Do you feel it, how fast things are going? The speed is not always obvious, but it’s kind of like being in a train car; even though the immediate surroundings don’t change, you can just sense that the train is picking up speed. Well, I sense it anyway, but in my imagination it’s more like a boat.
Imagine we’ve each been in our little rowboat, paddling around a vast lake called Earth, exploring all the nooks and crannies along the shores and islands, sometimes even venturing out on the open water. We’ve had a lot of experiences, learned a lot of stuff, made friends and enemies, but this whole time we’ve really been on a treasure hunt, finding and collecting precious bits of wisdom and magic. Because the little rowboats are limited in size, at the end of every excursion/lifetime the treasure was deposited at our own personal storage facility. The plan was always to come back and play with it later, because there were still more items to check off before finishing this grand scavenger hunt. In fact, the whole point of our existence was all about wandering down dead ends, then finding the right maps, making the right connections, discovering the hidden places, inventing solutions to all sorts of obstacles, and finally extracting the precious bits of treasure.
In a way, all this treasure hunting was like the ‘prime directive’ ever since we arrived at this Earth-lake, and every excursion or exploration could be a lifetime. We learned how to propel our little rowboat, dangle hands and feet in the water just for fun, and sometimes weather drastic storms. Sometimes we found a lot of treasure, sometimes just a speck, but over time it all contributed to quite a stash of wonder and wisdom. And where is that cache now? Well, it turns out that the ‘storage facility’ we hadn’t paid much attention to is a sleek, turbo-charged ocean cruiser capable of speeds and experiences the rowboat couldn’t even imagine.
And now, here we are. The last bits of treasure have been collected, the little rowboat has docked one last time at the beautiful luxury yacht, and we’re climbing aboard. But here’s where things get tricky, as I found out recently. No matter how many precious belongings we have in the little boat, most of them won’t be transferred to the cruiser. It’s a Treasure Ship, and the extra baggage just doesn’t have a place. This means it’s time to release more than ever, even dropping ‘important’ stuff like practices, patterns, and creations that we’ve loved. If they have a place on the Treasure Ship, they’ll be there, but the human must let them go along with the little rowboat. (This is why things like diets and goals and even medicines and intentions just don’t work for us like they do for the general population. They are rowboat tools, useless on the speedboat.)
What makes this lifetime so unique is that we’re offloading our treasure to the mothership without dying. And this means we need to be aware of certain physics that were never an issue before. You could say we’re programmed to make the rowboat/body last as long as possible. Sure, it gets a bit banged up on the adventure, but we cling to it as if our very life depends on it (which it has, in a way). But in order to board the luxury yacht, we have to step OFF the rowboat – and that’s scary! What if it doesn’t work? What about all the stuff we’ve collected? What if we fall and drown?
I recently found myself straddling both worlds, so to speak. One foot in my little rowboat with all the precious (but old) plans and creations, one foot on the yacht with its beckoning glow of joy, clarity and magic. I was trying to maintain some old client services, generate interest in some beloved but old creations, and basically scattering my attention in every direction. But it took a very intense conversation to help me see what I was doing. I hadn’t been able to figure out why I was so tired all the time, why things weren’t flowing like they should be, why I felt so much confusion. It was because I was still partly focused on my belongings in the rowboat – the beautiful creations, interesting history, and helpful talents I’d cultivated over the years. They felt important, but how could I bring them into the new? What about the stuff I’d learned, and even taught? What about promises and commitments I’d made? They were important then, but what about now? What about my very identity, who I think I am in the world?
Then the moment came when I realized none of it mattered, when I knew that the treasure of them will easily find its way into the big, beautiful cruiser, even if the literal form of them falls away. It was time to make a choice. Straddling the abyss, I could either step back into the rowboat and go back to the old familiar patterns, or step fully onto the Treasure Ship and let everything go. All the treasure would come with me, and whatever stayed behind was unnecessary.
What does this mean in real life? Simply said, I’ve been releasing quite a number of beloved distractions, things I never thought I’d be done with, hopes and dreams I was holding onto for “someday,” even services and creations that have blessed others. As I see it, there’s no more “someday” to plan for. It’s all right now and I have to be all in – in this moment, in this experience, in what I’ve chosen for this lifetime and, most important, all in my luxury wisdom yacht. Her engines are revving, she’s started to move, and it already feels like I’m going at 100 knots. This isn’t the time to keep pushing myself along with the old oars of plans, controls, and effort. It is not the time for trying to steer with the old rudder of visualization, goals, and intentions. And it’s definitely not the time to dawdle along with my fingers in the water, getting distracted and thinking I have plenty of time to “get there.” I am there – I’m here – and everything is different now. At this point, even a toe in the water will cause turbulence that I don’t need. It’s time to be all in and let everything become all new.
This new ship is an amazing, state-of-the-art cruiser. It’s not designed for exploration and learning, but for experience and magic. It’s my Treasure Ship where all the wisdom is no longer hidden away in some unknown vault. The priceless gold, jewels and enchantments are all right here, ready for me to play, design and create with them. No more collecting. No more learning. No more searching. No more trying to get everything ‘right.’ Now is the time to soar, my grand ship of life on autopilot, my energy serving me in every moment. But only if I’m all in.
Being all in means I’ve let go of the past, whether childhood traumas or yesterday’s snub. All in means I’m no longer hoping for a future windfall or magical relief. All in means my everything is new, unencumbered by regrets and disappointments of the past, or hopes and dreams of the future. All in means no ‘what ifs’ or ‘yes buts.’ All in means it’s time to allow all this stuff to be really real, to release myself – and everyone in my reality – from all our history and be truly free. What that looks like will be different every time, but as long as I’m all in, I’ll know exactly what to do.
Maybe I’ll come back someday to paddle around the lake again, lazy and carefree, just for old time’s sake. Or maybe this Treasure Ship will sprout wings and I’ll take to the sky, knowing the search is over and now I can do, be and experience anything. Now and then, even though this freedom has been my target for eons, the familiarity of that little rowboat still beckons. But, for me, it’s time to let go the distractions and truly be all in. See you over the rainbow!