I have channeled the entire three-day DreamWalker Death school at least a half dozen times. Linda and I have conducted DreamWalker Death teacher training at least that many times. I felt confident that I knew the materials well – no sex or meat during a DreamWalk; spend an hour every day with your client; remove all jewelry; always have your reconnection object close at hand; don’t DreamWalk a suicide, alcoholic or drug addict. I know Saint-Germain’s DreamWalk sequence backwards and forwards.

Or so I thought.

My older brother Chris was diagnosed with skin cancer about two years ago. Chris underwent more than a dozen surgeries. After a year of battling it, the tests showed that he was relatively clear of cancer. Then it reappeared again earlier this year. More surgeries and chemo treatments. More hospitals and drugs. Not only was he fighting the cancer, but he was also caught in the maddening bureaucracy of the medical system.

Last week I started doing the pre-death DreamWalk with Chris. The hospital had released him to home care, which meant it was only a matter of time before he released his physical body. Chris was only 56 years old, so this was all quite challenging for his wife, his two daughters and his six brothers and sisters, me included.

The first three nights of the pre-DreamWalk were relatively quiet. I connected with Chris but as we are taught by Saint-Germain, I didn’t say a lot. The important thing is to just be there. It seemed that Chris felt my presence but, in his altered and medicated dream state, he didn’t really understand why I was there. I let him know I was available for him and would come back each day.

On the fourth day the connection between Chris and I finally solidified. I was lying in bed late that night, just being there for him in the other realms. He consciously recognized me. He talked and talked and talked for the next hour. He explained how beautiful it was “out here” and how he didn’t want to go back to his physical body. He talked about the feeling of freedom and creativity. The thing that struck me the most was his repeated statement, “That’s not me!” as he looked back on his physical body and lifetime. What he meant was that his “spirit” is the real Self. He was amazed at how much he had bought into his lifetime and games as Chris, but how it was such a small part of his “real” self.

The next four nights with Chris were remarkable. He didn’t have remorse or regrets about his life. He wasn’t lost. He wasn’t sad, and he wasn’t begging to come back. He was actually doing better than he had in years. It changed my whole perspective about the death process.

At 2:30 yesterday afternoon I got a call from one of my sisters. Chris had passed away a few minutes earlier. Although I knew it was imminent, and regardless of the happiness I felt during the pre-DreamWalk connections with Chris, the tears came pouring out. I’ll never see my brother again. What about his two beautiful daughters? My own mortality hit me in the face now that my own big brother was gone.

After adjusting to the news of his passing I started the regular DreamWalking sequence. Off came the jewelry (a watch and a ring). Out came the vegetables and fruit. According to Saint-Germain, we shouldn’t eat anything that “walks, flies, crawls or swims” while doing a DreamWalk. I laid down and began connecting with Chris. It took a while to sense the connection because he was in a different place now. He had actually crossed over.

Again, there wasn’t any sadness or fear. He was free. After just a few minutes he felt my presence. It was a beautiful reunion! Brother-to-brother, soul-to-soul. Chris started telling me about his transition, and I found myself laughing at times. In a very excited manner he told me how easy it was, how it was a burst of joy when he was freed from his body, and how he felt more alive now than when he was alive! I laughed because it was like he was trying to convince me to join him.

During our session he popped in and out numerous times. He explained that he was checking up on his family and friends, many who were just now hearing the word of his death. Through what Saint-Germain had taught, I learned to just keep my presence “on the path,” not to run hither and yonder with my brother. Each time he came back to me and talked enthusiastically of his new reality.

At the end of the session he made me promise to pass along a message to his family. The message was simple: He’s doing fine, there’s no need for anyone to worry. I tried to remember if Saint-Germain approves of passing on messages to family members, but I made the promise to Chris. I’ll check SG’s DreamWalker manual later to see if I’m in the penalty box.

Last night I sent an email to my brothers and sisters with his message. This morning there wasn’t a single reply from any of them. Good lord, they’ve wondered about me for the past ten years and now they probably are having some sort of family conference to discuss my “condition.”

Just a few minutes ago I received a very touching message from another brother who lives in Texas. He shared with me how he has felt Chris’ presence around these past few days. And one of my three sisters just responded to say she’s been talking to Chris in her own way. Amazing.

I am deeply thankful that I learned how to be a DreamWalker. It is a gift for me to be able to go beyond the typical grief and mourning when losing a loved one. It’s helped me overcome some of my own fears about death. And it’s brought me new and very personal understandings of the ways of Spirit. Death – one of the greatest mysteries of life – is not as much a mystery for me today.