Less than two weeks from this writing, Tobias will have
already given his last channel, spoken his last “And
so it is,” and reminded us one last time that
we are never alone. This dear angel has been with us
through thick and thin, whispering in our ear in the
stillness of night, joining in when we belt out a song
in the shower, laughing with us at our silliness, wrapping
his love around us when we just can’t take it
any more. And now he’s taking off his wings to
join us here.
can almost remember the conversations between us all
when he agreed to “stay behind” and hold
the connection to the memories of our journey. He has
been the story keeper, the one who reminds us where
we’ve been so we can remember where we’re
it’s interesting for me to remember one of the
first things Tobias told me during a Q&A several
years ago: “It’s time to let go of your
story.” That hit me deep, because until then a
huge part of my waking up had been remembering
my story – who I’ve been, who I’ve
loved, where I’ve walked and what I’ve done.
It was an amazing and beautiful thing to remember, to
recognize old friends and realize that my life does
have more purpose than just to survive. My stories were
beautiful and I loved them, which, as Tobias said, is
why I lived them. And yet it was time to let them go
in order to keep growing and creating.
has told us many times that the future is the past healed,
and to heal the past is simply to accept it completely
and let it go. So, like the good Shaumbra that we are,
we do our best to accept the “mistakes”
we’ve made and the hurts we’ve felt. But
you know, it can actually be more difficult
to accept and release the good times –
the joys, the creations, the loves and the stories –
and hanging onto the good memories can hold us back
as much as running away from the bad ones.
Shaumbra, we are faced with a really big story to let
go of, and it’s not just Tobias. There are amazing
connections between us all, intense bonds we have formed
over eons of time, cemented by the common purpose we
have shared. Through the ages we have been
the ones searching for the answer to the energy gridlock
one of us said goodbye to our own angelic families and
agreed to take on a most amazing and far-reaching responsibility
– that of finding the solution to keep us all
from going out of existence – and we have taken
our job very seriously. Through all the many
lifetimes, whether dark and difficult or prominent and
successful, we have always had an underlying drive to
move forward, keep going, keep searching. Somehow we
managed to keep that flame alive, always knowing there
was something important we were looking for.
Shaumbra, in this lifetime, this year, in this moment,
that something we’ve been searching for since
forever has finally been found. Our search for the answer
to two fundamental questions – “Who am I?”
and “How can I get home?” – has driven
us for eons of time, and every choice we’ve ever
made, every experience we’ve ever had has been
part of the answer. This search has been the undercurrent
of everything we’ve ever done.
comes the question – are you ready to let it go?
you ready to have found what you were looking for all
search has been your identity; are you ready to be without
search has been your reason to keep going; what will
happen if you let it go?
search has brought Shaumbra together once again; are
you ready to let us go?
are letting go of far more than Tobias this year. He
is leaving/returning because we don’t need him
any longer. And after eons of being in service to humanity
and All That Is, we aren’t needed any longer either.
We’ve done it, the mission was a success –
and yet that mission is what has held us together. It’s
what has kept us coming together, reconnecting over
the ages, and finally surging back to Earth one more
will you do without this purpose that you’ve carried
for so long?
will you be now, completely sovereign and on your own?
is a lot to do now, if you want to. But within the heart
of Shaumbra is a deep sense of completion.
a way, we are back in the Void. Leaving the familiarity
of family and Home again, this time far wiser
and full of compassion and understanding, but once again
the future is unwritten and unknown. We have no rules,
no guidelines, no great cause to live for. It’s
no wonder that Tobias just gave an incredible retelling
of our story (Journey of the Angels), so that we could
remember and understand our journey, because in a very
real sense we have come full circle. We are back at
the beginning and this time, instead of trying all kinds
of ways to get back home, we have Home within our hearts.
what’s next Shaumbra? As the “Class of ‘09”
receives its diplomas, are we ready to embody the true
Shaumbra heart, strike out into the void once again,
you can know your answer, but one thing is true: As
we let go of our stories and our past, the future now
is wide open. And it is fully yours.