Report from Hamburg
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A certain recent international event of Shaumbra-ic
Guess WHO was spotted in the after-hours lobby crowd
on Saturday night of the Hamburg conference, leading
the game of "Shit-Faced Shaumbra"? And guess
WHO paid for most of the Prosecco that flowed so generously?
We suspect the answer to both queries is none other
than St. Germain, that cosmic party boy!
Who else could stuff a hundred-Euro note into the palm
of yours truly when the tab came, and who else could
cajole (bribe?) the reluctant bartender into selling
three more bottles of the bubbly for take-away? And
who else, having suddenly blown in a day late for the
conference, adorning himself with a hand-written name
badge, could just as easily have blown out once more,
as, following that solemn-less soiree, he was never
this absence, the lesser enlightened feared 'grand mal
de stomach', or worse, foul play! But no, gentle reader,
it was simply St. Germain at ‘grand play most
What was the final tip-off, then, the identity identifier?
Why, no less than the name this starry scamp, this relevant
raconteur gave himself on that belying badge: "Viktor"!
Victor! it exclaimed, had we the gnost to know! Victor!
over doubt, Victor! over limits, Victor! über alles!
Dear friends, what revelation, what egg on our egoed
faces. Thanks be to this patron of parties for sharing
his crucial teaching so bountiful in profundity, and
so wanting in gravitas!
reader, shall we ever again encounter this mischievous
mystic? Can one continue on the delicious slope of sloth
without him? And in what disguise will he appear?
Be assured, we shall indeed know him afresh, come next
year's Conference in Breckenridge or sooner, and perhaps
again as our Viktor. Or might it be Viktoria?
will give tips to whoever wishes to build his or her
own cottage. Usually building a house requires first
to build the foundation. Then slowly you build the house
itself upon it. Finally you work on the roof and put
it over. Now that's the obvious of how to build a house.
my friends, let me give you some advice. You have to
do the opposite. The first thing you need is to build
that roof. It will be your treasure trove for your sacred
I-am-ness (in the granary). The house will be your heart,
fulfilled by that treasure's glory. The foundation will
simply be your will to live, your reason to live, your
passion. Is your passion to be God also?
first within the sacred presence of God, the I-am-ness.
Letting it build itself day after day in the heart.
Letting it shine and expand, and encompass everything.
Your house will be strong but in a non-dualistic way.
The foundation will simply be your final acceptance
of your reason to be on earth, to enjoy life. The joy
of life is your foundation.
felt homeless and haunted until the last Shoud. Like
magic the place appeared immediate afterwards... and
the effect was tremendous! It must have created such
a safe space in me that I could embody the darkest and
most painful parts of me. I have never ever before NOT
wanted to be here so totally and completely and utterly.
It just built up and built up (as my beautiful cottage
unfolded) with feelings of despair, sorrow, shame (because
of my belittlement of myself), longing (for a place
of peace and love, beauty and abundance, ease and grace
- like my cottage), meaningless emptiness, extreme sensitivity,
disappointment (for every morning still being here),
anxiety - oh the anxiety... (with no drama though -
no mind; pure, outrageous feeling indeed) until about
the solstice - then the stay in dark, still, deep waters
changed to physical discomfort (mildly put...). What
a release!!!! Suddenly there was movement (in the previously
closed waters)... with so much clarity as a result -
about myself and life and existence and my journey and
my grandness throughout my lives and what I'm still
holding back/hiding (keywords being passion, power,
pride, pleasure, potency, fire!) and, much more.
I have the same experience as Jonathan; the foundation
doesn't necessarily come first - if it is defined the
way you do: "The foundation will simply be your
final acceptance of your reason to be on earth, to enjoy
life. The joy of life is your foundation."
had to embody and release all that stuff to come to
the point where I can accept my presence here 100% -
truly and completely.
Religions and Ascension
other major difference I've noticed between Crimson
Circle and the Eastern religions is that so many of
them seem to be about doing a spiritual path to get
off of planet earth. ‘Meditate to clear karma
so you can end the cycles and not come back.’
The goal seems to be to transcend planet earth and being
experience with the CC channels and my own spiritual
journey is that I'm not trying to go anywhere. I'm not
trying to meditate my way out of here. I LOVE LIFE.
I LOVE EARTH! I love all of these cute little miserable
human experiences like heartbreak and love and disappointment
and neuroses. I love experiencing all of it. I'm in
no hurry to go anywhere. I just want to enjoy what is
here as much as possible.
feel like the magic for me isn't someplace "out
there" or after this life. It's right here and
right now if I just take a deep breath and let myself
relax into it, dropping all parts of me into this moment.
said than done sometimes.
hesitated to write this thinking that it is personal
and has nothing to do with Shaumbra. But when I allowed
all the intense feelings rising from within me after
I heard of Michael Jackson's death, I realized it probably
has a lot to do with Shaumbra, and even the Shaumbra
graduation - at least that's what it felt like for me.
morning when I heard the news I went to youtube and
started watching all his videos. As I watched I got
so emotional that I couldn't stop crying. I was surprised
that I was so touched, because he didn't really mean
that much to me personally. So I looked at what he meant
for the world, what role he played in these amazing
times of change and transition. And I knew what was
making me cry.
Jackson became what he is in the first half of the 1980s.
Humanity was still on its self-destruct path then with
some sort of an apocalypse scenario developing around
the Cold War. We were fast approaching the predicted
dead-end. This was a time when all the energies in the
world (and also in the omniverse, because it is as above
so below) were still stuck for the large part, very
few new potentials developing, very difficult to move
energies. The world was falling into a crazy spiral
of an arms race and producing nuclear weapons that could
destroy the whole planet 10 fold. The Cold War was feeding
fear and paranoia that justified all sorts of control,
manipulation, need for more and more power all over
those times, I think people like Michael Jackson played
a crucial role. Remember that there was no internet
then, no satellite stations that transmitted tv programs
across the world, no youtube, no forums, nothing else
that could help connect people across borders. Countries
were pretty much closed to the outside and there was
very little awareness that the whole world was a single
place and humanity was all together on the same boat.
At a time like this Michael Jackson was one of the very,
very few celebrities who could touch so many different
people from different countries all over the world.
His music, his dancing, his bright presence on stage
was like a bridge that ran over and above national borders
connecting all sorts of people from all over the world.
Nothing else could do such a thing then. Not even films
or tv programs that were starting to circulate globally
at the time because these ran into language barriers.
But music was magical. It could touch the hearts of
people the same way no matter what language they spoke,
what their lifestyle was, where they lived or what they
were other musicians before Michael Jackson who had
already started creating these global connections across
countries, especially the Beatles, but there was something
special about him. He was black, trying to embody whiteness.
He was a male, trying to embody the female. In his own
unique and perhaps in a rather clumsy way, he was trying
to merge polarized energies, polarized aspects. Everything
about him - his music, his dancing style, his appearance
- was a metaphor for the merging of the poles, integration
of polarized aspects like the male and the female, the
young and the old, the first world and the third world,
the black and the white, (which became quite literal
in his video "Black and White"). He was doing
this at a time when polarization was fast approaching
a breaking point that would destroy the whole world.
He single handedly opened up new energetic pathways
across rigid borders and helped move energies that were
otherwise very stuck.
does this have to do with Shaumbra and our graduation?
Well, I think he left this particular month, right after
our graduation ceremony because he was also done. It
seemed to me that he had come here to move these sorts
of energies at a time when they were very difficult
to move, maybe so that the Shaumbra energy could come
in when it did, starting in 1999, because Shaumbra energy
is also about leaving behind and going beyond all sorts
of borders and boundaries that separate people and countries.
It is also about uniting and integrating. Perhaps, now
that we are ready to take over the task of connecting
and expanding the awareness of humanity ourselves, he
some of his videos, I saw how he emanates an amazing,
bright, uplifting, hopeful energy when he is on stage.
And how this energy is noticed and picked up by all
sorts of audiences from all over the world. You can
see it in his concerts, in the way his fans are cheering
him. You can see it in the sale of his records. And
I know also from being a student in a Third World country
then who loved to listen to and dance to his songs.
How I used to gather with friends to watch his newly
released videos and watch in awe as he did his moonwalk.
price he paid for having this sort of a role in difficult
times was heavy. Trying to merge all these energies
in maybe a bit too literal way on his body, he developed
all sorts of ailments, topped with financial problems,
legal battles, etc. He wasn't a victim of these of course.
But it seems to me that this was the best way he could
come up with to get his message across to so many different
people around the world. I felt so much love for him
because of this. I wanted to honor him and his difficult
but so precious journey. This is why I decided to write
Dreaming with Saint-Germain
morning, I woke up at 5:45 am and heard in the distance
the irritating sound of a crow outside. As I drifted
back into sleep, the sound got louder. I went into a
dream where I was with many Shaumbra who were all hearing
this crow bleating it's ear splitting sound all around
us. Then someone said "Its St. Germain!" And
indeed, before she had said that, I had already knew
it because I was hearing the crowing but "seeing
the words" that the crow was saying.
is what “the crow” said to me/us in the
we began with you 10 years ago, we gave you things such
as the short wall, dancing with what comes to your front
door, the oven of grace, etc., as tangible tools that
you could use to begin to understand the ways of the
New Energy. They were universal tools that each of you
were free to interpret and use in your own way. And
this was the point – they were your tools all
along to be used in your life in very unique ways specific
to your journey. At the time, you did not know they
were "your tools," you saw them as "new
information that the big exalted spirits on high"
had given to you.
example, the short wall was a tool for you to use AT
THE TIME as a way for you to give yourself pause to
stand back and observe what was happening in your life
and in the world around you. AT THE TIME, you were all
energy holders, absorbing and transmuting the energies
of humanity. You were cauldrons of emotions and feelings
and crisis with no way to discern what was yours and
what was not. The short wall was a way for you to TEMPORARILY
separate yourself from the things happening around you,
to disconnect from the seductive energy of mass consciousness.
This gave you the space to finally become aware of your
own presence, your I AM, your center, whatever you choose
to call it. It has also allowed the opportunity for
you to begin to transition from Energy Holders to Energy
was crucial because, as Shaumbra, it was imperative
that you learn to allow all energies to move THROUGH
you. It has been part of your choice as human beings
with a physical body on this planet to allow the energies
of the world/humanity to come into you, not to get stuck
there, but to MOVE BACK OUT with the added element of
your compassion and Christ Consciousness to be sent
back out into the world. This is the method of accelerating
the awakening of humanity. This was and is your purpose,
as Shaumbra, for being here. The beauty of this brilliant
system (that you created by the way), is that it had
the added benefit of allowing anything that was still
within you as stuck energies to also move out with it.
Do you see? An equal balance of serving yourself along
with serving humanity.
completed this work (your process) today you now stand
with clarity in your center, your I AM, and have transformed
once again, from Energy Movers (clearers) to Consciousness
Inspirers. Without stuck spaces within you, you are
now able to FULLY AND DEEPLY FEEL all energies in the
world around you and KNOW that they are not yours. You
allow them to move through you completely and purely
because there is no longer anything for them to stick
to. As they move back out of you, they now contain the
added element of the New Energy. And this is where many
of you are still unsure of "how" this is done.
I will explain why.
this new energy, the tools that were presented to you,
and the way you perceived them to work, no longer do.
This is because you still see them as tools outside
yourself. The short wall, which was initially used to
help you disengage yourself from the dramas around you,
has become for many of you, your EXCUSE not to fully
engage in life. It has become your fortress to shield
you from the intensity of the world around you. It is
true that from this space you have gained and continue
to experience much clarity and stillness. However, in
as much as you are not are bombarded by the energies
of the world from this space, you also are blocked from
expanding your own energies/unique expressions outward
into the world. You wonder why things do not flow into
your life effortlessly? It is because you are sitting
behind that damn wall! You wonder why you cannot feel
your passion? It is because there is nowhere for the
expression to move!
you say "St. Germain, if I come back out from behind
the wall, even if I trust I am now able to allow all
the energies of the world to move through me, how will
I then be able to express my own energies/passions back
into the world? In all that chaos, won't I have to push
and struggle to obtain that which I need to express
myself and my passion?"
humans. Do you see? You are still perceiving that wall
as something OUTSIDE of you. Something you either stand
behind or stand in front of. You are the CREATOR of
that wall. It is an ASPECT of you! Did you think that
aspects were only past life personas or personalities?
Aspects are also the symbolic tools you created to assist
you on your journey.
is time to integrate the short wall, Shaumbra. The short
wall is nothing more than the symbol of your I AM presence.
It has no boundaries, no bricks, no mortar, no form
whatsoever. It is completely permeable. When you BECOME
the short wall, you are experiencing life FROM your
I AM presence. What is missing in your life? YOU! YOU
standing PRESENT as an ACTIVE PARTICIPANT in life! And
from this space, there is nothing that can move through
you that can affect You. And there is nothing that can
prevent You from expressing everything that You choose.
It is the embodiment of freedom.
while we are at it, let's integrate those other tools
too. Dancing with what comes to your front door. This
does not mean you sit in your closed house on a couch
waiting for someone to knock. Take a deep breath now
and INTEGRATE that door. It is ALWAYS open and it is
YOU. YOU standing fully present in life open and willing
to dance with anything and everything that comes into
oven of Grace. Breathe that one in Shaumbra. BECOME
that oven. Take all things in your life that trouble
you and lay them gently within that warm space in your
heart that holds boundless compassion. YOU are that
think you get the point Shaumbra. It is You. Standing
Present and participating fully in Life, no boundaries
to guard you from things coming in and no limits to
prevent you from expressing any and everything that
you choose. No force is needed and no "waiting"
for it to arrive is necessary. It is all there Now.
those crows are smart, eh?
Inspiring My Own Consciousness
had an experience recently that I would like to share.
few days ago, I was eating my lunch that was generously
given to me at a local hostel. While I was in Joy eating
my meal, I was experiencing a beautiful love of myself.
A short way into my meal, a lady approached me and we
started a conversation. She introduced herself and told
me that she was a prostitute. While talking, I realised
that the love I had for myself was unconditionally felt
for this lovely lady. As our conversation unfolded,
I was talking from my heart and I saw and felt that
at a certain point in time, she changed. Something I
said resonated with her and I saw that she considered
herself and her life in a way she hadn’t considered
before. After our conversation had naturally come to
an end, I realised the Joy I had in being able to inspire
than that, though, the beautiful experience I had given
myself also inspired me. I had experienced for myself
the notion that what I love and accept in myself also
extends itself to the love and acceptance I can unconditionally
allow and feel for others.
also realised from this that one of the biggest deceptions
I can give myself is the belief that I love myself too
much to allow something (or someone) to ‘happen’
in my life. This is hiding from or avoiding the very
things that are serving and inspiring me in the moment.
If the experience I am having (and the energies, people
or events that are involved in it) at any moment in
time is available to me because I have either consciously
chosen it or allowed it to happen - a notion not new
to Shaumbra – then it is not only serving me in
some way but also a gift of inspiration if I choose
to accept it.
seems to me that we, as Shaumbra, are not only inspirers
of consciousness in others, but also for ourselves.
I am not feeling the self-love for myself, whatever
is present in my life at that moment can inspire me
to let go of the very things that are preventing me
from loving myself – if I so choose.
a Joy to know that irrespective of what I have consciously
chosen for myself, the next step towards having the
chosen experience is present here and in the Now.
it doesn’t really matter if I’m hungrily
eating at a soup kitchen or exquisitely dining in the
palaces of the mighty, all I need to experience my self-love
and conscious choices is right in front of me all of
message is not really new to Shaumbra, I know. But I’m
enjoying sharing this with you while also letting go
of whatever is not self-loving in this moment.
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