When the wind blows, you can’t exactly see it,
but you can certainly see and feel its effect. And when
energy moves, you may not be able to perceive it right
away, but you can definitely feel the effects.
single Shaumbra I’ve talked to lately, whether
they participated in the Midsummer Conference or not,
has reported that these last few weeks since Tobias’
departure have been strange and unusual. Common themes
of what we’re feeling are exhaustion, allergies
and sniffles, chest colds, lethargy, emptiness, and
a general “taking stock” of self.
going on? How could something as simple as an angel
returning to Earth have such an effect on so many people?
After all, it happens 1000’s of times each day
– every time a baby is born. What is this strange
mixture of loss, confusion, hope and excitement that
we feel? We can tell something is different; that something
big happened, because we can still feel it. But where
are the words to explain it? What energy has moved that
we are now feeling the effects of?
myself, the completion that happened when Tobias said
farewell caused an internal shake-up within me that
I truly wasn’t expecting. I felt the fulfillment
of the mission I have been on for eons, that of helping
get humanity and consciousness to this moment. And with
such a deep completion at so many levels, there was
nothing left to pull me forward. I felt all my commitments
fading away and old promises to other souls becoming
null and void. The passion that had always driven me
forward was fizzling out like a runner collapsing at
the finish line of a marathon.
What do you do when you’re really truly DONE with
what you came to do?
his channel at the conference, Kuthumi invited us to
bring back our own part of Tobias, to reintegrate the
energy we had contributed to our best friend. That experience
of homecoming and reunion, facilitated by the profound
musical expression of Anders Holte, took many who were
there into their deepest Self. When you’ve been
searching for yourself for eons of time, what happens
when you find you?
one option is to choose life on Earth! Before he said
goodbye, Tobias told us how there are other ascended
masters who are also returning to Earth because of the
work we have done.
the end of Tobias’ final message, I could feel
how this moment in history was what I had been working
towards for eons of time. I had set up all sorts of
things to keep me here, keep me focused, and keep me
committed to the end – as I’m sure many
of us did. So, now that that dedication and commitment
is no longer needed, what’s next? With the universe
as our playground, we can choose anything.
as amazing and wonderful as that sounds, in reality
it can be confusing and depressing to our human self.
Like a boat on the open sea, you can feel lost and alone
even though you’re surrounded by absolute freedom,
and I think this is a taste of what we experienced after
the Wall of Fire. We were set free to create, but outside
the safety of Home, away from the familiar sense of
love that had surrounded us.
course we actually brought Home with us, just as we
now carry a piece of what was Tobias in our hearts.
We are free now, no longer bound by vows, commitments
or duty. We’re not even bound by love. We are
free to create whatever we choose, but this time full
of the wisdom and compassion we have gained. Perhaps
at the most basic level, we are once again at the point
of choosing life – a life without purpose,
mission or responsibility for anyone else, but also
a life of joy, creativity and expression.
myself, this void has felt both confusing and tender,
full of a lot of mixed feelings and emotions. I have
felt the absence of Tobias in ways I never expected,
and yet I also feel a new fullness and emptiness
inside that I’m not sure what to do with. So,
rather than trying to rush the process and get back
to “normal,” I’m allowing myself the
time and space to feel the many things that come up,
trusting that the passion will return.
invite each of you, dear Shaumbra, to be gentle with
yourself right now. It can be challenging to feel stillness
of the Void, and there is a tendency to distract oneself
with busyness or drama. It is a place full with potential,
yet empty of purpose, and that can be disconcerting.
But as you allow the energies to move and allow the
winds of change to blow through your heart, you will
find a new peace and balance, a new wholeness and passion.
You are more YOU right now than you have ever been before.
Let the depth of this truth really sink in, and give
yourself the space to discover your newness.
are at a new beginning, like a newborn baby but grown
up as well; what a gift to simply BE with yourself and
rediscover life. Things will keep evolving, life will
keep changing, you will never stop growing; but this
moment of reunion and rebirth is unbelievably special.
I invite you to allow yourself to experience