Dear Master, I’ve not been feeling like myself for some time now. I feel tired. My head is heavy and there’s no vitality – at least not as it was before – and I’m still young!! What’s happening? What’s wrong with me?
There’s tremendous energy right now. Part of you is feeling the excruciating, pulverizing force, and that’s probably okay, because it’s really grinding out a lot of things that just aren’t appropriate.
Being tired is really good for you right now, not getting a good night’s sleep. Because you know what? It’s breaking down some of your defenses and your controls and your limitations because you get so damn tired that you don’t have the energy to put up all of these psychic barriers and walls. So you’re just breaking them down.
Take a good deep breath right now. Just take that plunge into it. Feel those energies, and remember that energy is here to serve you. Remember the basics of energy. It has no agenda whatsoever. It has no mind. It has no direction. It doesn’t care. It’s just energy. It doesn’t have feelings.
So many of you have gotten to the point where you’re kind of afraid of energy. Okay, now let’s do a really good deep breath … bringing this in. No fear. Allowing it to flow in you. Letting it serve you. Letting it serve what you are choosing in your life. Not hiding from this energy.
But sometimes, I feel that the only way to cope with all of this is to try to shove it away, to shut down.
You have an interesting choice: Shut down, wait for the storm to pass, but you’re still going to be feeling things and you’re still going to be shut down; or – ah! – drink it in. And a funny thing happens. When you are drinking it in, when you are just bringing it in without any controls or restrictions, suddenly it doesn’t hurt. Suddenly you realize it’s not painful. It doesn’t make your thoughts even more complex. It doesn’t hurt your body.
When you’re shielding yourself from the energies that are here right now, ducking from them, then it’s going to hurt, because you have your layers of defense systems up. You’re holding back. You’re controlling.
When you are just bringing it in open, free, uncontrolled, it doesn’t hurt. It doesn’t hurt.
But can’t I do something to feel better? Shouldn’t I at least exercise more? Or eat differently?
Right now you’re particularly tired a lot, and then what do you do? You say, “Ohhh, I’m just getting older.” So what do you do next? This is so classic… You say, “What’s wrong with me? What’s with me? I need more exercise, because I heard on the news or I heard some doctor say ‘more exercise.’” Actually, you don’t. Really.
When we go into light body, you’re going to find a lot of that exercising is total bullshit. It really is.
So then you’re like, “Then I have to eat different and I …” You see what you’re doing? You’re building all of these attributes, personality building. No. You’re tired because you’re going through spiritual puberty. It’s a very consuming process. You’re getting rid of all that crap you’ve been dragging around for a long time that is not yours.
It’s a game. It’s a rotten, stinking, addictive game. You, any of you, can get out of it in a – snap! – moment. Like that. Any of you can stop telling yourself these less than beautiful things about yourself.
At least go into “and.” “And my energy level is low. My balance is low and it’s not.” It’s what you choose to believe. (…). Talk to yourself. Let yourself feel yourself. Don’t scream at your soul. Don’t scream at me. Talk to yourself.
Even sleep doesn’t really work, as you probably found out. Best thing, some fresh air, a little light exercise, like walking or skipping or something like that. Light exercise, none of these harsh things. You’re just going to burn through more energy. Energy level, forget about it for now.
And your mood? You’re going to be like a rabid bitch dog that hasn’t been fed in two weeks. Your mood; you’re trying to control it. Just give yourself permission to be angry. Give yourself permission to just let it out, okay, because your mood is going to be absolutely erratic for a while.
Actually, in a way, Cauldre really summarized this by saying, “Things happen on levels which the human doesn’t understand nor should have to understand. But it’s getting that human out of the way so the I Am can bring about what is greater than what your mind or imagination can possibly imagine.”
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