With apologies to Shaumbra Magazine readers, my brain is not working this month. I can’t write a coherent article, with a beginning, middle and end. Ever since the May 2019 Shoud my brain is in bits and pieces. Some of the pieces make sense, while others are total nonsense, but I can’t seem to put anything together in a logical way. So for this article I can only share pieces. I know most of you will understand because you’re probably experiencing the same thing. I know Jean Tinder is because I just read her article. Poor Jean… Life in Pieces!
The May 2019 Shoud is one I’ll never forget. It had all of the elements that make for an epic Shaumbra gathering: Laughter, drama, shock, revelations, insights, confrontations and transformations. What was it like to channel Adamus’ dialogue with Annette from Norway? Super intense and uncomfortable! As the channeler I could see the set-up: Annette, sweet and innocent claiming that everything in her life was good. Adamus seeing right through the cover, claiming that he could see her fear. Annette denying her fear. Adamus laying the trap with a few questions about her family, and where she lives. Then BOOM! The truth revealed. Her son is in the hospital and hasn’t spoken a word in months. I could feel everyone on the edge of their seats, having total empathy for Annette. Adamus ends by saying her son was feeling into the session and that he’d be talking again soon. (BTW, Annette reported that she got a phone call from her son nearly as soon as she arrived back in Norway. He was talking again.)
Social media lit up after the May Shoud. Several people told Adamus to f*** off. Some admitted they really weren’t interested in Embodied Realization because they just wanted an easier life, noting that Adamus and the Crimson Circle actually made their life more challenging. Some said they were sick and tired of having the carrot (Realization) waved in front of the horse (them) all the time. Others wisely replied that perhaps they should just eat the damn carrot rather than complain about it. Some said they were leaving Crimson Circle to go out on their own. Others asked why they didn’t do it sooner, and noted that Crimson Circle is simply a safe space for coming to your own Realization. I think there were more posts on the various Shaumbra Facebook pages than I’ve seen in a long time, and more true wisdom than I’ve observed in ages.
Last week I never wanted to hear another platitude, saying, maxim, adage, axiom or cliché again. I couldn’t think, read or talk about anything “spiritual.” I asked Adamus to give me lots of space and let me be a simple fool for a while. It was so bad (How bad was it?) that I had to cancel a recording session at the studio that had been planned nearly six months prior. I delayed the Keahak recording session until the last possible moment. I watched more TV in the past 3 weeks than in the entire past year. Thank goodness for Netflix and banal romantic comedies. It was all I could handle.
I love the graphic on the cover of this month’s Shaumbra Magazine. For me it’s a haunting reminder of Atlantis and the headbands. She’s looking off into the future, with sadness in her eyes but hope in her heart. There was such a beauty about Atlantis, and yet such a tragedy. I think Charles Dickens’ Tale of Two Cities quote says it all: “It was the best of times, it was the worst of times, it was the age of wisdom, it was the age of foolishness, it was the epoch of belief, it was the epoch of incredulity, it was the season of Light, it was the season of Darkness, it was the spring of hope, it was the winter of despair, we had everything before us, we had nothing before us, we were all going direct to Heaven, we were all going direct the other way.” And now, according to Adamus, Atlantis is directly linked to our passion. If I were to continue Dickens’ quote I might add: “It was the end of an era, and then we traveled through the clouds of time to the golden age of Realization. Our unexpected guide was a little slave boy who’s name we could not recall at the time…”
I was rummaging around my brain the other day, looking for some beliefs to chew on. I couldn’t find any, so I tried to make up some new ones. The moment I tried to form a new belief it disappeared into thin air. Slowly, slowly I’m getting the hint. No more beliefs. My little human Self is in a panic but I have to admit that my beliefs were as stale as month-old bread.
Adamus laid out a map of sorts in the most recent Keahak session. It goes something like this: First, we had to get over our wounds and victim-consciousness. Whilst we were doing this he cleared out the energy feeders and game players from the ranks of Shaumbra so he could focus his work on the ones who were allowing Realization in this lifetime. Then we had to bring in the wisdom of the Master to help balance what would come next. Now, we’re in the time of changing our relationship with energy, letting it serve us rather than us being its slave. From here we go beyond the mind. You can see him setting this up right now in Keahak and the Shouds. That’s what the 45-60 day “experience” he talked about at the May Shoud is all about. Then we go into gnost, something that he and Tobias have talked about for years but now we’re actually going to bring it into our everyday lives. From there, it’s all about the integration of consciousness and energy. Oh, and enjoying life without guilt or shame.
Hear this clearly: It’s all about staying. Adamus says that he’s not going to spend much time talking about coming to Realization. There’s no need to because it’s a natural process and a foregone conclusion. Instead he’s preparing us to stay on the planet as embodied Masters. That includes having a command of energy, being fearless with our creations, experiencing life in a sensual way, and learning how to handle our incredible level of irritation with other people.
Every step of the way: When Adamus addressed Shaumbra in his first Shoud in September 2009, he said he’ll be with us every step of the way. Back then I didn’t realize it would mean every step backwards as well as forward. I think I’m doing 3 backward steps to every 4 forward steps. No wonder my shoes are worn out.
10/20: We’re celebrating Adamus’ 10 years with Shaumbra in mid-June down in Santa Fe, New Mexico. It was at the Interdimensional Living workshop in September 2009 in Santa Fe where he first had me open my eyes and walk around the room while channeling him. After years of channeling Tobias in a barstool with my eyes closed, I did not like the experience. I didn’t even like Adamus so much at the time. Rude. Arrogant. Provocative. But I came to learn he was pretty damn brilliant as well, and that it was all an Act of St. Germain. Now we’re BFF-MOTT’s (Best Friends Forever, Most of the Time).
In August we celebrate Crimson Circle’s 20-year anniversary. It all started in a teepee on August 21, 1999, two days after what Edgar Cayce predicted would be the beginning of the end of the world. Well, at least the world as we knew it.
I made it! Writing my article felt like I was going willy-nilly through the words and pages but at least I made it to the end. It’s kind of like our coming to Realization: Our human mind tries to plan everything, then our life appears to be in pieces, and suddenly we realize we’ve made it. End of old story, beginning of new life.
May we meet again in a place where the pieces don’t have to make sense, but where we know it’s more real than in the place we called logic.