THE CRIMSON CIRCLE MATERIALS
The Discovery Series
SHOUD 11: âDiscovery 11â â
Featuring Adamus Saint-Germain, channeled by Geoffrey Hoppe
IMPORTANT NOTE: This information is probably not for you unless you take full responsibility for your life and creations.
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I Am that I Am, the passionate Adamus
of Sovereign Domain.
Welcome. Welcome, dear friends.
Welcome to Shaumbra Island where you can relax into your enlightenment.
Someday youâre going to talk to
me. Youâre going to say, âAdamus why didnât you just tell me back when, back
right after Tobias left, why didnât you just tell me I could relax into my
enlightenment? Why did you let me go through all of this hell, all of this hell?â
Iâm going to say, âMy dear friend, I told you time and time again, relax into
the enlightenment.â
Itâs natural. Itâs actually ⊠well,
easy is not the right word. Itâs natural. (Adamus chuckles) It will happen.
Itâs happening right now as we speak. You relax into the enlightenment.
Now, today Iâm going to talk about
some things that may seem to be a contradiction, but theyâre not. Itâs all very
congruent.
So take a deep breath and just
relax into the enlightenment. Ah.
Allowing the Light Body
Last month we talked about the
light body. Itâs an essential part for any Master to have that body in which to
experience this great thing called embodied mastery. Have you noticed in this
past month or so, or weeks, I guess it has been, have you noticed that you just
feel like you need an extra shower? You feel a little dirtier than normal? You
just feel that even if you put on brand new clothes, you just donât feel clean,
hm? Yeah.
Try going shopping for new
clothes, as dear Linda does all the time, and youâre standing there in that
dressing room experience. Iâm with you in a way. Iâm not peeking, but Iâm with
you. (laughter) And youâre shedding your regular clothes that you wore to the
store, and youâre trying on those new clothes, but you just donât feel right. They
feel too clean and you just donât feel clean enough. Well, itâs just part of
the light body integration, because your old physical body is releasing
tremendous amounts of Old Energy right now. Itâs coming out through your pores,
your skin, through every part of you. If you notice maybe your hair feels a
little different or your eyesight or anything, these are just some of the
points of transitioning into the light body.
Thereâs nothing wrong with you. Thereâs
not. Itâs just releasing lifetimes of old, Old Energy that youâre ready to
release. Youâre ready to let go of.
So take that extra shower, if you will,
but just more than anything, take a deep breath and allow your light body.
And yes, weâre going to be talking
be talking about ⊠Sandra? Are you asleep? Have you forgotten Adamus? Coffee?
With cream? (a few chuckles) I know youâre so enthralled by our discussion, but
âŠ
Memoirs of a Master
So, my dear friends, Iâm writing a
few new books right now, and the one that Iâm most excited about, because itâs loosely
based on your experiences â my experiences with you â itâs called Memoirs
of a Master. Yeah, interesting. Itâll be an easy ready for many people. Itâs
not going to be a particularly long book, but itâs going to be filled with interesting
and very profound stories about our engagements.
So let me tell you one of the stories
today. Iâll do this occasionally at our Shouds and in our gatherings. So if I
could get audience lights down for just a little bit of mood setting here. Ah
yes. Much better.
So Memoirs of the Master, stories
about the Master and the student.
So the new student who had only been
in the Mystery School for a few months finally had the appointment to come
before the Master. The new student had heard stories about what it was like to
go before the Master, filled with anxiety, but also excitement, knowing that
when the appointment with the Master came, that it meant that the student had
reached a certain level or degree of enlightenment, success you might call it.
So the new student by the name of
Henry â Henry Smith â it was his day; a young man, very into spirituality
and enlightenment, but in a way very innocent, very naĂŻve. So it came time for
Henry to approach the Master â the Master, of course, sitting in his chair
with his cup of coffee. (laughter as Adamus makes a face because his coffee
isnât there yet)
And Henry approached the Master, a
bit nervous, of course, but more than anything excited, because, well, this
would be like getting a report card from when you were in school. Getting an assessment,
having your review with the Master. (Linda brings his coffee but pauses off the
stage)
Approach. (Linda brings the coffee
and bows down at his feet; much audience laughter and some applause; he takes a
sip) Adequate. Adequate.
So ⊠(chuckling) Henry approached
the Master who was now drinking his coffee in the chair, and Henry said to the Master,
âMaster, how am I doing? Itâs been a few months and Iâve been working so hard
and trying, being so diligent with everything here at this Mystery School. Master,
how am I doing?â
And the Master sat back in his masterly
way, eyes closed, and said, âStudentâ â for the Master never addresses the
student by their real name â âStudent, it is not for me to measure or judge.â
Of course, Henry was a bit disappointed
because he really wanted an evaluation from the Master. So Henry took a deep
breath and collected his energy and thought of a new way around this, and said,
âMaster, Master, would you check with my spirit guides and ask them how Iâm
doing.â
And the Master took a deep breath
and gritted his teeth a bit and said, âStudent, you have no spirit guides. (some
chuckles) You had spirit guides and they were with you for many, many, many lifetimes.
But, Student, they got bored and left.â I thought it was funny. (laughter) My
book may not be a best seller. (more chuckles)
Now, Henry was getting very discouraged
and very disappointed, but Henry was determined, like all students are. All
students so determined but sometimes so naĂŻve, so not getting it. So Henry
collected himself once again, took a deep breath and said, âAh, Master, how do
the archangels feel that Iâm doing?â (some chuckles)
And the Master sat with his eyes closed
for a long time, slightly, slightly just shaking his head, took a deep breath
and said, âStudent, the archangels are all busy, because there are so many humans
now who are channeling archangels. (laughter) Except for Raphael. We donât
understand why nobody wants to channel Raphael.â
LINDA: Awww.
ADAMUS: âBut there is no feedback
from any of the archangels.â
Now, Henry was very, very disappointed
by now, discouraged, distraught. Felt that there was a game going on and he was
being played with. But the student was so determined, so stubborn in a way and
he took a very deep breath and said to himself, âThis is just a game the Master
is playing with me. Heâs trying to see how determined I am. Iâll go at it one
more time again.â And the student said, âMaster, how does God feel that Iâm
doing? Would you please check with God?â
The Master took a deep breath and
said, âJust a momentâ and went into a trance-like state of being. And after a
few minutes he came back and he said, âWhat was your name?â (some chuckles) And
the student said, âItâs Henry. Itâs me, Henry.â Master said, âGive me a moment.â
And the Master, acting it out of course,
waited for a while and then suddenly came back, opened his eyes, looking
directly at the student and saying, âGod does not know you exist.â (thereâs
silence, then Adamus mimes âFunnyâ; some chuckles)
The student walked out
discouraged, distressed and distraught. The next morning packed all of his
belongings and left the Mystery School. He now operates an ashram where they
work on the voice and connection to Spirit, of course. (a few chuckles)
So after that encounter with the
student, the Master was at the Embodied Masters Club that night, when some of
the other Masters said, âSo, how did it go with Henry the student?â And the
Master said, âNot well, at least not for now. Not well at all. The student
still does not realize one of the most basic tenets of enlightenment.â
And the other Master says, âWell,
how goes that? What do you mean by that?â And the very wise senior Master said
to the others, âBecause when one does not recognize themselves, Spirit does not
recognize them either.â
That is the greatest gift of
compassion that Spirit can offer. Hmmm. Hmmm. Hmmm.
When you do not recognize your own
existence, when you rely on others for measure, for assessment, to know whether
youâre doing right or wrong. When you do not see yourself through your own eyes
and hear yourself through your own ears, Spirit doesnât recognize you either.
Spirit doesnât know you exist until the moment you know you exist, you see.
So that is one of the chapters
from Memoirs of a Master â somewhat true stories, loosely based on my
experiences with Shaumbra.
LINDA: Ohhh! (some chuckles and
applause)
ADAMUS: These arenât the type of stories
that are necessarily going to have people cheering and applauding during the
story. But my point is to do these stories and get the âHmmmm. Hmmmm, now I get
it.â
Okay, so we donât know when the
bookâs going to come out, but Iâm sure itâs will be, hmm, interesting.
Pop Quiz
Pop quiz time. A pop quiz is
something we do at the spur of the moment with Linda running the microphone to
the audience. It is to check, to assess, to see where youâre at, to see the
type of replies you give.
So todayâs subject in our pop
quiz, in our in-the-moment quiz here, has to do with reality versus perception.
LINDA: Ohhh!
~ 1st Question â Reality
vs. Perception
ADAMUS: Ohh, oh. An interesting
one, reality versus perception.
So Linda, be ready at the microphone.
You can be walking as I ask the question. (some chuckles)
Is it reality or perception that
less than five percent of the humans on the planet control 95 percent of all of
the wealth? Is it reality or perception? Five percent control the majority, the
vast majority of the wealth on the planet, yes or no, reality or
perception?
KAREN (woman): Reality.
ADAMUS: Would you mind standing?
Yes.
KAREN: Reality.
ADAMUS: Reality. Why would you say
that? Based on âŠ
KAREN: My own experience.
ADAMUS: Your own experience. Okay.
Good. Good answer. And Lindaâs indicating, for everyone, please hold the microphone
up to your face. Yeah.
KAREN: Okay.
ADAMUS: Good. Okay. And there are no
right or wrong in this. The point is reality or perception.
Itâs actually perception.
Perception. The fact indeed is that there is a very small number of people or families
or governments â or businesses rather â that control the majority of the
finances on the planet. However, however, itâs a perception. Itâs a perception
as well, because just because she might have a lot of money â letâs
say she has 20% of all of the wealth in the world â does not mean you
canât have wealth or you canât have wealth or you canât have wealth. Thereâs no
limit or cap to the amount of wealth that this planet can have, whether itâs in
terms of your financial instruments, natural resources or pure energy. Thereâs
no cap on it.
There is the perception that
certain people control it and other people canât have it. Thereâs a perception
that there is a limited amount of financial abundance on the planet, and that
perception people get stuck â I cautiously use the word âcontrolâ â that these
five percent or less control.
They donât control at all. They have. They have. They have it; others
donât. Thereâs nothing to say that you couldnât have it, that you couldnât have
it, you couldnât have it. Nothing at all, and no matter how much they might
want to control their number of their percentage points, their number of
dollars or euros in the bank, they canât. They canât.
So my dear friends, the reality
is, yeah, thatâs kind of the way it is right now, thereâs a few who have more
than others. But thereâs nothing to say that each and every one of you could not
have exactly what you chose and more so what you allowed.
So reality versus perception, ah.
Good.
Next. Next question. In North
America and Europe there is more pollution now than there was 15 years ago
â reality or perception?
DAVE (Crash): Yes.
ADAMUS: Yes. Based on?
DAVE: Based on scientific data.
ADAMUS: Good. Based on perception.
Absolutely, there is less pollution than ever before in the last 15 years in, I
said, North America and Europe. Thereâs a lot of new technologies that are
reducing the amount of emissions. There is much more concern about the
environment from the water and the air standpoint. Even though there are more
people, more vehicles, more machines than ever before, the level of pollution
is going down.
Now, globally not necessarily,
because there are âŠ
DAVE: Like China, India.
ADAMUS: ⊠other countries that are
adding a lot. But I specifically said North America and Europe.
So the reality is actually not and
the perception is, generally when I ask this question, people say, âOh yes, itâs
getting worse.â
I point this out because this
matter of perception, making a statement without actually really knowing the
facts, sorry to say, but also believing that all these evils, all these terrible
things are being done without looking at actually what is being done.
Now, at the same time, while there
is a huge interest in the environment, because you all realize that this planet
with its six billion humans can really only handle about ten and youâre rapidly
approaching that number. So there has to be more concern about the ground, the
air, the water, the animal kingdoms. However, itâs also subject to a tremendous
amount of control and manipulation.
Itâs a fertile feeding ground for
those who are into control, and often without really even knowing anything
about the subject â not referring to you, of course, Dave, but to others
who are environmental fanatics â and using numbers, using information
thatâs actually not true. Itâs a type of control. Itâs just one more thing that
I add on my list of hypnosis and mass control.
Actually, it is getting better in
many places; other places they have a long way to go. Theyâre harming
themselves, their own people, and thereâs really not a consciousness. But particularly
in Europe and North America, there is a
consciousness and it is changing
things. Perhaps not fast enough, what you would like. Perhaps there are still
those who donât have the consciousness of this planet, of this body that you
live on, but it is coming. But also at the same time be aware of your perceptions
â whatâs real, whatâs not, whatâs control or whatâs hypnosis and whatâs not.
Good.
Next question along the same
lines, is there more or less crime right now than there was 15 years ago â major
crime â more or less?
DAVID McMaster: (pausing slightly)
Well I donât want to take a trip to the bathroom. (laughter)
ADAMUS: Feel free. (Adamus is
chuckling)
DAVID: And my sense is feeling
less.
ADAMUS: Less. Any particular
reason for saying that?
DAVID: Yes. Increased
consciousness in the world thatâs happened, especially since Shaumbra has come
on the scene in the last 15 years.
ADAMUS: There you go. There you
go. Yeah. Thank you. (audience applause)
There sometimes is the feeling
that thereâs more because of things like the Internet and news and blogs and
the very, very rapid communication, but in what you call the more developed countries,
thereâs actually less crime. Youâre correct.
In other places, once again, crime
is still rampant, but consciousness â consciousness will be the thing that brings
that to a better balance.
Now, while I say that, there is less
statistical crime in most of these places than there has been 15 years ago.
However, at the same time thereâs more potential for what you would call catastrophic
crime, terrorist type attacks. And with the sophistication that what you call
terrorists, those who donât regard other peopleâs lives, those who would kill
large numbers of people for their own personal cause, there is more potential
than ever before for that to happen because of technology and because of
determination that they have.
So thereâs kind of a constant cloud
of fear that hangs over, particularly with you, and you listening online,
because you can feel that. You can sense. Itâs almost âWhen is the other shoe
going to fall? When is the bottom side going to drop out?â You feel that like
in the pit of your stomach or sometimes in your heart or throat area â âWhat
next?â
Itâs a difficult way to live,
always worrying about what next, and I ask you simply to take a deep breath and
live your own life as best you possibly can, as consciously as you can. Not
even trying to stop those who would have their political, religious or
financial agendas, but to live your own life in the highest form of embodied
mastery. That is what will make the biggest difference on this planet. Thatâs
what will add the element to consciousness thatâs missing in so many places.
As Iâve said over and over again,
the greatest thing you can do for this planet, actually for this universe,
actually for all of creation, is to be the Master that you truly, truly are.
So letâs take a deep breath with
that.
We could go on and on, but my
point on this is reality and perception. There are so many perceptions. When
you really start looking into it, the perceptions donât necessarily match the
reality. But I guess one could say that everything, no matter what, is
perception.
So I ask you to look at your own perception â your
perception of the world, your perception of your place in the world, your
perception of enlightenment, your perception of what it takes to allow the
enlightenment, the embodied enlightenment. Thereâs still a lot of perceptions
right now that you have to work hard or suffer, thatâs engrained in that little
room, almost like a tiny little closet in the house of human consciousness. A
little tiny closet stuck way off on the side has the word âenlightenmentâ barely
legible on the door. And in that little tiny storage place, this is where the
basis of enlightenment or consciousness is. Itâs very close also to a much,
much larger room called religion and another large room called philosophy. But
in this little tiny, tiny closet stuck over on the side, a consciousness of
enlightenment, what that is.
Now, we played the game before in
our gatherings and our workshops where I say, âWhat is enlightenment?â And after
doing that for a number of years, I stopped asking the question because there
were really no good answers. No ⊠well, there were some bad answers, but very
few good answers. And ultimately the real answer is itâs a feeling.
Enlightenment canât really be defined. I guess you could define the net result
of enlightenment, what you get as the human part â a better life, a healthier
body, more happiness, although happiness is a really bad perception. [I could
say] some funny things about happiness.
But this whole thing of
enlightenment is about perception also, a perception of what you have to do. In
this little closet hidden away are a few of the known Masters who have achieved
enlightenment, but their stories, as weâve talked about, are not so good.
Theyâre filled with suffering. Theyâre filled with hardship, a lot of
loneliness, a lot of angst, and at the end perhaps you could say a total
breakdown or death. Not such a good perception to have.
I ask you to take a look at that
the reality and the perception of enlightenment. I ask you to take a look at
then the feeling that you have about enlightenment. Itâs this thing that is
above all other things in most of your lives. The most important thing, the
reason you came here to this planet. But yet thereâs still an odd perception
about it â a perception of how hard you have to work and all of the philosophical,
religious and spiritual studies that you have to do to get there, and such a
feeling, so often a feeling of being incomplete, unfilled, unsatisfied or
just not knowing the answer; the perception that thereâs still something wrong,
thereâs still something you havenât figured out.
Many of you go to bed at night
saying, âThereâs still something Iâm not getting,â like this is a test or this
is some sort of maze that you have to get through. Still saying to yourselves,
âWhat is it? What is it? Iâm just not quite there.â Days that you feel youâre making
some progress, so to speak, but so often saying, âWhat am I not doing right?â
The thing that youâre not doing
right is thinking about enlightenment â your perception of enlightenment, your perception
of what needs to be done and what youâre going to be like in enlightenment.
My dear friends, there is really
nothing that you have to do other than allowing. But thatâs perhaps one of the
most difficult things that a human will do, because thereâs such a tendency to
say, âI need to keep working at something. I must have to do something like meditate or chant or douse myself in
oilsâ or one thing after the other. Thereâs part of the human consciousness
that just canât accept the fact that you can just allow the enlightenment. You
donât have to force it. You donât have to work at it. Itâs not a game of power
whatsoever.
You donât have to push it. You donât
have to wrassle with it. Itâs not something that the demon or even the
darkness, or even Satan is keeping from you. The darkness, your darkness
actually is hoping that youâll allow it, because it will free that darkness. It
will free that suffering and that deep wound within.
So perception, reality, perception
and the reality of enlightenment. As the Ascended Masters would say, the
perception of enlightenment, so far from what it truly is; the reality of
enlightenment, so very close, as in right here, right now.
Okay, letâs take a deep breath.
Moving on.
~ 2nd Question â What
Have You Discovered?
This is our last channel,
gathering in the Discovery Series. So the question is today, with Linda at the microphone
once again, the question is in this Series, this past eleven series, what have
you discovered? And I will need the writing board up here, if you wouldnât
mind. What have you discovered? And Linda, anybody.
Weâve had this Discovery Series.
In a way you chose the title, not me. What have you discovered? And it can be
something, what you would say, happy or sad, good or bad, it doesnât matter. But
what have you discovered about yourself? Thank you gentlemen (to Larry &
Sart who brought up the writing board). Carol Merrill (a game show host) and
his assistant. Good. Yes.
What have you discovered, Edith?
EDITH: I have had lots of very
excellent reminders that I Am that I Am, and that I Exist and that I am a
creative grand Master.
ADAMUS: Sounds good. What does
that mean? (some chuckles) Letâs bring it into that funnel. Letâs distill it
and give me about less than ten words. What have you discovered?
EDITH: I Am that I Am.
ADAMUS: Good. And youâve discovered
that.
EDITH: Well, Iâve had reminders.
Weâve been working on it forever.
ADAMUS: Yes. Yes we have! (laughter)
Oh yes! Where did the reminder come from?
EDITH: You. (more chuckles)
ADAMUS: Did it come from you?
EDITH: Yes.
ADAMUS: Did you ever wake up in
the middle of the night and go, âYeah! I finally get it.â
EDITH: No, I sleep very well at
night.
ADAMUS: Okay. (some chuckles) Letâs
try this from a different angle. Have you ever been driving down the street,
down the road during the middle of the day and suddenly, âI get it! I Am that I
Am.â
EDITH: Well, I already knew that.
ADAMUS: Oh. Okay. Good. And what
did you discover about living it this
year?
EDITH: (sighs) Too much to talk
about here.
ADAMUS: Okay. (Adamus chuckles) One
thing?
EDITH: Well, eh ⊠(she pauses)
ADAMUS: Be careful. Youâll be in
my book Memoirs of a Master. (Adamus chuckles) Edith, youâre an icon.
EDITH: Iâm like David. I donât
want to go to the restroom.
ADAMUS: Yes. We could go together
if you want. (Adamus chuckles and some audience laughter) Edith, youâre an
icon. Yes.
EDITH: I just had good reminders.
I ⊠um ⊠because I donât know what to tell ⊠I mean, I canât say I donât know.
Letâs see, um ⊠I just âŠ
ADAMUS: Weâre teetering right on
that natty edge. (laughter)
EDITH: It brings âŠ
ADAMUS: Weâre teetering.
EDITH: Joy.
ADAMUS: Joy. Thank you. I was just
about to say, âSay anything!â (more chuckles) This is a very, very true
statement. The Master â when the master is in doubt, when the Master canât
think anymore â just fake it. Make up anything. Say anything. Joy. I love it.
Thank you.
Now, does it feel good to say joy?
EDITH: Yes. Yes!
ADAMUS: And did you discover any
joy this year?
EDITH: Much joy.
ADAMUS: Thank you! See how easy it
is. Two words. Much joy. Okay. (he sighs and writes on the board) âMuch joy (much
talk).â Okay. (a few more chuckles) Good. Youâre in my book. I do change the
names, yes. Yeah, but not yours. (Adamus chuckles)
Good. Next. What did you discover
this year?
SHAUMBRA 1 (woman): Hi. I
discovered my soul.
ADAMUS: Ooh. Where was it?
SHAUMBRA 1: Ah, ha, ha. I started,
like, connecting with it, and then suddenly one day I just realized I felt like
Iâd been sleeping all my life âŠ
ADAMUS: Ah yeah, yeah.
SHAUMBRA 1: ⊠and I felt like I
was waking up.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Both of which are
true. Yes. Yes.
SHAUMBRA 1: You know, and began to
sense life.
ADAMUS: What language does your
soul speak to you in? Spanish or French? (she chuckles)
SHAUMBRA 1: No.
ADAMUS: Most souls speak French,
you know. Iâm, you know, Iâm a little biased.
SHAUMBRA 1: Itâs more of a
feeling.
ADAMUS: A feeling.
SHAUMBRA 1: Itâs more of a sense.
ADAMUS: Okay. Yes.
SHAUMBRA 1: Itâs more of a
knowing, you know.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Yeah.
SHAUMBRA 1: And then it kind of
like Iâve been breathing my soul into my body more and more and more, and I
feel Iâm beginning to integrate, and Iâm really â Iâm very excited. Itâs like
suddenly I feel that I can see the light at the end of the tunnel and that it
is possible that I will become enlightened in this life.
ADAMUS: Yeah.
SHAUMBRA 1: And you know what, I âŠ
ADAMUS: What would keep you from
that? You say light at the end of tunnel, but you know what?
SHAUMBRA 1: What.
ADAMUS: Itâs â well, itâs not a
train, but itâs ⊠maybe thereâs another tunnel and another light after that.
Maybe that light is just, you know, like a street light type of thing.
SHAUMBRA 1: I donât think so.
ADAMUS: Are you sure?
SHAUMBRA 1: Oh, Iâm sure. (she
chuckles)
ADAMUS: Because ⊠havenât we gone
through ⊠we. Havenât you gone through this before? A lot of light at the end
of tunnel, a lot of getting close, but âŠ
SHAUMBRA 1: I have never been through this before.
ADAMUS: Okay. I like the way you say
that. I love that passion. You â brrgg!
â stopped me.
SHAUMBRA 1: Yeah.
ADAMUS: Yes.
SHAUMBRA 1: And, you know, I
really want to take the opportunity to thank you, because you âŠ
ADAMUS: Iâve done so little.
SHAUMBRA 1: No, you have! You
really, you have guided me through this and thanks to you Iâm beginning âŠ
ADAMUS: Oh gosh! Itâs just all you
doing it. (laughter as he acts all modest)
SHAUMBRA 1: So, and not just âŠ
ADAMUS: Oh, itâs all you!
SHAUMBRA 1: Not just me.
ADAMUS: I canât take any of the
credit.
SHAUMBRA 1: But like much of
Shaumbra.
ADAMUS: Award! (Adamus pretends to
give himself an award; laughter)
SHAUMBRA 1: So itâs a whole bunch
of us, and weâre beginning to like âŠ
ADAMUS: Oh, thatâs all right. You
donât need to say more. (more chuckles)
SHAUMBRA 1: Anyhow.
ADAMUS: Okay, âAdamus.â (he writes
âAdamusâ on the board; audience applause)
SHAUMBRA 1: (chuckling) Thank you.
ADAMUS: Thank you.
SHAUMBRA 1: Can I get a hug from
you?
ADAMUS: Sure! Anything else?
SHAUMBRA 1: Oh ho, ho.
ADAMUS: A kiss, a kiss. (they hug)
Thank you. Good. We have to ⊠a Master laughs. Has to laugh. Has to laugh.
Good.
Next. Same question. What have you
discovered this year? Good, bad, ugly, anything. What have you discovered?
SUE: Iâd like to tell the story this
morning in front of the mirror, and a part of me said, âI want to be a rock
star, just like Edith.â
ADAMUS: Yeah!
SUE: You know. (laughter and some
applause) And âŠ
ADAMUS: Look what youâve created
for yourself, Edith. Now thereâs people all over the world watching you right
now and they love you. Iâm very serious. They love you Edith, because you
represent so many, the questions and the perils, but yet the breakthroughs and
the beautiful innocence about this awakening. They see what youâve gone through
and theyâve seen the ground that youâve broken. So truly, you are an icon and a
rock star. Yes. (more applause)
SUE: So then the response that
came was I Am.
ADAMUS: I Am.
SUE: I Am.
ADAMUS: Yes.
SUE: I Am.
ADAMUS: Good.
SUE: And itâs like, oh, to my âŠ
ADAMUS: Have you really felt that this year?
SUE: Yes. Yes. And I laughed and
it was like, yes, I get it.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Good.
SUE: I get it
ADAMUS: Because there is the I Am
that I Am. (he says it blandly)
SUE: Eh-eh. No.
ADAMUS: And then thereâs the I Am!! And then you want to say words,
not because theyâre nasty, but itâs just like âF---! (laughter) Gah! Why didnât
they tell me this before?! I Am!â And
then suddenly itâs like this whole recording plays at sonic speed through your
mind and into your body. And youâre like, âOh! I remember when Adamus was on me
about speaking in my voice, about saying âI command you to serve.â I thought it
was so stupid at the time, and now I get it. And I remember when Adamus was
saying âI exist,â and I thought, well I thought thatâs the dumbest thing ever. My
dog exists. You know, what am I saying âI exist.â Now I get it!â
SUE: I Exist.
ADAMUS: âI get it!â
SUE: Yeah.
ADAMUS: Yes.
SUE: And itâs nice to scream in
the car. (more chuckles)
ADAMUS: It is. It is. Excellent.
Okay. Two more. What did you discover this year? Yes.
KERRI: I discovered ⊠I discovered
that I matter, that I can love myself and I donât need anything outside of myself.
ADAMUS: Maaakyo!
KERRI: What?!
ADAMUS: Makyo.
KERRI: Well, itâs better than âI
donât know!â (laughter) I came up with something!! (laughter and some applause)
ADAMUS: You discovered how to get
around my questions. Thatâs a good one.
KERRI: I, I, ohh âŠ
ADAMUS: So (writing on the board)
âAdamus times two.â Times two. Youâve discovered. Great, and thatâs an accomplishment.
KERRI: What was the accomplishment?
ADAMUS: Getting around me. Instead
of saying, âI donât knowâ and having to go to the bathroom.
KERRI: I wonât do that again. I
took so much shit from the ladies.
ADAMUS: Yes.
KERRI: They were disappointed in
me.
ADAMUS: Yeah, no pun intended, but
yes. (laughter)
ADAMUS: Yeah. Good. So you discovered
how to at least âŠ
KERRI: At least.
ADAMUS: ⊠stand in front of a
Master. Youâre in my book also.
KERRI: Oh really?
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah.
KERRI: Your favorite, huh?
ADAMUS: Yes. Oh, I didnât say âŠ
(more laughter)
KERRI: Thatâs a lie. Donât lie.
ADAMUS: You made me say that.
KERRI: Right, right.
ADAMUS: You understood how to
stand up to a Master.
KERRI: Hell, yeah.
ADAMUS: Yes, and therefore âŠ
KERRI: I stand up to you.
ADAMUS: And therefore stand up to yourself.
KERRI: Yes.
ADAMUS: Yes. To ⊠could I be very
honest?
KERRI: Oh god, yeah, thatâs fine.
ADAMUS: Oh god. They should just
say no.
Youâve learned â and still
learning, still practicing, but youâve learned â to stand up to that bratty
little girl âŠ
KERRI: (whispers) Oh fuck you.
Okay, but yes, thank you.
ADAMUS: ⊠within. And youâve
learned not to let that aspect run you âŠ
KERRI: I told it to shut â S.T.F.U.
â on the way here. I said that.
ADAMUS: You can say it out loud.
KERRI: Shut the fuck up already.
ADAMUS: Thank you.
KERRI: Thatâs not mine.
ADAMUS: No, but âŠ
KERRI: Right?
ADAMUS: But thatâs what it took
for you, to finally say, âNo more, I Amâ and not let that little spoiled very
hurt little brat keep running your life.
KERRI: Okay. Thank you.
ADAMUS: Thank you. (some applause)
But doesnât it feel good âŠ
KERRI: Yes!
ADAMUS: ⊠to say âŠ
KERRI: I knew I was the brat and
spoiled. I didnât âŠ
ADAMUS: No, no, no, no. Stop.
Youâre not.
KERRI: Iâm not anymore.
ADAMUS: Thatâs right.
KERRI: I knew that âŠ
ADAMUS: That aspect that was running
your life. That was actually â that spoiled little brat â was actually scared
to hell of life, scared of what the next moment was going to bring. Scared to
be alone, but yet always miserable in the company of a lot of others âŠ
KERRI: Jesus Christ, just keep it
coming. Just let it all out, you know. (laughter)
ADAMUS: Jesus is somewhere else today.
Heâs off on another thing. Itâs just you and me.
But itâs such a discovery to
finally say, âI donât need that anymore.â And, my friends, itâs not other people
in your life that are driving you crazy; itâs yourself. Itâs not family members
or friends. Itâs you and you that are
driving yourself crazy.
And, first of all, it takes a
certain clarity to recognize that âyouâ is many, many things. There are many,
many aspects; that âyouâ isnât this just foggy, big kind of a mess of all these
different emotions and feelings and thoughts and direction; that you have many
different facets or rays of yourself, but donât let the facet or the ray,
particularly if itâs a dysfunctional ray, of yourself run the show. Itâs only when
you discover that youâre going to run the show no matter what.
Now, you have tremendous determination,
tremendous drive and stubbornness, and youâre finally using that instead of letting
it being used by this aspect. And thatâs when things in your life are going to
change, my dear friend. You can talk about perhaps not doing your lifeâs passion,
what you really want to do with the people that you want to do it, with the
level of abundance, because youâve been letting that little brat run things. No
more.
KERRI: Do you know how many women
in here are going, âFinally, he told that bitch what I wanted to say!â
ADAMUS: (laughing) Well, men too. (laughter)
KERRI: Yeah, exactly! Finally!
ADAMUS: But more so the men, I
think.
KERRI: Oh well, they âŠ
ADAMUS: Stop nodding, gentlemen.
(more chuckles) Good. Excellent. Thank you. Oh, some breakthroughs here.
KERRI: Thank you.
ADAMUS: Yes. Last one. What did
you discover?
CAROL: The convergence.
ADAMUS: Convergence. Good. I like
that one. And what did you discover about it? What converged?
CAROL: So, to describe it, if
there were two paths and theyâre coming together, so the human on one and the rest
of myself on the other one. But the paths are coming together. The first thing is
you become aware thereâs another path, but youâre aware theyâre converging. And
you donât have to run over to get on that path or have that ⊠theyâre going to
come together. Now, they are so close, close enough that you can hold hands
with the other path.
ADAMUS: Yes!
CAROL: Itâs so great!
ADAMUS: Yes!
CAROL: And at first it was you
were holding hands in that realm. But no, now youâre walking as a human. Youâre
like âHold hands with me on Earth walking here.â Thatâs how close. So the point
of being the one is itâs right there, and so when you say relax, because itâs
not like, âOkay, I have to do something, bah, bah, bah âŠâ
ADAMUS: Right. Oh, thereâs a
tendency to think that.
CAROL: Ohh!
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah.
CAROL: So much stress on you. But
you just say, no, itâs natural. Itâs converging. Youâre even holding hands. So
whatâs the problem? Youâre arriving at that point together.
ADAMUS: Yes. Question. When are
you going to stop holding hands and make love?
CAROL: Yeah! Thatâs what I want to
know. But then the mind! The mind! (Adamus chuckles) If I start on that and
donât relax, the mind â âWhat do I have to do? How do I do that? Why donât I
love myself? Why am I not already enlightened?â And then, âYou are already enlightened.â
Iâm like, right, right. So, but when is it realized here on Earth? But donât
push. So.
ADAMUS: I think thatâll be another
chapter in my Memoirs of a Master.
CAROL: Chapter? Itâs a whole book!
ADAMUS: You know, âFrom Holding Hands
to Making Love.â
CAROL: Yes!
ADAMUS: And taking that, allowing
that big step.
CAROL: Yes.
ADAMUS: Iâm talking about loving
yourself, of course.
CAROL: Yourself. Exactly.
ADAMUS: And you can hold hands for
a long time, but after a while itâs like come on, you know.
CAROL: Yeah. Thatâs â you know, come
on!
ADAMUS: All talk, no action. Yeah.
CAROL: Okay! (they chuckle)
ADAMUS: All thinking no
integration.
CAROL: How about at least
kissing?!
ADAMUS: Yes, yes.
CAROL: Something!
ADAMUS: Good.
CAROL: Yeah.
ADAMUS: Excellent. I love that. I
love that story. Good.
~ 3rd Question â What
Do You Wish You Had Discovered?
Okay, next question, and this is a
leading question â leading you and leading into the next segment. What do
you wish you had discovered that you didnât? What do you wish you had
discovered but you didnât? Hm. Ah.
JANE: Ahhh.
ADAMUS: (whispers) Make it up.
Fake it. (some chuckles)
JANE: I wish I had discovered what
I discovered sooner.
ADAMUS: Yeah. I like that. I like
that. Yes. Kind of Zen-like. Yeah. Yes. Wish you had ⊠how much sooner?
JANE: Lifetimes. (Adamus chuckles)
ADAMUS: Why?
JANE: Because I would have enjoyed
life a lot more.
ADAMUS: Ahhh! I love that. I love
that. You warmed Cauldreâs heart. Heâs got a big wart over it though. (a few
chuckles) Yes. Not because thereâs a race, not because youâre trying to beat
others to enlightenment or anything, but you could have just enjoyed life a little
more.
Now, youâll actually look back and
say, âWell, that kind of was fun, all those crazy things, all that wacko
moments and all the stress and the fear.â But kind of, in a warped way, it was
kind of fun, otherwise you wouldnât have done it. Yeah.
JANE: True.
ADAMUS: True. And, but yeah, at a
certain point, it just gets old. It just gets boring.
Part of the ⊠human life offers so
much, but part of the challenge is it tends to get into patterns, into ruts and
repeat itself over and over and over. And then people say, âI donât know how to
get out. I donât know.â And then they just wait and nothing happens other than
youâre building a bigger rut. And it takes a very brave, bold, outrageous,
courageous human to say, âNo more. No more. Iâm done with it.â
Now, what happens is you say âno
more,â but then a weird thing happens is the human self, little self, kicks in
and says, âWell, now I have to do something.â No, you already did it by saying âno
more.â When you really mean it, when you really, really mean it â âNo moreâ
â it changes your entire, you could say, your quotient or your ratio of
consciousness; the amount of consciousness that youâre able to tap into and use
in your everyday life. That is like a great big magnet that attracts energy. It
brings energy in that automatically changes all of these things in your life.
Now, a lot of times the little
human says, âYeah, but it didnât happen â snap
â like that.â Well no. Sometimes it does it in a graceful way. Sometimes a
lot of other energies in a lot of other dimensions and also with a lot of other
people have to realign. But the true Master takes a deep breath and says, âMy
job is done. I had that deep commitment. I said no more, and therefore I expect
that everything is going to change and I donât have to do anything other than to
enjoy my life.â
JANE: Yeah.
ADAMUS: So great. So please, yes, enjoy
your life.
JANE: Yes. Thank you.
ADAMUS: Absolutely. Thank you. (applause)
What would you like to have discovered
in this Discovery Series? Because you still have the opportunity. Weâve got about
47 minutes left to discover it. What do you wish you had discovered? (the next
person grimaces when Linda hands her the mike) Sheâs only the messenger with
the microphone.
Could I stop for moment, because
you were going to be thinking here too much. Could you just feel the energy for
a moment? Itâs almost tingling. Itâs so beautiful, so real in here and
hopefully everybody watching in as well. Yeah. Okay.
SUSAN: I wish I would have discovered
my freedom sooner.
ADAMUS: Freedom. Hm. And what
would you have done with it if you had discovered it?
SUSAN: Anything and everything.
(they chuckle)
ADAMUS: Good. Any reason why it
took so long?
SUSAN: Old stories, old patterns,
old habits, old âŠ
ADAMUS: Old shit.
SUSAN: ⊠chains that I was still
buying into it.
ADAMUS: Also taking care of a lot
of other people.
SUSAN: Yeah.
ADAMUS: Yeah, yeah, yeah. Thatâs a
tough one, taking care of a lot of others. Itâs called delayed enlightenment. âIâll
wait until I got everybody else taken care of.â Well, all youâre going to do is
attract more needy people in your life with that kind of perception. And youâre
going to be taking care of a lot of folks and really delaying, procrastinating
or whatever, your own freedom. And ultimately thatâs what enlightenment is â freedom.
I refer to the higher self or the golden angel or whatever; itâs really just
the Free Self, and the human as kind of the little self, the trapped self. And
the funny thing is you can be either one just by taking a deep breath and
choosing.
But most people wonât. They wonât
take a deep breath. Theyâll think about it. Theyâll think, and then theyâll
want to consider, âWell, letâs see. My little human self, my Free Sel- âŠâ Theyâll
get into this mental quagmire and theyâll never do it. Theyâll think they did.
Iâve had people that have come to
some of our Shaumbra gatherings in this lifetime that in previous lifetimes
thought they made a choice. And then theyâre angry with me because they say, âWell,
it didnât happen. It didnât work.â And â another chapter in my Memoirs of
a Master â but, well, you actually never made a choice.
âOh,â they say, âYes they did. I
made a choice. I made a choice for abundance.â Itâs like, no. You thought about
abundance and you maybe dreamt a little bit of abundance. But your perception
was that everybody else had the money and you didnât, and you werenât free and
they were taking advantage of you. So you never really made a choice. You
thought about it, and you kind of thought how nice it would be, but then you walked
out the door of the Mystery School, of the class, whatever it was, and went
back to your old ways.
So freedom. It comes with making
that choice.
SUSAN: Mm hmm.
ADAMUS: Yeah.
SUSAN: Yeah.
ADAMUS: So Iâm glad youâve ⊠itâs
a hard thing letting other people go. Truly hard and I truly understand. Having
them take responsibility for their own lives. And youâve been â you, all of you
â have been so programmed into having to take care of others and of course look
out for everyone else first. Itâs a very, very old but strong dynamic on this
planet. And thereâs a feeling of guilt when it says, âNo. Take care of you. Spend
the money on you. Take the time for you. Love you.â And then thereâs this
immediate thought that comes in, âYeah, Iâll do that a little bit more than
Iâve been doing.â Itâs like, no, you do it fully or forget about it, because
otherwise youâre going to be miserable. Youâre going to be trying to take care
of others. Youâre going to be trying to take care of yourself and failing at both.
Do it all out. Thank you.
SUSAN: Yeah. And now Iâm ⊠a lot
of new things are starting to open up for me since Iâve made that choice and
Iâve left my old life. New passion is bubbling up inside of me and new opportunities,
new doors opening, abundance. You know, I ⊠you know, Iâve got it made.
ADAMUS: And then the thought is âWhy
didnât I do it this sooner?â
SUSAN: Mm hmm.
ADAMUS: âWhy didnât I?â Yeah. And
the tough one is, the other part of that is that you start doing it and the abundance
comes in and the opportunities and everything else. But it can be a little lonely,
because most of the people that you associated with are still in that other
dimension, that other consciousness. Itâs a little lonely, but thatâs changing
as more and more people are calling themselves on their makyo and understanding
when itâs real distraction and finally just allowing their freedom. Absolutely.
Freedom is still the biggest
issue facing this planet. Biggest issue, and people talk about the word
freedom, but very few really understand what it is. They think freedom is the
ability to shop at one store versus another or have this kind of job or that
kind of job. Thatâs not freedom. Thatâs not freedom. Freedom is loving you,
taking responsibility for you and just allowing. Yeah. Good. One more.
What do you wish you had discovered
this year but you hadnât?
KATHLEEN: (pausing) I discovered
my completion grounded right here, loving myself completely and enabling my own
self to shine.
ADAMUS: Good. What didnât you discover?
KATHLEEN: So I donât âŠ
ADAMUS: What do you wish you âŠ
KATHLEEN: A tantra partner.
ADAMUS: Tantra. Oh, thatâs good.
Yeah, tantra partner.
KATHLEEN: Somebody to share with energetically.
ADAMUS: Yeah. Any volunteers?
(some chuckles) Theyâre all too shy. (Adamus chuckles) No thatâs actually very,
very good. You know, this was about discovery and it was ⊠we got into talking
about the body and the biology, to have a partner to share that with â
incredible.
So part of the issue is that I just
addressed over here was the loneliness, a bit of it, because thereâs still not
a lot of beings who are ready. So much of sex is about energy imbalances, Iâm sorry
to say, or inadequacies. But so often itâs not a free sharing. So much guilt
associated with it. So many hang ups.
So, I do have a partner for you
though. I âŠ
KATHLEEN: Where?
ADAMUS: Sheâs holding the microphone.
(Adamus chuckles)
KATHLEEN: I do know that. I own
that, for myself.
ADAMUS: Good.
KATHLEEN: But yeah, to still have
somebody physically present in a close proximity to share with.
ADAMUS: Yes. Might as well.
KATHLEEN: I do totally love me.
ADAMUS: Yes. Itâs so important. So
important. And the breakthrough there, the discovery there is that one can only
truly engage in open free sharing of the physical and spiritual on that level when
one loves themselves openly and freely. Good.
LINDA: So Kathleen is saying that
sheâs single and available. By the way, she is on Facebook with Crimson Circle.
(some chuckles)
ADAMUS: (chuckling) Yeah, somebody
will probably start a Shaumbra tantra. Yes. So thank you.
Letâs take a deep breath as we
move into the real core, the real âŠ
LINDA: Oooh.
ADAMUS: Linda thought we were
done. No, no, no. Weâre just getting warmed up. Letâs get into the real core of
what weâre here for today.
Kaiko
This was a Discovery Series and a
lot of you discovered different things, a lot of it still mental. Itâs still
floating around up here â âI Am, I Existâ â but you havenât felt it. You
havenât really experienced it to the point that it would be like making love to
yourself. It would be like a mass physical, spiritual and mental orgasm. And if
you didnât discover that this year, well, youâve got about 36 minutes left to
do it.
Part of the issue, challenge
perhaps, is mediocrity, complacency, thinking about enlightenment rather than
being in the passion of it. There is a word that Iâm going to be putting in the
Shaumbra dictionary, a word that may sound a little familiar. The word is Kaiko,
also spelled or pronounced Kaiho (ka-ho). But I prefer Kaiko because somebodyâs
going to take the word Kaiho and make fun of it and turn it into something.
Yeah, you. (Lindaâs laughing and audience laughter) I donât have to be psychic
to know shortly after sheâs says, âDoesnât that sound a lot like a-hole?â (more
laughter) So just for you I had to create a new word, Kaiko.
LINDA: Okay-ho. Okay-ho. (she
giggles)
ADAMUS: Kaiko. Kaiko is passion. Kaiko
is deep and meaningful. Kaiko is almost explosive. And what so many of you
didnât discover this year, in spite of all the wonderful things you might, is Kaiko.
Kaiko is that passion that is within
you, but you cemented it over. Youâve sealed it up. You put steel doors on it.
Youâve hidden it. Youâve suppressed it. You put it down and then you thought too
much so that it seemed to vanish.
Kaiko is that deep underlying, that
passion that goes so very deep that youâre afraid to let out. (speaking very
passionately) Kaiko â deep inner truth. Itâs a lion thatâs roaring, but youâve
learned how to suppress it. You learned how to put it down, turn it into a
kitty cat at best. And then say that youâre spiritual, say that you want
enlightenment, when all the time, because youâve suppressed Kaiko, you end up
focusing on things like abundance and partners and your damn health and
everything else.
You have hidden this Kaiko, this
deep feeling, because if you hadnât, you wouldnât be sitting here. Youâd be out
dancing in the parking lot while the rest of everybody sat in here. You would
have so much fire and passion and enthusiasm that you couldnât contain it,
hardly contain it in that body. The Kaiko would drive those demons out of your
mind, those aspects way from you; that deep passion. But instead youâve settled
for complacency, mediocrity in enlightenment.
âWeâll take a few steps each month
along the way. Weâll learn a little bit more. Weâll discover a little bit more,â
and I say hell no. Itâs about letting that passion out, letting it come forth.
There shouldnât be anything in
your life thatâs more important than your freedom and your enlightenment. Not
your job, not your family, not your children, not your health, not your status,
not any awards on your chest. Nothing
is more important, to the point where I say itâs like I used to literally take
students at some of the Mystery Schools, grab them by their hair, which I wonât
do right here, grab them by their hair and yank them down, putting their head
underwater until they were about to have the last breath in this lifetime. Then
Iâd pull their head up from the water ⊠you used to be able to do this before
lawyers. (laughter) Iâd pull their head up from the water and Iâd say, âWhat
was that like to want that breath so desperately, to go beyond the mind trying
to figure out what was going on and what lesson I was trying to teach. What was
it like that desperation, that determination for a breath? Thatâs the only
thing that mattered.â And they would say, âYes, thatâs all that mattered. I
could think of nothing else. Only to breathe so that I may live.â And I said,
âNow, youâre beginning, at the very beginning of understanding Kaiko.â That
passion, that roaring passion thatâs so deep within each and every one of you,
but youâve somehow managed to hide it.
I have to give you credit for
hiding it so well. Something that is that encompassing, that is that big and
that roaring. I give you credit for somehow managing to suppress it. But you
know what? Itâs still there. Itâs still there. And thatâs what you should have discovered
this year. That roaring, screaming passion for your own freedom, because God
only knows how long itâs been since youâve had freedom. How long itâs been
since you were happy with yourself, content with yourself. How long itâs been
since everything just happened in your life with synchronicity, with ease and
with grace. But yet you go along month after month, year after year and
lifetime after lifetime in a form of spiritual complacency.
I often wonder if that complacency,
that mediocrity with yourself, is worse than no consciousness whatsoever. I
wonder sometimes if itâs better not to stay asleep consciously until youâre
actually truly ready to wake up, because what steps could be more miserable
than little ones into enlightenment.
Those little steps are the ones
that hurt, that are painful, that cause all these emotions and feelings and
confusion. That mediocrity, that putting up for something less than full
freedom and enlightenment is whatâs making the path and the journey so difficult.
None of you have to tolerate that.
Thereâs nobody controlling you. And if you think there is, take a look at your perspective.
Thereâs no one stopping you from enlightenment. Thereâs no one holding you
back. Not even mass consciousness, not at all. Itâs complacency. Itâs
willingness to just plod along.
My dear friends, it hurts. Itâs
painful. Itâs painful for me to watch. Itâs painful for me to have to come up
with new antics every month to try to distract you, to try to get something going.
Kaiko is a passion that will have nothing else other than its own fulfillment.
I ask you to take a good deep
breath and feel into that. Let it come forth.
(pause)
Well, that was pretty miserable.
(a few chuckles) Letâs try that again.
Kaiko or Kaiho means deep longing â
deep longing, soulful longing â a longing so deep and so strong. Itâs desire
and passion. Itâs not the greed of human nature. Itâs not simply wanting a better
life. Itâs wanting this freedom or not to live at all. Not to live.
And how many of you have been so
bold and courageous to say, âI do not care about living another moment if itâs not
in freedom. I donât care if I die.â And you shouldnât. You shouldnât. The freedom
should be more important than all of these rules and regulations and complacencies
and thinking and what if. âI would rather die in this moment than live another
moment in limitation.â Thatâs how it should be, but none of you that I can see are
there yet. You think about it. You think youâve
made a decision and a choice about enlightenment and freedom, and my dear
friends, it is so thin. It is so without passion. It is so into thoughts and
thinking, into pondering things and into plodding, into compromising, into complacency.
It is much easier for me to look
beyond the deeds of humans who are not awake, who havenât had at least a taste
of Spirit and of freedom. Much easier for me to overlook their imbalances,
their weaknesses than it is for me to look in the eyes of some of you who know
better, who have been sitting in these classes for ages and ages, who call yourselves
teachers, who think youâre spiritual, but yet whereâs the Kaiko? Where the deep
roaring fire from within where nothing else matters? Nothing. And itâs only
when you get to that, will you understand enlightenment and freedom.
Other than that itâs a game. Itâs
a game that you can play for a long time. Thinking that youâve made a choice,
thinking that youâve made some sort of discovery, when indeed, youâve just dug
yourself a deeper hole. Youâve just glossed over, painted over, shellacked over
this true, true inner passion called Kaiko. Nothing matters other than that.
Not family, not life itself, not health. Nothing. That is when you start to get
real with yourself.
Thatâs where we donât hear a lot
of makyo in this room. Thatâs when thereâs not a lot of words without ⊠do you
feel sometimes the words without feeling? The words without meaning? Like
mimicking or parroting, saying something because, well, you know, you think
itâs the right thing to say.
With Kaiko, if I challenge you,
youâd get back up and youâd say, âFuck you Adamus,â and I would feel it, and
then I would stop pestering you. With true Kaiko, you would be dancing. You
would be shining. You would be shining. You would be roaring. You would be up
here right in front of me saying, âAdamus, letâs move forward. Iâm tired of all
this talk. Iâm tired âŠâ
LINDA: Adamus! Letâs move forward!
(audience cheering and applause)
ADAMUS: Thank you! Thank you!
Freedom. (he says blandly, then chuckles)
Freedom. (blandly again) No itâs FREEDOM!
Like THAT!!!! (audience yells âFreedom!â)
I hear that now and I hear your
big words, but when are you really going to mean it? I hear, âOh yeah, freedom.
Fuck you, Adamus.â But when are you really going to say it? And when are you
going to say it to yourself? Ah, itâs one thing to tell me to fuck off, but to
tell yourself. (a few chuckles) To tell yourself âŠ
KERRI: I did.
ADAMUS: ⊠with passion. Kind of,
not really.
KERRI: No, really.
ADAMUS: No, kind of not so much.
KERRI: No really!
ADAMUS: It was suppressed. It was
hidden. It was, it was âŠ
KERRI: Fuck you! I did say it!
Okay! I said it.
ADAMUS: Thatâs that little girl
screaming at me. I want to hear you
scream at me.
KERRI: What do you want me to say
now? (Adamus sighs) Shut the fuck up already!
ADAMUS: I like that. I like that!
And didnât it feel good?
KERRI: It feels great. I love to
say that. S.T.F.U. (Adamus chuckles) I really like to say that when Iâm
drinking and smoking at the same time. Thatâs living.
ADAMUS: Okay, somebody get her a
beer and a cigar. (laughter) Up here. (he calls her to the stage)
KERRI: Oh!
ADAMUS: Come on. Come on. Come on!
(someone shouts âWoo!â and applauds)
KERRI: You really, like âŠ
ADAMUS: Yeah. Okay. So now â Kaiko.
KERRI: Kaikoooo!! Kaikoooo!! Itâs got
to be like karate chop. Kaikooo!
ADAMUS: It kind of is.
KERRI: I saw me doing that like
haiyahhh!!!! Chakaaa!
ADAMUS: Yeah. Yeah. Go ahead. Just
really âŠ
KERRI: I just did it.
ADAMUS: No, really do it.
KERRI: (she kicks up her leg) Kaikooo!
Kaikooo! Haiyah! (some laughter and applause)
ADAMUS: There was some passion in
there.
KERRI: I have been missing that. I
know Iâve been missing that.
ADAMUS: I know!
KERRI: Iâm like, where the ⊠is
that at?
ADAMUS: Could I be âŠ
KERRI: Itâs like this little tiny flame.
ADAMUS: Could I be honest with you
again here?
KERRI: Oh god, yeah.
ADAMUS: In a way, youâre kind of
like a ⊠Iâm going to step off this stage so you donât kick me. (some chuckles)
In a way, youâre kind of like the poster child for âŠ
KERRI: Oh.
ADAMUS: No, for âŠ
KERRI: Being totally dysfunctionally
fucked up? Or ⊠(some chuckles)
ADAMUS: Geez. I wasnât going to
say that, but now that I think about it. (more laughter)
KERRI: I accept it!
ADAMUS: Well yeah! Thatâs it! Kind
of the poster child for one who has had a lot of accomplishments in the past â
past lives â even some in this lifetime; a poster child for one who deludes themselves.
Deludes themselves in terms of like spreading yourself too thin and thereâs no
substance. Thereâs no depth. You have tremendous capability. You have tremendous
ability to focus.
Focus is one of the angelic senses.
She can be the poster child for focus. But what does she do? Unfocuses, dilutes,
spills all over. So thereâs no focus.
And you âŠ
KERRI: (speaking to someone in the
audience) You wish. Youâre glad itâs me, arenât you? I see it on your face.
Youâre like, âOh shit! Iâm glad itâs her.â
ADAMUS: Yeah, youâre next. Youâre
next. (some chuckles) So you defocus and then you tell yourself you got too
many problems and lifeâs been too tough and you donât know what to do. You tell
yourself all the time âI donât know.â
KERRI: I know. I do.
ADAMUS: And then you hope I didnât
hear. I do. I keep score. Youâre going in my book.
What you lack, my dear, is one
thing â a little passion.
KERRI: Yes! We need a tub. Iâm
ready. Like hold my head! Iâm tired of this shit! I donât want to do this two
more years!
ADAMUS: Weâll just go in the âŠ
KERRI: Get a tub!
ADAMUS: Yeah, thank you. Weâll
just âŠ
KERRI: I donât care about the makeup.
Letâs just throw down.
ADAMUS: Weâll just go in the
ladies âŠ
KERRI: Okay. (Linda and Sandra are
looking for a bucket) Thatâs got mesh. It wonât hold water.
ADAMUS: Weâll go in the ladies
room.
KERRI: Linda is so ready to videotape
that. (laughter)
ADAMUS: Ladies room in the toilet.
KERRI: Not the toilet, Linda! Not
the toilet! (more laughter) I wonât go there.
ADAMUS: We need a remote camera to
follow us in the toilet as I dunk her head.
KERRI: No, not â no, not the toilet.
We should wrestle.
ADAMUS: Now, let me ask you.
KERRI: Huh.
ADAMUS: When I started talking
about Kaiko, could you feel a little something inside of you start to rattle?
KERRI: Yes, yes, yes. I was like I
heard that âKaikooo!â (in a small high voice) really deeply within.
ADAMUS: I didnât say Kaikooo!
(mimicking her)
KERRI: Well, you know, it travels
âŠ
ADAMUS: Kaiko!!
KERRI: Yeah.
ADAMUS: Like that.
KERRI: Really, really.
ADAMUS: Oh! And by the way, it is
not a ⊠itâs actually an old Lemurian term. Itâs not necessarily an Asian term
or Japanese.
KERRI: But it sounds better.
ADAMUS: It is. Do you know where it
comes from? What country of origin?
KERRI: Oh, Romania?
ADAMUS: More recent history.
KERRI: I donât know why. Romania?
ADAMUS: Finnish.
KERRI: Oh.
ADAMUS: Finnish, which ⊠yeah,
yeah. So, so Finnish â deep longing. Theyâre filling the bucket. (laughter;
Lindaâs filling a bucket)
SART: We can only find the toilet!
(laughter)
KERRI: Sheâs like, oh my god ⊠No.
No. Like sheâs really for real going to help me do that.
ADAMUS: Oh sure. Oh sure, sure.
Yes.
KERRI: Now Iâm scared.
ADAMUS: How deep can we go here?
(more chuckles; someone says âItâs pretty deepâ)
KERRI: Like sheâs âŠ
ADAMUS: Are we able to get camera
shot once we do the ⊠(Linda is bringing a bucket of water)
KERRI: Oh my god! You canât ruin
your carpet. Howâs my head going to fit in that?! Have you lost your mind?
LINDA: (showing the bucket to
Adamus) You want more or is that enough?
KERRI: Oh my god! What the hell?!
ADAMUS: You think I could put that
big head in here?! (laughter) No, big as in, you know, like âŠ
KERRI: Itâs all dirty! Are you
crazy? Hell no! The toiletâs better than that. (more chuckles)
ADAMUS: Okay. Come on.
KERRI: You would have to hold â
you would have to wrestle me. It would be fun. (more chuckles)
ADAMUS: Now, you see âŠ
KERRI: But Iâm serious. Weâll get
a big tub.
ADAMUS: Something inside of her is
waking up, and itâs entertainment. Itâs funny, to a degree, to a degree. Could
you imagine drowning in that?
KERRI: Hell no.
ADAMUS: How would they explain
that?
KERRI: I donât know if you could hold
me down. Thatâs part of the challenge.
ADAMUS: Ohh yeah. (Adamus
chuckles)
KERRI: Like that would be fun to
watch. (laughter)
ADAMUS: Ohh yeah!
KERRI: All day long.
ADAMUS: But, but â this is going
to be yet another one of my Master stories â Iâm not going to hold
you down. Iâm going to ask you to do it on your own.
KERRI: Heck no! Oh hell no. Iâm
not doing that. No! Linda, really? On a dirty bucket? Ruin all this?
LINDA: Itâs almost brand new. (laughter)
ADAMUS: Thatâs not so bad. Kuthumi
would tell you in India itâs much worse.
KERRI: Oh yeah. They poo and pee in
the same place they, you know, go to wash.
ADAMUS: Really? Is that perception
or reality?
KERRI: Uh, reality.
ADAMUS: Okay. (Adamus chuckles)
KERRI: And you know it. Okay.
ADAMUS: So, dear Kerri, dear
Shaumbra, dear Shaumbra, that passion.
Now, we touched on it a little bit
here, but the chances are, the probability is that when weâre done with the day
youâre going to walk out that door and light a cigarette and go have a beer. Youâre
going to walk out that door and say, âWell, gee, that was a lot of fun today. I
canât wait for next month.â And then go back to your old ways of doing things.
Go back to mediocrity and complacency and excuses and allowing that little brat
to run your life.
KERRI: You just told me I got past
that. That was so last year now. Iâm like âŠ
ADAMUS: Yeah, but âŠ
KERRI: Discovery Series five
minutes.
ADAMUS: But then after you sat in
the chair for a little while, it came back.
KERRI: Bullshit.
ADAMUS: But no, no. Say bullshit! Like you mean it.
KERRI: Bull shit!!
ADAMUS: Like you mean it. Good.
KERRI: Bullshit.
ADAMUS: Okay, so thank you.
KERRI: That girl is dead.
ADAMUS: Thank you. Yes.
KERRI: No dirty bucket! (some applause)
ADAMUS: Ah. Question. The question
is does that mean youâre jut supposed to tell people off when you feel like it?
(some people say yes, some say no) How many say yes? Just let it fly. Oh! Thank
you. How many raised their hands? Okay. So we donât have enough Adamus Awards,
but you should have brought more. So we have some â everybody raising their hand,
see Linda for an Adamus Award. Yes!
LINDA: Oh, the three of you. Thatâs
exactly how many I have.
ADAMUS: No, no. Thereâs about â
no, no. Thereâs 12, 15, more. (Adamus chuckles as more people raise their hands)
Letâs take a deep breath.
The question is, and itâs a very
good question, âYou mean I should just tell people what Iâm feeling? To fuck
off? To bite me?â In theory, in theory, yes. Otherwise, you have this regulator,
this suppressor that you have on. Otherwise, thereâs no Kaiko. Thereâs a bunch
of excuses, and thereâs a bunch of holding back.
So you can give yourself
permission to say whatever you want to say. Now, that brings up some issues â âOh
my goshâ â because you told yourself a long time ago, âIâll never do that
again. Iâll never speak bad again. Iâm never going to hurt anybody again. Iâm
going to always just try to blend in. Iâm not going to create waves. Iâm not
going to get angry when I get on the phone with some customer service people.
Iâm not going to tell people exactly what I think.â (a few chuckles)
The reality is now â yes, I would
like you to give yourself permission to do that, I would â now, the
reality is youâre just opening yourself up. And actually if you have some anger
⊠you know, every student coming into enlightenment tries to suppress their
anger, but learns just get angry. Just let it out. Now, again right away you
say, âWell, what if I go and kill all these people?â Well, youâre not going to.
Youâre not going to. You have too much consciousness to do that. But you say,
âYes, but Adamus you donât see the thoughts I have in my mind.â Oh yes I do. (some
chuckles) Yeah. Thatâs why Iâm wearing a bulletproof vest. (more laughter)
But itâs negotiation you have with
yourself. âWell, I canât let myself get angryâ and âEnlightened people donât get
angry.â I beg to differ with you. Every Master thatâs come before you goes
through intense anger. Itâs one of the five stages of enlightenment. Anger.
Anger, and then âŠ
CAROL: So, do they beat themselves
up afterwards? No.
ADAMUS: Be themselves up
afterwards?
CAROL: Yeah. After theyâve done their
passion and tell people off.
ADAMUS: The question is do they beat
themselves up afterwards? Do they feel guilty? No! You know why? Because they
donât end up doing it. They free up a lot of energy when they get into Kaiko,
when they say, âI give myself permission to say exactly and to be exactly who I
am. I give myself permission to do that without all these suppressors and
controls on myself, without this whole perception of having to control.â And
then they give themselves freedom and then they laugh. They laugh, because you
realize you have the freedom to do it, to yell at the top of your lungs at the
moon, to tell God to fuck off. You have the permission to do that, and it feels
good just to know you have that. Chances are once you realize that, youâll
probably never have to do it or want to do it. But just to realize.
Start being real. Start being free. Get some Kaiko in your life. No, itâs not a
supplement you take. (laughter) Gawd! I just heard four people listening in on
the Internet, âAh! Iâll write that down. (more laughter) Yeah! Kaiko, made from
natural seafood. Ohh!â No, no, no.
EDITH: Could I ask you a question?
ADAMUS: With a microphone from
Linda you can absolutely ask a question.
EDITH: Why âŠ
ADAMUS: Doesnât it feel good, and
next time donât ask for permission. Just say, âLinda, give me the fucking
microphone.â (laughter)
LINDA: You donât want my answer.
EDITH: You wonât like my question.
Iâm asking you why you think freedom has to be vulgar?
ADAMUS: It doesnât. It doesnât.
And by nature, youâre not. Iâm not. But sometimes you have so much pent up in
you. Donât let me pick on you, because you have a tremendous amount of pent up
suppressed energy. Trying to do the right thing, trying to, as we talked about
last month, trying to keep other people happy, and itâs all crap.
EDITH: No, just alive.
ADAMUS: Vulgar. You know, first of
all, it doesnât mean anything. In Kaiko, you could say fuck eight thousand times
in a row and it doesnât matter. It doesnât matter.
EDITH: It does to me. It hurts my
ears.
ADAMUS: Why?
EDITH: It just hurts my ears. I donât like to hear
it.
ADAMUS: Well fuck! Whatâs more
important, enlightenment or some little things hurting your ears? (some
applause)
EDITH: I like the passion. And
people can be passionate any way they want.
ADAMUS: Controlled passion.
EDITH: No!
ADAMUS: My god! Thatâs what weâre
talking about here! (he wants to hit the backdrop in frustration but stops) Oh.
(laughter) I saw that (to the crew). Gahh! I canât help it! (he dumps the water
of the bucket onto the carpet; some in audience scream) Like that, Edith!!! Like that!!!! (more laughter) Edith,
Edith âŠ
EDITH: Passion can be beautiful
and wonderful. It doesnât have to be âŠ
ADAMUS: Yes, passion can be
beautiful
EDITH: ⊠obscene and obnoxious and
wrecking carpets. It doesnât have to be crap!
ADAMUS: That didnât wreck the carpet.
Edith, Iâm glad youâre getting mad at me. Finally!
My god! To get it out! But it takes me getting mad at you. This is not my
natural state of being to be in your face. (she giggles) But what does it
matter? How much are you going to control this whole coming into enlightenment?
EDITH: Iâm in it. Iâm not worrying
about controlling it. Iâm enjoying it. Itâs wonderful. I know I Am that I Am.
ADAMUS: Yes. Now, back to my
point. I come full circle. I started out the day by saying relax into your
enlightenment. And I said Iâm going to contradict myself later on, because now
Iâm talking about passion. Iâm talking about Kaiko. Iâm talking about that deep
longing.
EDITH: Itâs great. Itâs great!
ADAMUS: Yes. And I come back now
and say once you feel that, that desire thatâs so deep, Edith, thereâs nothing else
that matters. Thereâs no compromising. It doesnât matter how many bad words or buckets
of water or pounds that you gain or years that you put on your age or bad
relationships or lack of money. None
of it matters other than the freedom.
That passion! That feeling. And I
donât care if you have to get angry to discover it. I donât care if you have to
scream and yell. I donât care what it takes, including death, to discover that.
When you come back to that place, that Kaiko, then youâre free. Then you can
truly relax, take a deep breath and come back to that very thing that brought
you on the spiritual path, that knowingness that Iâve talked about before that
occurred a few lifetimes ago, that thing that said, âThereâs got to be more
than what Iâm allowing myself to experience. Thereâs got to be more to life.â
And thatâs led you on a path of exploring
dimensions, exploring alternative methods, exploring a different version of
God. But along the way, it still got diluted and it still lost its passion. And
if thereâs anything that you didnât discover this year was the passion. Iâm not
just talking to you, Iâm talking to everyone.
Who cares about a bucket of
actually not-so-dirty water, it wasnât too bad. Who cares? Do you know what it
would have cost to replace this carpet if it went bad, which itâs not going to?
Itâs like holy water, (laughter) a lot of it. Itâs incidental. Even if it cost a
thousand or five thousand dollars, even if you say, âAdamus, thatâs so
obnoxious that you would pour the water over thisâ â my stage â âover your new
stage, thatâs so obnoxious that you do that.â Sometimes I have to get my own passion going so perhaps I could
ignite yours.
My dear friends, you say youâre
tired of the old ways. Youâre tired of this long twisting, twisted spiritual
path. I say bring up the Kaiko. Bring up that passion, but itâs going to bring
up your issues. And Iâll tell you right now that youâre going to negotiate,
youâre going to compromise, youâre going to say, âOkay, Iâll walk out the door
and have a little bit more passion,â and by tomorrow morning you going to have forgotten
about what weâve talked about today.
EDITH: Oh no.
ADAMUS: Yes!
EDITH: No.
ADAMUS: Yes. Patterns. Patterns and
probabilities. Patterns.
EDITH: No.
ADAMUS: No. Tell me then, what is
going to change that, Edith?
EDITH: Why would I forget about
it? I listen to it every night when I go to sleep. I never forget it.
ADAMUS: Yes. Good. You never
forget any of it?
EDITH: Not usually.
ADAMUS: Not usually. And you donât
compromise it?
EDITH: Iâd have to have you define
what you mean by compromising it. I âŠ
ADAMUS: Dilute it. Water it down. Yeah.
Itâs like âŠ
EDITH: Weâre on this path. Weâve
been on it a long time. We love it. We chose it. We âŠ
ADAMUS: What am I Moses?
EDITH: We love ourselves.
(laughter) Yes, youâre Moses. We love ourselves. I mean âŠ
ADAMUS: And itâs been more ⊠you
know, Moses and the Jews, only 40 years. Weâve been doing this for lifetimes.
EDITH: I know that.
ADAMUS: Letâs stop wandering in
the desert. Itâs time to get on with it.
EDITH: Iâm not. I know Iâm God
also and I love myself. So hush up.
ADAMUS: (chuckles) Good. Youâre
getting there. That was about a two on a scale of 100. Itâs like âShut up Adamus!â Good. And then we can
laugh. And then we can relax into the enlightenment.
My dear friends, I am wanting you
to break through, because I can feel you want to break through. Thereâs such a
longing to break through, such a longing for realization and simplicity. But
then you run in circles. You think about it. You dilute it. You water it down.
You compromise it. Then you get afraid of things like are you going to get
older? Are you going to die? Are you going to be poor? It doesnât matter! It doesnât matter. And let me play it the other
way.
Youâre going to lose everything on
the way to enlightenment. And you thought you lost a lot. Youâre going to lose everything unless you take a deep breath
and you let this raging fire thatâs within you come forth. You donât have to
worry about chopping off peopleâs heads. Youâre not going to do that. But give
yourself permission that you can if you want to. (Adamus chuckles and some
audience laughter) I mean that metaphorically. In other words, the fact that if
somebody is giving you crap, stop being some nice airy fairy spiritual new age
makyo person. Say, âFuck you! Iâm a Master. I want better service, now!â (audience applause) Instead of âOh!
Iâm going to spread some light on you.â Itâs like âShut up!â (more chuckles)
You know, there are a lot of
people that are content with just dabbling, dabbling, dabbling into
spirituality. Youâre not here for that. Youâre not. Iâve weeded out those
people a long time ago. (Adamus chuckles) Youâre not. Youâre here for it now. But
when I took a look at the Discovery Series â we covered a lot of things â we
did a lot of wonderful things â I said, âAdamus âŠâ Get that dirty pail out of
here, off my stage. (some giggles) I said, âAdamus,â I said to myself, âAdamus,
what did we miss? What didnât we do? Thereâs something âŠâ You ever have that?
You just know thereâs something, but you donât know what it is? Well, I knew
what it was.
So I said, âItâs the passion. I
just donât feel a passion. I donât feel that fire coming up. I know itâs there.
I donât feel it coming up.â
Now, Iâve been ranting and raving
for the last 28 and a half minutes about Kaiko to demonstrate a little bit, because
if I had just said, okay, thereâs a nice term called Kaiko, mmmmmm. (a few
chuckles) I want you to understand. I want you to feel that within yourself. Itâs there. You donât have to go real
far to look for it. You just have to give yourself permission to let that come
up.
Forget about if youâre going to
get angry. It doesnât matter. So what if you get angry. Forget about if you
lose everything. So what. Thatâs Kaiko. So what if you lose everything. A few
of you might actually be ready for that. And you know what? You donât have to.
You just have to be willing to. It doesnât mean youâre going to. You just have
to be willing to.
When that passion comes up, that
will free you.
Kaiko Merabh
So Iâm going to ask you to feel
into it. Weâre going to do a little merabh. Weâre going to play some music for fourteen
and a half minutes and Iâm not going to hardly talk at all. So John can
actually put the music up a little louder. This is not typical merabh music. In
other words, itâs not just twinkly little music. (someone gets up) Iâm sorry,
the bathrooms are closed. No, no, no. Please sit down, because thatâs Kaiko.
You have to pee so bad. So bad, yes.
HEATHER: Itâs raining out!
ADAMUS: So, so, just â but come
back and sit down. Youâre going to miss this amazing merabh. Whatâs more important?
HEATHER: Iâll come back!
ADAMUS: Whatâs more important, dry
pants or your enlightenment? (laughter)
Take a good deep breath, and letâs
bring the house light all the way down. Take a good deep breath.
So the music that I picked is not
typical merabh music, but also it doesnât have to be loud and driving. Itâs got
a little bit of sensuality to it.
(music begins; âLiquid Grooveâ
from PremiumBeat.com)
Iâm going to ask you to feel into
this fire, the fire of Kaiko. Deep within. Itâs there.
Itâs that thing that says, âOnly
the freedom, nothing else matter.â No excuses. No compromises. No holding back.
Kaiko.
(long pause)
You donât have to get angry to let
this Kaiko come through. Sometimes it helps. You just have to be real.
Feeling. Aware.
As the music plays, I want you to
just feel for a moment how much youâve covered this up. This fire. This
passion. And then instead of just thinking about it, I ask you to make a
choice, a decision, a clear, focused decision.
Are you ready to let this deep
inner longing, this Kaiko, the desire for freedom, come into your life?
And then let yourself feel it.
(long pause)
Kaiko. Itâs a burning fire within,
a burning deep passion within, a longing, an insatiable thirst within.
Itâs a passion.
But it can be a fire that doesnât
burn, a fire that doesnât destroy; a fire of transmutation out of complacency
into passion; a fire that moves the energy thatâs been stuck for so very long;
a fire that burns through the mind, but without burning up the mind; a fire that
opens things that have been closed for a long time; cool fire when needed to be
cool, a hot fire when it needs to be hot.
Kaiko can be passion. It can feel
like anger at times. But itâs focus. Itâs real.
Kaiko at times can seem like a raging
storm, but in reality itâs also a gentle light rain shower.
Kaiko can seem like there is so
much passion, but without the need for power; so much energy, so much desire,
but no greed. Simply that desire to live and to feel and to be free in doing so.
How easy it is for one who walks
the spiritual path to get filled with complacency.
How easy it is for one on the way
to enlightenment to distract themselves, dilute themselves, deceive themselves,
forget that fire thatâs deep within, that longing. Longing, what some of you
would call the longing to go back Home, but itâs really the longing to be Home â to be your Home.
How easy it is to get covered over
by all of the rules and the controls and the perceptions of life.
How easy it is to negotiate yourself
away from enlightenment.
The Masters, the few Masters who
have come before you have all gone through this experience, thinking,
believing, perceiving that they were on the path, and, indeed, to a degree they
were. But along the way they turned that beautiful spiritual path into a very
human road. All the time thinking they were still traveling a spiritual path
until something so drastic, so enormous had to come into their life.
And it wasnât an outside hand or
being or entity that came in and totally shook their life up. It was their own Kaiko,
that deep inner desire. It had to rip them â rip them away from their complacency,
away from their delusions, away from their, you could say, a laziness.
That Kaiko, Kaiko doesnât care.
Doesnât care whether youâre still incarnate in a physical body. It doesnât care
how much money or how many problems you have. It doesnât care, all the whinings
and the rantings of the human.
Kaiko is that passion â passion of
the soul to feel and experience itself. Not to be interfered with by that
little human brat. Not to be controlled by these aspects that know not what
they truly want.
Kaiko is a fire that is eternal.
Youâve done a grand job in suppressing it, ignoring it, turning your back from
it, but itâs still there.
Just as much as it can be that
very hot flame, very chaotic, it can also be the cool flame. It can also be its
own gentleness. It can also be its own gift.
Your Kaiko is asking you right now,
this deep longing within is asking if youâre ready to move forward now, ready
to move forward even beyond reality and perceptions, ready to move into your
deep truth.
Take a moment to feel.
Itâs there. Are you ready to do
whatever, whatever it takes?
(long pause till music ends)
Itâs the hot flame or the cool
flame â bring the house lights up â hot flame or the cool flame.
It doesnât care. Whatever it takes. Itâs just a matter of you making a choice.
You making a choice. Youâre ready to bring back this passion. Ready to open it
up.
If you make your choice, thatâs
it. But please, do make a choice. Donât just think about it. We donât need to
come back next lifetime and be doing this again.
And no matter what choice you
make, either yes you are ready or no youâre not, donât worry about it because,
well, all is well in all of creation.
Thank you. Thank you. (audience applause)