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Black Swans

Hi Geoffrey.

I enjoyed your bit on Black Swans and feel I need to add something I learned from the Maori of New Zealand (the locational origin of black swans they tell me). I actually saw this for myself with the black swans there.

A feather from a black swan is all white except for the tip. As the tips overlap, the swan appears black. Kinda like a sheep in wolf's clothing?

Anyway, to me it was quite visual that what we are dealing with might be 'unseen' and just literally below the surface.

Many blessings to you and Linda.

Janna

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Storm Relief

As some of you know, I just lived through a massive ice storm and its results.

Basically, 10 days without power and sometimes water, one horrible night of listening to trees break and fall, sleep was a problem during much of this time. Every road in my county was covered with fallen trees, branches, and light poles. It took most of the citizens and relief teams to cut them free over the next couple of days and drag them to the sides to leave a driving path for people. The ice and snow melted 11 days later and we are just now beginning to truly clean up after the storm. I do have propane gas logs and thus had a source of heat (one of the lucky ones.)

During all of this, I was hit by wave after wave of fear and grief, including my own. The exhaustion is indescribable.

And, yes Kuthumi, I did shut down. The last day I was without power, I stood outside, raised my fists to the universe and shouted, "I can't take this anymore, I want electricity, and I want it NOW!"

Within two hours, two truckloads of National Guards came to my house. They were checking door to door to find out how residents were doing and what they needed. Then within two more hours, the electricity came back on.

NOW, Kuthumi came and helped me open back up and eat this very big elephant that has been weighing on me ever since. And I can tell you that this works and works well!

I can breathe freely again this morning. I was actually thinking yesterday, that if I had to go through my life shut down and fearful, it was time to leave.

THANK YOU SHAUMBRA AND KUTHUMI FOR A GREAT AND NEEDED SHOUD!!!

THIS WAS JUST WHAT I NEEDED TO HEAR!

Michelle

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More Storm Relief

To add to this, for myself, this last year has been one cyclone of whirlwind chaos… shaking loose all of my foundations that I so relied on… and it was only when I allowed those winds to truly blow me about, that I found a NEW order… my own individual, custom made flow… that is not shared by any other person… there is no structure or definition to it… but there IS an order there… and when you first start to feel it and flow with it… well, there is no definition! HAHA! So I am very welcoming of these new chaotic energies because they shake loose the foundations of the old energy so that the new energy can come in and find a new balance… INDIVIDUALLY within each of us… no two "flows" are alike… and this is for me, my triumphant discovery this past year.

When you find your own personal "order" in the chaos, it's not rebalancing in the traditional sense of the word, it's finding a new flow that has your own personal signature in it. And recognizing that signature and following it becomes the new focus. Your own personal homing beacon. THIS is how you learn to discern what is yours and what isn't. BUT, in the new energy, this does not equal consistency… it is knowing that no matter where that signature takes you, you are safe. The safety IS IN recognizing and TRUSTING that signature to carry you wherever it goes… no matter how "inconsistent" your life may look in the process. This is TRUE freedom.

I think Kuthumi's exercise in having us truly feel into the chaos in the world right now was a way to "jump start" that process… to put one in a space of supposed ungrounding… (ie breaking down one's personal foundation of structures) so that you freefloat into the whirlwind… only there can you truly discover where your own personal flow is in the midst of it.

Jodie

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The Rest of the Elephant

I just want to add that I now can feel the difference between leaning on my inner core and leaning on an outer concept. What can I say? So far the inner space feels very unspecified. The only thing that I know for sure is that I will be changing my hairstyle this Friday, because it feels as the right thing to do (every time I had a shorter hairstyle I ended up feeling insecure about it, since most of my female friends have long hair, and this time I really feel that it's something that's more like ME… at least at this moment). All the other stuff, I have NO idea…

The only thing I know is when I breathed in the rest of the elephant, I felt my own frustration at being at the limits that I am in now… and that the only thing I know is that I want to live each moment from the perspective of wholeness and able-ness and I can feel what it's like. :D When I was not "whole," I felt that I needed this and needed that to make me whole. But now that I can feel this wholeness, there is no need to fix anything… so what so I do now? :D

Oh yeah, breathe...

Bluerose

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Loving the Life I’ve Created

Hello Shaumbra,

I haven't been to the message board in ages, but I keep thinking that my life is such a wonderful example of what Tobias, St. G, and Kuthumi repeatedly stress about choosing the reality we create, that I've decided to share this with you. I know how very painful it is to read something like this when everything seems to be going wrong in your life. Believe me, I REALLY know; been there, done that over and over and over for many years. However, NOTHING worked for me until I leapt. Yea, it was extremely difficult breathing through the pain of fear and anxiety but I was determined to trust in myself and gnost. The rest follows:

In May of ‘07 after 3 painful months of weird "illnesses" I decided to take the leap; quit the job, gave away much of my possessions, put the remainder in storage and just drove off in my car. Traveled, visiting friends and family, money kept flowing from unexpected places, and I stayed in the most wonderful places for months at a time, hilltop views of Santa Barbara and even a wonderful studio on the beach in Laguna Beach. In Dec. '07 I decided to settle down again and realized I wanted a totally new-to-me area. The southwest spoke to me, even though the only area I'd seen was Taos during the QL Celebration and I'd never been interested in the SW as a home. I researched and Prescott, AZ seemed perfect for me, especially the Granite Dells area, which made my artist heart sing.

Well, I found a teaching position in my specific area, interviewed over the phone, knowing beforehand that it was going to be mine, and arrived here 3 weeks later, sight unseen. I drove through the Granite Dells area on the way to my hotel in Prescott on 2/16/07 in late afternoon sun and cried with joy and overwhelming love at the peace and beauty. Next day I rented the most perfect "Boulder House" in "the Dells" with a view that still has me up in the middle of the night, and awakens me in absolute amazement. I have a wonderful art studio and my neighborhood is a huge garden of boulders, and I've made new friendships that are as beautiful as my home. I know this safe and sacred spot called to me and I listened.

My teaching job was cut at the end of the year, after I'd worked (read: BREATHED!) through a LOT of pain and old stuff teaching there, and I've been joyously pursuing my art ever since. Money keeps miraculously flowing in abundance, my creativity astounds me, I often have trouble sleeping because I'm just too darn happy and excited about every aspect of my life. I think of something and gnost provides it: yesterday I bought a map/architectural drawing/art paper cabinet for almost nothing and just last month I'd said aloud, "The only thing I really want now is cabinet for all my art papers, drawings and photographs."

Life just seems to get better and better in leaps and bounds in all aspects and I regularly feel almost overwhelmed with gratitude and love for myself, for being here now, for all I've experienced, for being a consciousness inspirer and a New Energy Teacher, for beauty and creativity. I love the reality I've chosen and created for myself and I know I'm worthy of it all.

I don't know, 'cause I've never been a church goer, but I think I just "Testified" (and I am rockin' out in the aisle) that everything the Crimson Council has said regarding choosing to create our reality is totally right on! Hallelujah!!!!

Don't think, just TRUST and LEAP...

You'll be soooooooo glad you did.

Tory

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