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I Am Serena is a harrowing yet remarkably uplifting story that recounts how I integrated over three hundred unique personalities into the woman I am today. Before my birth in 1955, my father contracted me to the government’s mind-control program called MKUltra. The program’s goal was to find a way to control human beings through the portal of the mind. Surrendering his child for experimentation was not unusual for my father; he had no regard for human life since he was the head of a multi-generational satanic cult.

At three days old, I was brought home from the hospital, where my training began. I experienced severe abuse aimed at splitting my identity, and it continued into my adulthood. Although my upbringing was horrific, my memoir is inspiring, sharing in storybook fashion how I journeyed toward discovering my identity as a Soul human being through the guidance of higher consciousness and an unwavering commitment from Norma Delaney.

In my book, I write, “In truth, there was no I. There was no awareness of myself as an individual. Instead, there was a physical body, containing fragmented consciousnesses, held together by my Soul to move the life forward. Imagine a revolving door, quickly ushering people in and out. Each personality that comes forward will pick up the conversation where the last one left off. There can be no indication of the switch because that will attract your attention. There is a cohesiveness of awareness, which allows all the personalities to flow as one.”

After ten years of working with top-notch doctors in the field of Dissociative Identity Disorder, I felt hopeless. Memories continued to flood me of things so unimaginable that all I could do was believe they were lies. I wanted to integrate to get my sons home again. I had it all planned out, I thought. I could only dream of surviving. I latched onto the idea of integration in shortsightedness. But my Soul knew a greater truth. She knew of things I could not imagine. During my therapy sessions, she began to whisper, “There is something more.” When I finally let go of my idea of how I would integrate and opened to her invitation, my life-changing adventure began.

Serena in 1995I met Norma Delaney a few weeks later in 1996. She was an energy facilitator with Spirit. She introduced me to compassion and higher consciousness through the energy of Kuan Yin. Norma’s Essence touched me like nothing I had ever known before. Her brown eyes sparkled, assuring me all was well, and her voice had a sound that resonated deep within me. When I was in her presence, I felt as though I was wrapped in a cocoon of loving warmth. For the first few years of our work, feeling terrorized was normal for me. Frantically, I would call her on the phone, and the moment I heard her voice, my entire body would shudder with relief. I could sense there was another reality outside the fear I always lived in. That is why I kept coming back, no matter how difficult our work became.

Norma challenged every single thing I believed. Only through the sacred breath could I begin to hear what she was telling me and have the courage to face my past. She would patiently repeat the same thing to whoever came forward in the body to speak to her. It was Norma’s unending patience and compassion that made the difference, but despite all of that, it took years before ‘we’ trusted her.

Norma revealed a conversation she had with Garret years before. After hearing the same discussion for the umpteenth time, he asked, “How can you repeat the same thing over and over again? Doesn’t it frustrate you?” Smiling serenely, she replied, “But Garret, I was speaking to Roberta, and she had never heard it before.”

Every personality presented themselves as separate individuals with their unique physical characteristics and names. Most were children, some were adults, and a few were monsters. But each one had their part to play to keep the body alive and sane. It wasn’t until the last few years of our work that Norma showed me that these parts of me were aspects of memory. This awareness allowed me to integrate the traumas of my life more easily.

I marveled at our innocence when we started this journey. Neither of us knew how huge an undertaking it would be. It was Norma’s constant yes that made it all possible. She committed herself fully to me. It wasn’t until after Norma died that I began to realize how true that was. Geoff Hoppe told me that no matter where she was in the world, she made the time to connect with me. He remarked that Norma would be having dinner with a group of Shaumbra people and excuse herself to call me on the phone. She knew I lived in constant fear, and if I heard her voice, I would be comforted. People over the years asked her why she kept working with me. They thought it was taking too long. But their opinions didn’t matter to her, for she knew the progress we were making. Norma would say, “If you didn’t meet me at every turn to do this work, Serena, I would have stopped long ago.” And when I did balk by resisting her guidance, she would stop and allow me to choose what I wanted. This simple act allowed me to connect more deeply to being a creator. I had been a victim, playing the game of fear for so long that this was an integral part of my healing.

I lived with Norma and Garret for the first two weeks of the year 2001 to keep me safe from the aspects that wanted to kill me. From the beginning, I had been trained to never tell the secrets. Specific personalities within the system had learned to keep the secrets at any cost, and the closer I got to the truth, the more they were triggered to do their job and kill the body. Only through Norma and Garret’s vigilance to keep me safe during that time am I alive today.

When they moved to Colorado, they brought me with them. And that is when the real work began. For the next seven years, I lived alone in my little house in Evergreen and had no contact with anyone but Norma.

Norma loved me a breath at a time. Conscious Soul breathing was the tool she taught me to connect to my inner stillness. It was how I began to distinguish between truth and the lies of my trained mind. Norma demonstrated that the compassion and stillness that existed within her was also within me, and all I had to do was access it through this sacred breath. I learned that my Soul loved me so completely and without judgment that she did whatever it took to keep my body alive and my mind sane. It was my beliefs that labeled me as bad or wrong.

When we worked with a memory that elicited judgment, Norma would admonish me and say, “You get to choose Serena. Will you stay with judgment, or will you come deep into your core and breathe? Feel the truth of what your Soul knows.” Holding me in compassionate love, she would wait to see what I would choose. Closing my eyes, I would ask my Soul to help me feel the truth. And as I breathed, I would begin to feel a reality outside the cruel words of my mind. It resonated within me, showing me through feeling that what Norma said was true. That is what created my awareness as an individual.

Initially, I began writing my story to help me connect to the truth. I would sit down at the computer, close my eyes, and allow the memories to surface through Soul guidance. There were layers and layers of dissociative numbness between me and what had happened in my life. It took years of me writing down my experiences before I began to connect with what had happened. When I started to feel how real these events were, it took my breath away. I felt the terror and feelings of abandonment, and they would engulf me in painful emotions. It was only through the compassionate breath that I was able to integrate them. Integration is the act of bringing home old energy, old wounds, and aspects through the breath ‘into the greatness of me.’ I could no longer pretend that what had happened to me wasn’t real. I felt it in every fiber of my body. I had believed my memories were a lie, but that belief disappeared the more I connected to the truth of what I had lived. As I faced the consequences of my experiences from non-judgment, I fell in love with myself more and more, and my past could no longer control me in the same way.

That is the miracle Norma gave me! Through the power of the breath, combined with the willingness to face the truth of what I believed, we began to disentangle the nightmare I had lived. I often felt that my system was like a giant rubber band ball, holding thousands of bands tightly woven together, and if any one of those bands broke, the entire thing would explode. To live life like that was exhausting. Over the past few years, I have had people ask me how I dared to work with Norma. I was surprised by their question. Here was this woman who offered me not only unending compassion and love, but who always, and I mean always, told me the truth no matter how difficult it was for her. Plus, the kind of pain I was in is inconceivable for most people to grasp, and that pain kept me motivated to open to her guidance no matter how difficult it was. Courage didn’t feel like it was part of the equation because you will do whatever it takes to stay alive when you are drowning.

When I discovered that my mother had intentionally called me by different names to create multiple personalities, I was devastated. I had held out hope that she hadn’t hurt me as my father had. As I rocked back and forth, trying to grasp what my mother had done to me, Norma held a space of quiet acceptance. She didn’t try to fix me or tell me I would be alright. Instead, Norma invited me to ask my Soul for her insight. This was the gift Norma offered me. She insisted I find my own answers. She invited me to go to my Soul for comfort. Her intention all along was to help me find me. And as I went within, I felt the compassion from my Soul well up inside me, calming me so I could feel the truth resonate in my body, and that spoke more powerfully to me than words could. This is how I was created as the first authentic consciousness in the body. As I stopped switching and stayed, no matter how uncomfortable I was, breathing all the while, it allowed more of me to be here. I was choosing to live, and this choice fed me, adding to my experience. When I try to share with people that I, Serena-Faith Masterson, really wasn’t born until I had met Norma Delaney, they are confused. I understand that. To birth new consciousness in an adult body to create a new life is a miracle. But that is what my Soul intended all along. The mass of aspects designed to keep the body alive was like actors in a play holding space until real life could be created. This journey has been incredible. When you hear the words, “With Spirit anything is possible,” you can know it is true because I am a living example of that statement. What seemed like impossible odds to many were not to my Soul because she knew we could accomplish my integration one breath at a time.

My story is full of wisdom that is useful to anyone trying to quiet the noise created by the mind, such as negative thinking about oneself, feelings of stress or overwhelm, and fear. Every memory I share is from the perspective of compassion and non-judgment. The memoir illuminates how I transformed from a fearful person plagued with PTSD into a person of aliveness and joy.

Anyone can turn within to begin a relationship with their Soul. All you have to do is invite your Soul to be a part of your everyday life. No matter how loud the fear seems to get, the stillness that lives in the core of each of us is the ingredient needed to guide us out of the traumas of our past. Every person has been wounded in their life, and through the compassionate breath, they can be healed.

I have an ongoing relationship with my sons, who are now adults. I work at a local bank in my community. I thought by the time my book came out, I would no longer be working as a banker, but that was a mind idea. Yet again, my Soul had a greater plan. In staying at my job, I discovered what it feels like to be transparent. My story is out there for anyone to read, and I am safe. Clients come in and share what my story meant to them. Some have cried with me, while others tell me it has helped them tremendously. Knowing that I don’t have to hide anymore has given me a greater sense of freedom. Can you imagine how wonderful that feels? My past no longer controls me, and my life unfolds in ways that often surprise me, but the most precious miracle of all is I know my Soul, and I are one.

I Am Serena is available to purchase worldwide.

Serena-Faith Masterson achieved integration after being diagnosed with Dissociative Identity Disorder (formerly known as Multiple Personality Disorder). It took over twenty years to accomplish her goal. She had over three hundred distinct personalities created intentionally from the severe abuse she experienced by her parents and the government’s mind control program called MKUltra.

After working with doctors and therapists for over ten years to heal, Serena sought the help of an energy facilitator with Spirit. Through the commitment of one woman and her Soul’s guidance, Serena accomplished her goal of personality integration.

Today Serena lives in Colorado, works in the banking industry, and maintains a normal lifestyle, enjoying a close relationship with her sons. You can contact Serena for speaking engagements through email or via her website

NOTE: Books ordered from Serena’s website can only be shipped within the USA. To purchase the book elsewhere, you may follow the links on the distributor page or a quick internet search will provide local distributors.

To learn more about integration,

click for info on Aspectology.

4 comments on "Whole – A Breath at A Time"

  • Lumena Braga de Carvalho on December 8, 2021 11:16 PM said:
    Eu me emocionei muito tiociu minha alma , na verdade foi sincronia ler isso Obrigada linda Serena Infinitas Bençãos Lumena Braga de Carvalho Brasil
  • Gulsum on January 13, 2021 12:19 AM said:
    I am speechless. So much shifted within me. Huge respect to you, Dear Serena. Thank you ever so much for sharing your beautiful, other worldly story. Can’t wait to read your book. Lots of love 💙
  • Janet Sturgess on January 12, 2021 7:19 PM said:
  • Rosana on January 6, 2021 3:52 AM said:
    Hi Serena, obrigada por sua historia, foi significativa para mim!

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