I am in agonizing pain. It’s not about the physical pain caused by integrating my light body. I know what that feels like. I can deal with that because I understand what my biology is going through. This is something quite different. It’s not muscle pain from working too hard in the yard here at Villa Ahmyo. That goes away in a day or two, especially after sitting in the hot tub at sunset with Linda, Belle and a glass of wine.
It’s the pain of watching what’s happening in the world. I just want to scream. Wars. Conspiracies. Unconscious humans. Bureaucrats. Corruption. COVID. Excuses. Rudeness.
I just want to scream and my body is in pain. I want to call out every power-hungry jerk in the world. Even the so-called leaders and smart ones don’t seem to have a clue. There is absolutely no reason for injustice, inequity and suffering on the planet, yet humanity blindly accepts and practices it.
There’s not enough CBD oil in the world to relieve my pain.
Then, I hear a voice from deep within. I am here to do one simple yet profound thing, the voice says: To shine my light. But in the moment of hearing that inner voice, I want to take my light and shove it up the wazoo of the corrupt ones, the conspiracy sheep, the zombies, and the pompous leaders. I estimate that less than 3% of humanity is corrupt, but what really galls me is the other 96.99% that is asleep. That is really who I am upset with. Why don’t they wake up and say, “No More!”?? Anything less than joy should be unacceptable.
I can’t bury my head in the sand, although there are days I wish I could. I can’t pretend that “It’s all good, man.” The next time I hear someone say “It’s all good” I’m going to burst into spontaneous combustion. I’m in too much emotional and physical pain to romp down Fairy Lane with the unicorns and bliss-ninnies.
I probably shouldn’t even be writing this article. I actually tried writing a “normal” article about some of the recent Shaumbra activities, but it seemed so lame and disingenuous. I’m pissed about what’s happening in the world around me. Yeah, yeah, it’s all my energy, and that only makes it suck even worse. Where is the “Delete” button so I can reboot my energy?
I mourn the loss of Shaumbra friends that have gone the way of conspiracy and duality. Lately I’ve been getting all sorts of conspiracy crap from Shaumbra around the world. Really? What do they expect me to say when they send this stuff? What I want to say is that they are immersed in huge distractions to avoid the inevitable confrontation with their Soul, because the Soul knows that the only true conspiracy is the lies a human tells themselves.
The other day I received a link for a new video from three separate people, probably because it included a discussion about St. Germain. There are three hours of video content filled with very few facts and a lot of conspiracy distortions. Each person that sent it to me insisted this was all absolutely factual, and that I needed to wake up to the “truth.” Oh, and also tell Adamus that he’s playing into the hands of the 10 richest families that control the world.
Here’s a link to the video: Everything is a Rich Man’s Dream. Is it just me, or is this three hours of unsubstantiated conspiracy chaos? Do people actually take this stuff at face value? If so, then they should also check out the Birds Aren’t Real website. Please don’t tell them this website is totally a spoof on conspiracy theories. Let them think that every bird on the face of the planet is actually a government surveillance device. It gives them another reason for avoiding their Soul.
I’m not sure whether to laugh or cry, but Linda and I have received a dozen or so emails from Shaumbra that are leaving Crimson Circle because…. Linda and I got a (gasp) COVID vaccination! They say we can no longer be trusted because our bodies are filled with spyware and little robots and tracking devices. I don’t give a damn if you’ve had a COVID vaccination or not. It’s a personal choice. Linda and I travel a lot and we’re always around people. Plus, we’re not spring chickens any more. We’re officially listed as Age Impaired. So yes, we got COVID shots the moment they became available because we didn’t want to end up in a hospital ICU bed. Don’t tell them, but we also got a dreaded Booster Shot! The COVID shot, what foods you put in your mouth, what movies you watch on Netflix, and who you make love to, are personal choices.
Do they really believe we have mind-control devices imbedded in our body as the result of a COVID shot? Don’t tell them that it doesn’t matter if you got vaccinated or not because all of the two-ply toilet paper in the world is infused with microscopic robots that make their way into your brain. That’s where the term butthead originated. Charmin-brand toilet paper is actually owned by the C.I.A. Why settle for wispy chem-trails from aircraft when you can go straight to the source with toilet paper. Duh!
Maybe tomorrow my angst and anger will subside. Maybe the sun will come out and remind me of the beauty and humor of life. Maybe I’ll remember what I am here for: To be on the planet as an embodied Master at the Time of Machines. Maybe I’ll remember the numerous lifetimes of work it took to get here, and the epic changes that are occurring on the planet right now. Maybe this gray cloud of despair will go away so I can get back to Shining My Light. Good lord, the world needs it right now. I feel a little guilty that I’m not joining with other Shaumbra around the world today to do some consciousness shining. This is my day off from shining. I just need today for some venting and ranting. It’s been building up for a long time so now I just need to blow off some steam.
On second thought, I think I’ll watch Kuthumi’s new message, Metaphysics of Pain. It was just released… perfect timing for me. He has some interesting advice about letting go of pain, as I recall from filming the channel back in March. I think I’ll take his advice right about now. Check out the trailer and you’ll see what I’m talking about: Metaphysics of Pain.