Without
Words
So, I told
my story to Adamus without words a couple of days ago...
the story itself didn't make all that much sense, it
had a sort of crazy mixed up dream like quality
to it. But I did get a feel for the difference between
using words to tell a story and leaving the words out.
For me,
telling a story with words is like constructing something,
perhaps out of legos... you build it by consciously
adding one word after another. It is something fairly
solid and stable. Once you assemble it, it holds that
form and does not change. (Unless it is later taken
apart.)
But telling
a story without words is a far more FLUID process. It
is more alive. It is a process, much like water flowing
down a stream, moving over and around the rocks. It
does not remain in any one shape, it cannot be captured
and displayed. It is an experience that exists in the
moment and then is gone. It is constant change, moment
to moment. It is less of the mind, and more of the feelings...
Flowing,
flowing, flowing...
Jaya
USA
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Trust
Hi everybody!
I dreamed last night about gathering with many Shaumbra
so I decided to write and share something in this form,
too.
I wrote
here couple of months ago that it’s time to end
my silent life. I chose it and it was truly coming from
my heart and well - it has been everything but silence
since then! I started studying - not because I should
search anything anymore but it’s opening new doors,
solving some practical problems and giving me support
in many ways so it is actually the long waited Abundance
in my life, for its part. After a long period of isolation
there also suddenly seems to be so many wonderful people
in my life that I’ve been lovely busy with my
new social life!
The most
important thing that has changed in these couple of
months is Trust. It came silent, and it actually took
me a while to see it’s really there but hell yeah
IT IS! It’s something I’ve never felt before
and on the other hand it’s something I’ve
always dreamed it should be. Trust in myself. Simply.
Soon after
trust came many people with criticism, attacks and negotiations,
as you can guess. I was so surprised when I noticed
that all those words were like air to me. I didn’t
get sad. I didn’t want to run and hide. I didn’t
have any kind of need to analyze their behaviour. I
didn’t want to fight. I had nothing to say. It
just didn’t matter. Wow.
There are
still some issues and challenges and doubting voices
and blaa blaa but the tone has changed. Finally I’m
starting to feel and trust that it really works, not
just trying to convince myself. So tonight I’m
going to celebrate myself and everything I’ve
been through and take good deep breath to welcome the
New Year! Perhaps I’ll consider writing here more
often next year Happy New Year’s Eve for You All!!!
Elina
Finland
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No
More Pretending
I was being
a very good Shaumbra student and listening to the last
Shoud again before the next one coming up. I wanted
to make sure I had completed all the homework (which
was already done). So I was driving along listening
to the Shoud and got almost to the end and Adamus said
very loudly "Stop pretending to be a student."
After the
initial shock wore off a little I ask him what do I
do now. How do I not be a student? That is what I am
good at.
He said
I could post my feelings on the message board...
Easy enough
– except that I have spent my whole life and many
previous lifetimes hiding who I really was. And when
my true self shined through I was tortured because of
it.
So my first
thought was – if I am going to post anything I
have to create a new user name because no one can know
who I am. Still trying to hide... But I knew that I
could not do that.
Now a month
and a half later I am stepping out of my comfort zone.
I just breathe and remember that I am not my past. It
was an experience that I went through and I am now creating
my reality.
I am a Master.
I am still
a little nervous about this... But at the same time
there is a release – I can be myself now. No more
hiding and playing games to try to fit in.
Laura
USA
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Winter
Sleepwalk
The deep,
dark dreamy winter clouds my thoughts and veils my sight.
It pulls me into its earthy cellar then leaves me there
-
Alone to ponder its depths.
No...to
discover my own.
I am drawn
to the silence where my soul can wander and sleep and
touch its fears,
Then be reminded that fears are not real.
That's why they hide in darkness;
Because in the light they are no more;
And by touching them I bring them to the light.
I sleepwalk
every night and through the days of cold silence.
My soul goes with me to all realms and nowhere.
We seek to experience together and to be
One
Apart
And then to return
To Source and share our gifts and news of the Other
And what it’s like to be in dark:
Alone,
And quiet,
And separate,
And desperate, forgetting
But savoring the delicious difference my soul asked
to try.
And others
are curious to know.
My colors
shine when spring arrives.
They birthed in winter and stay forever;
A beacon to others.
Winter is
fine;
The deep dark dreamy space introduces me to myself
The best
frontier.
Valerie
USA
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Declaration
of Sovereignty
Hello friends,
My name is David Shoshani, 39 yo, I live in Israel (Jerusalem
area) and I have been connected with the Crimson Circle
since 2001. I am doing my "own" teaching work
and develop the tools and the messages that best serve
me and others. My personal blog/website is www.lovush.com
So, what is it all about?
In the past months I have been doing an intensive work
with my aspects, integrating them, (sometimes) negotiating
with them, and trying to figure out a way in which we
could serve each other in the best way. I have come
to realize that some aspects carry the lurking type
of energy, just waiting for an opportunity to feed on
me. I have found out that as soon as I dealt with one
type of this lurking energy (like the sexual aspect)
another popped up to check how determined I was. These
kind of give-and-take negotiation with my aspects exhausted
me, often threw me out of balance, brought drama into
my life and generally disconnected me from the real
me.
I have realized that I must exercise a different approach,
a much stronger attitude towards those aspects, showing
them who is in charge and what is their real place.
Therefore, and following Adamus suggestion to speak
up and express through my voice, I have drafted a statement
- A declaration of Sovereignty that I state out loud
each night before I go to sleep (and sometimes throughout
the day when I feel like it).
The change was instantaneous: I immediately felt how
those lurking energies leave, making room for my true
being to reconnect with me. During the day my mind is
no longer preoccupied with ways to figure out things;
during the nights my dreams have become much clearer
and the journeys into other dimensions are easier and
more real.
Here is the statement:
Declaration
of Sovereignty
I am who
I am, [your name], Sole master of my existences.
In my domains there is no other sovereign being for
I stand tall in the knowing of myself.
I and only I use the resources of who I am.
I plant myself in this now moment in which I am confident
in my being and sure of my worthiness.
I am here
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11:11
Answer
I had a
dream…
In this
dream, I announced an answer to the question that was
never asked. The answer was: You can’t impose
a judgment until you place limitations…
I knew it
was deep but as I breathed with this, more and more
of the facets of this answer opened for me revealing
the brilliance of the message delivered to me on the
night of 11:11 – 2009.
Indeed,
it applies to any areas of our lives. How do we know
if we are pretty or not until somebody establishes criteria?
Once we’ve done that, we use these to determine
who wins the beauty contest.
How do we
know if we healthy or not? We have a set of standards
that our doctors develop for us – weight, height,
family history, blood pressure – and if you are
outside of this range, you must not be healthy.
How spiritual
are you? If you cherish Mother Earth, eat and grow organic
vegetables and live in the “Beyond Organic”
community – is this enough to be qualified? Or
do you have to have a daily spiritual practice to fit
into this category?
Our children
– what justifies a good child? Is it good grades,
extracurricular activities, voluntary work and politeness?
And then – what about bad children – are
they everything the good ones are not?
Who is really
a responsible citizen – the person who never committed
a crime – does it make them eligible?
Everyone
looks at these questions from a different angle and
everyone has a different answer. With defining the points,
lines, angles and planes of our perception, do we force
ourselves to see only within those?
Maybe if
we combine those different views and have a hologram
of everyone’s opinion, we can see the true picture?
Sounds awfully difficult to me, and I am a sucker for
an easy way…
If we remove the criteria – what will we see?
How will we live without boundaries, without limitations,
without preconceptions of what is right and what is
wrong – will there be a place for judgment?
I know my
answer and next time I am ready to judge something or
somebody, I will ask myself about my own limitations
imposed on me by me only; and I will take the deepest
breath possible and expand to the point of no boundaries
and no judgment, and I will see things the way they
really are.
See you
there!
Valeriya Shvarts
USA
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Shadow
and Light
What a blessing
my Pakauwah is! Talk about trusting divine timing. I
have had a huge experience of dark energy being played/experienced
through my brother and his mental illness. I was feeling
his play with darkness, terror and paranoia and finally
said to myself “How will I survive this?”
My answer to myself was, “You can experience the
depths of despair, you just cannot remain there”.
Over the next few days I released the trauma and used
my Pakauwah to travel to my brother and other family
members sending compassion, honour and light. I truly
understand now to embrace the shadow - without fear,
as nothing can attach to me without my permission. The
peace I feel within is beyond description.
Blessings,
Wigstar
Australia
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