SHAUMBRA MAGAZINE: How and when did you find Crimson Circle?
JEAN: 2002 was a very interesting year for me. I was pregnant with Taryn, my last child, and my brother was living with us at the time. Someone had sent him a Tobias channel, which he then gave to me. When I read it, I just cried and cried, because that’s what happens when you find home. It touched me so very deeply. I’d been searching for a long, long time and had come across Abraham Hicks, Steve Rother, and lots of other material. It was all interesting and provided a few pieces of my puzzle, but when I found Crimson Circle it felt like the end of my search, like I had finally come home. And of course, as often happens, almost immediately my life fell apart.
At the time, we had been going to a Christian church that my husband had strong connections with. I learned to “translate” what I felt and knew into things that Christians could understand, and actually enjoyed being part of the worship music team. About a week before my daughter was born, we were kicked out of church. The day after we brought her home, the landlord informed us that we had 45 days to vacate because she wanted the house back, and at the same time my husband’s work had dried up. It felt like life had chewed us up and spit us out. A few weeks later we moved our entire life to a new town in a different state. In September 2002 I tuned in to my first live Shoud webcast and have not missed a single one since. It has changed my life in every way imaginable.
SM: And how did you start working for the Crimson Circle?
JEAN: About 18 months later, I knew I needed to be somewhere else, and assumed it would be Santa Fe where my brother lived. I took a trip to check it out, and along the way attended the “Now Year” celebration at the beginning of 2004 and stayed in Colorado another week to go to the January Shoud. That was when it dawned on me “I feel home here. This is where I belong!” I forgot about Santa Fe, went back to Oregon, packed up my stuff and six weeks later moved to Colorado with my little girl.
Over the years and through many adventures and challenges, I started volunteering occasionally with things the Crimson Circle was doing. I’d help out at the big summer events or do a little transcribing and other things. Then, in December 2007, I got an email out of the blue. It was one of those moments when you know everything is about to change. Geoff asked if I would like to work for Crimson Circle as an office manager at Lake Tahoe. Of course, I said yes, for it was truly my dream job! A part of me didn’t like putting my own workshops and creations on the back burner, but they weren’t happening anyway, so it was basically irrelevant. And, again, this was exactly where I belonged. I couldn’t imagine a better fit, so I joyfully accepted the offer and started my employment on January 1, 2008.
SM: You started as an office manager, but your job has evolved so much and now you’re in content and production. How did that happen? What skills did you bring and how did it change over time?
JEAN: I already had a lot of computer skills. In fact, I used to dream of making a living at the computer because I enjoyed working with it so much. As they say, be careful what you wish for! I also had been completely immersed in the Crimson Circle material, eagerly taking in everything that was available, so I knew it really well. I knew a lot of Shaumbra around the world from my own connections and things I’d done, so I brought all of that. I’m also fairly organized, creative, eager to learn new things and good at thinking outside the box, which all proved very helpful as I dived into my new job. I started seeing things that could be done in many areas and I had a lot of ideas – some good ones, some duds.
Within a few months I was promoted from office manager to marketing manager, because of my familiarity with the content. Eventually my job title was changed to content manager, and everything fell into place. I could throw myself into our content one hundred percent, because that’s what it’s all about!
I’d had a very steep learning curve in the beginning. Not only did I jump from a PC computer deep into a Mac environment, there were a lot of other technologies, office systems, and software programs to figure out. As I got my bearings, I started playing with more software programs, and when Tobias did the Letter to Awakening Humans, I taught myself video editing with iMovie. I excerpted that part of the Shoud and posted it on YouTube (on my personal YouTube account, which was not real smart) and sent it to Geoff. We quickly created the Crimson Circle YouTube channel, I started doing more editing and began slowly learning how it all worked.
I look back at some of those first videos and cringe, but it was a beginning, and over time I got better. Eventually the video editing turned into a regular part of my job, and after we moved Crimson Circle back to Colorado, I started directing the Shoud webcasts and other recordings. I’ve learned so much in this job, and it’s never, ever boring! Now that Peter has joined the team, he does most of the video editing, but I still do it now and then, along with various other production tasks.
SM: So, with all this change and evolution, how do you define your job now? What is it that you do?
JEAN: Well, I pretty much have my finger in everything, because the content is what we’re all about. John Kuderka said once that Crimson Circle is really a distribution company, and that what we distribute is content.
We have the main Crimson Circle website which includes the channel library (which currently contains nearly 400 channels), twenty-two international websites, and hundreds of other pages. We have the classes, workshops and other products – a total of 178 – in the store. We have the emails that go out based on things like Angel subscriptions, languages, events, purchases and other information, the monthly Shaumbra Magazine, and so on. All of these distribution streams are content based, which means I’m involved in them. I help write the mailers. I’m the magazine editor, so write, edit and oversee everything that goes into it each month. I write all the descriptions in the store within some very specific parameters. (We need to give a clear idea of what the material is about and what people can get from it; it needs to be timeless, i.e. as relevant in 10 years as it is right now; and we need to include key words, search terms, tags and all these different things to make it easier to find in the future.) So, it’s my responsibility to keep the content in all these areas up to date, to make sure things are clear, relevant, easy to find, and easy to access. I also edit the books we put out, seven so far, and am currently re-editing Journey of the Angels, which we’re republishing in just a few weeks. To me, that book is the most precious content of all that we’ve put out, because it touches everything.
SM: It all sounds so exciting, but what would be the worst part of the job?
JEAN: Time and space! Deadlines! Actually, I wouldn’t call it the “worst” part, because deadlines are great motivators to get things done. I think the most challenging part of the job is keeping track of all the different things that I need to take care of, because it’s a very broad scope. Whether it’s updating website pages, proofing and formatting the newest transcript, compiling the monthly content report, adding the daily quotes and images to the home page, preparing videos for the next webcast, compiling and editing the magazine, filing copyrights and trademarks with the government, making audio samples of older items, rewriting descriptions or tracking countless other details, it’s important not to “drop” any of those things. My desk is covered with notepads and sticky note reminders to help with that.
SM: So, what keeps it all together? What’s the best of it that keeps you going despite all the details?
JEAN: It’s the constant feeling that this is why I’m here, why I’m on Earth, to be part of this and help all of us bring in this information. And also, more than anything, to really embody it, to live it first in my own life, and then share with whoever might be interested. It’s the feeling of absolute resonance with my soul purpose in this lifetime.
SM: So, this is your massion?
JEAN: Yes. This is my massion. It’s a deep, eons-old commitment I made to come back together with Geoff & Linda, the staff, Tobias and Shaumbra to do this. And it’s a commitment I very consciously renewed a while after Tobias left. I feel very committed, and at the same time I feel absolutely free. That’s how it is when something is your passion; it’s not a burden. It’s like “Yes! We’re finally doing this and I’m going to see it through!” Of course, I don’t know how it will play out in the future – Adamus certainly won’t be around forever – but I’m in it until it’s done. Not everyone around me understands the depth of my commitment, but I feel very clear about it.
SM: Is there anything else you would like to add, anything else you would like people to know about you?
JEAN: I get up every morning ready to go to work. I often start around 7:00 in the morning, sometimes earlier, not because I have an overwhelming workload – although there’s always a lot to do – but because it’s hard to imagine doing anything else. Having the privilege of sharing this journey with all of us is fulfilling in a way that’s hard to describe. I write an article in the magazine every month, and it always feels like such a privilege to have that opportunity to share and connect. It brings a sense of fulfillment and completion that is simply priceless.
Somebody asked me the other day, “If you were independently wealthy and didn’t have to earn money, what would you do?” And I gave an answer that hasn’t changed for years: “I would do exactly what I’m doing.” I’m fortunate to get paid for it, but if I had all the money in the world, I would still do this because it’s such a passion. I am honored to share the journey with all of Shaumbra.