drop the Expectations
You had a lot of expectations of enlightenment, and if we
sum these all up, most of them are on the board here, but you’re going to be
perfect. Everything is going to be great. You’re going to have a lot of money.
Everybody would like you. As it turns out you have no money, nobody really
likes you, you’re not perfect and you’re not going to be like the Masters of
the past – thank goodness. Thank goodness.
Every one of them will tell you – ask any Master
you happen to see – they’re going to tell you that, “Don’t do it like I did.”
That’s what they’re going to say. They don’t want you to go through the
hardship. And it was a totally different era. Time was different back then,
literally. I mean, time was different back then. Energy was different.
Consciousness was different. Everything. They’re going to encourage you to do
it in a different way, hopefully without the degree of suffering and angst that
they went through.
So please, starting at this moment, drop the expectations of
enlightenment. Drop them. Let them go. Let them go. When you do, then you can
let the real dynamics of enlightenment start coming in, as well as some of the
joys of enlightenment.
So you say, so why haven’t I realized my enlightenment yet?
Eh, a lot of reasons, but I’m going to say there are two that I’m going to ask
you to really feel into between now and when we gather next month for our new Series.
By the way, I’m going to call it the Discovery Series. You’re going to start
discovering how enlightened you really are.
LINDA: Hmm. (applause)
ADAMUS: Yeah. Thank you. Yes. In other words, again, less
talk, more fun. Yes, definitely.
There are two major dynamics at play right now, and you’re
playing into both of them, that are causing some of this anxiety and turmoil
and feeling stuck. There are two major ones. We’ve been talking about
expectations – would you write that, “Expectations,” on the next sheet of
paper at the top? (to Vili) Expectations.
~ Aspectations of Enlightenment
The next one I’m going to ask you to really look at between
now and our next gathering is the aspects that you have created, sent out there
in your search for enlightenment. You created them a long time ago in past
lives, but a lot of them really brought forth into this lifetime. You’ve
created not just one, not just two, but dozens of enlightenment aspects. So I
will call these aspects of your expectation of being spiritual, of being
enlightened, of being a Master, I’ll call them aspectations. (someone says, a
bit sarcastically, “Ha ha ha!” and some chuckles) It will help you to remember.
It’s my birthday, please applause. (audience response “Woo hoo!” and applauds)
I get moans and groans.
You have expectations, you have aspectations of
enlightenment. These are literal aspects, many of them, and the interesting
thing is they’re not all in unison with each other. They’re not all in harmony
with each other.
You have many different aspects, and I would like you to really
explore these, because you have an aspect that still – oh! this drives me crazy with you – it still sees
yourself as a peasant being, the Master as a peasant being and in your crude
clothing and no shoes on your feet and with a little tin cup begging from door
to door thinking, “Well this, the Master, the true enlightened being has
poverty.” It’s the eye of the needle thing. You accepted that somewhere along
the line, some programming that went in. You accepted it then as your own and
you’ve carried it around.
You have another aspect of enlightenment that has heard some
of Tobias’ words and mine and says, “Well, no, you need to be prosperous,
abundant.” And what happens with these two aspects? Peow! Peow! (fighting) Like that. And the one saying, “Yes, but we
should be abundant,” and you kind of favoring that one, but the other one
that’s old and deeply ingrained that’s saying, “No but we have to be poor. We
have to be there to serve everyone else. We have to take care of the world.”
And these are in conflict.
You have the enlightenment aspects that say, “I have to
study. I have to know everything. I have to know all the philosophers. I have
to know everything that Jesus ever said. I have to know all of the world’s
religions. I have to …” And you have the other aspect that says, “None of it matters.
None of it really matters,” and they’re having this – sometimes it’s a
battle and sometimes the intellectual enlightenment aspect will start spewing
out all of its mental stuff – facts and figures and dates – trying to be
condescending to this aspect that is looking for the simplification. And it
will overwhelm that simple aspect with all of its intellect and how smart it is
and make this other aspect feel stupid, like, “Oh, I guess I just don’t know
anything about life. I’m not worthy of enlightenment.” You see, they’re
battling back and forth.
You have the aspect that says, “Enlightenment – I have the
perfect body with a glow around it of course, that never ages and smells like
chocolate chip cookies.” (a few chuckles) And then you have the enlightenment
aspect that says, “This physical body thing is so temporary and really has been
the limitation of my enlightenment. It’s my physical that’s keeping me from
it.” And another aspect that says, “But in enlightenment I’m going to take my
physical body to my Third Circle and to the Ascended Masters Club for Adamus’
party” and those three are fighting with each other and battling. You have
these aspectations of enlightenment. I would like you to become aware of it.
Now the danger in that, or the difficulty in that, is you’re
going to delve into it, into these aspects, and feeling them, and Aandrah knows
exactly what happens. They come in and they try to draw you into them, making
you think you are them. So observe from a distance. Observe from a place of
neutrality. Don’t get involved in their stuff. Don’t get involved at all. Just observe
how they work.
Yes, they are parts of you, absolutely. But you can observe
them and see how all these aspectations – your expectations of
enlightenment – are lingering around out there.
Now, what we’re going to do, what you’re going to do is
integrate all of them. You’re going to integrate all of them, not by force, not
by intellect. You’re going to integrate them by taking a good deep breath into
the I Am. You take a good deep breath into you, into your truth, into the love
The way to integrate aspects is by loving yourself. You’ve
made no mistakes along the way, none at all. You’re going to laugh about that
one day. You’ve made no mistakes. You’ve done nothing wrong. You don’t have any
bad karma, none of that. So you’re free to love yourself. There should be no
guilt, no remorse. You’re free to love yourself.
So those are aspectations – or expectations – of
I bring it up now because, especially as we go forward into
our Discovery Series, we don’t want all those lingering around. We want you to
be able to (a) identify them, see how they work on you; (b) to integrate them by
loving yourself; and (c) use the dynamics of all those aspects, because they have been serving you. They’ve been
searching for variations of the truth. They’ve been searching into different
potentials for you, and all that energy comes and serves you.
So next, and the more difficult one to talk about, is other
ADAMUS: Mmm. Mmmm. Oh, do we have to go there? (Kerri gets
up for a drink) You can’t walk out now Kerri. (laughter)
KERRI: I’m not scared.
ADAMUS: Other people, and I’m not going to be popular for
saying this, but I don’t care.
Perhaps the biggest barrier to your enlightenment is other
people. And while others would consider that to be a very rough statement,
selfish, trying to break up families and all the rest of that … families break
up by themselves, regardless of enlightenment. That was funny. (a few chuckles)
It has nothing to do with enlightenment. It is other people. And more
specifically, it is the people that are the closest to you – your partners and
spouses, your children, your parents, your children, your parents, your
children, your parents (chuckling), your significant others, your sleeping
mates, your bedmates, Edith. Those are the most …
EDITH: I wish I had some bedmates. (laughter)
ADAMUS: Those are some of the most joyful things in your
life and also the things that are truly keeping you from the realization of
So what do to? Pack your bags? Walk out? Go live in the
woods by yourself? Not necessarily. Not necessarily.
But start realizing from this moment on that these people
who are the closest to you, these people that are the very, very closest, are
the ones who you cast your imbalances, you cast your fears, you cast your
emptinesses, you cast your buttons onto them. You project your self, your
imbalances straight into them, and because they love you, they accept them.
And, by the way, you do it for them also. It’s like they are your mirror, you
They have allowed you to throw your stuff onto them and have
them play it back to you. They are some of your greatest teachers of all, but
there comes a point where you should not cast yourself on others. So when I say
it’s other people – the loved ones, the ones closest to you – it’s actually you
doing it to them, you putting your stuff onto them so they can play it back.
They push your buttons, because you gave them your buttons
to push. They cause you the most heartache, because you gave them your heart to
play back to you. It’s not that they’re bad people. Actually, they’re wonderful
people and they love you, and they have put up with a lot, just as you put up
with a lot from them. But this whole practice of using other people to discover
self needs to come to an end. (someone shouts “Amen!”) Amen. There’s a revival
meeting! Oh amen! Amen! (someone whistles and applause)
Everybody does it to everyone else. And, by the way, that’s
the reason so many relationships don’t work or don’t last for a long time, because
at a certain point you can’t stand seeing yourself through that other person
anymore. You blame them, of course, but you just can’t stand seeing yourself
through them. Or at a certain point you realize that you don’t need to do that
with each other anymore.
So the question comes up, is there hope for true, genuine
and pure relationships? It’s up to you. It’s up to you. But most relationships
with any humans are this game of projection – casting yourself into them; not
like a fisherman, but casting* yourself into them.
*As in a casting
director for a movie
So as we are in this discussion of expectations, I’m going
to call this castpectations. (audience responds with groans and laughter) Would
you mind writing that? (to Vili) Because they are also your cast, like a cast
of characters in a play or a television show. They’re your cast. They’re your
characters. But there comes a time when it becomes a one-woman or a one-man
show. You’re on your own. It’s your stage. No longer using others. It’s you
standing on your own, in the I Am Presence of yourself.
When you get to that point, when you can be truthful about
it, when it’s just the I Am on the stage, not this cast of other humans that
you’ve surrounded yourself with, then you’ll realize something beautiful: That
there is the cast of yourself and all the magnificent aspects that you’ve ever
had, all the very integrated aspects and that you actually don’t need the
others. You don’t need them in the way you’ve been using them in the past.
So here’s the dilemma: You’re with somebody, you have
children, you have a mate, even parents, and there’s this whole game that’s
been being played – you discovering yourself through them – and it
has to come to an end, at a certain level of enlightenment or awareness.
Now, there’s going to be people that take this out of
context, and they’re going to say, “Adamus is saying leave your families. Leave
your babies. Walk away from your parents. Don’t take care of them.” I’m not
saying that. I want to be very clear about this. I am not saying that.
I’m saying end the game. End how you use others to see
yourself. End how you use others, whether it’s guides or angels or other humans
or any of them, for helping you to discover you. From this point on, it’s you
discovering you. You can’t do it through that husband or wife or through your
kids or anybody else.
When you make that choice within you that you’re going to
release that type of relationship, will it change? Will it change the physical
relationship you have with them? The energetic? Karmic? Will they walk out? Who
knows. It doesn’t matter.
I’ll tell you this: You don’t have to do anything. You don’t
have to go home and say, “Oh, Adamus pushed us today. Now I have to make a
decision. Should I leave my deadbeat husband?” I’m not saying that at all.
Just it’s about you making the choice to change the
dynamics, the castpectations of enlightenment. That in itself will change the
dynamics of the other relationships. You don’t have to do anything. You don’t
have to call the divorce attorney tomorrow. It will just balance itself
Now, that doesn’t mean that there’s not going to be some
drama and turmoil, because humans are humans, and the minute somebody feels
that their hooks are being taken out of you, your hooks are taken out of them, they
get upset. They get upset. “What’s wrong with you? What are you doing at that
cult meeting? What are they telling you?” You know, all these other things.
That’s when you take a deep breath. There could be some energy dynamic changes
On the other hand, it could be the most beautiful thing, the
most beautiful gift that you’ve given this other person or yourself. It’s a
release. It’s a release from some very old energy bondages.
So probably, I would say, of the top ten issues, holdbacks,
concerns about enlightenment, it’s these other people. It’s these other people.
You don’t want to do it because you’re afraid that it may hurt them. You don’t
want to do it because there’s been such a dynamic that you’ve had with each
other for so many years. You may not think that you’re ready to get off of
But, my dear friends, as I said in the beginning, it comes
to a point in your realization of enlightenment when there’s not a lot of
guides around anymore. It comes to a point where there’s not a lot of friends
like you’ve had friends before. It comes to a point where there’s not a lot of
other humans, relationships like you’ve had relationships. Doesn’t mean they’re
gone, just means that they change.
I can’t tell you if they’re going to leave or not. I can’t
tell you what happens, but this is the point where you take a deep breath and
you assume it’s about enlightenment. And you assume you’re doing it in the
greatest love, first of yourself and then of the others that you’ve shared love
with. This is the point where you assume and you trust that it’s the joyfulness
of the I Am.
Let’s take a deep breath with that.
Merabh for Freedom
As we come to the end of the Freedom Series, let’s do just a
short merabh for freedom. Let’s have the lights down, a little merabh-y music
in the background, if you would, John.
(music begins; a track from Liquid Mind)
Merabh, such a beautiful time. We’ve kind of built up the
energies today, such a feeling in the room. Now we can just take a deep breath.
Now you don’t need to struggle with anything. You don’t even need to think
about what we talked about today. You don’t need to work at it. You don’t have
to study it.
There’s no begging for it.
A merabh is a beautiful moment where you just allow.
There’s no manipulation of energies.
It’s just taking a deep breath.
These past ten Shouds we’ve talked about freedom. Actually,
we’ve really talked about limitations. Over the ten Shouds just lovingly one by
one releasing limitations.
Oh, it can be absolutely terrifying at times. But also so
liberating, so freeing.
We’ve talked about freeing ourselves from the limitations of
the human mind, the human aspect. Such a loving being that human aspect is, so
resilient. Oh! So wanting to do the right thing, but feeling in the darkness
about what the right thing is.
What do we do? We free ourselves of that human aspect or its
limitations, allowing that genuine love that the human has to integrate back
into the I Am.
I can’t think of any beings anywhere in creation that have
more love than what humans have, but yet have more conflict with love, more
challenges. Probably because the human being, so loving, so truly wanting to do
the right thing, that they ultimately judge themselves so harshly, set their
standards so high, are so affected by failures – what they call failures – in
love. Yet all the time learning more and more about love, more and more about
love than any beings anywhere.
Here we are, coming through the Freedom Series.
It gave you an opportunity to look at the things in your
life that have kept you limited. Some of them have been fun. Some of them have
just been so limiting, keeping you from feeling and experiencing the true I Am
here within this embodiment. So frustrating to have those limitations, some of
these limitations feeling like they are permanently attached to you.
So take a deep breath into the true freedom.
Freedom, enlightenment – they can be used
Just feel in for a moment. I asked you before, when this all
started, this spiritual path, this awakening, maybe 2,000 years ago, 800 years
ago – doesn’t matter – what was it?
What got you asking why and how? Something not many humans
ask themselves, but it got you asking why? How?
What got you asking, “Who am I?”
That, my dear friends, that was an aspect. Oh, it was true.
It was a very valid question or questions, but it created an aspect.
Where’s that aspect now? Where is that part of you that went
Can it come home now?
Can it come to you now?
Can it come into discovery?
No longer needing to be out there, wandering the celestial
corridors, but can it come home now, to you right now, in this body, and start
Kind of like just walking right into you …
Just saying, “Let’s experience together. Let’s be together.
Let’s discover together.
“No more endless searching and wandering. Let’s just be in
the experience of the I Am.
“Free beings. Enlightened beings.”
By the way, enlightenment doesn’t mean the end of a journey.
Enlightenment is just the awareness of
the journey, of the experience.
Enlightenment doesn’t mean it ends. It actually means the
fun begins. And we’ll do that, as we go into our Discovery Series.
Let’s take a good deep breath. Ahh! Good deep breath.
All those expectations of enlightenment, all those people in
your life seeming to hold back your enlightenment, at least a good excuse; it’s
time we move beyond that, free ourselves of that.
Take a good deep breath.
My dear friends, Aandrah will breathe out with you in just a
moment. Me, I’ve got a birthday party to attend. You’re all invited. Find your
own way there. It’s at the Ascended Masters Club, your name is on the list.
And remember, as you’re making your way there through the
cosmic byways, remember that all is well in all of creation.
And so it is. Thank you. (a few people say “Happy Birthday”)
And happy birthday to me.
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