With all the life experiences you can choose from and all the places to put your money, why should you consider attending the Sexual Energies School? It’s a good chunk of money and, if you’re like most Shaumbra, you bristle a bit at being told what you ‘should’ do. However, speaking from my own personal experience, it just might change your life. This change isn’t an overnight process, but it’s a deep one, and something that you’ll bring into eternity. I’d like to share a glimpse of how SES went (and is still going) for me.
Day 1 – I attended the workshop with Tobias when it was recorded for teachers. By the time the first session ended, so much was stirring inside I could hardly see straight. I’d been relatively conscious for a long time and had already done a lot of inner work, but this was unearthing and exposing lifetimes of patterns, beliefs and assumptions. By the end of the first day and the very intense experience Tobias took us through, I was barely coherent. Something very deep was happening, but I couldn’t yet put it into words.
Day 2 – After going through the history of what he called the “sexual energy virus,” my personal view of nearly everything in life had been upended. Family and interpersonal dynamics, personal habits and patterns, global situations – everything looked different. The second day ends on a hopeful note with homework and a “prescription” that Tobias says will solve everything. It seemed a little dubious, maybe because my mind thought it was too easy…
Day 3 – More information and more experiences make it clear that this issue of energy imbalance permeates and affects EVERYTHING. It touches every single part of life, even – or especially – when we think we already have it all figured out. The class ends on an amazing note of joy and hope, full of the sense that even though the virus is everywhere, there is also a way beyond it. Someone who enjoys computer games told me at the end of the class, “I feel like I just got the cheat codes to life!”
Month 1 – The first few weeks after SES were for me a mix of elation and disappointment. Elation because I could feel the far-reaching impact and potential of the material; disappointment at how pervasively the virus was embedded, even into my own personal life. I was a “nice person,” conscious, awake and (mostly) accepting responsibility for my world. I’d come a long way already, how could there still be so much out of balance? But in my honest moments, I could see there was still a lot.
Month 6 – Despite being determined to integrate and even teach this sacred material, things were simply not working out for me. I was still living in constant lack, still having problems in a lot of areas in general. There were massive roadblocks between me and what I wanted to do, apparently thrown in my path by others and providing the perfect opportunity to feel victimized. But “victimization” is one of the core issues in SES, and I had to face the stark truth that I was actually victimizing myself… NOT an easy thing to accept, especially when it’s “obviously” coming from others!
Year 5 – It took several years for me to fully accept – not just conceptually but in practice – that every situation is my own creation, albeit usually from an unconscious level. The good news is that accepting full responsibility for every situation, thought, and emotion meant they no longer had to remain stuck in the old patterns. If these were MY creations, that meant I was the (only) one who could change things instead of waiting for someone else to see me, accept me, love me, understand me, etc. It gradually became easier to recognize the imbalances when they appeared (warning: brutal self-honesty required), and also easier to “fix” them, which really meant coming back to myself and my own love. After countless lifetimes of the old ways, it’s not something that could be changed overnight. But it DID indeed change, and my outer life gradually began to reflect the inner changes.
Year 13 – Amazingly, it’s been almost thirteen years since I first took SES. Since then, I’ve presented the class many times, plus experienced Adamus’ profoundly beautiful updates. Overall, I’ve experienced the class more than 30 times, and STILL, each time I go through it, I feel the blessing of new wisdom and insights from this deeply sacred material.
Year 15 – Preparing this article for republication, what is there to add? Simply this: If you don’t know how to love yourself; if you can’t understand why things in your life are so hard; if other people are a source of distress; if you want the easy path to enlightenment, give yourself the gift of SES. And I don’t mean skim the surface to get a mental “understanding.” Really dive into the sometimes-difficult experiences, let yourself go deep and authentic with only you. It will pay off more than you can imagine. Even now, when I’m in a difficult experience or life throws me out of balance, the simple choice of coming back to self-love continues to save me again and again and again.
While you can’t erase the distortions of many hundreds of lifetimes in a few weeks, you CAN feel the moment when your Ship of Self finally begin to turn around. For me, that’s what the Sexual Energies School was and is – the turn towards Home. While SES is not required for Realization, the return to self IS what Realization is all about, and this beautiful school provides, in my opinion, the clearest roadmap in all of creation.
I want to add that SES goes hand in hand with Aspectology. In fact, I could say that the integration work of Aspectology IS the return, and the self-love of SES makes it possible. In fact, it is exactly that love and integration with self that finally bring changes in your life. If you’ve been hoping and wishing for things to get better, perhaps it’s time to stop wishing and actually do something different. If money is limited and life is in overwhelm, choose wisely how you spend your money and your time. Even though I was practically penniless all those years ago, I have never had a moment of regret for the investment in my Self that is the Sexual Energies School. The return on investment is simply priceless.
* The Sexual Energies School is offered online, twice a year. *