THE CRIMSON CIRCLE MATERIALS
“Walk On - The Powerless Life”
SHOUD 3 – Featuring
ADAMUS, channeled by Geoffrey Hoppe
[Dedicated to Pete Gibbons, a longtime Shoud attendee who transitioned
on October 29, 2015]
I Am that I Am, Adamus of
Welcome, dear Shaumbra. (Sandra
brings his coffee) Ah! As if on cue – magical, intuitive. Gracias (audience
says “Yay!” and some applause). Thank you. Mm. Can I get a hint of vanilla in
SANDRA: Some what?
SANDRA: From where? (laughter)
ADAMUS: Ehh, your back pocket? The
local store? It doesn’t … please, no (more chuckles).
My dear friends, at least you can
smile and laugh. Now – I’m telling you the end here in the beginning – but
when you can’t laugh about it anymore, when you can’t smile about it, it’s a
lost cause. It truly is. Then this whole thing of being in the midst of a true
psychosis (laughter) is … suddenly you’re trapped in the reality. It’s no
longer just a game.
Oh, and how many of you know
people who can’t laugh about life? They can’t. They take it so damn seriously.
They can’t smile and laugh and have their eyes shine. Not you. Not any of you,
but how many people do you know – friends and relatives – oh, they’re so
trapped in this psychosis of life and life is
truly become a psychosis for so many people.
I’ll get to that later, but for
now, welcome to our sacred gathering. And I have to ask why is it that the word
“sacred” is so close to the word “scared?” (laughter) Transpose two simple
letters and we have scared. Why is it that it’s just as scary as it is sacred?
Mm. It is scary, because you’re going
outside of the norm.
You’re going outside of all the
training, outside of all the rules. You’re going outside of everything you’re
told is normal, because, quite simply, you can’t stand normal anymore. You
can’t. You know there is something more, and there is, but how to get there?
How to get there is the big question. You know that, in your everyday life,
you’ve had it. You’re done with it. You know that there’s something more.
You’re becoming so disimpassioned, so worn down, run down – I’m just
feeling your energies – so sick of it all. You don’t want to die, but you
don’t really want to live anymore, not like that.
That’s why, actually, you can still laugh. You know there is more. You can joke about
it, because you know it’s one big psychotic illusion. And it is. Oh! I’m going
to piss some people off today. It might be you (laughter). Yes. Intentionally.
Premeditated pissing off. “PPP” – premediated pissing off.
LINDA: What’s new? (more chuckles)
ADAMUS: I’m going to do it a
little better today than I’ve been doing it in the past. I’m going to do it a
little bit more. A little premeditated pissing off, because (a) that’s what you
need, (b) that’s what you want, and (c) that’s what I like doing (laughter). So
I’m going to say some things that
are not going to go over too well outside of our Shaumbra family around the
ADAMUS: And it’ll be taken out of
context, perverted and distorted and everything else. But, for everybody now
who’s going to send in the emails later, you already know there is going to be
some truth in what I say. That’s why … (Linda sighs loudly) why it’s going …
(Adamus laughs) I think we need a prerecorded applause, laughter, everything
else. We’re getting sighing over here. “Ohh! Anxiety, angst – what is he going
to do today?” I’m going to do what you want me to do and what you want to do
(Linda sighs again) – break through (applause and some holler “Wooo!”).
LINDA: You’re clapping now. Now
ADAMUS: So I tell you right now,
I’m going to say a few things that are going to be taken out of context. But,
my friends, there is a bit, oh, there’s a lot of truth in all of it. In all of
Before we go any further too, I’d
like to also – Pete willing – that I talk a bit about his crossing over,
because several things happened. And Pete is right here. I’m not talking behind
his dead body (Adamus chuckles, some giggles in audience). It’s funny – okay, piss
off number one. “Ohh! He’s talking about dead people.” You’re all going to die.
Laugh about it. Pete did when he crossed over.
He had made a semi-conscious
decision a little while back saying that he truly wanted to work with each and
every one of you, all of you. How could he be in the best service? He looked at
his life, he looked at his age, he looked at his body – his ancestral body –
and he said, “I can best work and help Shaumbra from the other side.” He said
that, in spite of all that we’ve talked about with the embodied enlightenment,
he didn’t feel that was for him. And that’s fine. You don’t have to choose it.
It’s not actually a goal.
He said, “It’s not for me. I’m
ready.” And Pete was not afraid of death. What little fear there was, he was
able to go beyond that. And so, very quietly, he crossed over.
And the important thing is that
the true crossing over occurred four days before his physical body died. It’s
not when your physical body goes that you’re dead, you’ve crossed over. The
crossover occurs before then, even in the case of nearly all what you’d call
catastrophic accidents, even in the case of violence, war, things like that.
There is a knowingness from the soul that its human condition is going to
terminate that expression before it happens.
Many people dream of their own
deaths before they die. I’m not talking about the ones where you’re falling,
falling, falling to the ground. But they, in a sense, rehearse the death before
they die. Yeah, it gives them kind of a knowingness, a comfort when they
finally do go over. Not all the details, but just the true crossing over. So
Pete left four days before his body died.
Imagine what it’s like for Pete,
who’s got a big smile on his face, looking at the body and saying, “Go! Go! Be
done! Out! Gone!” And here, to his frustrations, the doctors were trying to
revive the body. The doctors were trying to figure out what’s wrong, and of
course, they couldn’t, because there was nothing really wrong per se; it was
just Pete’s time.
The family gathered around and
expressed some vague and insincere tears, which … (a few chuckles) Piss-off
day! (more chuckles) Okay (Adamus chuckles), here we go. Okay? Time for a
little honesty here.
ADAMUS: How many of you have been
to a funeral and had the crocodile tears that were not terribly sincere? How
many of you know other people who have gone to a funeral and just a week or two
prior to the death of the person were talking about what a son of a bitch they
were (Linda gasps), and they go to the funeral, “Oh! Oh! Oh!” (as if crying)
So it didn’t alarm Pete, in
particular. It wasn’t a big deal. He had already gone beyond so many of the
family connections. Already gone beyond. But it’s a strange thing to watch, and
I’m telling you this, it’s kind of surreal, because some of you have already
had kind of an experience with it. But it’s strange watching yourself – I don’t
want to say you’re looking down, that’s kind of a human precept – but
you’re just kind of there and you’re kind of not. You’re kind of in the room,
but you’re kind of not. In a way, like Pete is here today, but he’s also with
me on the other side, kind of in both. And the doctors – boom, boom, boom, banging
on your chest and sticking needles in you – and you’re like, “Just let me
And the family gathered around
with the tears, but really, let’s be honest, wondering about the will. (Adamus
chuckles slightly) Edith, it’s true. It’s going to happen. You know, that’s
what humans do, “Boohoo – but what about the will?”
LINDA: Hmmm. (Adamus chuckles)
ADAMUS: Ah! Good. So Pete, looking
down, really just almost impatient, waiting for the body to release, and even
before it did, coming to the other side and realizing “This is more of reality
than that on the other side.” Of course, I was there. Of course, other Shaumbra
who have gone before in these past eight to ten years in particular, gone
before to do the very same thing – to be there, to be there for other Shaumbra
who are going to go into their embodied enlightenment; to be there because it is difficult to stay here. Pete will
tell you that right away. It is very difficult.
And there’s no shame whatsoever in going to the other side. There’s no real
pain in death, if any of you have been fearing it. There’s no bad. It’s not
like Pete feels incomplete at all. He feels very, very complete.
And he realizes that where he is
now is not about ascension. He may never come back for another lifetime.
Doesn’t need to. It’s not about ascension. It’s actually really not about
enlightenment, kind of not. It’s about just being in the I Am. And Pete,
tremendously happy right now on both sides of the veil, here to be here for
each and every one of you who chooses to stay. And if you don’t, there’s no
shame in it.
Pete was tremendously relieved of
the physical body. His body was a chore for him, as it is for so many of you.
But more than anything, Pete was relieved of being free of so many of the
limitations of the human mind.
Now, the human mind does not die
or leave when the being departs. And actually, even when the body dies, the
physical body stops, the mind actually – the human portion of the
consciousness, the human mind – actually continues on for a while. It
doesn’t integrate right away, unless a person is quite conscious. It takes a
Pete was surprised that even after
the body died that the mind was still there, still chattering away, and he was
like, “Well, the body is dead. Shouldn’t the mind, shouldn’t the thoughts
stop?” No, they can continue. For Pete, just a few days; for others, years –
many years – afterwards; for all of you, for all of you, it will be easy. The mind stuff will stop right away,
because you’re coming to understand something called consciousness.
One of the – Pete had several
interesting things to say, and he would like to come by the Shouds quite often
actually – but one of the things he realized, and it was quite
profound, he said, “Live life to the fullest or leave. Absolutely live it to
the fullest,” and he realized on crossing over that one of the things that he
did in his life was hold back. All humans do to various degrees.
Live it to the fullest. Live it
without holding back. Live it like you saw in this beautiful video.* That’s
life. That’s life.
* Referring to “Viva la Vida,” performed by David Garrett
and played just before the channel.
No holding back. “It doesn’t
matter,” Pete told me. “It doesn’t matter what other people think about you. It
really doesn’t, because their judgments are meaningless. And anything they
think about you is based on their definition of what they think they should be
and what you should be. Live life to the absolute fullest. Crazy, if that’s
what others call it. It doesn’t matter. Irresponsible – meaning irresponsible
to other people. Responsible to self, but irresponsible, irregardless of other
people. Live it to the fullest or leave.”
And he asked me to point this out
today, because he left. He knew he wasn’t living it to his fullest, and he
didn’t feel physically or financially that he could. So he left and was happy
that he did, happy that he didn’t drag it out for another, what, five, ten, twenty
Live Full or Leave
Live your life to its absolute
fullest, or leave. That’s a tough one, because most people are going to say,
“Well, I’ll try. I’ll just try and I’ll keep going.” As Pete observed right
away, it’s pathetic. It’s pathetic when you keep going in the same old ways
even when you know better. It’s pathetic when you’re afraid to live fully. It’s
pathetic when you live small, when you live little. Live it full or leave,
exactly as he did – or leave – because ultimately you’re only
frustrating yourself. Ultimately, you’re basically, in a way, really judging
yourself when you’re living falsely, when you’re living small.
That’s where the scared and sacred
comes in. What you’re doing is sacred. It really is. But it’s scary, and that’s
the thing maybe you weren’t expecting when you got into all of this. It’s scary
because your body feels different at times. You wonder what’s happening to it,
and for Shaumbra, in particular, about 99 percent of what’s happening to your
body are adjustments into a higher state of consciousness. It’s not that you’re
sick. You’ll get sick, but it’s a type of releasing and cleansing. And I know
it feels awful. You feel like sometimes you’re going to die. You get going in
your mind, “What’s wrong with me? What have I done wrong?” Nothing. It’s an
adjustment. And if you do depart, your body gives out on you, the only thing
that’s going to happen is you’re going to die, and you’re going to die anyway.
So let’s laugh about that. (Adamus chuckles but no one else does) Eh, tough
group. (Adamus chuckles again) Ah! When you can laugh about death, really your
problems are over with.
But it’s scary because, even
beyond the physical death, it’s scarier what’s going on up here (points to
mind). The body is actually easier to deal with than what’s going on up here.
And things start changing and they get weird and it’s disorienting and it’s
frightening and you’re wondering if you’re doing the right thing. You feel like
you’re actually getting paranoid. You’re really not, but you feel like you are,
and you feel like all your thoughts are crazy. None of the organization in the
mind, the controls, none of the old tricks work anymore. And then it feels
desperate. Feels very desperate. What are you going to do?
Of course, what you try to do is
to go back, to go backwards, go back to what you were doing before, and you
know it doesn’t work. You know it doesn’t work.
Then you feel like you’re in this
dark abyss, a void with nothing, and you are. That’s a tough spot to be in.
It’s a really difficult spot, but
that’s when you get to know your Self the best. Not yourself as in your human
persona, but that’s when you get to know the I Am. That’s when you discover,
like Pete did, “I exist. Even in this nothingness, I exist.” That’s it.
So sacred, yes; scary, very. Very.
And the interesting thing is you are a tough group, because you keep asking for
more (a couple of chuckles). And you keep laughing. Two of you laughed. You
keep asking for more. It’s a tough one, my friends, but we’re going to have a
little talk in a couple of months. I think I mentioned in a few Shouds back
that February 14th we’re going to talk and say, “Where are we? How are you in
your allowing of the realization of enlightenment?” And I use those words very
carefully – allowing
realization. It’s not working at it. It is not working at it.
Your human self cannot and should
not try to do it. It is allowing. And how you struggle with it, how you work at
it, how you toil with it, and how frustrated you get. It’s about allowing it.
Sounds simple, but it’s tricky,
because it requires trust, letting go, allowing. Allowing what? You’ll find
out. You’ll find out.
So let’s take a good deep breath
I have a question. We’ll need a
writing board up here, Linda on the microphone. It’s my best time …
ADAMUS: … when we do questions and
answers with Shaumbra.
ADAMUS: Yes. I know you’d just
love to sit and listen to me, but I want to get your input.
So, a good deep breath. The
question is, as Linda’s prepared with the microphone – and I ask for no makyo
answers here. By the way, that’s one of the other things Pete mentioned as soon
as he crossed over was, “Ohhh! I had a lot of makyo.” And it’s like really,
Pete? Really? Yeah. And actually he said one of the greatest things you could
do is realize your own makyo and laugh at it. Realize your own makyo.
Okay, question: what is the
biggest thing you worry about in your everyday human life as a human? The
biggest thing you worry about in your – would you mind writing these? (to Tad) –
in your everyday human life, the worry that takes up so much time and obsession
in your everyday human life?
LINDA: And happy birthday, Andy.
ADAMUS: Happy birthday, Andy (some
applause). Happy birthday, and many more to come.
ANDY: What was the question?
ADAMUS: Are you channeling Pete?!
(more laughter) What do you worry about the most? As your human self, everyday
life, what do you worry about the most?
ANDY: I unfortunately worry about
the wellbeing of others. And I’m coming to the realization I need to concern
myself with myself.
ADAMUS: Okay. Worrying about
others. And how much of your time do you spend worrying about others?
ANDY: Half or more.
ADAMUS: Ooh! Ouch! There goes
another good life. Worrying about others.
ADAMUS: Yeah! (they chuckle) Mm.
Houston, we have a problem. Okay, good. Just give me your gut feel, why do you
ANDY: I felt I had to save the
ADAMUS: From what?
ANDY: It’s turning out I need to
save it from me (laughter).
ADAMUS: Good. I’m going to give
you a little help on this one. A lot of time spent worrying about others –
a great distraction for yourself. “I’m going to worry about the world” – pfft, for what, I don’t know – “I’m
going to worry about the world so I can distract myself from me.” Ooh, it’s
actually a brilliant creative distraction. How much have you helped the world
by all the worrying?
ANDY: Not a bit.
ADAMUS: (chuckling) How much have
you hindered it?
ANDY: Uh, I think there’s maybe
been some times I may have done that…
ADAMUS: Nahh! Not a bit. Not a
ANDY: Not at all?
ADAMUS: It has no effect
ANDY: Thank you.
ADAMUS: Yes, yes.
ANDY: Get rid of the guilt at
ADAMUS: Yeah. Yeah. Well, guilt or
one would say, “Geez! That was a lot of time and it went nowhere.” So there
could be a guilt in that. Yeah. Okay.
ADAMUS: Great. But let’s say what
is the one little thing you allow yourself to obsess with about yourself? What
do you worry about – when you take that little bit of time to worry about
you – what are you worried about?
ANDY: My joy in the future.
ANDY: And by doing that, of
course, I eliminate it in the present.
ADAMUS: Duh! Good.
ANDY: I’m learning! I’m learning!
ADAMUS: But it’s kind of fun when
you realize it. You know, when you can laugh at it, it’s kind of fun. It’s
like, “Oh, man! Look what I’m doing – worrying about the joy in the future so I
have none now. The future never comes. I have no joy. I’ll worry about other
people instead.” (some laughter)
ANDY: Very well. Yeah.
ADAMUS: Yeah! No, and once you
realize it, it’s actually a lot of fun, because suddenly you’re not caught in
it anymore. Yeah. Then it’s just a game.
ANDY: And then things start
ADAMUS: They do. Good. Happy
ANDY: Thank you.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Good. Next. What do
you worry about the most in your everyday human life? What do you worry about
the most? And by the way, we’re going to end with Pete. He wants to share his
insights. You know, you die and suddenly you’re a philosopher (laughter). He’s
laughing. Go ahead. What do you worry about the most?
JANE: Can I have two answers?
ADAMUS: (chuckling) You can have
eight if you want, and that’s barely covering.
JANE: Health and money.
ADAMUS: Health and money. Oh,
good, good. How much of your time do you spend worrying about your health?
JANE: A pretty good amount.
ADAMUS: How much money are you
spending on things …
JANE: A lot!
ADAMUS: (chuckling) Now we got a
money problem! Ha! Funny how this works out – health and money. What’s really
going on here?
JANE: I’m distracting myself.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Yeah. Why?
JANE: Because it’s scary.
ADAMUS: Your health or the
ADAMUS: Yeah, it is.
JANE: Going through this process.
ADAMUS: Yeah. I’ve got to ask you,
what do you worry about your health? I mean, what about your health would cause
you to worry? Are you sick?
JANE: No (they chuckle).
ADAMUS: See how much sense this
JANE: Well, I have lots of …
ADAMUS: Have you ever been really,
really, really, really sick? I mean, like going to die tomorrow kind of sick?
ADAMUS: Flus, colds?
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah. Occasionally.
ADAMUS: Chicken pox, measles?
ADAMUS: Yeah. Any sexually … no I
won’t go there (laughter). No. So you’re telling me that you never really had
any major health issues. Your family – are there a lot of health issues in your
JANE: Some of them have. Yeah.
ADAMUS: Not mental. Physical.
ADAMUS: Yeah, okay. But anything
that really stands out …
JANE: M.S. (multiple sclerosis)
ADAMUS: … more than others? M.S.
Okay. Do you have M.S.?
ADAMUS: Okay, good. So you’re
spending all this time obsessing on it, and it’s costing a lot of money. And
then you’ve got to keep working at something you really don’t want to be doing
to make money to pay for the health obsessions, so you don’t go broke.
ADAMUS: Do you realize that this
does not make sense?
JANE: Well, I’ve had a lot of body
stuff over the last five years. A lot of nerve pain and stuff like that. But
it’s not like I’ve had cancer …
ADAMUS: What have the doctors said
about your nerve pain?
JANE: They never know what’s
ADAMUS: Oh! Geez! Am I psychic!
Ah! What’s happening, Jane?
JANE: Ascension symptoms?
ADAMUS: (Adamus chuckles) Sure.
JANE: You know, like my foot. For
the last two and a half years my foot hurts.
JANE: And no matter what I do, it
just keeps hurting.
ADAMUS: Just, without thinking,
what does the foot relate to symbolically?
JANE: Moving forward. Yes, I know.
ADAMUS: Doing what?
JANE: Moving forward.
ADAMUS: Moving … just being on the
Earth, being grounded!
JANE: Yeah, that’s true.
ADAMUS: Yeah, stabilized.
JANE: The sole, yeah.
ADAMUS: So you’ve got this whole
thing going. It’s an interesting game, if you don’t mind me saying that – maybe
I’ll piss you off.
JANE: Not at all.
ADAMUS: It’s an interesting game.
You want to get out.
ADAMUS: I know that.
ADAMUS: We talk.
ADAMUS: But you don’t know how to.
ADAMUS: Okay. Today, we’re going
to go into it but you’re not going to believe it. Today, we’re all going to
experience how to get out. We’re going to go into this whole timespace bon
beyond. You’re not going to believe it at first.
ADAMUS: And most of you won’t. But
then you’ll start to realize, “Oh, crap! If that’s the only door, I’m going to
take it. If that’s the only way beyond, I’m going to take that way,” even if it
appears it’s a one-way street going the wrong direction, even if it appears
that you go through that doorway and it’s just going to lead you to go crazy.
But what is crazy? What is crazy? I’ll get into that in a moment, it’ll really
piss people off.
Okay. I can tell you this right
now. I’m going to look you in the eye – it’s dark over there, so got to
get the lighting – there is nothing physically wrong with you. There’s
just a few minor weird imbalances, but they’re the kind that adjust themselves.
There’s nothing …
JANE: How do they adjust
ADAMUS: You let them. You allow
the body to adjust. It does. The body is smarter than the mind. The body is
smarter than the mind. So you just allow. There’s always things going wrong
with one’s body from the day they’re born till the day they die. There’s
something in the process of being adjusted. There are chemical levels,
electromagnetic levels. There’s imbalances between the organs. You shut up, you
let them get back in balance, and they do. They do automatically. It’s the
beauty of the body. But you’ve got to be able to allow, and that’s frightening,
because it’s like, well, if you’re not, you know, watching over all of it, what
could go wrong?
JANE: Mm hmm. It could get worse.
ADAMUS: Well, actually, it’s only
when you are watching over it that
things go wrong and you go broke and you take all these … every time – one of
these piss off statements – every time you take supplements, every time you get
obsessed with an external therapy other than some bodywork, which you all need
– a massage; your kind of work (to Lara) – other than that, every time you do
this – you take the pills, you go to these weird therapies, you drink crystal
water and all the rest of this crap – you’re telling your body you don’t trust
it. (Linda makes a disgusted sound) And the body is so good, so smart, it’ll
say, “Okay, I’ll play along with you and I will
go out of balance because I love you, and this appears to be what you want.” So
it’s always going to be then having quirks and weird things happening. And you
go to the doctor and they say, “There’s nothing wrong with you.” So you go to
another doctor until you find one who’s willing to say “There’s something wrong
with you,” but there’s really not! So it’s a weird thing.
Could I ask you, dear Jane?
ADAMUS: Are you ready – I mean,
really ready, like crazy ready, like angry ready – to get out of this?
ADAMUS: Or is it okay?
JANE: No, it’s not okay.
ADAMUS: Okay. And are you ready,
kind of like no matter what – Pete’s like laughing and looking at you
right now – are you ready to live or leave? Live or … (Linda reacts)
What?! Live or leave. I mean just leave the building, leave Crimson Circle
(some laughter). I’ve got to ask that – are you ready to live or leave? Are you
at that point yet?
JANE: Yes! I ask myself that all
JANE: And I’m ready to live.
JANE: I just don’t know how to.
ADAMUS: Okay. We’ll go there. We
will go there. And you’re going to say, “Oh, this – no. It’s not going to
work,” and then you’ll realize it does. Yeah. It’s going to feel a little odd
at first. It’s going to make your body feel really weird.
JANE: Great (laughter).
ADAMUS: Well, then you laugh at
your body. Ha, ha, ha, ha, ha! You know, really, that’s so important to laugh
when you get these physical things going on. When you’re at that point, when
you can laugh at yourself, even physically, then you’re there. You are ready
for embodied enlightenment. But when that body is the big monster, it’s always
causing you anxiety and distracting you, then you’re not ready for embodied
Good a couple more here. Yes.
ADAMUS: What do you worry about on
the human everyday level?
DAVID: My life force energy.
ADAMUS: Life force en- … oh, how
DAVID: Well, it sucks and frankly,
I haven’t been living. I’ve been … yeah.
ADAMUS: Life force, you mean no
ADAMUS: Lounge around all day?
ADAMUS: Yeah. Can barely get up
the energy to come to a Shoud?
DAVID: No, that’s …
ADAMUS: That’s a good one.
DAVID: That’s a good one.
ADAMUS: Okay, good.
ADAMUS: Difficulty just going out
DAVID: Actually, I enjoy shopping.
ADAMUS: Okay. Difficulty in going
out for a good meal at a good restaurant?
DAVID: I enjoy going out.
ADAMUS: Well, geez! What’s the
problem here?! (lots of laughter)
DAVID: You know, I … but no, I
don’t do it that often. (Adamus is chuckling) And …
ADAMUS: Why don’t you do it that
DAVID: Well, a money thing.
ADAMUS: Okay. This is weird.
DAVID: Which is bullshit, I know.
ADAMUS: Yeah, it is. It is. You
know, actually you could have a good meal at … Cauldre’s telling me Taco Bell
(audience says “Eww”) No? Anywhere other than there, but, okay.
What I hear, David – and this goes
for all of you, and Pete’s so much a part of all this – when you’re
doing something you like doing, the energy happens to be there. But a lot of
times you don’t know what you really like doing. A lot of times you limit
yourself, because you say it’s about the money, and it’s not.
ADAMUS: It’s kind of like Jane’s
issue – health and money. They go hand in hand. You spend a lot on health so
there’s no money, because it’s all … and then she’s got work and do all this.
This is crazy. I mean, this is really crazy, but you know what? Every day
billions of people – like approximately six billion – around the world get
up and do just what we’re talking about. But they can’t talk about it because
they don’t realize, and they don’t laugh about it because they’re so caught in
it. But we’re there where we can talk about it and laugh about it.
I’ve checked you over, if you
don’t mind, I did a little exam while we were talking.
DAVID: Thank you.
ADAMUS: Yeah. And the …
LINDA: Ohhh! (laughter) What?!
ADAMUS: It was an energy exam.
ADAMUS: And it was … (laughter)
ADAMUS: You didn’t mind. A little
DAVID: No, actually …
ADAMUS: … nonintrusive energy
exam. Your energy level is fine. It’s fine. There’s really nothing wrong with
it. It’s – oh, and Linda, write notes – it’s the passion. It’s the
passion. And, for so many of you, it’s like you’re caught in that middle zone,
you know, living a life that kind of sucks, living an inhumane life and
wondering why your body’s hurting, where your energy is and why you’re broke.
My friends, this doesn’t make sense, none at all, and you know it.
DAVID: I know it.
ADAMUS: And you can laugh about
it, and it’s kind of …
DAVID: Ha, ha, ha‼ No more!
ADAMUS: And it’s kind of funny.
And the pa- … I want to redo our Passion
I know, the Passion class was originally done by Tobias. We can do Passion in
two, maybe three, sessions.
LINDA: You have a passion to redo
everything Tobias did.
ADAMUS: Absolutely (Linda giggles).
But that is one of the issues right now, the passion. When you’re grueling
through a life that you know is psychotic – not yours, but the world is
psychotic – when it’s not right but you don’t know how to get out, it will
drain your money, your energy, your passion, your joy and all the rest of that.
So let’s redo that. Yeah. Okay.
DAVID: Thank you.
ADAMUS: For Shaumbra. Yeah.
DAVID: Thank you.
ADAMUS: And now I’m really going
to piss somebody off here – Linda.
LINDA: Haaah! Why am I on your
ADAMUS: Because it’s going to be a
LINDA: (howling) Ohhhh!
DAVID: Yayyy! (audience cheers and
claps, Linda is laughing loudly) Yeahh!! All right!
LINDA: Oh! We got nothing better
to do! Let’s do it!
ADAMUS: Got nothing better to do.
LINDA: Let’s do it! (she continues
ADAMUS: It’s such a point. It’s
such a something that is part of all of you. I’m looking around the room. I’m
trying not to point anybody out in particular, but this whole thing of – Jane,
you expressed it so well – you know, “I worry about my health and I
worry about money,” but then you got to work and it takes the joy and the
passion. This is Pete’s Shoud in so many ways. Live well or leave. That’s it. That’s it. And we’re at that point,
and this is good – for me. For you, it sucks. It’s tough (laughter). Live
or leave. Live grand, live large, live well. Live in style or leave. It’s come
down to that, because this other way doesn’t work so well.
Okay, two more. Quickly, quickly,
we have so much to do today. Yes. Ahhh!
ADAMUS: Gotcha, didn’t we?
ADAMUS: You thought you were going
to hide back there.
TIFFANY: Right, in a sense.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah, yeah.
TIFFANY: I’m not allowed to use my
ADAMUS: Yeah. No, no.
TIFFANY: Okay. Um …
ADAMUS: You can do anything you
TIFFANY: You know, it’s Shoud day.
I get here and I’m like I don’t worry about anything. I sit here and all of my …
everything’s working out really well.
TIFFANY: I mean, really, really
TIFFANY: So, but then …
ADAMUS: Like before you got here
or when you got here?
TIFFANY: No. No, on Shoud day I
realize how great everything is.
ADAMUS: We should do this more
TIFFANY: Yeah, every day. (Adamus
chuckles) Every single day. No, I’m serious, because I sit here and you ask the
question. It’s like I’m not worried about a damn thing. Everything’s frickin’
awesome. And yet …
TIFFANY: And yet …
TIFFANY: … that’s not always true.
ADAMUS: Okay. Tell me the things
TIFFANY: But it’s kind of
embarrassing, and I don’t really want to talk about it.
ADAMUS: Oh, yeah, yeah. So how could
anybody be embarrassed about Shaumbra watching from all over the world? (some
TIFFANY: It’s a little
ADAMUS: Let me put it another way.
When somebody is really open and is truthful, everybody feels it and it helps
ADAMUS: So look what you’re doing
to save the world.
TIFFANY: It’s a true story. All
ADAMUS: Oh! That was somebody
else’s deal, not yours (a couple of giggles).
TIFFANY: So the truth is when I
get into that really stupid obsessive worry, it’s about aging.
ADAMUS: What’s wrong with that?
TIFFANY: I want to be young and
ADAMUS: Okay, but that’s not, I
mean, why is that … I thought you were going to tell us something …
TIFFANY: I have no idea why.
ADAMUS: … really juicy.
TIFFANY: I don’t know why it’s
ADAMUS: I mean, just aging?
ADAMUS: So what are you doing
about this aging thing?
TIFFANY: Well, I’m trying to just
stay young in every way I can.
ADAMUS: How do you do that?
TIFFANY: I feel young.
ADAMUS: How do you do that?
TIFFANY: Umm …
ADAMUS: “I’m young, I’m young, I’m
young.” (Adamus chuckles)
TIFFANY: I take care of my skin
and I run around and I do yoga.
TIFFANY: And I play.
TIFFANY: So I feel young. So it’s
ADAMUS: Can I be really open with
ADAMUS: Not (Adamus chuckles).
ADAMUS: But you abuse yourself.
TIFFANY: Uh huh.
I mean, even mentally …
TIFFANY: For some reason I …
ADAMUS: The self-mental abuse, the
ADAMUS: But sometimes then you do
it in other ways, but why?! Boom! Boom! Boom! Boom!
TIFFANY: I think it’s just a
habit. I agree with you, it is abusive.
ADAMUS: Okay. But I’ll point out …
TIFFANY: I’m find it more
hilarious all the time at least.
ADAMUS: Good. Good. At least laugh
at it …
TIFFANY: Yeah, I do.
ADAMUS: … before you hit yourself
TIFFANY: I do. I do. And like I
said, Shoud day I come and I’m just – everything’s great. I mean, I look at
everything and I’m making money. I’m having fun. I’m only doing the work I want
to do. I have all these beautiful friends.
TIFFANY: I mean, everything is
ADAMUS: And, but what about the
anxiety, close to depression at times? Where does that come from? Why is that
there? Why is the abuse there?
TIFFANY: I think it’s because I
have to deal with other people (laughter, especially from Linda). If it was
just me and my friends, then it would be easy.
TIFFANY: But other people say
things and think things and do things and then I get a little, I get a little …
ADAMUS: I’m not going to buy that
answer, if you don’t mind.
ADAMUS: It’s a good excuse, but – I
mean, it’s partly true, other people can really take your energy – but I
see your darkest times are when you’re with yourself. And like …
TIFFANY: Okay, how do I stop that?
ADAMUS: Good question (she
TIFFANY: I’m ready.
ADAMUS: Oh, you want me to answer!
ADAMUS: Ah, okay.
TIFFANY: Yeah, I want you to get …
ADAMUS: I’m going to get into that
in a little bit, but I want you to realize you, like so many, take that one
step forward and then you beat yourself up, and you feel guilty about taking a
step forward. It doesn’t make sense. Okay? That’s psychotic.
TIFFANY: Mm hmm.
ADAMUS: Good. Thank you. And thank
you for your openness.
ADAMUS: One more and then Pete.
LINDA: One more.
ADAMUS: We’re getting all these
good aging. So it’s really not about aging. There’s a lot of other things. Yes.
SAMUEL: Yes. What do I worry
SAMUEL: Eh. How I’m receiving and
how I’m being received a lot.
ADAMUS: Very good. Excellent.
SAMUEL: And …
ADAMUS: And … go ahead.
SAMUEL: Well, I relate to how that
finished, of taking a step forward and finding anxiety with that and then beating
myself up a bit about it.
ADAMUS: Yeah. And ultimately it’s
really, in a way, about how you’re receiving yourself …
ADAMUS: … as seen through the eyes
SAMUEL: Yeah, yeah.
ADAMUS: Yeah. And how are you
doing on that?
SAMUEL: Lately, not well.
ADAMUS: (chuckling) Good. I mean
that. Why? Why isn’t that working out so well?
SAMUEL: Umm …
ADAMUS: If you had to say how
other people would define you, what words would you use?
SAMUEL: How other people define
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah.
ADAMUS: Yeah. That’s a bad one. “Oh,
that damn independent guy.” (some chuckles) What else?
ADAMUS: “Ughh! Guy thinks he’s so
SAMUEL: Yeah, I mean, you’re
mimicking the process and how I use it against myself.
ADAMUS: Oh, absolutely. Yeah.
ADAMUS: And what else?
ADAMUS: Funny. They use that as a
SAMUEL: No. I’m not saying they’re
ADAMUS: Okay. How they perceive
SAMUEL: Yeah. That was the
ADAMUS: Are you funny?
SAMUEL: I laugh at myself
SAMUEL: Yeah, yeah.
ADAMUS: What else? There’s one
other one in here, how you think people perceive you.
SAMUEL: A bit ridiculous maybe.
SAMUEL: Yeah, or insensitive.
ADAMUS: Insensitive or maybe
SAMUEL: Yeah, yeah.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Unrealistic. And
what line of work are you in, my friend?
SAMUEL: Right now I’m in
consulting, sales, dealing with clients about their dreams.
ADAMUS: There you go. Thank you.
SAMUEL: You know.
ADAMUS: So, but this ties in so
perfectly. So the way you perceive how they perceive you is intelligent, which
they would call arrogant; funny, which they would call a warped sense of humor,
kind of crazy. Independent, meaning …
SAMUEL: Don’t give a shit.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah, yeah.
ADAMUS: Yeah. It’s all about you and
SAMUEL: “What’s this guy going to
do for me?” Yeah.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah. And here you
are doing very creative work dealing with people’s dreams, which is really … the
work you’re doing is all about your dreams ultimately.
ADAMUS: But you use that platform
of the work you do consulting with their potential patents and copyrights,
because you do use others to perceive yourself.
ADAMUS: And you can see your own
dreams through their dreams.
ADAMUS: It’s a beautiful set up.
SAMUEL: Uh huh.
ADAMUS: But what happens if you
stop using others to perceive yourself?
SAMUEL: That’s the scary thought.
I don’t get very far into that.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Yeah. Okay.
SAMUEL: Or I do and it becomes big
very quick. It becomes kind of outside of my reach at the present time.
ADAMUS: Right, easier to see
yourself through the eyes of others.
ADAMUS: Other humans are great
mirrors for yourself, because you’ll see right away are they, you know, like
you’re some bad odor or are they laughing at you? Are they drawn to you or away
from you? And it provides kind of the measurement, “Should I be drawn to myself,
or am I offended by myself?”
ADAMUS: It’s very common. Thank
you. Thank you.
And Pete, finally. Would you hand
the microphone to Pete? Pete, your answer for this. What is the thing that you
worried about the most? (Linda puts the mike to Pete’s empty chair) Okay, thank
you. That was a good answer, and would you put that on the board please. So …
(laughter, Tad writes “Nothing”) Oh! Pete’s saying maybe I should say this out
loud. You couldn’t hear Pete? (someone says “No”) A little louder, Pete.
No, that’s not working, Pete.
Pete’s answer is that he worried the most about whether he was doing it right.
That was his biggest worry, “Am I doing it right?” – in the eyes of other
people or how you see yourself through other people. “Am I doing it right” in
terms of “Am I controlling myself enough to keep my health and my finances?” In
terms of “Am I doing it right,” or also, “What am I doing wrong? My energy
level is low. What am I doing wrong?” And then you try to think your way into
all this, and it doesn’t work. It does not work. And that’s what Pete means
when he says, “Live well or leave.” That’s it.
He spent, as many of you spend, a
tremendous amount of time worrying “Am I doing it right,” whether it’s
spirituality, whether it’s your job, whether it’s your health, whether it’s
aging or anything else. “Am I doing it right?”
There is no right. There is not
anymore, not for you. There’s maybe right and wrong for people out there, but
you get to this point and there’s nothing about right or wrong anymore. It’s a
very difficult thing because your mind will scream out. Your mind will almost
insist, because it’s used to judgment-based life, right and wrong.
You get to this point and it’s a
very frustrating one. You want to do it right. You want to do so many things
right. You want this thing called enlightenment or embodied realization because
you know it’s there. But you don’t know if you’re doing it right or not. And
then there is that desperate attempt by the human to try to do it right. It cannot, and I want you to remember
that point until it’s so realized within you. It cannot. That human cannot, at
Most people spend their whole life
trying to make their little human life better. They pray to gods to have a
little bit easier life. They pray to God, not for enlightenment, not for
realization, not for clarity at all; they just pray for a few more dollars to
spend going to a few more physicians. They pray that a few more people will
like them a little better. They pray for an easier life. And, my dear friends,
it’s not going to happen. It’s not going to happen, and I say that with a big
Life is truly a pain in the ass (a
few chuckles). Human life is truly a pain in the ass, and this is now when I
launch into my “I’m going to piss a lot of people off” tirade.
Human life is inhumane. It is.
Life and humans have gotten to the point of being pathetic. Pathetic, really
sad, and Pete, if anybody, is nodding his head and saying, “Yes,” because he
realizes. He’s a fresh one, he just crossed over (some chuckles), and he
realizes that there’s all this talk – “Oh, we should love life. We should love
other people.” Screw that. I mean really screw that, because what I see
constantly is people trying harder and harder and more desperately to make the
little selfish human life better. And you know that it doesn’t work.
You’ve gone beyond that point
saying, “I’m just going to clean up the little box that I live in. I’m going to
try to make it tidier. I’m going to make myself happier. I’m going to keep
taking happy courses and happy pills.” It doesn’t work. It comes to a point
where you realize that life is really pathetic.
Life should be an experience, but
that’s long gone out of, really, life on this planet for humans. Life can be an
amazing beautiful experience, but it’s long gone on this planet. Humans are
suffering. Humans are going crazy and it’s going to continue. I mean, in these
coming years you’re going to see it more and more. They are going to go crazy,
because life has become inhumane. Life has become – well, imagine this.
You go to the zoo for the day and
you’re thinking, “This is going to be a grand experience going to the zoo, and
I’m going to see the different animals. I’m going to buy some zoo stuffed
animals to take home and I’m going to eat zoo food and cotton candy and popcorn
and soda and all that.” It’s a fun day. You go to the zoo and you start
wandering around. You go to the monkey house and you go to the lion cages and
you see the elephants. You get so caught in it that you forget that you’re in
the zoo. You forget that you came there to have an experience, to visit. And
pretty soon the outside world, the reality, the real reality fades away. You
forget. Now you’re trapped in the zoo and pretty soon you’re in one of those
cages. And pretty soon you’re stuck. You’re trapped. Pretty soon you’re sitting
in the cage and you’re noticing people are coming by taunting you, looking at
you, and then pretty soon you’re growling at them (a few giggles).
You’re so trapped in your cage in
the zoo, and what you do is you try to clean the cage and you pray for a little
better food. You pray for a little bit more heat on those cold nights. You pray
for a little bit more companionship from the others who are locked in your cage
with you. You forgot that it’s not reality. You forgot that this is not real.
But you insist on it. You work at it. You try to be a better caged animal in
the zoo. You try to be a little smarter than a few of the other animals. You
try to keep from aging in the zoo. You try to be a very pretty looking monkey
in the zoo. You forgot that you don’t belong there. And worse than that,
everybody else around you has forgotten also.
It’s psychotic. I mean it’s really
psychotic. The real psychosis is not the people who are trying to be
independent, not you, not the ones who are saying, “This isn’t right.” The ones
who are psychotic are the ones who are trying to make their cage in the zoo a
little bit better, and it’s not you.
So you’re in this quandary, my
friends, and the quandary is stuck, kind of in that middle place. Life, life
in the old way, which was psychotic, is psychotic. It is an inhumane world right
now. Just polishing the edges – pretending that we’re all happy,
pretending that life is going to be better tomorrow – sucks. It doesn’t
work, and you know that. You’re at that point.
You’re at that point of – it’s not
a bad point either – at the point of almost a breakdown. “What is next? Where
do we go from here in this crazy, psychotic, pathetic world?”
There’s going to be those who say,
“Ohh! Adamus is talking bad about humans. We love humans. We’re going to do a
prayer circle tonight with candles and chanting.” You’re doing it inside your
cage. You’re doing it inside the zoo, and it’s not real. And you can do it.
You’ll feel better until tomorrow morning or maybe the next day, then you’re
going to be right back to where you were.
They’re going to say, “Adamus
doesn’t like humans. Adamus is so arrogant.” No. I know, I feel your pain. I
feel your feeling that you’re going to explode, feeling that you don’t know if
you want to stay or you want to leave. That’s the worst, as Pete will tell you.
Live well or leave, otherwise
you’re going to drive yourself crazy. Not just mentally human crazy, that’ll
eventually go away, but soul crazy. I mean deep crazy. You don’t want that; like
what I like to refer to as Red Lion crazy, and there’s no need for it at all.
This world is psychotic. I’m not
talking bad about humans, people. Humans are fine, but they believe in this
stuff. They believe in love. They talk about love and what I see from so many
is neediness. They talk about charity and what I see from so many is guilt.
They talk about happiness and all I see is the carrot in front of the horse
getting them through another day. They talk about their religions and their
gods, but all I see is control. They talk about progress and all I see is
distraction. They talk about doing the right thing for the good of all, and all
I see is they’re trying to get more for themselves.
Am I a bit jaded about humans? No,
I love humans. I am, I was one. I say ‘I am, I was’ because I’ve been there,
and I still am. I still relate to it. I still shine my humanness where I go, but
I have also gotten out of the zoo. It took 100,000 years. Did I ever tell you
the story? (laughter, someone says, “Haven’t heard of it” and “Do tell”) Do
tell, please. One of these days the movie, the movie that David’s always wanted
to do. The movie “St. Germain and His 100,000-Year Crystal.” Ah, it would be a
great movie. And who’s going to star in it? Somebody – Cauldre’s saying Robert
Downey, Jr. Yes.
So 100,000 years just sitting in a
crystal. That’s the movie. And then one day, “Oh, I got myself in here, I can
get myself out.” And that’s the movie. It takes about five minutes to do. You
know, that’s it! (Adamus chuckles)
Yes, I am a bit jaded right now
about humanity, because it has gotten so stuck. Communications has in one way
kind of helped with people’s freedom and independence, but you know what
happened? With all the great technology, communications, global connectivity
and all the rest of that, humans enjoyed a brief moment of a little bit more
freedom, and then took that very technology and those communications and
everything else and immersed more deeply into their cage in the zoo. They used
that very thing that could have provided liberation and more freedom for this world,
and they have now used it for even more psychosis, getting stuck.
You’re in a funny place – ha
ha ha – funny, that you’re right in the midst of it. You’ve got that
gravity pulling at you every day and every moment, and yet you know it’s not
real. You know there’s something more. You’re interesting because, as tough as
things have been, you still want more. And you’re going to insist on it, which
is why I love you. You’re going to insist on it until you’re out of it, until
you’ve walked out of the cage and the
zoo, and can laugh at it.
And then, once that happens, my
friends, the things that you worry about here, once you go beyond, you get out
of the zoo, you stand outside of the gates and you laugh at it, you realize it
was just an experience; you get out, then at that point, then you can walk back
in any time and you’ll never get stuck again. You’ll never get drawn into it by
the gravity of the zoo and the cage and everything else again. Never.
That’s when, my dear, the aging
stops, in a way, because you’re timeless at that point. But you can’t think
your way through it from the pathetic – sorry – pathetic human standpoint, the
selfish human. You can’t overcome your health or your financial problems from
within them. You cannot, and that is
my point today.
I’ve said it before, if you tuned
in to try to get something new. I’m going to keep saying it in different ways
until you get that big “aha.”
The health problems, the focus on
health is psychotic in itself – neurotic, both – and there’s no blame
in it at all whatsoever. And you’re not going to fix it. It will get worse.
It’ll get worse, as with all the other things, because you keep immersing
deeper and deeper. The gravity has got you right by the legs and it’s dragging
you down in.
You’re not going to get there
through your humanness. So once you realize that, once you’re ready to let go,
once you realize this is one great big crazy world and you’re not going to fit
in, you’re not going to stop your aging or stop your health problems or stop
any of those other things from within the cage in the zoo. You’re just not.
Once you realize that, then all of these things suddenly clear up on their own.
Not because you’re working on your health or because you’re working on your
aging or your money or anything else, because you’ve gone beyond. You’ve walked
beyond all of that.
Then they balance. Then you never
worry about health again, or if you do, you do it in a fun way. In a way where
it’s just now a game, but then you get tired of the game and you move on to something
I’m upset about the world right
now, because I know what it can be. I
know what an experience it can be. I’m upset because I see the gravity, I see
the mass consciousness dragging people deeper and deeper and deeper within. And
what do they do? They take pills. They take all sorts of therapies. They kill
each other. They war. This is a planet that continues to be at war. They’re
thieves. They’re robbers. They’re warriors. And I know some of you are already
writing your emails – “Adamus is saying all these bad things about humans.” Am
I lying? Am I making it up? (audience is saying “No”) I don’t think so. I think
it’s psychotic to pretend it’s not there. And the point is, it’s getting
But for you my friends, you’re in
a funny, odd, unusual, uncomfortable spot. You’re in the world and you’re not
in it. You’re trying to make your human life better from within your humanness.
I talk about it particularly in Keahak, the selfish human trying to fix things,
trying to make things better. You’re just tidying up your cage at the zoo a
little bit. That’s it. So what to do? What to do? Hm.
It is to understand, first – understand
the mind and the body; understand the consciousness, which we’ve talked about
so often – and then it’s to go crazy, and that’s where we’re at.
Crazy is something that is defined
as being outside the norm. So crazy is okay. Psychotic is defined by … meaning
that the psychotic person has no orientation or grounding or connection anymore
to reality. But when the definition of psychotic is written from within the zoo
by one of the inmates using the zoo itself as the definition as being grounded,
there’s something wrong. And that’s why I say this – humans are psychotic
and they’re in-humane, un-humane.
Humanity, the basic humanity is
amazing. But being in humanity is meant to be an experience. It’s not a
punishment. It’s meant to be an experience. That’s all. It’s not meant to be
the final thing. You can never, ever, ever, ever, ever perfect your humanity. It’s
not meant to be. It’s only meant to be experienced, and all the inmates at the
zoo are trying to perfect it.
What do we do? We go into
something very simple. There’s a lot of different ways to define this. I’ll
keep it as simple as possible, because ultimately it’s about being able to go
beyond the mind. It’s called fantasy. Fantasy. It’s what I like to call it.
Fantasy means not having to think
through it, making no logic of it. When you think of fantasy, there’s a certain
amount of happiness. “Oh! Fantasy, the fantasy world!” And then they tell you,
“That’s all fantasy.” Who’s the crazy one here? The ones who are buying into
the in-humane consciousness of life? Or the ones who are saying, “No more. No
Fantasy – simple, pure
fantasy. You experience a lot of it when you dream. Dreaming is kind of an
interesting state of being, because dreams are not derived from a place of time
and space. Dreams don’t have the regular gravity that your human life, the
normal pull that your human does.
When you dream, especially those
of you who remember your dreams, you realize “My mind, my human mind could not
have made that up.” Where is this coming from? Because the mind could not have
made it up. They’re kind of half fantasy, but the mind is interpreting it on
its levels that it can understand, its symbols that it can understand. But when
you dream, you kind of let go. Not fully, but kind of.
So in a way dreaming is like a
fantasy, but there is even a grander fantasy, a grander release, and that is
what I’d like to do today. We’ll get the music ready in just a moment.
Fantasies are interesting.
Children love them because children are still pretty … oh, used to be that
children would stay open until they’re eight, nine years old; now, two or three.
They’re getting turned into the zoo. They’re getting very mental. They’re
getting very programmed.
Here you are, certainly not young
children anymore, going into fantasy. And the mind is going to say to you, when
you allow yourself to do this, “Oh, I’m making this up” or “This is just
fantasy” or “I don’t have any control” or “This isn’t going to make a
difference in my life.” Not true at all.
Fantasy is going beyond logic,
going beyond the conventional controls of the mind. Fantasy is not things that
are made up. You cannot make up anything, because anything that you are
conscious of is real. Anything you are conscious of. You can’t make something
up. You can’t. You can mentally guide and direct your thoughts and that, but
anything that comes is not made up. It’s very, very real.
So it’s been a question for so
long, “How do we go beyond? How do we walk on?” We’ll start with fantasy.
Now, here’s going to be the
challenge – we’ll play some music in just a moment – your
mind is going to be chattering, and that’s okay. Don’t try to stop it. You’re
going to be wondering if you’re doing it right. You cannot do it wrong. You
could be wondering if you’re good at fantasizing. There’s no good or bad. You’ll
wonder about your own definition of fantasy. There is none. Fantasy means just
going beyond. We’re not eliminating the mind or regular thoughts. We’re just
experiencing going beyond. So experiential I don’t want you to try to force
anything. Nothing. That’s going to feel uncomfortable.
We’re going to work with fantasy.
We’re going to work with this openness, and you are going to feel crazy. Just like I said before sacred and scared
are very closely related. You’re going to feel uncomfortable. You’re going to
feel like, “Oh, this isn’t for me. This is child’s play. We’re making this up.”
I want you to take a deep breath. I want you to stop for a moment. What other
door do you have? What other door do you have to get beyond a very limited and
now turning in-humane world? What other door do you have for going beyond?
Fantasy is right here. It’s available.
And it’s that passageway, that passageway out of the zoo. It’s going to cause
you to wonder, “What’s going to happen? In a way, it was safer in the zoo, because
all the animals were caged. What happens out here?” I’ll give you one small
clue. You’ve been there before. It’s actually your real home out there, not in
the zoo. It’s not really an unknown world. It just hasn’t been terribly
conscious lately; lately meaning like the last five million years (some
chuckles). You just haven’t been real familiar with it.
So let’s take a good deep breath.
Let’s have the house lights down. Fantasy. Turn the heat up one degree. We’re
freezing out our attendees here today. We’re going to cause them to leave
before their good time.
Let’s take a good deep breath and
relax. Yes, put your jackets on. Okay. We got the heat up? Joe? Let’s just turn
the AC off altogether. We don’t like the noise. Okay. You’ve got to be
comfortable to be able to be in fantasy.
And by the way, a few of you, I
didn’t say sexual fantasy. I just said fantasy (laughter). God! There’s always
a couple, always a couple. Sorry, Sart.
ADAMUS: Sorry (Adamus laughs).
Let’s take a good deep breath and
let’s have some music here and just relax. Relax.
You know, there’s a world out
there – it’s always been out there …
… that’s beyond just thought,
that’s beyond the routines and the worries of life. There’s what they call
fantasy, but it’s actually reality. I like saying fantasy because it gives you
permission to get out of your mind. And maybe to you fantasy means unicorns and
elves, gnomes. That’s part of it. They’re real. They actually are very, very
Fantasy can be science fantasy,
kind of like science fiction. Science fantasy when we talk about Timespace moving
through you. Most people would say “That’s fantasy. That’s all just making it
up,” but it’s not. And the thing I love is that you know, intuitively know,
that it’s real.
Fantasy is where you can expand
yourself. Not yourself meaning just more human self, but your I Am Self. You
realize how hard it’s been for the I Am consciousness of you to have been
locked in that cage in the zoo for so long? It couldn’t tolerate it anymore. It
just couldn’t. And all that gnawing at you, all that irritation, all that
impatience and the angst, it was a good thing. That was a good thing, believe
it or not – all of the health issues and the wealth issues and
everything else – because it kept you from immersing deeper into that
little smelly cage in the zoo.
It was You. It was the I Am saying,
“This isn’t right. This isn’t right. There’s more.”
It kept you from going into more
and more and more lifetimes of limitation, of mass consciousness, of being a
caged animal, of being in an in-humane world. In a way, all that was a
blessing. There are others who are so sleep, so content with their cage, but
not you. You say, “There’s more. There’s got
to be more.” And there is.
You can’t get there by thinking
your way there. You can’t get there from within. So you finally come to the
point of just allowing. You come to the point of fantasy.
I can already hear the words, people
outside of Shaumbra, Crimson Circle, they’re saying, “Oh, look at them.
Fantasy. They’re going to make stuff up.” No. No. Just coming back to you. Just
coming back to you.
You see, because in this fantasy
we’re not pulling in anything else. We’re not bringing in outside forces and
sacred crystals and archangels and any of the rest of that. This one is just
about you, coming back to you.
You’ve gone out searching and what
you found was your Self.
You’ve gone out in a long search
trying to find answers to the meaning of life, answers to creation, answers to
the problems, and what you found was your Self. Not the selfish human self, that
little human self who thinks it should walk through walls. No. The little human
self that thinks it’s going to teleport itself to the other side of the world
with its body and mind. No. No. The little human self who wants to rub its
hands and say some magic words and suddenly gold will appear. No. That’s just
polishing the bars of the zoo and the cage. No.
What’s out there, what lies
beyond, what is in fantasy – which means just more, not more of the same, but
more; what lies out there is not just a cleaned-up human, a human that doesn’t
age or a human that doesn’t ever get sick. No. What lies out there is You beyond
humanness. You’ll still be human. It’s the “and.” But what lies out here is
where you don’t have to think. Where you don’t have to think anymore.
Now, some people would be very
frightened of that. But you get out here in fantasy and realize you don’t have
to think and plan and work so hard and effort and use power.
Out here it just is. There are no
battles. There are no fights. There are no puzzles. There are no secrets. There
is no complexity of the mind.
Out beyond, in this place of
fantasy, you realize that there’s no doing things right or wrong. There’s
experience, of course. But there’s no doing it right or wrong.
Out here there’s no body to worry
about, no physical body to worry about.
Out here it is so creative, so
brilliantly creative that whatever comes from your heart, it then comes to be.
That’s creativity – consciousness shining upon the screen of bon, calling forth
all the energies so that you can experience your Self.
You’re not going to get there by
thinking your way, by uncovering any great secrets or mysteries or any of the
rest of that. It’s just about fantasy.
You are going to be challenged
with the thoughts – “Well, am I just making this up? Is this just a diversion
or a distraction? Is this really doing anything?”
It’s totally up to you. My job is
just to show you that doorway, show you that there is a whole other world, a
whole other consciousness, a whole other way of being. And all you have to do
is let yourself experience it. Fantasy.
The human is going to say, “Well,
what does that mean? How do I do it?” Shh! Fantasy.
I had to spend a little time considering
what’s the best word, what was that doorway. Then I felt into all of you and
felt into Shaumbra around the world and it was kind of the one common word; a word
that makes you smile, a word that, in a way, brings you back to a lot of
childhood memories. Oh! Some of the great fantasies that you had as a child,
and they were real.
I guess you could say things are
kind of coming full circle. A childhood fantasy, openness – as a child you
didn’t think through everything, you didn’t angst over everything; you just
went out and experienced it – and we come kind of back, but in a different
So we come to a point here, saying,
are you going to be willing to give yourself permission to be in a world of
fantasy? It doesn’t mean getting rid of the old world. You’re still going to
have your human stuff, but do you give yourself permission? Oh! Some of you are
thinking so hard right now.
Are you going to give yourself
permission to also be outside the zoo, to also be in fantasy?
You say, “Well, what’s that going
to do? What’s that going to do to my thoughts? What are others going to think
of me? Will it affect my health? Will I get stuck out there? Will I love that
fantasy world so much that I don’t come back? Will I be delusional? Will I go
off the cliff in my little fantasies?”
My friends, the alternative is
just going back to the zoo, having them close the gate behind you, go into your
little cage – that putrid little cage – having them throw some scraps of food
at you every day, locking the door. That’s the alternative. I don’t think any
of you are ready for that; otherwise you wouldn’t be here.
Fantasy is allowing, but allowing
outside the limits of that limited human.
You got so good at this game of
living in the zoo, so very good at it. So you’re going to be challenged now
with going into this fantasy. A little bit challenged. What to do? You’re going
to try to do both. Not in an “and” way, but you’re going to like fantasize once
in a while, and then get pulled right back into it. The beautiful thing about
Shaumbra fantasy, about this doorway is once you really let yourself experience
it, you’ll realize how freeing and liberating it is.
You’ll realize how the real
psychotics are the ones who live in the zoo and never try to escape. That’s
So this would be a great time and
place, if you so choose, to give yourself permission to be in fantasy, as well
as the regular world, but to also have fantasy beyond. And the beautiful thing
about it is you don’t have to do anything. It comes to you.
Remember what we talked about last
month? It comes to you.
You don’t have to sit there and
work at it. It comes to you.
So, are you ready?
Let’s take a good deep breath, a good
Good deep breath. Oh!
I want to give special thanks to
Pete for being here. He says he will be coming back to the Shouds – you
don’t need to save a seat for him, he’ll hover – a very special
thanks to him and for the work that he’s going to be doing helping, assisting,
kind of being there.
One of the greatest challenges in
this whole thing is that gravity, that suction that’s created that keeps you in
but yet the desire to get out, and then caught in the middle, feeling like
you’re going crazy. You’re not. You’re not at all, absolutely not.
So let’s take a good deep breath,
Shaumbra. Feel the energies of the day. Oooof!
And, with that, let’s say these last words together. As always …
ADAMUS AND AUDIENCE: All is well
in all of creation.
ADAMUS: Thank you. Thank you